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MORE UT_ONLY treasures :D

Buttons and a gift from Tabe! I’ve been chatting with/admiring Tabe from afar for quite awhile and I was so shocked when I learned they’d be at UT_Only! (They came all the way from Japan!!)

Because they were in Korea for a short time, I didn’t get a chance to meet with them again, but they gave me this beautiful present and a special Grillby pin ;__;

Also in this set is a drawing @yesyooduck gifted to me. Yoo!! <3 <3 <3

I bought this in Korea at an Undertale convention. Please don’t ask me how to buy it - all of the goods were made special for the convention,  most things were pre-order and/or sold out at the convention. If they didn’t they’re very hard to buy. Sharing just to spread the love <3

drench yourself in words unspoken (Zutara Soulmate AU)

I don’t need luck, Zuko says to Aang as the blizzard howls around them, as they take shelter from the ice and the wind. I don’t want it. I’ve always had to struggle and fight and that’s made me strong. That’s made me who I am.

He turns and, like, he knows the kid is in some Avatar Spirit-World trance or whatever, but he can’t quite quash the spark of irritation he feels at the sight of Aang’s sleeping face. He wouldn’t be the first person to doze off during one of Zuko’s monologues (that honour goes to Uncle Iroh, and then… to basically every sailor on the boat Zuko has called home for the past three years) but it’s still affronting. Honestly.

Zuko crouches down to study the pale blue arrows on Aang’s skin, and wonders if there are other tattoos that mark him. If it’s even possible for the Avatar, the great bridge between the human and the Spirit World, to have a soulmate.

Not that Zuko really believes in soulmates anymore. That kind of comes with the territory. Once you believe you make your own path, once you decide you don’t need luck or fate, soulmates - which are a bit of both - are pretty much rendered pointless as well. And, well. Just look at what happened with Mai.

So. What happened with Mai was bad.

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“Punishment” (Jooheon smut)

Originally posted by heonies

Title: Punishment

Featuring: Jooheon (Monsta X) x Reader

POV: 2nd

Rating: Mature. Thigh riding, spanking, dirty talk, daddykink.

Summary: Jooheon decides you need consequences for your actions, and a little something extra.

Requested by anon!

Jooheon was on the couch in front of you, slouched down and comfortable with his knees spread and one arm draped over the back. He raised an eyebrow at you, a smirk tugging the corner of his mouth.  Something about the way he was postured there, his t-shirt clinging to his sides and his pants just tight enough to outline his strong legs, it made you shiver.

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As much as I want Hiveswap to be released ASAP, i also don’t want the development team to feel pressured and then rushing things out. All i can do is wishing them all my best wishes.

The graphics are great!! They’re working really hard for this. So Hiveswap, whenever you’re ready, I’m here…


It was dark when Ritsu and Shou first kissed. They kissed after Shou broke his own window and busted the screen out so they could get out of his house. It was after they ran to the middle of an open field in the dead of night and Shou had collapsed to his knees with grass knitted in fistfuls between his fingers. It was after Shou’s dad had yelled at him for the umpteenth time. It was after they pulled away from a long silent hug and their noses brushed against each other. It was after they stared at each other’s cloudy eyes and shared the same unknowing fear of what would happen if they turned back. They didn’t know if they would ever see each other again. So with a concoction of dread and concern boiling in their stomachs, they kissed. Both of their hands were on each other’s cheeks and they held each other there until they couldn’t breathe. It was wet between both of their tears and it broke when Shou couldn’t keep his mouthed closed from a sob. They stayed there and cried until the sun rose.

anonymous asked:

Are you alright? Lately it's seems like you're under a lot of pressure and stress, and I just hope there's some good in your life and that you're okay and taking care of yourself

It’s been pretty rough, that’s true. Right now I am leading a really unhealthy, stressful life. I don’t sleep enough, I don’t eat enough (I don’t even have real comfort food anymore. And that’s super shitty) and I don’t relax enough. But I think it’s getting better now. I try to take some time just for myself and do stuff I really enjoy. Without pressure and stress. It’s hard, because for some reason I end up stressing about everything, but then I remind myself that I don’t have to be stressed when I’m playing video games and that it’s okay if some things don’t work out for the first few times. 

