late night tumblr in the morning

i think i fell in love with you long before i realized
but come to think of it
how could i not?
after all of the late night conversations
and the times you were my shoulder to cry on
  after the hugs that felt like home
  and all of the times you were my hand to hold
  after the “good morning” and “good night” messages
  and all of the phone calls you made just to make sure i was okay
  after all of the times you made me laugh when it felt like i would never smile again
  and all of moments and memories we can never tell a soul
  maybe i didn’t even really fall for you
  i think i just woke up one day
  and i knew
  that you were the one who i wanted by my side
  through thick and thin
  for better or for worse
  it’s always been you
  and i hope it always will be you
—  Anonymous said: Can you write something about falling in love with your best friend?
(cc, 2017)
Every one wants me to be okay but I am not okay. I will never be okay. Not like this, not without you. So, stop telling me to be okay. Stop telling me to move on. It doesn’t work like that. You don’t just move on from the love of your life. You don’t forget their arms around you at night or the sloppy look of their eyes in the morning. The memories of the birthdays and holidays and anniversaries don’t just fade away. They still live in your mind, still replay day after day, hour after hour. You don’t just find someone new because once you’ve had a love like that nothing else compares. It’s them or no one.
—  And that will never be okay.
  • It doesn’t always have to look nice. Sometimes you need to get over making everything look aesthetically pleasing and tumblr-worthy and just do the work.
  • Sometimes it’s late at night and you’re tired and you want to set an alarm and get up early to finish your work. You’ll set the alarm. When it goes off in the morning, you’ll silence it and go back to bed. This strategy very rarely works.
  • And sometimes it’s late at night and you’re sleep-deprived, exhausted, and want to die because of school. Just go to bed. Missing one homework assignment won’t kill you, and you need your sleep. 
  • But do your homework. Sometimes you do need to stay up late to finish assignments and you just have to deal with that. Find the happy medium, and always put your personal health first.
  • You don’t need to stay in every weekend and work. You’re young!  It can be hard, but set aside time to hang out with friends.
  • Talk to your teachers. They will help you. They were teens once.
  • You don’t need to have straight A’s.
  • That bad grade isn’t as big of a deal as you think it is.
  • Even if you have two weeks to work on an assignment, start it ASAP. You’ll thank yourself later.
  • Sometimes you just have to break down and cry. Let yourself do it. You’ll feel better afterwards.
  • Not understanding a unit or a subject does not make you stupid, even if someone explains it to you five times and you still don’t get it. Sometimes it will take ten, fifteen, twenty times for it to click. That’s okay.
  • Everyone struggles in at least one subject.
  • Coffee and tea are nice, but sometimes you just need water.
  • Even if no one is there to tell you, you’re doing great.

When it happened, I cried a lot.

The next morning, I didn’t get out of bed.
Neither did I do so in the afternoon.

Two days later, my bestfriend came to visit with a carton of vanilla ice cream in her hands.
I didn’t eat much of it, because my new favorite flavor was pistachio because you had gotten me hooked on it.
We stayed up late watching my favorite movies and she spent the night on your side of the bed.

Six days later, I took out our old pictures.
I spent hours looking over them.
I wanted to rip them apart, but I couldn’t.
I stored them in a drawer I rarely opened, instead.

Two weeks later, I finally left the house to go for a walk.
I passed by the coffee shop that we had our first date in.
I paused, debated it.
Then, I stepped inside and ordered myself a caramel macchiato instead of an espresso. The first drink I had shared with you.
I always hated the bitter taste, but I drank it anyways because you had already ordered and I was too shy to change it.

A month later, I got myself a haircut.
You liked my hair long, but I always wanted to have it short.
I always struggled with managing it.
When the stylist was done, he smiled at me and said,
“It looks lovely. You look amazing.”
I didn’t go home and cry myself to sleep that night.

Six months later, I went to the beach one early morning to watch the sunrise.
I remembered resting my head against your shoulder as we waited for the sky to burst into different colors.
You always yawned numerous times, because you hated waking up early, but you did it for me anyways. I remembered teasing you about it.
I smiled.

A year later, I met someone new.

I don’t regret what happened.
There is no point in doing so.
I am happy now,
and I hope you are too.

—  Moving on
It’s always morning after poems
Kids doing coke on bathroom counters.
It’s always cigarette smoke in my hair
Foreheads pressed to fogging car windows.
It’s always glazed and empty eyes
Have another drink
maybe just get high.
—  Post party madness// Kira Sala
BTS reaction to gf staying up very late on electronics.

btswifi said:BTS reaction to girlfriend staying up very late each night (like up to 1-3am) because she stays up watching youtube videos or scrolling through her social media (like tumblr) thanks~

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Rap Monster: *Tells about a experience he had when he tried to hide your things* “I went to hide them….and I ended up losing them . So she kicked me out the house at 2 in the morning, until I could tell her the exact location of her items.”

Originally posted by shinenamjoon

Suga: He doesn’t even care anymore. He doesn’t like it, but he’s so use to it, it’s like a everyday routine.

