"You're Still As Beautiful As I Remember." Nick Amaro
Requested by my fave @svuwritings
Warnings: sad nick, also, this is literally the most perfect gif for this imagine.
You had picked up a new job in Manhattan, working as an only slightly experienced detective. You were invited by an old friend, Olivia Benson, who was newly understaffed due to a death, and she said that it was brutal but you were fit for the job.
You started today, and you were more nervous than you had ever been. You had just transferred from Charlotte, and you didn’t know anyone in New York. You were currently staying in a hotel, until you could rent an apartment. How great.
Olivia said to dress professionally, but comfortably, which you struggled with, but managed to pull off beautifully. You liked this new side of you, and you could feel the confidence radiating off of you, until you reached the building.
As you walked inside you felt nervousness flood you, seeing almost no one else around. A pregnant woman, and a tall man. Both blonde, both sweet looking, neither of them even saw you. You sighed, and walked straight back to where you found Olivia in her office.
“Hi! You made it.” She greeted you happily, pulling you into a hug. “I’ll show you to your desk and your partner now.” She walked you out to your desk, noticing the desk next to yours. It must’ve been your partners. There weren’t any pictures, or name tags, and no partner.
“Your partner is probably in the bathroom or something, he’ll be out soon, welcome you, show you around, but I’ve got some work to do.” She smiled and placed a hand on your shoulder. “Welcome to SVU.”
You smiled and nodded. “Thanks, Liv.” You began to set your things up as she walked away, before hearing someone walk in your direction.
“Hey, you must be the new detective, I’m-” the whole word stopped when your eyes met. Nick Amaro, the man who broke up with you to move to New York and follow his middle school sweetheart, who had suddenly decided that she wanted to marry him. The man who decided that you weren’t enough for him. The man who was now divorced, and working in Manhattan. Nick Amaro, who just so happened to work at your new job in Manhattan, as your new partner, staring into your eyes like his whole world was in front of him, like he was going to cry or throw something or his whole life was going to slip from his hands.
“You’re as beautiful as I remember.” It was barely a mumble, but hearing his smooth voice, the way you used to, almost made you fall in love all over again. Feeling his hands suddenly gripping yours made you flush with a re-found sense of love.
“Nick… I can’t believe this. What are you doing here? Why are you here?” You snatched your hands from his and willed yourself not to cry, not on the first day, not in front of Nick. You would not cry.
“Look, belleza, I’m sorry, and I want to talk about this, but… Not here. Now, we’re partners and you don’t have to love me anymore, but you at least gotta pretend like you tolerate me.” His voice cracked and you could see the pain in his eyes, and it made you crumble. You knew what he had been through, and you could guess that Maria didn’t understand. You knew her in high school, and she was cold to the people she wanted to be.
You also knew that by the end of the day, you wouldn’t be able to say no to him, and that he was truly sorry. You knew that whatever Nick said or did about 8 years ago, no matter what it was, and no matter how much it hurt you, he would be able to make it up to you. There was no point in ignoring him, because you were stuck with him, and you loved each other.
“I know, Nick. I… I forgive you, and I love you, and I’m sorry, too. But you know that you hurt me, why? How could you do that to me?”
He gripped your hands and tried to pull you as close as possible. “You can’t ask me that,” he was whispering into your head. “I can’t answer it, I’m still not sure, but I want you to forgive me, if you can. Please.” He held you so tight you almost couldn’t breathe, but your heart was somehow warm with love.
“I do, Nicky. I forgive you.” You wiped your tear away and laughed, already causing causing a scene on the first day. “Please let go of me, this is sort of awkward for everyone else.” You heard his chuckle and he stepped away from you, his face spraying happiness and rainbows.
“You’re so beautiful.” He pressed a soft kiss to your forehead before Liv came out from her office.
“We got a call.”