let's start tomorrow tonight

please help

I’m so sorry, I don’t really know what to do right now and I’m worried so this will be rambly possibly but I’m at a loss.

I’ve decided to do something I never thought I’d do, open a paypal account for help.

Just hours ago my dog Buddy ate a bag of cinnamon raisin bagel that was sitting on the counter. I feel horrible, I should have pushed them further back or set them on top of the fridge but he managed to jump onto the counter and I went to wash my hands and when I came back he’d eaten 4 and a half of them. I took him to the emergency vet immediately and they were able to get a bagel and a half out of him but he still had two in his system. He has to stay overnight so they can monitor him and he’s getting an IV drip/flush the whole night to clear his system of the raisins and the charcoal tablet they gave him. I’m on mobl eight now so I don’t know how to attach the receipts but it’ll upload them asap.

My paypal link is paypal.me/DogsInPartyHats

Please, a dollar or anything you have to spare if you can donate. If you cannot I fully understand.

I’m so sorry to be bothering y'all with this but tomorrow he has to go back to the clinic for a possible 24 hour surveillance and I don’t know what to do. I’ve cleaned out my savings account to do pay for this first 12 hours and there’s a good chance that he’ll need to go back into a 24 hour clinic tomorrow morning. I was not able to take him tonight as its an extra 40 minutes away and he needed his stomach flushed as soon as possible. I’ve had him for 4 years and he was almost completely dead when the shelter found him, I’m hoping he still has some fight in him to make it through this.

EDIT: the reason why I cleaned out my savings is because I currently have no income as a full time college student and I have ptsd, severe anxiety, and bipolar disorder so it makes working and going to school impossible
I Know About The Baby (Ashton Irwin)

Standing in the kitchen, you leaned up against the counter. There was a mental debate going in your mind. You had found out about a month ago, and you weren’t sure if you would tell him yet or not. He was under so much with his drop right now, that a baby was probably the last thing he needed.

You had done your best at keeping it a secret, but baggy shirts and sweatshirts wouldn’t keep it hidden forever. Ashton deserved to know, but you just needed to make sure that the time was right.

The front door opened and it snapped you from your thoughts. You unfroze and turned around just as he walked into the kitchen. His face was hard and expressionless, and he made no effort to even look up at you. Perhaps it had just been a hard day at work.

“Hey love,” you said softly, eyeing him up and biting on your bottom lip.

He looked over at you and nodded his head slightly, but his face remained cold. Your small smile faded quickly and you folded your arms over your chest.

“Did you have a good day?” you asked, trying to get him to say absolutely anything. Even if it was just one word. When he continued to ignore you, you furrowed your eyebrows and shook your head. “Ashton what’s wrong? Why aren’t you talking to me? Did I do something wrong?”

He turned around and raised his eyebrows. Even without saying a single word, the sarcasm was leaking off of him. “Really (Y/N), and I wonder why that is huh?” he scoffed and you were slightly taken aback. When Ashton saw your expression, he let out a dry laugh. “You think I didn’t know?” You looked at him with wide eyes. Ashton rolled his eyes and crossed his arms as well. “I know about the baby.”

There it was. Just like that, everything made sense. The way he was acting, his cold attitude. Your heart dropped into your stomach.

“Oh…” you whispered, letting your gaze fall to your feet. “Yeah…”

He scoffed out and shook his head, turning around for a moment running his hands through his hair. “How could you hide something like this from me? How long?” he questioned, whipping around to face you again. “How long have you been hiding this from me?”

“A… A month…” you admitted quietly, gnawing on your bottom lip.

“A month?!” His voice was suddenly much louder and it made you jump slightly. “Jesus (Y/N)! A month? You’ve been pregnant for a month and you didn’t even tell me?!” he boomed. You took another step back. “I can’t believe it… Why would you hide this from me?”

“You were busy… things have been so busy Ashton and I didn’t want to add…” you replied honestly, shaking your head slightly.

