less rest for the restless

Let's make a list

-I start chemotherapy on Saturday
-I graduate high school in Saturday
-tonight is my last high school concert
-my sister gave birth today at 32 weeks. The baby has a genetic defect. It is not a matter of if her heart fails, but when. She has anywhere between a few more hours and maybe a week or so.
-my disease is getting more and more aggressive (hence the chemo) and I’m in extreme pain 24/7
-doc said I need to be less active. I need to rest as much as possible.
-I’m too restless and busy of a person. I need tasks. I need things to do and I need to do them.
-my flutes are getting so emotional because it’s my last concert with them and I’m the section leader and they love me.