last one and i mean it this time

BNHA Chapter 161

I’m crying. I’m legit crying and it’s the first time that I really cry for a character. I’m devastated and I’m crying in the club with Toshi, Mirio and Deku. I can’t believe it but here I am.

Good Night, Nighteye.

Thank you for teaching Mirio what it means to be a hero.
Thank you for believing in him.
Thank you for giving Deku a chance.
Thank you for trying to save Toshi despite your Foresight.
Thank you for showing us what it means to gain hope again.
Thank you for your bright, last words to Mirio.
Thank you for being one of Toshi’s greatest fans.
Thank you for everything.You’ll be missed. 

Super quick Lamen comfort fic for @mxlfoydraco who is Suffering ™ with school things, and hopefully this little drabble makes things feel a little easier.  ILYSM!

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“Enough.”  The voice speaks, easy and quiet against the back of his ear, warm hands lifting him from the desk where he’s been sat hours–maybe days, who knows.  

There’s just too much to finish, too many holes to fill, too many preemptive strikes to make to ensure nothing happens to him–to them.  To their kingdom, which they’ve worked too long and too hard to keep.

Laurent knows he should argue, should push back, but it’s impossible when Damen’s massive arms encircle him, drawing him back against a large, broad, almost naked chest.  Through his own clothes, Laurent can feel the warmth seep into him, almost renewing him in a way that he can’t quite explain, but he knows by now he doesn’t ever want to live without.

Warm lips find the exposed sliver of skin just above his high collar, and they rest there, breathing him in.  “You can’t piece together our countries in a single night.  You need rest, or what good will you be to anyone.”

“To you, you mean,” Laurent snarks, but it’s without venom.

Damen knows this, laughs as he turns Laurent in his arms.  His hands, so massive one palm covers nearly all of Laurent’s cheek, move to his face and they cup it tenderly.  “I am not such a prideful man that I cannot admit I need you.”

Even after all this time, amidst all the promises they’ve made, amidst all the sacifices they’ve given for each other, for this, Damen’s honesty still makes his knees weak.  “I could last another hour or two,” he says, still pushing.

Damen smiles enough his dimple shows, and Laurent wants to push his finger into it, though he refrains.  “Yes, my love,” and the term of endearment hits him right in the gut, “I am aware of what you can do.  But you’ve sorely neglected your own needs.”

And then Damen takes over.  Then he bosses Laurent into their bedchambers, into night clothes, under the sheets of their impossibly soft bed.  It’s another shock that Damen tries nothing more than to curl Laurent against him, to hold him, to try and sieve his stress from his body by touch alone.

He asks for no more than Laurent is willing to give, and sometimes Laurent is afraid to let himself believe that Damen wants these simple, quiet moments.  That he is content with holding him just as he is with making love to him.  But there is no pressure for anything other than this, no request for more.

Just a moment which allows Laurent to relax, to let the rest of their fragile world exist outside his periphery.  Just a moment to remind himself this, this is what he fought for, this was what he was willing to let himself have.  In the end.

A Kingdom and This, as The Regent and as Kastor’s bodies rot.

He supposes there should be a part of him which feels guilty for the lives lost, but he can’t.  He’s not a better man than this, and he’s learnt to live with it.

He turns his head slightly, seeking a kiss.  One finds him, Damen’s lips pliant, soft, undemanding.  Damen’s hand brushes along his nape, into his hair, curling itself in the locks as he keeps Laurent close to him.

“Sleep, sweetheart.”

Laurent scoffs, but he lets himself fall against Damen’s chest.  Lets the gentle, steady, sure thrum of Damen’s heart guide him into sleep.  The rest of the world, at least for now, can wait.

anonymous asked:

Your kind words always make me smile. so thank you. The last one I read may have made me cry but it was beautiful. and I think that it's a good thing that it made me feel emotions from reading it because it means that someone else also felt something reading it and you may have saved a life

My dear lgbt+ kid, 

Thankyou so so much for your kind words, they really mean more to me than I can express! <3 

I have to admit I sometimes feel like I don’t really do enough, don’t really help anyone, so to get such sweet messages really encourages me. Thankyou for taking time out of your day to send me this, you made my day!   

