Aw, Clen! I am sorry that you were hurt today. Just remember that anybody who would talk shit about you was never your friend to begin with, honey, so if they come back around don't let their shady asses back. I love you, sweetie, and if I could be there to cuddle and comfort you I would, but I am several states away so this ask is gonna have to do. I hope you feel better and the wounds in your heart heal quickly 💜💜💜💜
The worst part is it wasn’t stupid insults, this stuff hit deep. I talk a lot to my peers about how I’m always up late, because I AM.. ( I stay up late to write and get my homework done, and they just can’t grasp that because they think they are fucking perfect and that I shouldn’t have to be up until 3:00am to do the shit they can do in minutes) These few people basically snorted at that and called me saying I’m up late working an excuse. It touched deep because I can’t tell back and say that I feel like shut all day and me staying up late and reading and or writing and doing homework is the only time of the day in fucking enjoy and they severely hurt my feelings over this.
They also talked about how I always say “fund the theater department” and such. My school just barely started funding the drama department and I joked about it for a couple of days, but everyone basically knows that’s where I spend a lot of my time, with the drama department . They basically mocked how I talk in annoying voices and insulted my interests and the fact that I’m willing to fight for what I believe in and that struck pretty deep.
Lastly, one person even said, and I quote, “does anyone even care about Clen?” And that one killed. I have self doubts, too many for my own good, and this person brought them all forward and basically smashed any sense of self confidence I used to have. The worst part is, I’m pretty sure more people than I know pitched in and i think the people I used to trust I can’t anymore. I don’t know if there is a single person at my school anymore who I can now look in the eye and think that I trust them.
I’m just drowning in feelings right now and these people made it worse and I don’t know what to do expect just block myself off. It hurts, and they don’t give a shit and that hurts worse.