well. let’s start with my soultwin, @hamilbye.
nat’s fics were some of the first i read on here and literally “running out of time” murdered me. also, i believe “unexpected” was the very first lin fic i ever read and it got me hooked!! and “midnights” is so unbelievably cute, i adore it. PLUS nat is just so so amazingly adorable and my fave person ever and i love her sm :’)
i can’t talk about favorite fic writers without mentioning @manuelmiranduh because MY GOD, so many lin fics, too little time. i’ve somehow read all of them and i somehow love every one more than the last and it’s so incredibly amazing how good of a writer sab is. like goals all around!!!!
wow now i can talk about @alexanderhamllton!! another ultimate fave, i can’t believe ren follows me. let’s break this down. “jersey” was so cute, i still think about it. “stuck together” was like the SECOND lin fic i ever read and absolutely changed my life. “annotations” was so !!!!! wow, i don’t believe how amazing. ren’s work is overall just so mind-blowingly good!!! totally recommend, 10/10.
and i could never forget @musicalmiranda
and how much TMM is KILLING ME. totally read that series, it’s so worth the time and rebekah is such a sweet human being with phenomenal writing talents!!
other people i’d totally recommend are @fragmentofmymind & @protecting-my-legacy!!! i really have no kind words left to describe both of them but they’re both incredibly kind to me and helped me get started with my writing.
so those are really the people i started out with, the people who inspired me to write fanfiction, and definitely my favorite people in this fandom. check all of them out because they’re so worth it and all of them are so kind and sweet and willing to help anyone.
. OKAY, so I have a theory. Having rewatched all of the Sanvers scenes from the last episode, I can only conclude one thing which is that Maggie was not aware of how Alex actually felt about her. Beginning of the episode she walks up to her as if nothings wrong, she doesn’t quite seem to understand why Kara is clearly ready to murder her, and she opens up very fresh wounds with Alex. Maggie isn’t dumb. She knows, I presume what it’s like to be rejected, and she’s not callous either so if she’d realized how much she hurt Alex I think she would have let it be a little longer.
Later when they’re talking in the parking garage or whatever, she’s fine until Alex says “Because I was sure of one thing, and that was my feelings for you.” And like right after she says that, Maggie’s whole face changes. It’s then that she realizes that Alex didn’t just have a baby gay crush. It wasn’t just her liking the first gay girl she could find. She genuinely liked her a lot. And when Alex walks away she watches her go and she looks kind of dumbstruck like she’s not quite sure what just happened.
And finally, at the apartment scene she finally seems to get how much she actually hurt Alex because she’s a lot more careful about her words and about what she’s trying to convey. Also after she says that she hopes one day they can be ‘friends’ she literally looks like she swallowed a lemon. She doesn’t want to be friends, and she knows that Alex doesn’t either but she also knows that it’s too soon.
Maggie didn’t know. There’s been a few people who have mentioned that Maggie probably doesn’t think she deserves love or is lovable after the way her last gf broke up with her so that probably translates to Alex. She doesn’t understand at first that a beautiful, smart, wonderful woman like Alex might actually love her.
I was never with the
who defended her rapist husband, and who collaborated with admitted child predator and racist Lena Dunham.
I was never with the
who shut down Black Lives Matter protesters, saying, “Now let’s talk about the REAL issues”, as if the extra-judicial murder of Black people is not a real, important issue.
I was never with the
who boasted of her close friendship with genocidal war criminal Henry Kissinger.
I was never with the White Feminist who called Black men “super predators”.
I was never with the the
who supported building a wall to Mexico long before Donald Trump.
I was never with the
who talked of the white woman’s wage gap of 74 cents to the dollar, never once mentioning how it is much lower for Women of Color.
I was never with the
who spoke of the wage gap and then paid her own foundation’s female executives less than their male counterparts.
I was never with the
who talked big about immigration reform while never once mentioning the rapidly growing population of poor Asian immigrants to the United States.
I was never with the
who said she’d “look into” releasing transcripts of her Wall Street speeches, and then backpedaled, and, instead of leading, became a cowardly follower and said she’d do it “if everyone else does”.
I was never with the White Feminist who wanted a $12 minimum wage instead of $15.