With all my love, 

Your Tumblr Mom 

Cruelty Free Makeup Review! 💄👄

I recently went to ULTA to buy some new makeup as I stray away from products that are tested on animals. Here is a written review of the products I purchased!

Tarte:

  • Lights, Camera, Lashes Mascara - I hadn’t worn mascara in years because it always irritated my eyes. I can safely say that this mascara goes on clean with no clumps and no irritation. 10/10.
  • Sex Kitten Eyeliner - Again, eye makeup almost always makes my eyes water or smudges after a few hours of wear, but this stuff goes on clean and lasts for hours with no smudging or smearing. 10/10.
  • Amazonian Clay Waterproof Brow Pencil - As someone who practically has to draw their eyebrows on, I’m picky about the kind of pencil I use and haven’t had much luck finding one I liked, until I tried this. The pencil is self sharpening and somewhat thin for precision but it lasts all day and I even have a hard time washing it off, meaning it stays true to its claim of being waterproof. 10/10.
  • Confidence Creamy Powder Foundation - I have always hated wearing liquid foundation. It would leave my face feeling oily and heavy, not to mention the irritation I faced with having such sensitive skin. This powder foundation is thick enough to provide good coverage yet light enough for all day use with no problems. I even like that it came with a flat sponge applicator instead of a powder puff. 10/10.
  • Amazonian Clay 12 Hour Blush - This blush is amazing, hands down. I chose a color that was light enough not to be too drastic but it still provides a lovely rosy color on my cheeks. Paired with the powder foundation, it’s an unstoppable combo. 10/10.
  • Tarteist Quick Dry Lip Matte Paint (Obsessed) - Not gonna lie, it doesn’t last as long as other liquid matte lipsticks I’ve tried, but it does dry quickly and the color I chose is beautiful. It looks great so long as you aren’t eating something, otherwise it comes off pretty instantly. 8/10.

Too Faced:

  • La Creme Lip Cream (Ursula) - This comes in the form of a lipstick, but is so soft and easy to apply. Plus the color looks great. Again, not super long lasting if you plan on eating something but otherwise, dries at a decent rate and is very moisturizing. 9/10.
  • Milk Chocolate Soleil Bronzer - I’ve never really used bronzer before, so I was a little concerned, but it honestly looks great. The shade is light but definitely noticeable and works great for contouring my cheekbones. 10/10.
  • Primed and Poreless Primer - A light and moisturizing product that definitely improves the look and ease of application for any other product you want to use on your face. It is slightly tinted but I don’t notice a huge difference when applied by itself. 10/10.

Makeup Revolution:

  • Liquid Highlighter (Unicorn Tears) - I got this because I was told it was a knock off of the same product made by Cover FX, which my local ULTA did not carry. I wanted to try out a cheaper version in case I hated it so that I did not waste $40+. I’m not a huge fan of liquid makeup on my face, so it didn’t feel great when applying it, but after it dried, it looked great. It gave my face a wonderful shimmer and glow and the color I chose is absolutely stunning. 9/10.

Anastasia Beverly Hills:

  • Sugar Glow Kit - I got this as a backup for the liquid highlighter and honestly, I’m glad I did. Each shade it comes with can be applied for different occasions and can be as minimal or drastic as you want. 10/10.
  • Lip Gloss (Kristen) - This was a sample I received and although I’m not a huge lip gloss fan, I actually really like it. The color is gorgeous yet not too flashy and is great for every day use. It’s a bit sticky, but that’s to be expected with a gloss. 9/10.

