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A few of the books I read in May. A majority of them aren’t pictured because I read them on my kindle/iPad 🌺📚

Not pictured: The Remedy (Suzanne Young)/Keep Holding On (Susane Colasanti)/Burn For Burn and Fire With Fire (Jenny Han/Siobhan Vivian)/Lying Out Loud and Secrets and Lies (Kody Keplinger), The Fill-In Boyfriend (Kasie West)

I’ve loved him my whole life, and somewhere along the way, that love didn’t change but grew. It grew to fill the parts of me that I did not have when I was a child. It grew with every new longing of my body and desire until there was not a piece of me that did not love him. And when I look at him, there is no other feeling in me.
—  Laura Nowlin, If He Had Been with Me
And I love him. For all of my memory, I have loved him. I do not even notice it anymore. I feel what I have always felt when I look at him, and I have never before asked myself what it is exactly. I love him in a way I cannot define, as if my love were an organ within my body that I could live without yet could not pick out of an anatomy book.
—  If He Had Been Me by Laura Nowlin 
This book is a treasure; I did not suspect it would be so good when I picked it up, but now I can feel the printed words seeping through my skin and into my veins, rushing to my heart and marking it forever. I want to savor this wonder, this happening of loving a book and reading it for the first time, because the first time is always the best, and I will never read this book for the first time ever again

On August 8th, Phineas Smith died, and I can imagine every detail of that night. I can see his face and the curl of his fingers around the steering wheel. I can hear his breathing and the race of his pulse.

I know what he was thinking when he took that turn too fast.

I know what they had been arguing about before the little red car spun out.

Today is the 8th of August, the day Phineas Smith died.

Like Autumn, I hope that he stayed in that red car so that he can be happy together with her. He will remain alive in my heart.

I don’t think I’ll ever get over his death. Ever.

This book is a treasure. I did not expect it would be so good when I picked it up, but now I can feel the printed words seeping through my skin and into my veins, rushing to my heart and marking it forever. I want to save this wonder, this happening of having a book , and reading it for the first time, because the first time is always the best, and I will never read this book for the first time ever again.
—  If He Had Been With Me by Laura Nowlin