last book i loved

I’m losing my fucking mind over you.
I still love you.
And, without lying to myself, I think I always will.
—  Nicole Torres // excerpt from a book I’ll never write; E.M //

Okay but if Jem Carstairs can be a good and kind person after being tortured nearly to death and being fatally ill for years after because of that, and hearing his parents scream for him whilst they were being tortured to death and then living in a place with a girl who hated them all, and a boy who tried to get everyone to hate him, then a girl who he is in love with, having the knowledge that he’d die before his time and never be able to live the entirety of his life with her, all whilst helping defeat the antagonists and never, ever complaining, then anyone can be a good and kind person too.

Things Each Musical Reminds Me Of

*based on the period of my life when I listened to the musical the most, not the actual content of the musical; though it’s kind of funny how each musical relates to what it reminds me of

Wicked: unexpectedly starting a conversation with an old friend and realizing you miss them

The Phantom of the Opera: the kind of love you don’t expect anything from

RENT: rebelling against your parents for the first time

The Sound of Music: finding family in friends you never expected to meet

Newsies: adventures and memories that come from the people you were with not the places you went

Les Miserables: disappointment you won’t remember in a month but you needed to experience

Next to Normal: self-growth when you least expect it

The Last Five Years: losing what you were looking for but finding something better

If/Then: independence is not loneliness

Love Never Dies: sharing something you love with your friends because you want them to know how important they are to you

Avenue Q: going on a road trip with your best friend and singing until your throat is raw

Spring Awakening: continuously learning and falling in love with something you already know so well

The Book of Mormon: second-hand happiness because the person who means so much to you is where they want to be

Daddy Long Legs: accidental all-nighters reading horoscopes with your friends

Fun Home: allowing yourself time for growth; accepting not everything has to come at once

Hamilton: meeting someone once and knowing from then on you won’t go a day in your life without them

Heathers: the worst new beginnings that somehow still lead to the best new things

In the Heights: forgetting why you started doing something and beginning to do it for yourself

Dear Evan Hansen: the trust someone hands you when they introduce you to their favorite band

Waitress: a person you associate with your entire life but you’ve only known a short while

Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812: forgiveness you don’t deserve and the hope that comes from your lowest moments

Falsettos: long distance friendships with origin stories no one will believe

Cabeswater’s magician and dreamer

It’s strange, yknow, because everything in my life usually feels wrong.

But you’ve never felt wrong to me.

—  Nicole Torres
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Can you imagine, finally showing your true self to your spouse, your soul mate, and having him not like you?

acowar aftermath ❤️

Done and done and done and done. 

I am full, so full–of hope and tears and smiles and gratitude. 

This story–Feyre’s story, is one that will stay in my heart for a good long while.

Thank you Sarah. These books, these characters, their stories–they’re gifts. All of them. 

Losing you was never easy.

Come to think of it, neither was loving you but we made it work for awhile, didn’t we?

We existed, didn’t we?

Or is my mind so lost without you that it’s playing tricks on me.

—  Nicole Torres //excerptExisting Magic ;
Musicals that definitely need more songs on their soundtracks and in general
  • Wicked
  • Dear Evan Hansen
  • Something Rotten!
  • Hamilton
  • The Color Purple
  • Hairspray
  • RENT
  • The Phantom of the Opera
  • The Book of Mormon
  • The Last Five Years
  • Falsettos
  • Natasha, Pierre and the Great Comet of 1812
  • Les Misérables
  • In the Heights
  • If/Then
  • School of Rock
  • Bright Star
  • Tuck Everlasting
  • Finding Neverland
  • Next to Normal
  • Waitress
  • Catch Me If You Can
  • Fiddler on the Roof
  • Heathers
  • Fun Home
  • Gigi
  • Beautiful: The Carole King Musical
  • Into the Woods
  • The Hunchback of Notre Dame
  • The Sound of Music
  • West Side Story
  • Newsies
  • Matilda
  • Kinky Boots
  • Spring Awakening
  • The Wiz
  • And
  • Every
  • Other
  • MUSICAL
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Ezra Miller as Sirius Black is, and forever will be, my favorite Harry Potter fan cast.

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