Urban Decay:

  • All Nighter Setting Spray - This product definitely increases the length of wear for all of the products I mentioned above. It keeps my face looking fresh for hours and there’s no harsh scent so that’s really nice. It has kept my makeup looking fresh through 12 hour work days, nights out on the town, and even naps. 10/10.
  • Troublemaker Mascara - Another sample I received. I can definitely understand the hype around this product - no clumping, waterproof, and luscious lengthy lashes. 10/10.
  • VICE Special Effects Lip Top Coat (Litter) - I’ve only had the chance to use this once. The color is outstanding, adds a wonderful glimmer to any lipstick you are wearing. The only thing I don’t like is that it comes in the form of a paintbrush type applicator instead of the classic “doe foot wand” which I would have preferred. I feel like the paintbrush makes it a little difficult to apply evenly. I think that in the future, I will opt to get “Luna” by Black Moon Cosmetics, for a similar effect. 7/10. 

My time in the otherkin community, and how it harmed me

I’m submitting this to existing blogs instead of posting it on my own- I don’t want to be attacked, and I’m honestly scared of losing followers if I say this. With that being said, here we go. -KR

I’d like to share my experience in the otherkin community and how it has harmed me.

I used to identify as a red fox therian, dragonkin, and fictionkin of three characters, namely Peridot from SU. I identified with even more fictotypes at on each point, but luckily I was able to drop them. I had a blog that was pretty popular and respected at one point but I took it down.

Early in fall 2015, my depression was worsening and I felt like a void. I felt empty as I was losing connection to myself because of developing anhedonia. I came across otherkin on YouTube at one point, and I related to their experiences of wanting to be part of the wild, walk in family-like groups, and play the role of animals I closely connected to. Heck, I still like the thought of that whole concept. Eventually I came across the Tumblr side of things, and everything basically became a self-fulfilling prophecy.

I started looking for “memories” via meditation, and because I expected to see them, alas, I found “memories.”

I felt extremely connected to foxes and Peridot (I still do, but obviously no longer in a kin way) so those were my “main kintypes.”

It was ignorant bliss for a while, using the kin identity as a comfort/coping mechanism, but slowly I had lots of self-doubt over my newfound kin identity, and I pushed it all away, ignored it, because I wanted so desperately to be my favorite characters and fill the void my depression had been leaving me.

Repressing my doubt would only hurt me. I had a identity crisis over something that wasn’t even a real part of me.

Trust me though, many parts of this whole phase felt very real though. I had “phantom shifts” (a result of my vivid imagination), “"physical dysphoria” (which I think is worth mentioning only happened once), and even “memories.”

Let me tell you about those memories, by the way. There were vivid and spontaneous as hell, and I swear to you they felt very real. I felt some Deja vu  too and they were very well triggered by events that “reminded” me of said memory. Walking through the halls of the a gem spaceship as I handed some homework to my teacher, licking my lips at some very juicy looking blue berries when the smell of perfume smelled familiar to me, etc. I never had them before I started identifying as kin. And you know what? I never hadn’t thema gain after I dropped the kin label, either. As real as it feels, some things are just fabrications- you don’t need to be doing it consciously for it to be all in your head.

I also took the smallest parts about me and used them as explanations for being kin, as traits brought over from past lives. I thought my affinity for the forest and eating meat was part of being foxkin, although they are very normal things humans can feel. Also because I share a lot of quirks with Peridot, I thought they were traits from lives before. When really, they were just normal things that I developed in this life- such as scratching my forehead where her gem would’ve been. I did this isnce I was a child, but it was actually one of my coping mechanisms for my anxiety, not because something felt missing on my forehead.

Other excuses I used to “prove” my kin identity:

A strong pull to the forest (which is honestly pretty normal), liking to eat meat,  being able to predict what would happen in a certain series (most of the time, these are coincidences), my fear of fire and the dark (again, very normal), wanting to fly, relating to characters and feeling strongly connected to them, wanting to be a part of the fictional series I liked (honestly, who doesn’t want to be a part of their favorite movie, show or book?)

I would also make up things and overexaggerate certain memories or feelings in order to make myself feel more “valid.” When watching or reading “my canon” I forced myself to give myself anxiety during scenes my kintypes would be stressed in, and felt horrible over nothing.

My time in the otherkin community started in September 2015. I got so deep into it that I couldn’t pull myself out until late spring of 2016, where I forced myself to give it up. I was legitimately very upset, as I was very attached to my delusion and surrounded my identity around it- like I said, I felt like a void. I barely had one at the time.