I need to learn how to enjoy things like drawing again. I see myself only drawing for the sake of others lately and it frustrates me. I just hope after this semester it gets better. After that I can choose my major and then I go to illustration and I can finally do what I want. Bye bye product design!

Inspiration <3

A flower starts as a seed. It is small, and may not be seen in the ground. But when watered and given time, it grows. It grows taller and becomes more beautiful. It blooms. Humans are just like flowers.

When you are born, you more or less just cry, eat, and sleep. But then you grow. You grow and you learn. You learn about the world and develop skills. You practice, you devote time. You achieve.

When you learn to ride a bike, you may fall off a lot. It hurts, but you get back up and try again. And again. Then you don’t fall off so much. Then you get good, you go faster and stay on the bike for longer. Before you know it, you’ve learned to ride a bike and don’t need help any more. Life is like riding a bike.

When someone first starts drawing, it might not be a masterpiece - but with time and practice, their art improves more and more.

Give someone a musical instrument for the first time and, chances are, they can’t really play anything on it. But with enough hard work and time, they can end up playing amazing things. 

People that once believed they would never achieve anything have gone on to change the world, or at least change someone’s world.

There are people who once thought they would never meet their heroes, but now have.

There are people who felt imprisoned by their mental or physical illness or differences, but have gone on to achieve incredible things, things that they never thought they would do.

Public speakers may have previously battled with social anxiety.

Athletes may have once been drained of energy by depression. 

Deaf/HoH people can become musicians, blind people can be artists.

People with any mental illness or physical disability can go on to inspire people because, at the end of the day, they are people just like everyone else.

People in the LGBTQIA community can contribute to the world as much as anyone else can, because they are just as human. 

Your ability to do amazing things is not defined by gender, sexuality, or race. It is not defined by your weight or body shape. It is not defined by physical or mental differences like this. These differences purely make us human. Different does not mean less.

People can write off their dreams as impossible, but one day find that they can achieve it if they chase it for long enough. They just have to not listen to the people that say ‘you can’t’ and tell themselves ‘I can’.

Let me tell you my story.

I thought I would never get to see Coldplay in concert. I was wrong, because I’ve now seen them twice, including once in a stadium.

I thought no YouTuber would ever care about me or notice me - but this was not true. I was responded to as recently as last night.

I believed I would always be bad at drawing and could never improve. But practicing it has proved me wrong, as my drawings have in fact got better.

My sleep schedule was non-existent; I was getting up midday or later, and falling asleep at 4/5am or later. Now I fall asleep much earlier, and get up around 9/9.30 every morning.

I was never getting out of the house unless I had a class to go to. But recently, I’ve taken myself out to my local shop on multiple occasions.

When I first started composing, I was writing pieces that were maybe no longer than 30 seconds, and weren’t very interesting. Now, I can write pieces that are 5 minutes or longer, with a vast number of instruments if I want to, and people tell me how much they enjoy them.

I used to hate myself and hurt myself. Now, I’m learning to like myself more and I haven’t harmed myself in years. I used to avoid looking at myself in the mirror, but now I’m able to smile at myself.

I once thought that I would never be mentally strong enough or clever enough to go to university. I’m now a few weeks away from finishing my three-year music degree.

I thought I’d always be hated with no friends. But now I have many friends online, and even a little friendship group in person. 

I believed I would never have the confidence to make videos. But now it’s been nearly a year since my first vlog, I’ve grown in confidence on camera, and I have a wonderful 300+ community subscribed to the channel.

I once hated performing and wouldn’t ever do it. I still don’t find it comfortable, but I do it more now; I’m performing an original album launch in a couple of weeks time.

I used to believe I would never amount to anything or succeed at anything. But I’ve almost finished my degree, I have 300+ subscribers on YouTube, and many people have told me how I’ve helped them and made them happy.

Discovering that I am asexual has not diminished my abilities. Depression and social anxiety have not stopped me achieving those things, even though they tried to. The fact that I may possibly have Asperger’s (self diagnosed but it’s pretty likely), meaning that my mind works differently, hasn’t prevented me from achieving all of those goals. 