“What do I always tell you?” he spoke up again with annoyance in his voice.

You bit your lip, nodding your head and running a hand through your hair. “I know, I know…”

“If you know, then we wouldn’t be in this situation.” Ashton hissed out, crossing his arms.

“Don’t!” you exclaimed. “I just thought I was doing what was best for us Ashton. I didn’t want to add more responsibility! Jesus, don’t get mad at me! Maybe I wanted it to be special! Maybe I wanted to surprise you! But you’re clearly pissed right off, so why don’t you just go stay at Calum’s house?! I don’t need you screaming at me. It wasn’t like I was going to keep it from you forever.” You finished up, glaring at him.

“You want me to leave? Fine. I’m going to Calum’s,” Ashton said flatly, turning on his heel and heading back to the door.

You didn’t stop him. You couldn’t move. You were so angry and as much as you wanted him to stay, the anger that was filling the room was not healthy for you or the baby. The door slammed shut and you jumped once more, breathing out deeply. Resting a hand on your stomach, you bit your lip.

“It’s okay baby… daddy’s gonna come back… he’s just surprised…” you whispered, trying to reassure yourself that everything was okay.

~|~

It was getting late, and you were still wide awake. Sitting in bed, the TV was on with some late night show that you weren’t even paying attention to. You were laying in your shorts and a tank top. There wasn’t really a bump yet, but you could feel a tiny little swell at the bottom of your stomach.

“There you are…” you smiled softly, mildly tracing little circles over the material.

You were torn from your thoughts by the sound of the front door opening and closing downstairs. You glanced over at the door and bit down on your lip softly. Footsteps started to come up the stairs, and it made you pull the covers up to your chin. In the back of your mind, you knew it was Ashton, but you still had concerns.

“(Y/N),” Ashton’s voice whispered out, his figure appearing in the dark hallway.

Lowering the blanket slightly, you reached out to turn on the light. “Did you forget something?” you questioned softly, keeping your eyes on him. He started to walk towards you, chewing on his bottom lip and sitting on his side of the bed.

“I can sleep on the couch but… I couldn’t go to sleep tonight knowing how I acted… I’m so sorry (Y/N), I am so sorry for lashing out. It was so wrong and… there’s no excuse but I was just caught off guard by the news.”

You stared at him for a moment, blinking a couple of times. He was already home? You didn’t even think he was going to be back tomorrow, let alone tonight.

“Ashton…” you started, but cut yourself off when you felt his large hand on your stomach. You looked down and bit your lip softly.

He was quiet and his eyes remained on your stomach. Slowly, he started to lay down beside you, keeping one hand against your stomach the whole time. You put your hand over his and bit your lip softly.

“I’m so sorry…” he whispered, pursing his lips softly.

“It’s okay,” you murmured in reply, your other hand going into his hair. “I’m sorry for not telling you sooner.”

“I understand now…” he whispered. Looking down at him you smiled softly. “I think I would’ve done the same thing… I mean… yes it’s been busy, but I just want you to know that I will always have time for you. No matter what okay? Especially now that we’re having a baby you know? I’ll be home as much as I can and… what I’m trying to say is that you are my priority… You and our child, my family…”

You smiled softly and runs your hand down his head to rest it on the back of his neck. “We will never take that for granted Ash… we have so much to thank you for and… even though it’s not the best timing, we’re still going to pull through this you know? I know we will.”

Ashton nodded his head and his smile grew. He wrapped his arms around your waist tightly and pulled you closer to him. Reaching over, you put one hand on the side of his neck and pressed a soft kiss to his lips. He happily returned it and hummed out contently.

“We’re having a baby…” he murmured against your lips. “I can’t believe we’re having a baby…”

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Let your tears roll tonight, but tomorrow you will start the battle again. What defeats us, always, is just our own sorrow.
—   Amin Maalouf, The First Century After Beatrice