I eventually started calling myself otherhearted instead. Otherhearted is just a way to say you feel very connected to a character and still feel special about it. I ditched that eventually, too, and just started collecting “comfort characters”- which, honestly, is more healthy than identifying as kin, hearted, or even copinglink will ever be.

I’m honestly very proud of being able to get rid of this before it got worse. Unfortunately, it left some lasting effects.

Because of the whole kin phase, I lost trust in myself and started doubting myself on parts of my identity I knew were 100% true, but I couldn’t believe myself on what was logically and emotionally true just because I was wrong that ONE time. My anxiety increased in general, honestly. I think it’s safe to say that if I was never otherkin, my anxiety wouldn’t have made a comeback like this.

Before older and more experienced therein get mad at me and shout “just because you were delusional, it doesn’t mean all of us are” I’m not saying that all kin are delusional or fake, but I’m saying that VERY lightly. Maybe your memories are real and you really are a wacky dragon, elf, and Lapis Lazuli thing,  I don’t know.

But what I want people to get from this is: identifying as kin, using it as a coping mechanism, etc CAN be harmful, and is most likely a phase. If you identify as kin, I just want to look over your reasons for being kin and see if they are caused by something else, or coincidence. Did you have ‘traits’ of being kin before or after you started identifying as it? How did you start being kin- were you using it as a coping mechanism initially, had a desire to be your favorite animal or character, or feel special? Be honest with yourself. Honesty is the key factor to finding out if you are really kin. Instead of looking for things that might validate your kintypes, look for things that disprove it.

Trust me, you could really help yourself in the long run.

-KR

I’m not sure when I’ll have the energy/wherewithal to write something resembling an actual review about Lady Bird, so here’s just a couple of scattered thoughts.

  • I loved this. It felt like a hug from an old friend.
  • Saoirse Ronan is completely in a league of her own in her generation of actors. I mean, in the last two years, she’s given us one of the best dramatic performances of the decade in Brooklyn and in this one of the best comedic performances.
  • Laurie Metcalf and her sad, sad eyes broke my heart and made me laugh so many times.
  • Tracy Letts is the dad everyone wants. His delivery of “Oh fuck.” Legendary.
  • Lucas Hedges has GOT to stop making me cry in movies! First Manchester by the Sea, and now this!? We can only hope he doesn’t do the same in Three Billboards. (I hope very much he keeps making me cry because homeboy is TALENTED. Can’t wait for Boy Erased.)
  • How DARE Greta Gerwig use so much Sondheim in the first half of this, ESPECIALLY Merrily We Roll Along??! Why did she tailor make this for me?? When Stephen McKinley Henderson, crestfallen, said, “They didn’t understand it,” I thought I was going to die.
  • I only sort of felt like the narrative was losing tightness once Lady Bird started making worse decisions–her relationship with Timothée Chalamet, her fake new friend, her lying, her getting suspended–but that’s so slight because it was still so good.
  • Beanie Feldstein better be a huge star after this. She was incredible.
  • Goddamn, y'all. I’ve only seen ten movies this year, but so far, my two favorites–this and Get Out–are both brazen and brilliant pieces of work from actors/writers turned first-time directors. The future of American film is bright with Greta Gerwig and Jordan Peele in the world.
Billy H Binge: Will the Wise

Three scenes this episode - lucky us! First one is more basketball, which pleases me. I mean…

I know I’m not the only one 😍

And here we see the same kind of dynamic we saw in the last basketball scene. Billy is playing much better than Steve and is using that to further establish his dominance.

But then we get something interesting. Billy bends down and gives Steve some helpful advice.

“You were moving your feet. Plant them next time. Draw a charge.”

This seems to go against Billy’s character as the Duffer bros intended (the human villain). Why would Billy try to help Steve? In my opinion, this is fleshing out Billy’s character and making him more than the new school bully. To me, Billy is using the school “king” status to build up his facade (as I have talked about before) and this gives us a glimpse past that - to see the kid that has major issues but never the less is trying in his own way.