There are dreams I have not fulfilled, mountains I haven’t yet climbed…

But my story is not even over yet.

Have obstacles? You’ll overcome them all.

Feel hopeless? It will get better.

Have dreams? Chase them.

Your story is unfinished, you are not on the final chapter yet, and you can’t know the ending because you’ve never read your story before.

Keep writing it. Keep living. Keep dreaming.


SHERLOCK - :Heart Hands:
Wacom Intuos Pro in PS CS3 (new window for hi-res)

I’m only a month late *shrugs*. This was supposed to be done on Valentine’s Day. Whoops.

So I’ve been slowly trying to get back in to doing art again, still trying to find my groove and colouring style on my digital works. This one was done entirely with a marker brush set, which I actually really really like because it really emulates my traditional style.

I love these two idiots so much, but holy crap heart-hands are hard as hell to draw. I still don’t think they look good, but meh. And Sherlock is too short, but humour me anyway. 

Hope you guys like this. Con-crits are appreciated to help me learn digital better.


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Couldn’t Ask Part Two (Alexander Hamilton x Reader)


Request Queue 

Free Requests 

Warnings: guns, mentions of death of a loved one/parent (not depicted)

A/N- (Happy Sequel Sunday!! Sorry this is so late! I accentuated Laf’s accent in this, hope ya like it)

Song- Alone Together – Fall Out Boy

Words- 3,493

“Sorry Y/N. I didn’t mean to intrude, but I was really interested in this Indian fabric,” he held up your jeans. Oh God no. “and I just saw…What is this?” He held up several green pieces of paper. “And why is my face on it?” 

You stood frozen to the spot with no idea what to say. Was this something you could lie your way out of? You could try at the very least.

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The Player

Edmund x Reader

Modern AU

Imagine: You and Edmund are really close and he’s kind of a player. You tell him that you think he should find a steady girlfriend and he confesses the only reason he hasn’t is because of his feelings for you.


You rolled your eyes as you saw Edmund put his arm around another girl and worked to conceal your jealousy. For months, you’ve watched him flirt and hook up with other girls all the while wishing he would think of you as more than a friend. 

You overheard him saying he’ll be right back and a few seconds later, he was sliding into the seat next to yours. “Hey Y/N.” You nearly swooned at his wonderfully accented voice but held yourself together. “Hey Ed. I see you’ve found yourself another girl.”

He smirked and leaned closer. “You jealous?” You scoffed in return. “You wish.” He laughed and leaned back in his seat. He hid it well, but in his head he really was wishing you were jealous. Because then he would know that you had the same feelings he did.

Before either of you had the chance to get out another word, the bell rang signaling the end of the school day. You picked up your notebooks and slung your bag over your shoulder, promising Edmund that you’d be at his house later for your traditional movie night with the Pevensies.

When you arrived in your bedroom 15 minutes later, you fell onto your bed sighing. “Why did I have to fall for him?


You walked into the Pevensie house, not even bothering to knock. it was basically your second home. You walked into the living room and crashed on the couch between Peter and Lucy, half landing on Peter. He grunted and shoved you. “Get off me you big oaf.”

You laughed, scooting over some. “Oaf? What does that even mean?” He laughed along with you. “I’m not sure but I know it’s an insult.” You snorted and turned, conversing with Susan and Lucy. 

After a while, you got tired of waiting for Edmund and told the group that you were going to make popcorn. “I wouldn’t go in the kitchen if I were you.” Said Peter. 

“Why?” You asked. Was he messing with you? The siblings exchanged looks, shrugging and you rolled your eyes, and headed into the kitchen. The sight that greeted you was terribly unpleasant. Edmund and the girl from earlier were having a heated make out session on the counter. You screamed, shielding your eyes with your hands and rushed out of the kitchen. You sat back down on the couch with red cheeks, and hit Peter on the shoulder. “Asshole.” You muttered, but he just smirked.

