lesson for photographers


Mayday_Parade_April 25, 2017 by Tony Vasquez
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April 25, 2017 Mayday Parade - A Lesson In Romantics 10th Anniversary Tour in the Egyptian Room at Old National Centre, Indianapolis, IN. : Tony Vasquez

dendo-chinchira  asked:

Hey i love your head cannons, how about the RFA react to MC being widowed and having a child from that previous mirage. (She was happily married but sadly her husband died too soon)

Thank you! This is written with a female s/o so if anyone wants me to do a male s/o let me know. I enjoyed writing this.

-It doesn’t even bother him that you have a kid because he is more concerned about if you’re okay or not
-He hopes that your life hasn’t been too difficult raising that kid on your own
-Admittedly, he’s insecure of the fact you’ve had a husband before him
-He feels inferior to him and he thinks you’ll never love him like you loved your husband
-But, as your relationship continues, you prove that that isn’t the case
-With time, he accepts that he will never replace your husband, and that it’s now his job to love you just as much as your previous husband
-Your kid and him get along very well
-He’s very good with kids. You catch them playing all the time and it warms your heart
-The first time your child calls him “dad” he cries
-And you do too
-But don’t worry, they’re happy tears

-He was really understanding
-He was also immediately protective of your child
-When you ask him if he’d be okay with you having the kid, he was extremely supportive
-Zen is honored that you want him to be the father of your child
-He was this kid’s new father, but he also knew he could never replace your husband, neither did he want to
-He felt bad that this kid won’t have their biological father around, so he works extra hard to make them happy
-You’ll have to keep him from spoiling them too much
-He’s always wanted a family of his own, and, although this isn’t what he initially had in mind, he will raise this child with you like it’s his own flesh and blood. He will make sure this kid knows they’re loved because he doesn’t want them to feel like he did when he was a kid.
-Maybe if you’re up for it in the future, you can both have another kid of your own, but he’ll understand if you don’t want to
-He is very respectful of your husband and never treats loving you like a competition against him
-He doesn’t try to replace him, only show you as much love as your husband did before

-She is very sympathetic
-It doesn’t bother her that you’ve had a husband before you met her
-She is a bit worried about her ability to raise this child with you
-She doesn’t now how she can substitute a father figure for them, but you tell her that she doesn’t have to be a father. The child will be just fine with two mothers.
-If you ever get sad about your husband, or anything really, she’s always there to comfort you
-She teaches your child such amazing life lessons, including to give yourself breaks to enjoy life
-The kid loves her, and she loves them more
-They get a kick out of having two moms running a cafe together. They like to play pretend that they are running the cafe with you both. You and Jaehee always play along, even sometimes acting as customers for them to serve.
-It’s a very happy family
-She wouldn’t have it any other way

-He’s not phased
-He does comfort you about your late husband though. He knows that must’ve been painful. After all, he knows he would be broken if he lost you, so he can’t imagine what it must’ve been like for you.
-When he meets your child, he can definitely see you in them
-So if he didn’t already love them, he definitely does now
-He will do everything in his power to keep you and your child happy and healthy
-The day you ask him if he would like to legally become the child’s father is the happiest day of his life
-He is a very overprotective father
-The child loves Jumin from day one
-They also get along with Elizabeth. She allows the kid to do whatever they want to her without getting angry. You catch them sleeping on the couch together often, Elizabeth on top of them
-Jumin understands not to spoil the kid. He has learned from you that money can’t solve everything, so he raises the kid with that in mind.
-Your family is so warm and accepting. It’s the perfect environment to raise a child with the love of your life.