Next we have the shower scene. Billy further shows a sort of kindness towards Steve here when he tells him, “Don’t sweat it, Harrington. Today’s just not your day, man”  And after Tommy mocks Steve about Nancy (which is such a shitty thing to do considering those two were friends last season. Ugh, I hate this guy…) Billy tells Steve, “Pretty boy like you’s got nothin’ to worry about; plenty of bitches in the sea.” Both comments seem to be showing a concern for Steve like a bro might show for another bro. (But coupled with the way he’s looking at him, I could see some lusting in there too, perhaps).

Of course, then Billy goes back to his taunting of Steve, turning off his water and leaving with an “I’ll be sure to leave you some” referring to the bitches of his previous comment.

So there are a lot of ways to see this so far, and I think all are equally valid.

1. Billy is building up his facade, but is actually trying to be decent.

2. Billy is trying to lull Steve into dropping his guard and he’s really nothing more than an asshole (to be honest, I personally find this one to be invalid, but I know some people think so therefore I added it).

3. Billy is gay and likes Steve.

The last Billy scene in this episode, he’s waiting at his car for Max. This tells me that either he has a job or something important to get to after practice/school or he doesn’t really have any friends to hang out with even though he’s the new “king.” Perhaps both.

Billy sees Max skating away from Lucas and he can see that she’s upset. In the car he tries to ask her about why she’s so upset, but being himself, he doesn’t do it in a good way.  “Why do you care?” Max asks, “Because, Max, you’re a piece of shit but we’re family now whether we like it or not; Meaning I’m stuck looking out for you.” This exchange tells me that Billy does care about Max. He is still resentful of her for some reason (which will be speculated about later) and he just absolutely sucks at communicating and showing it but I don’t see any other reason for him to acknowledge that they are family and say “I’m stuck looking out for you.” Even if he was told to look after her, I don’t think he would put the effort into it if there wasn’t a tiny bit of him that cared. Dacre even mentioned this in the buzzfeed interview that I posted. Also, just from personal experience, this is also the way that some siblings show love to each other. It’s that way for me and my brother. It’s also that way for Sam and Dean Winchester (of Supernatural, who care about each other but call each other Jerk and Bitch). I don’t think Max feels loved, and that is something Billy will need to work on. This relationship needs to be mended, I’m not saying it’s great. I am only sharing what I think Billy thinks and feels based on this scene.

“This is serious shit, okay? I’m older than you. And something you learn is that there’s certain types of people in this world that you stay away from. And that kid, Max, that kid is one of them. You stay away from him.” Ah, this line… I got hate for this line. I don’t want to fight anyone about it and it is totally fine if you disagree with me. I do not think this is about race. I think Billy would have been equally hostile to Dustin if Max was hanging out with him instead. But I do see how the wording could lead someone to see it as a racist issue (and if we find confirmed racism in season 3, I will admit to a wrong interpretation, ‘kay?). I think Billy is either trying to protect Max here because he saw her upset after interacting with this kid. Or he is trying to control her life because he feels so out of control in his own life. 

Another thought I’ve seen on here is that maybe Billy’s dad is racist and Billy is trying to insure that Max won’t be beaten and abused like himself. I like that idea, too, but like I said, my first thought is that race is only an issue because Lucas happens to be black and I think hostility would be the same towards white Dustin.

Shit’s getting real with the kiddo starting school. Only one transition session left, starting to think uniforms, figuring out my annual leave for the first week of school (they have shortened days), swapping my work days around for the first month of school (they skip Wednesday’s for the first month)… all the crazy planning.

I can’t believe he’s old enough to be ready for school, but he clearly is just from talking to him and watching him interact with the world around him.

What am I going to do when I lose two of the days we hang out and do stuff together?

Chapter 161 Thoughts

I was a little late getting to this because I had to stay at school a lot later due to a sort of ceremony everyone had to attend but okay! Let’s get cracking.

This chapter is very satisfactory. Almost makes up for all the weirdness in the plot from chapter 159.