Originally posted by jiminnejams

Jhope: “I wish you’d pay me more attention at night, like you do that damn phone”

Originally posted by hoseokwhy

Jin: You: “Why aren’t you in bed, it’s 2 in the morning?” Him: *GIF* Is she serious right now?

Originally posted by bwiseoks

Jimin: He tries to hide all your electronics, thinking without any electronics to get on, you’ll lay with him and sleep. You walked in the room, him thinking you were coming to lay down…but instead you walked right over to the area where he TRIED to hide your things at. Welp! now he knows he can’t hide anything from you.

Originally posted by chimtae

Taehyung: You: *Recording him* “Look at this dude, it’s fucking 3 in the morning, and he’s up on his phone. I can’t sleep with you playing games in my ear, talk about no manners.” Him: *Fucking clueless ass fuck rn*

Originally posted by xcrazyfangirlx

Jungkook: “Since you stay up watching videos, here’s some quality ass shit to watch.”

Originally posted by tiredkook

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it’ll hit you in flashes.
no more good morning text,
no more goodnight kisses.
the sheets don’t smell like him anymore
and his toothbrush is gone.
 
you’ll miss the way his arms felt
the way they slid around your waist
after a long day.
how he kissed will haunt you.
you will feel the ghost of his lips
late at night when your only company
is the blinking red LED of the clock.
 
you will worry about him,
all alone in that house.
you’ll wonder at 2 am if
he too is awake and thinking of you.
you pick up your phone to call him
but think better of it.
you remember he’s not yours to take care of,
not anymore.
at 2 am it hits you.
he’s gone.
he’s really gone.
—  j.e.b. ((you didn’t think he was truly going to stay, did you?))
Headcannons: Your First Sleepover With Them.

a/n: I hope you all enjoy!

Darry:

-Darry was really worried that the boys would scare you away.

-He would ask them to tone down the crazy.

-But of course they would be just as loud and obnoxious as ever.

-While Darry cooked you sat with him and watched him with a fond smile.

-Late that night while you two were laying in bed he would apologize for all of the guys.

-You would call him crazy.

-You loved his family and his friends.

-And you made sure to tell him that.

-The next morning you got up to make everyone breakfast.

-Darry insisted that you didn’t have to because you were the guest.

-But you loved how domestic it felt.

-The boys say you make the best pancakes.

-They all want to keep you around forever.

-And Darry figures he just might.


Sodapop:

-Sodapop is just excited to be able to hold you close to him all night.

-He is really excited for your arrival and makes sure all your favorite foods are at his house.

-You guys go to bed pretty early but it’s mostly so you two can cuddle.

-You think he’s pretty adorable when he’s tired.


Ponyboy:

-He’s definitely nervous at first.

-But of course you two watched the sunset together.

-And that calmed his nervousness.

-You two would lay facing each other.

-And hold hands.

-You two would have the best late night talks.

-He would fall asleep first.

-And you would kiss his cheek before you fell asleep as well.


Two-Bit:

-Two-Bit definitely wants to build a fort with you.

-You will gather up every single pillow blanket and sheet in the house.

-And you two would actually get into it.

-And when you actually got into the fort things were so comfortable and warm.

-You two slept in the fort and woke up early the next day.

-You shifted the fort so you could still sit in it and watch cartoons while you ate breakfast.


Dally:

-Your first sleep over wouldn’t be planned.

-It would be a random surprise for both of you but you didn’t mind.

-He would give you one of his t-shirts to wear.

-And you wouldn’t want to give it back the next day.

-Dally is actually kind of cuddley when he’s tired.

-And you love laying with him.

-The next morning you two would go out to breakfast.


Steve:

-You’d sleep over Steve’s for the first time because you two were hanging out and it got to late for you to go home.

-When you two got to his house you’d eat a midnight snack of ice cream.

-You’d never been to his room before so when you were alone in there for a moment you liked to look around.

-When you two finally went to bed he was definitely the big spoon for you.

-And you absolutely loved sleeping by his side.


Johnny:

-Johnny wouldn’t bring you back to his house.

-He wouldn’t tell you why for a while until you saw the bruises on him.

-So you invited him over your house.

-You hadn’t been going out that long.

-And you figured it might be early in the relationship for a sleep over.

-But you did not want him going back to his parents.

-When he showed up at your house one night you made him hot chocolate.

-And when you want to sleep you held each other close all night.