-He feels so bad that you were kept in the apartment for over a week while you had a kid at home
-He really freaked out about it when you first told the messenger that you have a kid to take care of
-He made sure that the child was taken care of while you stayed in the apartment by calling someone he knows and trusts that does daycare work
-He’s always labeled himself as “dangerous” so when your relationship starts getting serious, he is afraid to be this child’s new father
-What if someone that has a grudge against him from his hacking days comes after them?
-He’s wanted to have a happy family his whole life to make up for the one he wasn’t able to have
-He didn’t think it would happen this way, but he is not complaining
-He is very good with children so they are instantly close
-Like Yoosung, the first time the child calls him “dad”, he’s in tears
-There’s so much love in this family, you know that your late husband would be happy

-Well, you’ve both had previous, serious relationships
-Yours was a healthy relationship, but that’s the only difference
-Because you’ve both had such relationships beforehand, it only makes your bond stronger
-While he is slowly getting better after Rika, you’re also slowly getting over your husband
-You’re able to understand each other on a whole new level
-You both have had endless deep conversations for hours and hours discussing your situations
-He talks about his life involving Rika and how it affected him, you do the same about your husband
-You’re basically each other’s therapist
-You introduce him to your child
-V is so gentle and caring towards them, it almost makes you want to cry
-He’s such a gentle soul, definitely worthy to trust your kid around
-He makes a fantastic father
-He is such a good role model and he teaches them important life lessons
-V loves taking photographs of them because they are so perfect
-After a long, long while, you and V are so focused on your own loving family you don’t hurt over your previous relationships any more
-You remember them and learn from them, but you don’t let them get in way of being happy any more

-Sadly Saeran was really put off by it
-He didn’t trust himself to be around a kid, especially your kid
-He was also scared you’d not love him like you loved your late husband
-So he avoids you after he finds out
-You actually think he hates you and your kid so it shatters your heart
-He doesn’t want to hurt you, but he also doesn’t want to hurt your child
-You put the pieces together and confront him
-“Saeran? You know you don’t have to be afraid of hurting our kid, right?”
-He’s taken back by the fact that you can read him so easily, and by the fact you called the kid “our”. He’s silent.
-“You’re not a monster. Your mental health is getting better. I trust you, and so does everyone else.”
-“But that kid isn’t mine,” he says
-You pause, pain flashing across your face. “I was hoping you’d accept my offer and become their legal father…”
-Saeran is shocked and confused
-He’s confused because those words make him happy
-He didn’t expect you to tell him that. He didn’t realize it before you offered, but he really wants this.
-After a couple weeks, Saeran tells you he’s ready to meet your child
-He is instantly in love
-The first thing he notices is how the kid resembles you
-He’s overwhelmed with an urge to protect them at all costs. He will love them and support them like a real family. He will.
-“I want to be their father.”
-Slowly but surely, your child and Saeran develop an irreplaceable, inseparable bond
-On his “bad days”, he stays away from them no matter what. He couldn’t live with himself if his poor mental health harmed his kid.
-The child is confused on those days, always asking “where’s daddy?” Or “is daddy okay?”
-It hurts your heart. The kid is so innocent. “Daddy is okay, he’s just.. sad today. He’ll be happy again.”
-Little did you know that that day, your child drew Saeran a picture in crayon saying that they love him and they want him to be happy
-They gave it to him the next day, telling him that “mommy said you were sad.”
-He cried. He cried so much. He treasures that drawing for the rest of his life.
-You come home to see them cuddling on the couch together asleep with children’s cartoons playing quietly on the television
-You can’t help the tears spilling down your face
-Your family is so happy. Finally.


1st picture – An Armenian woman kneeling beside a dead child in field “within sight of help and safety at Aleppo”, an Ottoman city.
2nd picture – Greek civilians mourn their dead relatives, Great Fire of Smyrna, 1922.

History behind these two pictures.

