things that will haunt me forever

• the way Burr says “wait” after he realizes Hamilton shot at the sky
• how Philip never finishes his numbers
• how Philip’s first concern when dying is making sure his father was proud of him
• that Burr went and got a drink after killing Hamilton
• that Eaker shot Philip at the count of seven (musical-wise, not historically)
• that Angelica had to deal with both her nephew and the man she loved dying in her home
• the fact that Hamilton saw Laurens on the other side of veil

she wears short skirts I wear t-shirts she’s cheer captain and I’ve only listened to the Hamilton soundtrack on repeat for the last 72 hours

alex: the stars are beautiful tonight, aren’t they?

eliza: yeah

alex: you know what else is beautiful?

eliza: *blushing* what?

alex: john lau- i mean no angelica schuy- no no no i’m sorry i meant *looks at smudged writing in hand* elizardbert smiler

  • <p> <b>Eliza:</b> Alexander, there's a letter from John Laurens' father for you<p/><b>Alexander:</b> what does it say?<p/><b>Eliza:</b> *opens letter* all it says is 'I love my dead gay son.'<p/><b>Alexander:</b> well fuck me gently with a chainsaw<p/></p>
Reasons I'm hamilton
  • I never stop talking
  • I think way too much
  • I argue with people
  • I love proving people wrong
  • Roasting people is my favorite hobby
  • People don't take me seriously
  • I think I can do everything
  • Too busy doing things to hang out with other people
  • Literally never satisfied
  • Always think I can do better
  • I never have enough time
  • I get no sleep
phillip hamilton things, for people who haven't or can't see the show.

-during his rap in take a break, he starts out nervous and then kid gets WAY IN TO IT, bending his knees and flexing his arms and yelling. alex hugs him and looks so proud and phillip is so pleased with himself. it’s precious.

-during reynolds pamphlet, jefferson, madison, and burr take him up front, surround him, and show him the paper. they point and say “at his own house? at his own house? damn.” out loud to him and oh my god his face, he’s shattered. you can physically see his father get taken down a peg in his eyes. I can’t even describe it. it was heartbreaking.

- I always pictured his argument with george eaker happening up close, like he pushed past a bunch of people and was up his face. but no, eaker is up on the balcony and in true hamilton fashion, phillip is making a scene and shouting at him from below. the actors in the “play” even stop to watch, and you’re like damn this really is alex’s son.

-when he’s telling his dad about the duel, alex is standing with his arms folded (and using his “dad” voice) and phillip looks so sheepish but also defiant and it reminds me so much of “meet me inside.”

-“stay alive reprise.” tore. my. heart. out. which I knew it would but jesus. no mercy. I was full on sobbing. (eliza screams at the end of it and I can’t even describe that. it’s so horrible and your breath catches in your throat and she sounds so worn down and destroyed. she’s held it together throughout all the shit alex put her through but in that moment it all comes crashing down and you can hear so much pain. It’s heartbreaking and beautiful. the acting is amazing.)

  • what angelica says:
  • I'm not here for you.
  • what angelica means:
  • [ALEXANDER]
  • Angelica
  • [ANGELICA]
  • Alexander
  • Congratulations You have invented a new kind of stupid
  • A 'damage you can never undo' kind of stupid
  • An 'open all the cages in the zoo' kind of stupid
  • 'Truly, you didn't think this through?' kind of stupid
  • Let's review
  • You took a rumor a few maybe two people knew and refuted it by sharing an affair of which no one has accused you
  • I begged you to take a break, you refused to
  • So scared of what your enemies will do to you
  • You're the only enemy you ever seem to lose to
  • You know why Jefferson can do what he wants?
  • He doesn't dignify school-yard taunts with a response!
  • So yeah, congratulations!
  • [ALEXANDER]
  • Angelica
  • [ANGELICA]
  • You've redefined your legacy
  • Congratulations [ALEXANDER]
  • It was an act of political sacrifice!
  • [ANGELICA]
  • Sacrifice?
  • I languished in a loveless marriage in London
  • I lived only to read your letters
  • I look at you and think 'God, what have we done with our lives and what did it get us?'
  • That doesn't wipe the tears or the years away
  • But I'm back in the city and I'm here to stay
  • And you know what I'm here to do?
  • [ALEXANDER]
  • Angelica
  • [ANGELICA]
  • I'm not here for you
  • I know my sister like I know my own mind
  • You will never find anyone as trusting or as kind
  • And a million years ago she said to me 'this one's mine'
  • So I stood by
  • Do you know why?
  • I love my sister more than anything in this life
  • I will choose her happiness over mine everytime
  • Eliza
  • [ALEXANDER]
  • Eliza
  • [ANGELICA]
  • Is the best thing in our lives
  • So never lose sight of the fact that you have been blessed with the best wife
  • Congratulations For the rest of your life
  • Every sacrifice you make is for my sister
  • Give her the best life
  • Congratulations
What is Happiness?

Happiness is listening to the Hamilton soundtrack and relaxing to the sound of Lin’s voice.
Happiness is looking at Anthony and Jasmine being so cute together
Happiness is looking at Daveed shirtless
Happiness is connecting with of Hamilton fans
Happiness is reading Hamilton stories.


Happiness is anything Hamilton related

Dear Theodosia (2)

Burr: I’ll make a million mistakes

Hamilton: correct

ay yo i’m just like my country i’m young scrappy and