I was never with the White Feminist who exported fracking to countries all across the globe and helped support the gutting of my home.
I was never with the White Feminist who praised Nancy Reagan and celebrated the way her husband allowed tens of thousands of my queer siblings to die from HIV/AIDS.
I was never with the White Feminist who was against gay marriage until 2012.
I was never with the White Feminist who spent all campaign saying “I”, then suddenly switched to Sanders’ “We” four weeks before the election, just like she suddenly started saying “Yes We Will” like Obama’s “Yes We Can” in 2004.
I was never with the White Feminist who used racist attacks against Barack Obama in 2004 by bringing up the Reverend Jeremiah Wright and ACORN.
I was never with the White Feminist who wanted Assata Shakur extradited back to the United States to face false charges.
I was never with the White Feminist who said that the DAPL workers “need to have the right to do their jobs” respected, who never once went to a reservation and spoke with the original inhabitants of this country.
I was never with the White Feminist who expected people like me to shut up, quit complaining, and vote for her party, whose supporters bullied people like me over and over again into voting for her, blaming us for her party’s weakness and selfishness.
I only voted for Hillary Clinton because I was coerced to– because voting for a rapist is worse than voting for a person who collaborates with rapists. I only voted for her because I thought she’d at least keep some semblance of civility because of the demands of her electorate and political expediency, not some sort of innate morality. I was only #WithHer because I had no other choice.
I was never “with” the White Feminists, and they were certainly never “with” me.
White Feminists, you have yourselves to blame for this loss. You’ve done this for generations and now this is what you get.
And the funny thing is, you won’t even suffer the worst consequences of your selfishness and your racism and internalized misogyny and homophobia and ableism. The people you stepped on in your failed attempt to break your White Woman’s Glass Ceiling will.
“Is that what God does? He helps? Tell me, why didn’t God help my innocent friend who died for no reason while the guilty ran free? Okay. Fine. Forget the one offs. How about the countless wars declared in his name? Okay. Fine. Let’s skip the random, meaningless murder for a second, shall we? How about the racist, sexist, phobia soup we’ve all been drowning in because of him? And I’m not just talking about Jesus. I’m talking about all organized religion. Exclusive groups created to manage control. A dealer getting people hooked on the drug of hope. His followers, nothing but addicts who want their hit of bullshit to keep their dopamine of ignorance. Addicts. Afraid to believe the truth. That there’s no order. There’s no power. That all religions are just metastasizing mind worms, meant to divide us so it’s easier to rule us by the charlatans that wanna run us. All we are to them are paying fanboys of their poorly-written sci-fi franchise. If I don’t listen to my imaginary friend, why the fuck should I listen to yours? People think their worship’s some key to happiness. That’s just how he owns you. Even I’m not crazy enough to believe that distortion of reality. So fuck God. He’s not a good enough scapegoat for me.”
about me - 3/? male characters: Elliot Alderson (Mr Robot)
The more I think about it, the more I dislike how Eurus was shown as weak and broken, as a victim of some sorts in the end.
Mycroft did everything right in incarcerating his manic little sister. She was not only capable of murder already at young age but indeed commited one. She obviously was contemplating to kill Sherlock and decided to burn down her family’s home.
In taking advantage of her cleverness he might have saved many lives by preventing these terrorist attacks on England. And I don’t even see where the big deal is of letting Moriarty talk to her.
As we are made to believe in ‘The Empty Hearse’ Sherlock and Mycroft had eventually agreed to give Moriarty sensitive information on Sherlock. And even if this wasn’t the fact (but a hoax explanation to how Sherlock had faked his death for Anderson), we learn that Moriarty had already been interested in Sherlock for a while before he ever knew about Eurus.
To me the only point to argue is wether it was in fact a kindness to tell his parents that Eurus was dead. But I’m not even sure this was him in the first place. Time and Mycroft’s and Eurus’ age rather suggest that Uncle Rudi had quite a lot to say in this matter and made his own decisions.
However the way Eurus was capable to ‘program’ people, Mycroft was even right in keeping their parents away from her.
The worst however was Eurus claiming that she became the way she was because she had had no one.