I want to fall in love.
Deep conversations. Late night talks. Hysterical laughing. Kissing in the rain. Good morning texts. Non-awkward silences. Fooling around. Butterflies in the stomach. Holding hands. Daydreaming. Eye contact. Random surprises. Cuddles.
Someone right for me.
I’m not sure whether the right person for me is out there. But I’m happy to spend my whole life searching just in case that they do.
—  excerpt from a book that I have not wrote yet

Reblog of you think Enoch would be a full blown emo in the present.
-I mean, seriously. Nirvana, Green Day, My Chemical Romance, Black Veil Brides, Fall Out Boy, all of the other punk and emo bands.
-Like imagine him playing the guitar and growing out his hair a little more.
-All the other kids would hate it but he would love it.
-Only shopping at Hot Topic and Spencers.
-staying up late at night on aestetic blogs on Tumblr.
-having a MySpace account even though it’s so outdated -“no one understands me!”
-“be quiet Enoch! It’s like three in the morning”
-“Miss P! Tell Enoch to turn down his music! I’m trying to sleep!”
-“oh shut up Horace. Just let me be me.”
-“when I was/ a young boy/ my father/ took me into the city/ to see a matching band-” “AND THE BAND FUCKING BROKE UP.”
-his phone wallpaper would be like a really sad quote or something
I want this to be cannon.

I can’t wait to go on so many adventures with you.

I can’t wait for the drives on our way to new places when we we listen to good music and fit kisses in during every red light. The morning drives when our eyes are sleepy and we need caffeine and the sunrise makes us feel fresh and new. The late night drives where the darkness envelopes us and the cities light up our dashboard and our eyes and we feel like the night is infinite.

I can’t wait to go to shitty bars and sit in a corner together until we’re drunk enough to dance and then sneak off to have sex against the bathroom stall wall. And I can’t wait for staying out until sunrise, grabbing food at Waffle House and celebrating the beginning of another day together.

I can’t wait to find new places to eat with you and to never stop discovering stuff. To find places we love so much that we become regulars there. I can’t wait to explore our own hometown. I can’t wait for lazy days when we want to go see a new movie and cuddle in the back of a theater.

I can’t wait to travel to new places with you. Wandering around like tourists and ducking into little coffee shops when it gets cold or going for walks when the weather is nice. I can’t wait to go to new cities, states, countries with you by my side.

—  all I’ve been thinking about lately is experiencing life with you
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Man oh man! Where do I start?…We met on Tumblr a couple of years ago through the black out. She made a post about studying late so sent a DM later that evening asking her if she was still studying. She didn’t answer until late the next day and we immediately hit it of exchanging poetry and expressing our love for comics. Before I could ask for her number she asked for mine. I’ve never been so comfortable with some one in my life. It was like we were old friends reconnecting. The conversations just flowed on throughout the night and before we knew into the morning. After talking via FaceTime for a while I randomly just came out and said “ you know you’re my girlfriend right?” and without hesitation she replied “ Yes!”… I wasn’t expecting that response (i honestly don’t know what response I was expecting, but i was so hype she said yea). With her living in New York and me in Alabama it became a long distance relationship. It definitely wasn’t easy…but it was definitely worth it. By the time we finally got to visit each other our foundation of communication was so strong it was like we almost grew up together. Being with her has been nothing short of amazing. She is one of the smartest and most caring and loving person I know and she deserves it all. For the rest of my life all I want to do is take care of her, support her, love her, and build a family. She’s truly the best thing to ever happen to me and I thank God for her. I love you baby @elevatementality-mj
You know we getting married right?! Lol😘

Things Tweakers just wouldnt say!
  1. These shards are way too big
  2. man can you just cut it some ? its just too pure
  3. No.
  4. Oh, hey! A cop! Let’s go say hello.
  5. I ate a big lunch today 
  6. my mouth is so full of saliva?
  7. I don’t feel like staying up all night
  8. drugs are really bad for you.
  9. I’ve had too many bowls tonight
  10. It’s 5 o’clock in the morning. It’s WAY too early to smoke
  11. It’s 12:45 a.m. It’s too late to smoke
  12. I’m too high to have sex.
  13. No. I didn’t smoke meth before meeting your parents.
  14. America’s War on Drugs has been totally successful.
  15. Tumblr never heard of it
  16. Methed up ….i hate that blog
  17. Fuck its just a shard leave it on the floor i don’t want to worry about it and im too tired to look for it 
  18. I’m just gonna look for this thing for… three minutes
  19. Its almost time to to go, im gonna put my gear away and get ready now

We are so lost, we just hate ourselves, we live in a world we can’t understand, we fight, we cry, we give up, we can’t find ourselves. We want answers, we want love, we want passion, we want happiness.


We want to stay awake all night not because we are worried about our future, but because it’s FUN. We want neck kisses and long midnight drives, morning coffees and late night conversations, we want sadness, but no more sadness than absolutely necessary, we want to laugh until we can’t feel our stomach. We want songs that make us feel nothing and then all at once, we want confidence and self-love, we want to get crazy and drunk once in a while, we want to feel wanted, we know that nothing truly good was ever easy to get, but we want something good.


We want to feel something good, we are so tired of this, of all of this thing they call life. We just want to change something, we want to run away and be someone else, we want to smoke and lose ourselves in tobacco, we want somebody worth dying for, we want the things you can’t buy with money, we want to live in those big beautiful sunsets and talk to them, we want to chase the moon, we want to ask the stars why are they so beautiful, we just want to feel alive.