Today marks the 100th anniversary of the day where upwards of 1.5 million Armenians we massacred by Turkish soldiers. Armenians were slaughtered in a form of ethnic cleansing. The Armenian Genocide (x) also known as the Armenian Holocaust was the Ottoman government’s systematic extermination of its minority Armenian subjects inside their historic homeland, which lies within the territory constituting the present-day Republic of Turkey. The total number of people killed as a result has been estimated at between 800,000 to 1.5 million. Turkey, the successor state of the Ottoman Empire, denies the word genocide is an accurate term for the mass killings of Armenians that began under Ottoman rule in 1915. It points to the fact that up to 2.5 million Anatolian Muslims lost their lives during World War I and denies that atrocities against Armenian populations were part of an organized plan to eradicate the Armenians. It has in recent years been faced with repeated calls to recognize them as genocide. To date, twenty-three countries have officially recognized the mass killings as genocide, a view which is shared by most genocide scholars and historians.

The Greek genocide, part of which is known as the Pontic genocide, was the systematic ethnic cleansing of the Christian Ottoman Greek population from its historic homeland in Anatolia during World War I and its aftermath (1914–23).  Estimates for the death toll of Anatolian Greeks as a whole are significantly higher, a team of American researchers found in the early postwar period that the total number of Greeks killed may approach 900,000 people. The Allies of World War I condemned the Ottoman government-sponsored massacres as crimes against humanity. More recently, the International Association of Genocide Scholars passed a resolution in 2007 recognising the Ottoman campaign against Christian minorities of the Empire, including the Greeks, as genocide. Some other organisations have also passed resolutions recognising the campaign as a genocide, as have the parliaments of Greece, Cyprus, Sweden, Armenia, and The Netherlands. (x)

We were connected by religion, we were connected by land, we are connected by tragedy. May the souls of our ancestors find peace. May the tragedies find recognition, may people not repeat the same mistakes, may history teach us a lesson. Because these photographs don’t lie.

In Defense of Hiyoko Saionji (and others)

I serious, massively despise the way Saionji’s character was treated.

It’s a little-known fact in our fandom that Fuyuhiko Kuzuryuu was meant to die during the third chapter, but that plot was scrapped both from a writing perspective in order to avoid making the previous chapter seem like a shaggy dog story, and from the more sympathetic perspective of avoiding Pekoyama’s sacrifice being rendered equally meaningless. I genuinely think this was a tremendous mistake for several other characters at the benefit of only one.

To start, let’s contemplate this revision: these writers, of all writers, were afraid to create the despair of a character arc being cut short? Kodaka, of all people, being afraid of despair? The same Kodaka that was alright with putting Ishimaru through an absolute hell that ultimately led nowhere for him before ending abruptly. And then his answer to this dilemma was to do exactly the same thing to Saionji, only far worse. Let’s not forget that writer sadism plays a major part in just how sadistic the characters in play are allowed to be portrayed: thanks to so little thought being put into her death to the point that no one bothered to look for her murder weapon, the entire Celestia parallel of that chapter is marred by confusion more than despair by making Celes seem ruthless while Tsumiki ends up looking sloppy (I’m sure the laundry list of plot holes with that investigation have been covered enough).

Let’s talk about Ishi for a second: he was basically one of the only people in the original group honestly trying to inject some order into the predicament and keep everyone organized and united, whether they were willing to listen or not. When that sense of responsibility reached a point of him blaming himself for not stopping his best friend in a situation he couldn’t possibly have controlled or predicted, he went near-catatonic with the guilt. Finally, when our protagonist felt bad enough to try and cheer him up using the laptop that seemingly held his last shot at being “forgiven” it only ended up making him an easier target for Celestia to kill (again, she looks so very ruthless under this light, like a proper villain, while Naegi looks so very human and fallible, unlike the messianic figure he’s portrayed as later in the franchise). The real tragedy was that his overbearing nature made it that much harder for the other characters to mourn him because of how poorly they understood the depth of his suffering.

Compare that with Kuzuryuu, who actively tried to spread distrust within the group and failed at it, directly caused two people to die and ultimately grew to be a better person partially through his friendship/comradery with the protagonist. Picture for a second how off-putting it would be to have him die just as he was showing signs of growth, making players long to know what kind of or how much of a good person he could have been. Under these circumstances, he almost becomes a mirror to Ishimaru, much like the majority of the Dangan Ronpa and Super Dangan Ronpa 2 casts play foil to each other’s traits.