Oh, really? Neither did Mycroft. But he’d rather revel in his solitude, trying to save those around him, whilst hiding behind the shield of iciness.
can we just talk about the fact that today is sirius’ birthday and 3 days ago was the day his two best friends in the whole wide world got murdered and how he spent his 22nd birthday in Azkaban where he was sent, without trial, for the murder of his brother and the love of his brother’s life and the parents of his godson. sirius black spent his 22nd birthday alone, with no one to love him, because he had lost everyone
“I feel like a dumb college girl that you started fucking because you were bored with your wife and I made it extremely convenient for you. You could go home to Amy and eat dinner with her and play around in your little bar that you bought with her money, then you could meet me at your dying dad’s house and jack off on my tits because, poor you, your mean wife would never let you do that.” […] “Fuck you. You think I’m some dumb kid, some pathetic student you can manage? I stick by you through all this, this talk about how you might be a murderer, and as soon as it’s a little tough for you? No, no. You don’t get to talk about conscience and decency and guilt and feel like you’re doing the right thing. Do you understand me? Because you are a c h e a t i n g , c o w a r d l y , s e l f i s h s h i t .”
Gone Girl (2014). Film by David Fincher, novel and screenplay by Gillian Flynn.
I have to say, for a woman in a supposed redemption arc, Mary just got creepier and creepier throughout T6T. She had no problem with Ajay killing people trying to find her; no problem drugging Sherlock and running off again, knowing how abandoned John would feel, knowing John and Sherlock could help; no problem sweet-talking and then murdering a kind flight attendant just to get a costume; no problem responding to Ajay’s tale of torture and grief and betrayal with a blunt, “You know I’ll kill you,” instead of trying to talk him down. She named their baby her old name without telling John. Got a false passport while John was taking care of Sherlock, after she shot him. Won’t let John talk to her honestly about his grief and confusion over her lies, his feelings of abandonment. Keeps telling him he’s perfect and she depends on him to stay perfect while he tries to tell her he feels so alone and he’s hurting and broken. Uses a DVD labeled “Miss Me?” to get Sherlock’s attention instead of just writing his name on it, and closes it by telling him to go to hell. I finished the episode feeling less trust in her than I ever have, and that’s saying something.
Is that what God does? He helps? Tell me, why didn’t God help my innocent friend who died for no reason while the guilty ran free? Okay. Fine. Forget the one offs. How about the countless wars declared in his name? Okay. Fine. Let’s skip the random, meaningless murder for a second, shall we? How about the racist, sexist, phobia soup we’ve all been drowning in because of him? And I’m not just talking about Jesus. I’m talking about all organized religion. Exclusive groups created to manage control. A dealer getting people hooked on the drug of hope. His followers, nothing but addicts who want their hit of bullshit to keep their dopamine of ignorance. Addicts! Afraid to believe the truth. That there’s no order. There’s no power. That all religions are just metastasizing mind worms, meant to divide us so it’s easier to rule us by the charlatans that wanna run us. All we are to them are paying fanboys of their poorly-written sci-fi franchise.
“Is that what God does? He helps? Tell me, why didn’t God help my innocent friend who died for no reason while the guilty ran free? Okay. Fine. Forget the one offs. How about the countless wars declared in his name? Okay. Fine. Let’s skip the random, meaningless murder for a second, shall we? How about the racist, sexist, phobia soup we’ve all been drowning in because of him? And I’m not just talking about Jesus. I’m talking about all organized religion. Exclusive groups created to manage control. A dealer getting people hooked on the drug of hope. His followers, nothing but addicts who want their hit of bullshit to keep their dopamine of ignorance. Addicts. Afraid to believe the truth. That there’s no order. There’s no power. That all religions are just metastasizing mind worms, meant to divide us so it’s easier to rule us by the charlatans that wanna run us. All we are to them are paying fanboys of their poorly-written sci-fi franchise. If I don’t listen to my imaginary friend, why the fuck should I listen to yours? People think their worship’s some key to happiness. That’s just how he owns you. Even I’m not crazy enough to believe that distortion of reality. So fuck God. He’s not a good enough scapegoat for me.“
Tell me, why didn’t God help my innocent friend who died for no reason while the guilty ran free? Okay. Fine. Forget the one offs. How about the countless wars declared in his name? Okay. Fine. Let’s skip the random, meaningless murder for a second, shall we? How about the racist, sexist, phobia soup we’ve all been drowning in because of him? And I’m not just talking about Jesus. I’m talking about all organized religion. Exclusive groups created to manage control. A dealer getting people hooked on the drug of hope. His followers, nothing but addicts who want their hit of bullshit to keep their dopamine of ignorance. Addicts. Afraid to believe the truth. That there’s no order. There’s no power. That all religions are just metastasizing mind worms, meant to divide us so it’s easier to rule us by the charlatans that wanna run us. All we are to them are paying fanboys of their poorly-written sci-fi franchise. If I don’t listen to my imaginary friend, why the fuck should I listen to yours? People think their worship’s some key to happiness. That’s just how he owns you. Even I’m not crazy enough to believe that distortion of reality. So fuck God. He’s not a good enough scapegoat for me.
