its 5:19 am and im not sure if you're taking these anymore. but im scrolling through this blog to remind myself there are others who are suffering like me. im so desperate to let out my emotions and my mistakes but i cant. i feel like my trauma is so specific that it isnt even valid. i wish i was a better person, i wish i could reach out but its always my own hand to put me down. its all my fault, i want to cry so much but its all so numb. the trauma just dulled itself down and im left hollow.