If you were to look up the definition of the word “home”, you would come across the description, “the place where one lives permanently, especially as a member of a family or household”. When people talk of home, they bring up the house they grew up in, the family they shared that house with, or maybe they think of the four walls that make up the place where they sleep, the apartment they pay for that houses all of their shit. None of that has ever felt all that significant to me. And how do the people without that privilege describe “home”, or is the word just empty? Recently I’ve come to terms with the fact that a lot of people I know, myself included, can’t feel comfortable behind the walls that they have had to deem “home”.
You can’t always feel vulnerable in the place that’s only there to give your material possessions a place to rest. You can’t always feel safe in the house that you spent your childhood in. You can’t always connect to homemade meals and a swing set in the backyard. Sometimes those memories are just empty. But does that leave you homeless? The answer is no. You learn to find home in other people, in other things. You learn to feel comfortable in other ways and in other places. That place for me is at a letlive. show. The men in this band are about as translucent as they can be, constantly responding to online messages from their fans, always hanging around long after the show has ended just to talk to whoever has waited around for them.
What’s even more important than that is how open they let themselves be while on stage. Every emotion they feel at that moment is shown and shared with the crowd. There is nothing hidden. Vulnerability, weakness, and just flat out being emotional is not shamed, but accepted. What’s even more amazing is the crowd response, how the emotions are given right back to the band, how accepting every fan is of each other, and how easy it is to let yourself feel so intensely in such a public atmosphere. It was easy for me to find home in the men so willing to share their souls with the crowd that is there to see them, to find home in the people so dedicated and accepting of this band, and in the music that has become a safe haven for so many people. letlive. has given me a place to safely express my emotions, to move past my doubts and my fears and to embrace those struggles in order to move on from them and continue on in my life.
It has introduced me to people that have become as close as family. letlive. has also has given me a glimpse of the person I want to be, and the person I’m allowed to be in those moments of intensity and understanding. This band has shown me what home truly is-inspiration, safety, comfort, acceptance, vulnerability, a place where I can truly show how I feel without the fear of judgment, a place I can turn to when the world is collapsing, a place to hide when I need a break.
You can keep your four walls, the house you grew up in, the rented apartment where all of your stuff stays. I will continue to find home in everyone that makes up letlive., especially the ones willing to pour their hearts out because it is just as much their home as it is mine.
To add to what Bree is saying about finding a home in ll., as I said in the interview, seeing, listening and even being in the presence of letlive., the band, the fans and the music has given me a sense of self so to speak. It’s interesting to think that throughout my whole life, between all the people I’ve met or situation I’ve encountered, this music is what’s taught me the most, and has made me feel the most.
I saw them live for the first time at the Bottom Lounge in Chicago a few years ago, and as soon as they started playing muther I got myself up on the corwd, got myself to the stage and gave him the biggest hug I could muster with my already exhausted body. Once back on the floor I couldn’t help but stand there, sing, and bawl my eyes out. Never have I ever been through such an emotional state in such a public setting, I knew it, and I didn’t care.
Although I haven’t had the pleasure of sitting down and having a lengthy conversation with all members, I know (and you should too) that the men in this band deserve all the fame, fans, support, and good vibes that they’ve been getting and much more.
So if you havent already, take a moment of your time and listen to them, buy an album, download their discography, check out their instagram, facebook and tumblr, you most definitely will not regret it.
Photography By: @breecoephotography
Finding a Home - By: not-dead-yet101
Addition By: mt-q