(These are not my actual words they have been said to me by someone who was a part of my life for a very long time.)
To the one who loves her next,
She’s the type of girl we meet when we’re too young and we mess it up then spend our lives wondering what if we had been better to her.
When she met me she was full of life but somewhere along the line within all my mistakes she forgot how to smile. Now a smile have become a rare thing for her.
She’s an introvert. She will wander off for hours and get lost in books or music and you’ll think she’s ignoring you but she is not. She’s just comfortable in her own bubble but eventually she will find herself back to you.
She isn’t easily angered. I was a part of this girl’s life for three years and there were times when I would blow my top off and yell at her for things that were not her fault yet she stood by me. In all our years together she’s only lost her temper at me once.
When she loves you, she really loves you and she will love you for a long time. Be gentle with her heart. Heaven knows this is a lesson I wish I had learnt when we were younger.
This girl wears her heart on her sleeve. She will see things that will make her sad and she tries to fix all the things wrong with the world. When she does, just let her be it’s who she is but when she comes running to you and oh she will, just hug her.
I spent years hurting her so I can tell you this: Don’t do it she doesn’t deserve that. I’ve done things to her that I am not proud of. I spent heard making her cry but she never uttered a word for me. She spent months missing me yet she never let me know it.
She is trusting, perhaps too trusting. I am begging you not to take advantage of this like I did. I wish I could do back in time and undo everything I did to her.
She will always try to put you first, remind her to put herself first sometimes.
If she tells you she loves you, you better believe she does. She will be good to you and she is faithful. It’s easy to take this for granted but don’t. Losing her will be one of the biggest loses of my life. Trust me it’s been almost four years later and I still regret it.
The guy who made all the mistakes because he was too young.
~Excerpts from the book I’ll never write #99