“I think the two attributes my parents instilled in me would be compassion for others and a strong work ethic, which are the two most important things a parent could teach a child. And they’ve always been supportive of me, even though they thought my ambition was weird or foolish. But they’ve always encouraged me to try, to be committed, to be ambitious.“
It is okay to want to be fit, but if you are unable to love
yourself unless you are fit, then is it any better than only being able to love
yourself when you are skinny?
If you take an obsession with skinniness and food
and turn it into an obsession with fitness and food, you are still focusing on
the physical, effectively avoiding the true relationship you have with
I believe recovery is about
finding, accepting, and loving yourself as a person.
Your body is a vessel
which contains who you are as a person, but your body is not you as a person. You are more than your body, and you deserve to have a loving relationship with
the entire you.
in the last year i have unofficially changed my name, failed at getting important grades, gone through the darkest times i’ve ever faced, have had to decide whether to go hard or go home at college, said goodbye to someone that once meant so much to me, made new friendships that are so so incredible and here i am now. to sum it up, all that shit was ultra fucking terrifying at the time, and even in retrospect, i am still confused how the fuck i got through it but i got through it. i mean the last year has been a mix of scary, sad, determination, happiness, amazing, incredible, impressive and just overall not what i expected at all. but here i am, still strolling through the woods and slowly making it outta here with the help of some fantastic people and professionals.
i guess what i’m trying to say is that in the past year, i’ve gotten to a place i didn’t ever think i’d reach, not ever. i’ve found friends i wouldn’t have ever thought i’d be lucky enough to talk to, let alone talk to daily and see. i’ve been accepted in ways i thought only existed in the ‘it gets better’ section of the world. it’s been an terrifyingly incredible stroll, and who knows how it’ll continue, but here i am now, being someone i didn’t ever think i’d be able to be. i am noah sydney cato carter, and i am becoming the person i could only ever dream of being.
Just came back from my Irish Studies class, this week we read Carmilla and on my way out I mentioned the Web Series to my professor and he seemed really interested in it and said that he’d check it out and then mention it next class and on the one hand I’m just like oh my God we’re probably gonna be talking about the web series next week this is awesome, and on the other I’m just thinking oh God oh God please do not find my tumblr thank you
Also still in happy disbelief that I get to write an essay for school on Carmilla :D