leaving-body

Change Your Mind (m) || Part 5

Synopsis: Jimin is finally returning home to Busan after a few years of college. His friend, Jungkook, tags along as well. Rather than being interested in the new sights, he finds his eyes following Jimin’s old friend- you.

Originally posted by helendrv

Pairing: Jimin x Reader x Jungkook // childhood friend au & fwb au // love triangle ahoy

Genre: Smut/Angst/Fluff

Word Count: 2928

SERIES: Part 1 || Part 2 || Part 3 || Part 4 || Part 5

A/N: alskgdfkl sorry this took a while qq i hit the road block for this so i’m also sorry that it is quite short and probably isn’t what you guys are expecting ^^; there’s one last part to this btw, i promise it’ll explain everything that is unanswered from here


Jungkook’s words reverberate in your mind, astoundment striking you like lightning.

“You… what?” You ask for clarification, ebullience leaving your body as if it has never been present to begin with. All you are left with is plain shock, movements desultory as you take a few steps back.

Jimin’s eyes widen at Jungkook’s proposition of a panacea, for those words are the last he thought would ever leave Jungkook’s mouth. Jimin remains niche against the wall, rising tension hitting the room in untoward waftures. The younger boy sighs and scratches the back of his neck. “I said we need to cut off what we have—whatever it is.”

“W- why?” You say a bit too desperately, feeling yourself unravel at his sharp statement. “I thought you- we had… why?

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I am ready to tear my hair out.
I. Don’t. Feel. Like. A. Woman.

I am just so frustrated. I’m looking back at all this stuff I’ve been through and realizing some things and I’m fucking terrified. I’m so scared. My brain is on overdrive and all I want to do is be free, just fucking free.

And I don’t know what that means.

This gender crisis fucking sucks. I found a place for therapy, a good place, reputable and it’s a therapy center specifically for gender. It was started by a trans man so I have faith.

Please, I hope they help me figure it out. I’d cry if the antidepressant would let me.

i got mononucleosis so my throats dying but the steroids they made me take before i left the hospital got my throat on fleek for rn. it sounds so deadly though. i wanna go to school tomorrow with a mouth mask and tell everyone “i have mononucleosis so my spleens gonna rupture and i have 2 months to live”

anonymous asked:

I'm trans but I don't want to change my body. The thought of that frightens me the most. I'd honestly prefer to leave my body alone but it makes things so much harder to explain to people who I haven't come out to yet. What do you think?

You do not have to take hormones or have surgery to be trans.You do not have to explain yourself to anybody. You identify how you identify and if people don’t respect that they can honestly kick rocks.As long as you are confident and happy with yourself that’s all that matters. Do what you feel comfortable with and hopefully you have people that support and respect you.

Jay 

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.