You have to let it all go. The way he kissed you, the way he smelled, the way he touched your waist and pulled you in. You have to let it go and you have to let him go. Because that’s who he was, not who he is.
He’d loved her. Once upon a time, he’d been crazy about her. He had never been that way with me. Never. But I had loved him. I loved him longer and truer than I had anyone in my whole life and I would probably never love anyone that way again. Which, to be honest, was almost a relief.
What do you do when the one and only person you want to send a text to, or talk to, or see, doesn’t feel the same way about you? They always have someone else they’d rather talk to or spend time with but they are that person to you. My heart hurts…
Remember when you asked what my new year resolution was and I had told you it was to be nice to people. Well, that and to let you go were my resolutions. Letting someone go is easy, but letting someone go forever is not.
I didnt know who else to talk to so i guess venting here will have to do.
Its never easy letting someone down. Someone that loves you.
Im not giving up on you im giving you up. My new found freedom has made me happier than anything has in a long time. I think we both had the right intentions just werent right for each other as much as we were trying to make it so.
I just hope the next girl that you open your heart to, (which im sure wont happen soon because you’ll resent all women for my actions) treats you like gold, that you treat her that way in return. That when she cries you’ll comfort her in the way i never was. That when she looks into your eyes you will look back with the same burning desire she feels for you. That she giggles at that stupid sarcasm no one can stay angry at. That she gets butterflies everytime you call her some ridiculous pet name that you made up in your head. That you remember her birthday, and remember her nervous habits like you never had with mine.
I just hope that the next girl that holds your heart in her hands deserves you, and you her.
That you find a soulmate, and marry her and have children, two little boys like you always wanted, and that you grow old together and live fully together.
I know you hate me right now, and somewhere in my heart i will always love you. Im sorry i broke all the late night promises of forever. Im sorry that that i lied when i said id never move on.
There will always be some place in my heart for you, and im sure ill have dreams that will eventually fade. But i will always love you. I know you probably hate me right now.
Its never easy letting your first love go.
One day you will understand and thank me.
It’s no wonder you chose her. She’s not option material, like me. I respect it. You deserve each other. She’s a smart girl, she won’t let you pass her by. But you can’t let her pass you by first. Now stop being a pussy and go get her.