A few minutes later, Edmund and his latest girlfriend came through the open door, sitting on the smaller couch opposite the one you were on. “So, what are we watching?” Edmund asked as if nothing had happened.


Edmund was trying to watch the movie, but he just could not focus. He was ashamed that Y/N had caught him making out with Nancy. Sure, he’d had girls around her before but she’d never seen him in that position. He was trying so hard to get Y/N out of his head, he wasn’t thinking.

You kept seeing Nancy (you’d learned her name from Peter who kept telling her to be quiet) touching Edmund out of the corner of your eye. She kept grabbing his hand, stroking his face, leaning her head against his shoulder. You couldn’t stand it anymore, especially after she finally grabbed his face and kissed him.

You abruptly stood up, drawing attention from almost everyone. You walked through the kitchen and out the back door, sighing from relief as the cold air smacked your face. You could almost breathe again. You heard the door open and you looked at the ground, kicking at it with your shoeless foot. “Pete, I’m fine.”

“Uhh, it’s not Peter.” You turned in surprise at hearing his voice and his beauty once again overcame your senses. His black hair was blowing in the wind and his long sleeved blue shirt hugged his frame perfectly. His brown eyes shone with kindness like always. 

You smiled. “Oh, hey Ed.” He narrowed his eyes at you. “What’s wrong?” You kept the smile plastered to your face. “Nothing. It was just hot in there.”

He sighed, and you could tell he saw right through it. “Fine. Don’t you think it’s time that you got an actual girlfriend?”

His face contorted with confusion. That wasn’t what he was expecting. “Maybe I’m serious about Nancy.” He defended. “Fine.” You said.

He hit the wall suddenly, causing you to jump. “Gosh you’re so- ugh! Can’t you see the only reason that I’m with those girls is to distract myself from you? You’re the only girl I think about. The only one I want to be with.” He searched your eyes for a clue to how you were feeling. And then he leaned in, kissing your lips gently. 

After he pulled back, you waited for a moment before reattaching your lips to his, only this time with more passion, putting all of your feelings into the kiss. When you two finally broke away in need of oxygen, a huge smile broke out across his face. “So, does this mean you feel the same way?”

You smiled and nodded, slipping your hand into his.

anonymous asked:

HELLO HI i have a question.... i rly like to draw but i don't have time to actually learn stuff and have a bit of a problem with hair and i really liked the ones u just posted so, if u wouldn't mind and had the time, could you please post like pictures with the steps of how you do it? THNK YOU LOVE YOU

Hi Anonnie!!
I am really really sorry this took so long! ;u; But life is busy you know

I made this little thing on how I personally approach drawing hair, this is by no means a full tutorial or anythying but I hope these pointers will help you a little bit :)

sadly I don’t have time to do a full tutorial atm (not that I am in any way shape or form an expert lol)

about the part of you saying you don’t have time to learn stuff: 

you can learn ALOT by just observing and carrying a sketchbook around with you and draw stuff/ do quick sketches and studies of the things you see around you. By actually LOOKING at real life examples or reference pictures and drawing what you want to improve in over and over again, progress will eventually come around.

I hope this is helped you a little bit!
keep drawing :D

Reasons why I say don’t hate on the rare pairs

So I have been doing my drabble prompts. Love them. All of them. lots of fun. But whenever I do these challenges I like to also look at them from an analytical angle. Since I have a wide array of prompts and pairings this time, I’ve been looking and tracking the responses I get when i have similar themes and (obviously) writing styles, but with vastly different pairings. 

This is what I have seen:

Post a Lovesquare drabble: 

Originally posted by behindthezenes

Kudos, reblogs, incoherent positive reviews rain from the sky!!!!!!!!! 

Post a non love square but still somewhat popular ship like DJWifi or TikkiPlagg

Originally posted by harta-romaniei

a nice smattering of kudos, some reblogs, and a few really long super grateful people sobbing about how nice it is to get content again 

Post a rare pair drabble: 

Originally posted by ba1n3s

People who ship rare pairs have it hard enough already. They have a lack of content from others to draw from and more often than not feel like they are screaming into the void. 

They don’t need to have people criticizing them for liking something different.