True School Trip Bus Experiences: a large group of girls singing Let It Go on the top of their lungs while some boy is vocally shittyfluting it in the background, another one yelling at them to "kill yourself, I wanna sleep!". Two boys banging their heads on the backs of seats. A smaller group has been discussing murder for at least half an hour. Boy next to me talks about how his friend had 33 volleyball playing girlfriends while getting his short hair braided. Disco polo plays loudly.
Since everyone else gets to wax poetic about 0.0005 seconds of a Steve/Bucky gif
THEN LETS FUCKING TALK FOR EIGHT YEARS ABOUT THIS ONE GIF
Not about Sam, but about Steve.
LOOK HOW RELAXED HE IS IN SAM’S HOUSE. He’s just chilling there, with Sam’s OJ, that Sam definitely drinks straight from the bottle btw) He’s leaned so far back into his chair that he has to actively sit up.
This is a man who just got chased around and nearly murdered by Nazis on several occasions, but he feels so safe and secure in Sam’s house that he can melt into his chair and sip orange juice. Yes, he’s probably bone dead tired and still thinking about the fact that what little he knew about everything is a fucking lie, but here’s Steve in a similar situation:
Bone tired, Loki has been fuckin shit up and the nice guy who made his really tight suit is ostensibly dead. But he’s sitting forward, alert and thinking.
Overall I think Steve is a pretty tense and closed off person. He’s always got this ridiculously rigid posture and doesn’t seem to let himself go around anyone, including his team. Actually I think it’s gotten more tense as time wears on.
In CA:TFA, he’s pretty relaxed, even with the new body.
In The Avengers, unless actively fighting, he stands like his suit is lined with solid steel and not Kevlar.
In TWS, it’s even stronger. He stands like a hardened marine who’s seen too much.
and also he has that JFC face that puts even my shadiest and saltiest of friends to shame:
And of course, there’s the RAEG OF STEVE, which really only apparently happens out of costume. (Interesting? Interesting.)
But around Sam, he’s super chill. He drops his shoulders and visually looks less like Captain spandex and more like a dude who wants to get to know Sam, possibly even in the biblical sense.
Shoulders dropped, open posture, smizing.
Then you see him more vulnerable than he’s been in this entire series. Even skinny! Steve walked with more aggression than the dude who shows up on Sam’s doorstep:
he maintains that vulnerability when in Sam’s presence through the entire movie, even when he’s pissed.
When he puts the suit on however, he squares right the fuck up
ANyhow i forgot what i was doing but IN CONCLUSION
Steve is super relaxed around Sam and has probably definitely been to his house before the world went to shit.
Why you shouldn’t be so quick to judge Tony Stark...
I’ve seen a lot of this on the Internet… talk about how Tony Stark has no right to assume Steve Rogers is his “friend” in the Civil War trailer, given how badly they’ve treated each other over the years and how - let’s be honest - downright abysmally Tony has treated Steve. But before we rush into “HE’S A VILLAIN!” and coo over the snuggly-wuggly scenes between Bucky and Steve and talk about how much we hope they’ll kick Tony’s ass back and forth like a titanium football… let’s actually take a moment to break Tony down and figure out why he is so dead set on arresting - or even murdering - the Winter Soldier.