So first off, someone FINALLY dies. For a long time, serious consequences in this manga were at most severe injuries, such as Aizawa’s face and Thirteen’s body from the USJ incident, and this, at last, shows the lethalness and the danger of the job. I mean, I love Sir, he’s one of the characters that I enjoyed a lot more than I thought I would, and I’m sad that he’s left, but the good kind of sad. The sad when someone’s at peace and leaves this world with a smile on their face. Or simply, IT WAS ABOUT TIME SOME CONSEQUENCES POPPED UP.

Secondly, I’m glad that Hori made an attempt to fix the atrocious ending to chapter 159. I was never a fan of the whole “the future is fixed and you cannot change it” trope in stories and this sorta wraps it up more nicely than having Deku be a sort of future defying ridiculous main character. Yes, it doesn’t make sense, but at least the whole “everyone was willing it, and this will caused it to happen” thing seems a lot better.

Then there’s the best part. Disregarding the first chapter (like, I know how it feels to have your hopes and dreams crushed. I’ve experienced it before. Literally. I’ve been working for my whole life so that I’d be able to publish ONE book and prove to myself that I was an author, and then my mom told me that I wouldn’t be able to do it because it would cost too much.), I haven’t cried once in this whole manga (I’ve become immune to most feelsy stuff because of how much reading I do. Want some feels? Read a book), and now I’ve broken my streak. I’ve always had a soft spot for familial love, and seeing Mirio so desperately clinging to Sir, his own father figure, even more desperately than All Might or Deku, it made me tear up a little. The relationships between teacher and student are very well done in this manga, and just this little scene with Mirio and Sir was wonderfully executed. Mirio’s lost his quirk, was beaten nearly half dead by he Yakuza, and he still cares more about Sir, who very nearly means the world to him, even more than himself. It reminds me a little of how Deku desperately clung to All Might even after his power had totally disappeared, only on a larger scale. I wonder how Mirio will take this. Will he be motivated to become better and stronger like Deku did, or will he fall into despair and have to have his friends to fix him back up? Who knows. But anyways, this is the part that fixes chapter 159. Well done Hori, hats off to you.

Also, Rock Lock. His wife cares about him so much. It was just one panel, but it was beautiful. Photo for emphasis:

Now, onto the part where I’m a little concerned about. Aizawa (yes, he’s my favourite character, of course I’d be concerned, also shut up). He had ten stitches. He’s totally nonchalant about it. If you take it my way, this could imply a lot about underground heroes. If ten stitches from a villain raid is NOTHING, then this means that underground hero work is as or even more intense than this. And that Aizawa’s probably ended up in the hospital more times than we’ve been shown.

Next up, Eri. Aizawa repeats various times that right now, he’s the only one that can prevent her from melting anyone away, and a lot of other oddly specific facts. It could imply that Eri will be important in future chapters. Or that I’m overthinking it.

I’m not too concerned about anyone else, they look just fine to me.

General opinion? This was a very good chapter. Thank you, Hori.

anonymous asked:

Do you think you'll ever host another meetup?? If you can you totally should Bc I'd be able to meet my bf for the first time if we both had an excuse to go to boston

oh shit i mean,,, i like meetups a lot and the last bmc one (im assuming thats what ur talkin about?) was a lot of fun! im not sure there would be enough interest tbh in a boston bmc meetup?? i could try but im unsure many people would come hmm hmm

hi so. i finally finished 24 hours, my laundromat yoonseok fic, after thirty years between the last chapter and this one. i think everyone forgot about it but 10/10 chapters now, gosh. this fic means a lot to me, idk why. maybe because those boys are such sweethearts. maybe because i also spend a lot of time at the laundromat since my washing machine died. idk idk. thank you to everyone who has read it, especially you kids who left sweet comments or kudos an stuff, i appreciate it so much ily ily ty ty ♡♡♡ you can read it here

edit: i accidentally it deleted but managed to back a bunch of times and find the proper version lmao. truly i am the stupidest person on the planet. link is fixed now s m h

anonymous asked:

i call this strange because im trans ig?? i mean im ♀ trying to transform into a ♂ ig... but anyway its really scary at times bc my period hasnt come on in a few weeks since my last one in October and idk if its good or? like terrified.

