Lately I’ve been getting attention from guys, alot of it. But somehow I still feel like the most repugnant person in this lifetime. 6 years ago I believed that if I got at least one boy to like me l, I’d officially love myself, but now there’s a good bunch of them,and I don’t love myself. I hate myself. I hate seeing myself I feel awful and I hate my grey discoloured skin, and the awful purple bags under my eyes, the scar on my nose, the scar on my lip, my fucking eyebrows my almond shaped disgusting sad pathetic eyes. I don’t even like who I am. I hate how fucking gullible I can be and how my hopes are easily lifted and dragged down. I don’t know how to feel and its fucking with me.