1) HIS MENTAL ILLNESSES. Tony Stark is still suffering from, in some form or another, narcissism, PTSD, and a whole host of other diagnoses we can only really try to pin on him as “fanon”. Given the way he treats people and how he acts, I would assume he never had close relationships with anyone as a child (especially considering he had no siblings and his parents likely didn’t pay him much attention, given that Maria was a socialite and Howard was distracted with 50,000 other things, and Tony even draws attention to this in Iron Man 2), which explains why his adult socialization consists of networking at events and galas (trust me, not as much fun as one would think), screwing random women he has no emotional attachment to whatsoever, and hanging out for hours upon hours in his lab with only Dumm-E (his first robot, whom he treats like shit as a way of showing his affection) and JARVIS, who has basically been programmed to pick up after him and assist him with the things he’s literally too insane/genius to remember (again, we could look into diagnosing him with other disorders following his symptoms, such as Asperger’s or ODD or even possible childhood abuse and other things that would interfere with his social relationships, understandings, and how he interprets everything around him, but let’s just leave it with what Marvel has given us canonically in the MCU). Even his relationships with Pepper and Rhodey are volatile as all hell. He’s self-sabotaging in every single way, an angry selfish self-abusive man with alcoholic tendencies and no idea how to connect to people on a more warm, soulful, intimate level. He doesn’t understand what “friendship” is. And so, on the outside, he may appear to be snarking at Cap’ whenever he gets the chance, but that’s simply how he thinks you’re supposed to treat your friends. And everyone just accepts that that’s Tony - he’s a little broken, or a lot broken, but he’s trying. And it’s the effort that they all seem to appreciate.
2) CAP AND TONY. So let’s talk about Cap and Tony. Tony had to grow up listening to his father talking about his amazing, incredible man that he had known - that he had helped to create - who was not only strong and powerful and skilled enough to change the face of the war when hardly anyone assumed he could do it, but who had this incredible sense of judgement, of wrong versus right. Someone who believed in freedom, justice, and atonement for one’s atrocities. So now not only was Tony brought up in the shadow of a man who had reinvented and resculpted the way technology worked in the modern era - huge shoes to fill with his own business, intelligence, and engineering skills - but he’s also having to constantly live up to this revolutionary, incredible, wonderful person whom his father just couldn’t let go of (mention in the first Avengers movie, Tony bitterly comments on how his father “could never stop talking about him”). Who knows how long he hunted for the Valkyrie? He could’ve still been talking about finding him when Tony was a child, even if on the back-burner, and one can only imagine how much a young Tony with paranoid narcissism would be terrified of being replaced by this “god” his father was obsessed with. Then he meets this god, and immediately the hackles are up. He’s offended - why the hell didn’t SHIELD call him about what they were doing? And then, while he’s already feeling pretty raw, he meets this man who strolls in all justice and fairness and following orders (the last of which is the exact opposite of how his own mentality works). And it’s the man his father talked about for years, obsessed over, and so he’s immediately feeling attacked and vulnerable, and very very defensive. Over the movie, the two of them learn to work together, even if they don’t always see eye to eye. In Ultron, Tony is quick to remind Maria Hill that Cap is in charge, even though he does pay for everything - he doesn’t stick around to find out what she wants, he’s quite happy to let Cap handle what Cap has to handle. And when Cap has a plan or gives orders on the battlefield, Tony doesn’t fight him - he knows who the leader is, and he does his job as a passive-aggressive piece of shit, but the respect is there, even if at times he lets his bitterness and rage and jealousy from childhood come out. It’s hard to be the bad boy or the antihero, struggling inside a web of torture and pain and self-hate and confusion in your own head, when someone else seems to have themselves together so easy. A lot of people take Tony’s narcissism and general dickish nature as him being an overbearing asshole - which he is, but that covers up a whole hoard of issues and insecurities that he just can’t face, especially not now, after everything that has happened. He has to be a rock, he has to be strong. And the more he feels his rage grow, the more he lashes out. It’s been years between Avengers and Ultron. Who knows what Cap and Tony have been through in that time, raiding bases together, fighting alongside each other, trying to make sure the other doesn’t get killed. Thor tells Cap, “You and Stark secure the sceptre” - we all know how much Thor wants that sceptre back on Asgard, would he really trust a volatile concoction of two team mates he knows aren’t friends to bring it back? No, he knows that Stark and Rogers respect each other enough to get the job done, no matter what. That speaks volumes for how much their relationship must’ve grown over those years as they’ve learned to trust each other and fight together; even if there is a lot of tension still between them, as we see during some parts of Ultron (this is probably brought about by how tense Tony is about the whole “I’m the guy who killed the Avengers” thing), I imagine that the two of them actually function quite well together despite their differences, and have probably had some close-to-friendship moments in the quite wake of battle when they two of them have been feeling both vulnerable and victorious. So are Tony and Cap friends? We don’t really have enough information to say otherwise. We only get these glimpses through the two-to-three hours Marvel allows itself for its movies, so all we can really do is go by the comic books, in which they’ve even been said to be FWB by the writers. I’m confident enough based on psycho-analysing the two of them through their movies that they were friends, even if their friendship could never extend to what Tony/Bruce or Steve/Bucky’s are. [Bonus points: It may just be because Steve was the closest to him physically, but let’s just remember who it was instinctually Tony rushed to first when he saw them all laid out dead on the ground in front of him in the Scarlet Witch’s fantasy ;) This could be a huge indicator of how much a) Tony fears for Steve’s life, or b) Tony looks to Steve to lead them and take control of a situation that seems hopeless.]