Missed periods pre T are never really a great sign, and if it remains consistently late/doesn’t come at all you should speak to your GP so they can check you over and make sure nothings wrong! -Matt

spotsupblaze  asked:

AU means alternative universe. It's practically same like Margin's stories, but are different in something. To be on your side though, I wouldn't want to talk with man capable of nice swings with axe as well.

I haven’t bother reading any of those.

Yeah no it’s not fun. Last time I got a bit too close and he got me a little bit… I mean… I saw the cut and figured it was the axe… Kinda have a fuzzy memory of it actually…

I don’t remember any of the other times I chased him or anything but I remember that one. I just sorta remember a lot of pain, and saw a cut in my shoulder, and then Henry was running away. It wasn’t very deep but it still hurt… Least it was ink and not a real body… Ink fixes itself pretty quick.

I know no one wants to hear about this but I just have to. I did respond negatively towards an “ask”, but last time I checked I was entitled to my opinion and this is my page. Of course the person who submitted it is entitled to say whatever he/she wants. I understand. I was just reacting to it. I know I’ll receive messages like the ask I received in the future, I’m not naive. However, I do want to address this respect part. Just because a woman puts herself out there like I do, does NOT mean we/I don’t respect ourselves. To me, the only reason someone would even say I don’t respect myself is because the person saying it doesn’t find it respectful.

I really apologize for the brief moment of drama. I hope I didn’t upset or offend anyone. On that note, I hope you all have a fantastic rest of your evening! 😊💜

okay, i don’t hate kids. i think they’re sort of funny. i like that you can talk to them like an adult and they’ll make sounds like they understand. i taught one kid “phosphorescence” and he looked at me and said, “they could just call it glowing if it means something that glows.” the kid undid the entire science community in one sentence.

but i hate kids.

or really, i hate how they’ve always been expected from me.

when i was five i was given “babies.” i hated the hardness of dolls, disposed of them for dramatic stories between stuffed animals. i knew how to wrap, feed, and care for a baby before i could spell my last name. when i was nine i was already “watching the kids”. i was only four years older than my cousins were. i wanted to go out and play. instead i was expected to have responsibility. by the time i was thirteen all of my friends had told me about how many children they were going to have in their twenties. 

my hips were “child-bearing” hips. my brother was a scientist, or a fireman, or a steamroller. i was going to make a good housewife, or mom, or nanny, or mom, or mom, or mom.

and when my body hurt, i was told it wasn’t really my body, not really, it belonged to my future children. i couldn’t cut or snip or tie anything; i was trapped by the potential energy that hung above me. a boulder, threatening. i couldn’t get tattoos, because what would i tell my children? i couldn’t kiss a girl, because what would i tell the children? i couldn’t be risky or wild or anything but a lady, because what about the children?

and when i said “i don’t want children” - not biologically, at least, not when cancer and depression and a whole other host of terrible things lives inside me - do you know what they said? “it’ll change, wait and see” “it’s not bad” “you’ll get used to it” “when you meet the right man” “you don’t want to be lonely”.

i don’t hate kids. i’m great with them. 

but then i’m told again that my life will be forfeit to them - something in me snaps angry. “wait until you have kids” “you should travel before you have children” “you’ll be more happy.” 

i hate kids! i’ve snarled. i don’t mean it at all. but god. please, leave me alone. i don’t want to be a biological mom. 

it’s like we’re born with a uterus and told “this is your whole life. your singular purpose. your job.” 

i want to be my own purpose. not here for the sake of passing genes on.

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aka “jake peralta is bisexual and i have the receipts”

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Anon said: i love ur fusion art!!!! if u have time/want to you should do a bakushima fusion

You’re not the only one that asked, but actually I already did draw it! It’s the first one I’ve drawn haha I felt like drawing it again tho, so here’s a doodled comic of the first time they fused accidentally ✌️

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I can’t believe David Benioff confirmed that Jondry is real. 

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all the times he surprised her and the one time he didn’t…