So yeah, It’s been a week and I’ve had a few people actually notice it in person and start asking so now I’ll make the actual post to say that I got a tattoo. It was done by the incredibly talented Kailee Love at Tormented Souls in East Northport, NY.
It was way easier than I expected. I’m really bad with needles in general so I expected it to actually be pretty difficult to get through.
Really simple process, actually took longer to set up than to do it but it’s small and really basic so I expected that.
I love how it came out. It’s exactly what I wanted and I really can’t be more pleased with it. It’s so perfectly imperfect. I love that it’s not totally symmetrical and that it has a little kink in it and doesn’t close at the bottom. I didn’t want to get a cookie cutter, perfectly even, uniform font style heart. I wanted it to be more personal so I had my best friend, Brittany draw up a bunch and I picked one that I liked most.
As for why a little heart on my wrist? I’ve had a lot of trouble with depression in my life and still do all the time. Someone who used to be close to me would draw a heart on my wrist when they knew I was down so I had that reminder that there was always someone who cared. Silly as it may seem, I’ve kept the idea for years and stuck with it long after that person and I stopped talking. Not always going to stop the bad thoughts but it has stopped me from taking action on them many times. I decided that I wanted to have that reminder always there, and in the handwriting of someone close to me so I picked the one person who’s been through it all with me for almost 9 years now.
I’ve had a few people ask me who it’s for. It’s not for anyone but me. It’s facing me for that very reason, it’s meant for me to have that constant reminder to stay alive.