Losing this dichotomy, the writers are forced to keep the Chapter 3 parallel going by handing those traits off to Mioda, emphasizing her friendlier nature with her attempts to organize a concert in a need to bring the group closer together. Like Ishimaru before her, she stumbled on her way with all these good intentions in her heart by instead freaking them out with the kind of music she plays, only to be tragically robbed of the chance to at least die the way she would have wanted to (with a completely different personality). While certainly a flattering portrayal for her, it still comes out of left-field because of her spending the last two chapters acting as the loopy comic-relief character more often off in her own world and detached from the severity of the situation: compare her contributions during trials to Ishimaru trying to push the discussion and realize she has more in common with Hagakure up to that point. I’d even argue her final free-time event attempts to play into this unexpected quality of hers by making her one of the only students either trying to help Hinata recover his talent or help him come to terms with himself (which, if I’m being honest, comes off as a little cheesy and unusual coming from the girl that called Imposter Ham Hands or whatever translation you like to use so shortly after his death, almost as if the whole FTE was written in at the last moment). I like her character enough for her to be in my top 3 female students, but I just don’t see a throughline or a foundation for this characterization compared to the rest of her development, and so it comes off as awkward; I want her to be motivated by fixing her own flaws, rather than acting as literally the only student in the series who helps the protagonist at the end of her free-time event path instead of the other way around. There’s more interesting parts for her to play than just tragic savior (because rarely has this series explored the angst of being an unappreciated artist).

So naturally, this shake-up of how character development was getting doled out meant Saionji now had to occupy the same space Kuzuryuu was going to of being the mean character that would die before getting the chance to redeem themselves, except the role made a lot less sense for her because she needed more development up to that point in order to make her loss feel that much more tragic (the way she praises Mioda’s performance felt incredibly forced considering her clear preference for all things traditional). I love to think of what it’d be like to see her looking at the guy who killed her best friend bled to death on a pole and realizing it doesn’t make her feel any better. I cherish the thought of her being forced to see the girl she picked on losing her mind in the courtroom and her being completely terrified at the sight, before finding a certain sense of guilt in wondering if her behavior may have led to all this (and you can probably imagine the epic smack-talk Tsumiki would have given her before her execution). Saionji’s was the redemption arc that could have been something incredible; it felt like it was supposed to be something incredible before getting cut short.

So let’s examine the aftermath of her death and the subsequent redemption arc Kuzuryuu receives in her place. While I know some did appreciate where his character ended up going, to me his development felt like it had stunted after chapter 3, where he either held the position of Hinata’s right-hand man or spoke in mournful tones about Pekoyama (the former a role Souda could have performed easily and the latter I’ll touch upon next). To me, this does little for his character besides revisiting the themes he’s already played through as if Kodaka didn’t know what to do with him past the third chapter, while also doing less than was necessary for Pekoyama.

I honestly thought her send-off was perfect left the way it was: she delved into the darkest aspects of samurai loyalty and ultimately fought with everything she had up until the end to fulfill her duty to protect Kuzuryuu, which made her one of the few characters to truly shatter Monokuma’s point on every philosophical level. He told her she’d feel despair at the end of her life like everyone else he’s executed had and she instead held on tightly to the one hope that her master would be alright, only giving in when her body could no longer last. That is incredibly dignified, and I feel like Kuzuryuu pushing the topic of her death the way he did undid some of that dignity, because I have trouble believing a servile bodyguard who denied her own wants and desires so adamantly is really suitable to act as a guide from beyond the grave; I don’t believe she could yell at him to stop acting like a child the way he said she would have in that final trial. Sometimes it’s best to let a character death lay where you left it.