3) ULTRON. A lot of people are throwing Ultron back in Tony’s face as a reason he’s a giant hypocrite. While we all like to laugh at the fact that he “created a murder-bot”, let’s take a few moments to actually remember why he did it. PTSD is one of those things that never really goes away, you just learn coping mechanisms - while Tony may have proven (in Iron Man 3) that he isn’t reliant entirely on his suits, and got over some of his PTSD, a huge amount of it still exists. And as he realizes that he has a world to protect, as we’ve all seen, he is driven mad by a fantasy Scarlet Witch puts in his head, and tries to build something so that people won’t have to risk their lives, so that his friends won’t have to fight. “Isn’t that why we fight - so we can end the fight?” Whereas Steve seems to subconsciously be okay with total war all around him, Tony has had enough - his whole life has been about death and destruction, and he’s finally feeling years of guilt and regret. He doesn’t want to fight anymore, he doesn’t want to lose anyone else - he just wants it to end.
4) BETRAYAL AND LOSS. The first person to hugely betray Tony was Obidiah Stane, who attempted to kill him (let’s remember this was back when he wasn’t used to flying all over the world as a superhero yet) and steal his company, and whom he found out had not only been selling his weapons to Islamic extremists and Ten Rings behind his back, but also arranged for his kidnapping and execution. Obi had been someone Tony was close to in the same was he was close with Pepper or Rhodey - he trusted him because he had to, because Obi ran the things he couldn’t due to his own mental instability. Obidiah was his father’s friend and trusted comrade, and he attempted to murder him in cold blood, several times. JARVIS has been a part of Tony’s life for so many years now. When Tony is there, in the air, and his suit is failing and falling apart and he’s on the edge of death, JARVIS is the one voice he hears - always calm, always logical, always ever so slightly sarcastic. But now, JARVIS is gone. I don’t think Tony was thinking properly when he wanted to input JARVIS into the body Ultron had been building - he was terrified, and he wanted to do everything he could to help. He probably didn’t even realize he would be losing his best friend in the process, a best friend he thought was dead for days until he discovered him again. Now that friend is gone, it’s been months, and he’s probably missing JARVIS like a dead sibling. Vision made it very clear that he wasn’t JARVIS, nor was he Ultron - he’s a new creation, and probably isn’t exactly bonding with Tony considering he’s at the warehouse training for the Avengers with everyone (based on what we see at the end of Ultron). And last, but very much not least, is the one person Tony actually connected with on some real sort of level - the man he genuinely believed understood him, the man who promised he’d have his back and whose back he also had. The man he actually smiled around, opened up for, invited back to his lab for playtime - these aren’t things Tony Stark does lightly, but when he first met Bruce Banner, there was something magical there which is why so many people ship them across the Internet - Bruce Banner had managed to touch a chord somewhere within Tony that I don’t think anyone - not even Tony himself - knew existed. Real friendship, genuine friendship, the type one would die for. Who catches Iron Man when he plummets from the sky and ultimately wakes him up at the end of Avengers? And who is the one who, for the first time ever, doesn’t treat Bruce like an explosive monster set on a hair trigger? Tony actually respects the man enough to help him build a suit to make him feel safe - has he ever done anything nice for anyone else? And I mean, not just nice, but thoughtful - he’s tried several times with Pepper, but with Bruce he instinctually knew what he wanted and needed to feel safe. If there was ever to be a Bucky to Tony’s Cap, it would be Bruce Banner. And where is Bruce now? As far as we know, he’s still missing. Chances are, he hasn’t contacted anyone, including Natasha and Tony, and is trying to figure his life out. Tony had the best of friends, someone he actually connected with and who probably gave him some sort of purpose in life other than his suits. And now, he’s gone. He was violently ripped away from him in the heat of battle, when he didn’t have a chance to say goodbye or even realize he was gone until it was too late. The void Bruce left in Tony’s heart when he vanished must be astronomical, and on top of an already bruised, broken, betrayed man, this isn’t a good thing for his mental stability.
