‘you should have been born a boy’
she said to the excitable kid
with scraped-up knees
muddy hands and
unruly tangled curls
coming in from playing football.
‘i’m sure you should have been a boy’
she said to the child sat
crying over an argos catalogue
because the red power ranger costume
didn’t come in ‘girls sizes’.
‘for god’s sake, i thought i raised a girl’
she said to the teenager asking
for a laser quest party for their 16th
for clothes from the men’s section
for permission to cut all their
‘beautiful long curls’ off that you always said
but then you discovered that you
didn’t raise a girl.
and you also didn’t raise a boy.
you raised something,
new, remixed, not-quite-girl
and they wanted to be called they.
and you said you still loved them
and you said you would try
but nothing changed.
i am the daughter
i ‘should have been born a boy’
i am ‘them’
surely your first born is worth the effort of
a single syllable
i’m from a straight cis family
in a straight cis community
in a STRAIGHT
so how are they supposed to know
feels like a punch in the gut and every
feels like a razor cut and
i know exactly what that feels like
‘all you talk about is pronouns
there are people fighting wars!’
well i’m at war with a world
that doesn’t believe i even
fucking deal with the fact that
the world is changing and
you encouraged me to be myself
to aim high and achieve my dreams
well i HAVE found myself
and they are right here, in front of you, bearing their soul
opening themself up to you
straining for your approval
for your acceptance
so whether i was raised a girl
or should have been born a boy
this is what you’re stuck with
this is WHO you’re stuck with
so suck it up
because i don’t plan on leaving anytime soon.
Kaskade Redux was one of the best shows I’ve been to. I had been waiting YEARS to see a redux set and just the other night that dream came true. From the pitch black opening to him closing the night with 4AM, everything was perfect. Had the most amazing group of people to go with too which made this night extra special.