Compare that to if Saionji had done the same by emphasizing Koizumi’s motherly qualities, and then realize that a girl like her who has plenty of sass to spare and who’s moral foundation held strong enough for her to declare murder wrong even up till the end of her life would have been a great source of guidance; she would yell at Saionji to take responsibility for their actions in the past and to stop being a big baby if Enoshima had pushed her into despair over said past. They could have made Saionji’s dialogue grow subtly less biting over time or even have had her drop vague compliments here and there as she comes to see the rest of the group’s more admirable traits (maybe even coming to begrudgingly admire them or want to change herself in a desire to not be left behind). This is a far more realistic portrayal of how people like her tend to grow: by looking inward and slowly realizing they’ve been a bad person, or seeing the drawbacks of their habits before deciding they don’t want to continue being this way. Bully victims like her who choose to become bullies themselves take years to really change under most circumstances, and that’s a theme that the series has yet to tackle properly. I find that a little sad, and I find how much flatter Koizumi’s character looks by not helping to teach her this lesson even sadder (everyone’s favorite photographer has so many moments of human depth that barely get touched upon, which to me is an absolute crime of character writing).

So to recap: because of Hiyoko Saionji’s death and Fuyuhiko Kuzuryuu’s survival, we have Tsumiki’s murder case making less sense than it could have along with her chance to publicly tell off her bully taken away, Mioda given traits she was never properly implied to have while ignoring traits she could have had, Pekoyama receiving guardian-like qualities she never displayed in the form the game was implying, Koizumi’s better maternal traits being given less chance to shine than they deserved, and one severely wasted redemption arc. Say what you will about her personality defects, but you can’t deny Saionji was the biggest victim of that re-write.

So to Miss Saionji, I give a toast and a clap. You have a fan in me, little dancer.

I participated in a railway photograph lesson yesterday.
The lecture is Yuya Yamasaki of the railway photographer.
I used camera EOS 7D Mark Ⅱ of Canon.
I took a panning shot of a Bullet train for first time. It was fun!! :)

今回はCanon EOS7D MarkⅡをキタムラさんから借りました。
初流し撮り!! 難しかったけど、楽しかったです!! 2015.10.31

(sort of) abridged version of my brain-rant about photography:

when i was learning film photography + really getting into dslr photography, what i loved was the weird little flukes and flaws that occurred naturally and made the photograph interesting. learning film what i loved was how it was all about the setup, about capturing the thing or the moment as it was, its essence, rather than making it perfect. i loved that about digital photography, too. i taught myself photoshop basics but really only ever photoshopped my shots enough to up the contrast or vibrance so those imperfections popped. i almost decided to go to college for photography. during my gap year i took lessons from a professional photographer and realized how competetive the industry is. in community college, i took a couple of photography classes, and realized that 85% of the class was about photoshopping the image and making it perfect, making HDR photos or making the blemishes go away or getting rid of the slightly over exposed areas, etc etc. and it frustrated and frustrates me so much. that i look at film photos across the years from famous to only semi-known photographers, and what i love about them are the little flaws that couldn’t be fixed in film. the over/underexposed parts, the hair or clothes slightly out of place, something peeking in the corner of the frame, etc etc. the fact that even with the edits you could make in film, it was nowhere near photoshop. you know that what you’re looking at, while possibly posed, is still at its core what it actually is, little flaws at all. idk…..maybe it sound technophobic of me and maybe i’m a luddite or whatever, but looking at a film photograph or even a pre-photoshop digital, it always seems so much more human, more real, more natural, more beautiful. and it frustrates me that photography has now become more about how perfect and flawless you can make the thing/person than how you capture their essence and how you make their personality or beauty shine through. it’s about making sure there are no mistakes rather than capturing the moment. a big reason i decided not to go to school for photography (and why i eventually stopped taking photos as much as i used to) is because i felt like it has become a competition over who can take the most perfect shot and then edit it to flawlessness rather than who can take the shot that best expresses who that person is or what that event felt like or why this place or object or person is important.