5) THE WINTER SOLDIER HAS RED IN HIS LEDGER. In CA2:TWS, Steve and Natasha talk over some of the murders and assassinations that the Winter Soldier has been behind whilst he has been under the control of HYDRA. We see a cut out from a newspaper article about Howard and Maria Stark’s car accident. Howard Stark was on the forefront of technology at the time he was murdered, and had helped to found/fund SHIELD - he was targeted by HYDRA, assassinated by the Winter Soldier, and it was all covered up as a car accident. Imagine now if Tony were to find out that Bucky killed his father. Tony and his father were never close, but we have no idea what happened in that relationship… Maybe things were finally getting better now that Tony was a young adult and he and his father could work the company together. Maybe he finally had the relationship with his father that he had always wanted and craved as a child, or was working toward it at least. Maybe there was some light there, and he was finally in a place where he felt happier. And then his father and mother were killed, he and Obi inherited the company, and the last family he had was gone. And when you imagine it, imagine it on two different levels… Firstly, it’s a huge betrayal to him. This is a man he has fought beside, and now he is refusing to at least hand the man who killed his family over to be tried and investigated - he’s harbouring a fugitive who has committed many murders, including Tony’s own parents. Secondly, it’s a huge betrayal to his father, who was betrayed by a former friend, Obidiah Stane. Captain America… this is the person Howard Stark rambled for hours about, dedicated his life to, and was absolutely obsessed with. He called him a hero and a saviour. And now, that same very man he once cherished is refusing to bring his assassinator to justice. In fact, he’s violently defending him so that he doesn’t have to “atone for his crimes” (remember - narcissism and other mental disorders; in Tony’s mind he doesn’t understand and can’t empathize with other people’s friendships and reasoning, he only has his own to go on). Captain America, the soldier of ultimate justice, is refusing to hand over the man who murdered Tony’s parents in cold blood - that is ALL he can see in his head at this point, and he feels betrayed by not only his friend, but his leader.
6) HIS CURRENT MENTAL STATE. Tony is dealing with so much loss and betrayal after Avengers 2, on top of everything he attempted to do and what nearly happened to the world, and one can only imagine where his mental state is at. The movies have slowly been unravelling his sanity - we saw it peak in Iron Man 3, and even in Avengers 2, and now he’s continuing to completely invert everything inwardly onto how it affects him (because narcissism). So when we look at his life at the end of the second Avengers movie, let’s see where he’s at: he wants to focus on his life and his company, he wants to focus on his relationship with Pepper (which may be suffering - remember how he commented that she “wasn’t available” for their party, not even enough to make an entrance or to congratulate him - while we can obviously attribute that to not wanting to pay Gwyneth Paltrow for her cameo, we could also wonder if things are maybe not so great with the two of them, especially after Ultron), and he wants to withdraw from everything that has been going crazy around him. I think at that point, he’s realized he’s slowly losing the plot and he needs to bring himself back down to earth. He has become aware that two of his closest friends are gone - one he will likely never get back, and the other, well… he thought their friendship was enough for Bruce to want to come home to it. He doesn’t even think about what Bruce must be going through - he’s physically and mentally incapable due to his own mental disorders. He just feels betrayed and abandoned… and very much alone.