Also supporting rare-pairs doesn’t mean you have to STOP liking the other stuff… multishipping is a thing my friends. 


Wip for @thelastpilot ot4. (I don’t know how to link this to the original post… 😭Im sorry if I annoy you by tagging you.) I just can’t get this out from my mind. I need to draw them!
Nino being the sole caretaker of the house, while the Trio super hero busy working and superheroing.
He tried so hard, but his friends were so busy, his effort goes unnoticed.
Again, sorry for the messy sketches, grammar mistakes and any incorrect anatomy (still learning how to draw male body, shirt and hats here…)

anonymous asked:

any tips for drawing in general?

ye loads,

  • art is hard and takes time, don’t push yourself too hard and take things at your own pace. art isn’t a race and shouldn’t be treated as such
  • do it every day
  • comparing yourself/your work speed/your style to someone else is a WASTE OF YOUR DANG TIME DON’T DO IT just do you, whether your a fast worker or slow worker. again, art takes time 
  • some people are faster or better than you at some aspects of art and that’s just A Fact bc hey, everyone is different but you should learn from them, instead of hating them or givin up (it’s hard I know)
  • everyone learns at their own pace, don’t worry. you’re fine <3
  • no art program is superior to the other it literally doesn’t matter which one(s) you use. if it’s comfy for you, then keep using it
  • DRAWING TO PLEASE OTHER PEOPLE IS BOTH GOOD AND BAD draw for yourself first and foremost tho and put other people on the back burner always
  • im serious draw every day..even if it’s something you’re not proud of or don’t like KEEP IT FOR LATER U WILL NEED IT
  • playing with brush settings is always neat
  • going out of your comfort zone is also pretty cool but it’s also hard, don’t worry about it too much
  • yes tracing images for practice and help is good and dont let anyone tell you otherwise
  • yes uploading traced images and passing them off as your own is shitty and bad don’t do that
  • yes photography counts as art/other people’s work 
  • no, it’s not okay to use without credit just because it’s on google
  • don’t be a shitlord
  • anyways,
  • draw multiple times a day it helps. rlly
  • watch lots of streams and art videos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • take a sketchbook with you everywhere if you’re easily inspired like me
  • don’t be afraid to take criticism, constructive (emphasis on constructive) criticism, both from artists and non-artists, is extremely helpful and valuable info to help you better your stuff
  • don’t worry if you don’t feel like drawing for a few days or even months. we all have dry spells. that doesn’t make you any less of an artist. you deserve to rest every now and then <3
  • save at least 5 times, even if u think u saved, save anyways
  • working with a timer can be really helpful if you have ADHD like me (or OCD, as my ocd makes me hyper aware of how i’m spending my time and if i’m wasting it or not ksndflf)
  • switch up the bg noise from time to time, it helps
  • stepping away HELPS A TON TOO
  • sometimes narrating what you’re doing helps (i commentate myself drawing constantly and it does wonders sometimes)
  • all the art “rules” you hear about are just suggestions. seriously. don’t take them too seriously or try to break your wrist trying to follow them exactly
  • break every art rule you can holy shit
  • save your old work so that you can learn from it
  • you do need to have some of the “basic fundamentals” down to start with but don’t murder yourself trying to adhere to PERFECT ANATOMY (unless that’s what u want in your style then go for it!)
  • it’s okay for your style to change throughout the years. my style has changed every year and multiple times throughout each year LOL
  • do your best and never give up <3
Au Pair / Minho

Originally posted by manohminho

Word Count: 4300

Request: Can you do of any of the SHINee members listed that they’re a single dad and you’re hired as a nanny and after some time you guys end up together? Thanks!

wow this is the longest scenario I’ve ever written for Tumblr I think…


You would be lying if you said that you didn’t feel even slightly uncomfortable. You were sitting in the living room of a strange man’s house while he looked through your resume. Although you had spoken on the phone prior to this meeting you were still feeling nervous. You needed this job.

But it turned out he also needed you to take the job.

“Mr. Choi,” You began, your hands clasped together on your lap, “I was wondering when you would like me to start?”

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