7) CONCLUSION. Why is Tony so upset that Steve has chosen Bucky over him? Why is he fighting so hard to bring Bucky to justice? Other than the obvious conclusion here, which is that I have too much time to myself as I sit and wait for my bath to fill up… Tony never stood a chance in life. Tony has been bent, bruised, and broken so many times (much like these other superheroes he’s fighting alongside), only he has a whole host of mental disorders that make it difficult for him to cope with everyday relationships and occurrences that other people would be able to handle. Over time he’s been betrayed by and lost some of the people he has allowed himself to actually grow close to - for a broken man who already has impulse control issues to see someone fighting so hard to defend someone, when he feels left alone and abandoned, it might leave his narcissistic mind wondering why he doesn’t deserve the same amount of love, loyalty, or friendship from other people in his life… why he isn’t worth it. Tony Stark is not a bratty, whiney asshole who believes he deserves Steve’s friendship despite treating him like shit. Tony Stark is a mentally unwell, self-abusive, unsocialized, broken man - lonely, lost, and at the very very end of whatever he has left tethering him to his sanity. So when he sees a man whose respect he had to work hard to earn - and who he had to work hard to respect in turn - betraying him, betraying Howard, and betraying SHIELD for “his own personal reasons”, to a point where it looks like someone on Team Stark may be laying dead in his friend’s arms… it really isn’t that difficult to understand why those tiny, broken, whispered three words are so unbelievably heart-wrenching for anyone who can empathize with what Tony Stark is going through.
Charlie Weber Discusses That Pivotal Phone Call with TVLINE
TVLINE | Let’s talk about Frank’s phone call from jail, which he knows is with Annalise but pretends is with Bonnie. He essentially says, “Whatever you need me to do for you, Annalise, I’ll do it. No questions asked.” And that’s a change from two or three weeks ago, when he went rogue and confessed to Wes’ murder without telling anyone he’d do that. Why, now, is he willing to do whatever Annalise and Bonnie want?
He really always has been. These are the two most important people in his life that he’d do anything for, and he is absolutely going to. That’s who he’s been the whole time. He’s just going to continue on that path. He feels that his life is about protecting them.
TVLINE | Earlier this season, though, Frank was on the verge of committing suicide — and now, it seems like he has a renewed commitment to getting himself and Annalise out of this situation. Would you say there’s any part of Frank that’s still tempted to throw in the towel and just admit to all that he’s done?
Not anymore. That’s how low he got, but Frank is a very misguided person, to say the least. That was him at rock bottom. But at the same time, he sees the value in his life because he can’t protect them if he’s dead. So he does see the value in living and protecting himself in order to protect them.
TVLINE | Frank’s relationships with Bonnie, Annalise and Laurel are extremely tricky right now. Heading into the finale, where does he stand with each of those women?
He’s probably the closest, right now, with Bonnie. They’re as thick as thieves. He’s on the mend with Annalise. She’s starting to realize that he’s going to keep helping her, and there’s nothing she can do about it. [Laughs] He’s going to do everything he can to protect her.
And Laurel — that’s beyond complicated. They’re almost strangers now. There will always be this lingering thing, but they speak so rarely. When she went to go see Frank in jail, more than anything, she wanted closure because of the love she had for Wes. And I think she would have had that closure, but when she looked in my eyes, she felt that Frank didn’t do it. Unfortunately for her, that keeps her from gaining closure. So she’s on her own mission, in that respect.
TVLINE | And even though Laurel trusts that Frank didn’t kill Wes, Bonnie still suspects that he may have done it. Who should we believe?
Frank’s earned a certain reputation. The audience has a real love-hate thing with Frank, and I totally get it. If you look at his history, and the people that he’s killed, it’s always been to protect someone he loves. That’s not necessarily an excuse, but he has this very big, misguided heart, and it’s cost a few people their lives. For me, it doesn’t seem that [killing Wes] fits. But you really never know with our show. [Laughs]
TVLINE | Give me your best Frank-related teaser for the finale.
Frank’s storyline is surprising. We’re used to him being a certain guy in these finales, and this strays from the path a bit. But it continues the story of what he’s been doing all season, and maybe gives a little closure to the very difficult journey he’s had.