The trial is done.  The jury decided.  Death penalty.  

I don’t know how I feel.  

On April 15, 2013, I finished my last marathon.  I turned right on Hereford and then left on Boylston.  I ran down the final straightaway.  I passed the Forum Restaurant.  I passed Marathon Sports.  I crossed the finish line.

When the bombs exploded, I was more than a mile away.  I didn’t even hear them go off.  I found out what happened when I turned on the TV to see who had won the race.  

No one I knew personally was hurt that day.  There were some tense moments when we all tried to find out if our loved ones were ok.  Some of my friends were nearby when the explosions happened and some had close calls.  But they all went home that night. 

That day was surreal.  The week that followed was even more so.  

Today is a hard day.  I wasn’t expecting it to be, but it is.

What I want most is for him to go away.  I want him to be forgotten.  

I want the families of Martin Richard, Krystle Campbell, Lingzi Lu, and Sean Collier to find peace.  I want those who were injured and survived to find peace.  

I want us to remember what happened that day.  I want us to remember those who died.  I want us to remember those who survived. 

But I want him to become nothing.  I want to forget his name.  Because he and his brother don’t deserve to be remembered.  

My fear is that this isn’t over.  That he will have many more days in court.  That the final resolution to this will take many years or even decades.  And that the families and survivors will get dragged through the pain over and over and over again.  

I don’t know what the jury should have done.  I don’t know what would be justice.  To my mind, death penalty vs. life imprisonment is both a win-win and a lose-lose.  Some who were directly impacted want him dead.  Others want him locked away forever.  

I’m glad I don’t have to decide.  

What I do know is that I love Boston.  I love the Boston Marathon.  

And that right now, I don’t know if I am happier or sadder because of the sentence.

Some Thoughts

I’ve been following the news quite a bit since the Boston bombings but have pretty much kept my mouth shut about everything except when talking to my mom.  The thing that is making me most frustrated is the media is focusing on the suspects and not enough on the victims.  The suspects chose to do what they did regardless of them being “brainwashed” or whatever else is being said to defend them.  I hope justice is served to the fullest with the suspect that is still alive.

I could have easily lost a close friend who was close to the second explosion.  I am so glad I learned about this the day after this happened because I would have freaked out.  

Look at how many people were injured and lost limbs.  Look at the three innocent people who died in the explosions.  Look at the MIT officer, Sean Collier, who was killed senselessly.  These poor people did nothing to deserve what they got yet they are pulling through and being heroes behind the scenes.  And let’s not forget the first responders and good samaritans who helped complete strangers who were injured because if it hadn’t been for them there probably would have been more deaths.

What gets me the most is seeing pictures of Krystle Campbell probably because she is the most relatable of all the victims to me.  Those blue eyes and her smile will only be seen in pictures.  She was a beautiful woman who was just there with her best friend to take pictures of her friend’s boyfriend as he crossed the finish line.  Even though I never knew her in some ways I feel like I did.  My heart breaks for her family and friends.  It’s so hard to believe that life can be ripped away so quickly.  

My thoughts and prayers remain with the victims.  I am proud to be a Massachusetts citizen and see our city persevere after such a horrible tragedy.  I wish the best of luck to all of those affected.  

The Boston Bombing Trial Verdict: Dzhohkar Tsarnaev Found Guilty On All 30 Charges, 17 Of Which Call For The Death Penalty

What We Know So Far

  • Dzhokhar​ ​Tsarnaev​ ​has been convicted of all 30 charges for the April 2013 Boston Marathon bombing — the worst domestic terrorism attack since 9/11, killing three people at the scene and injuring 260 others. A fourth person, a police officer, later died in a shootout.
  • A bombing survivor speaking on behalf of the victims said they were “obviously grateful for the outcome today.”
  • The trial now goes into the sentencing phase, where the jury could decide that Tsarnaev will be sentenced to die.
  • Tsarnaev was found guilty of conspiracy to use a weapon of mass destruction. He’s also been found guilty in the deaths of Krystle Campbell, Officer Sean Collier, Lingzi Liu, and Martin Richard.
  • Defense attorneys during the trial directly said “he did this” and “it was him.” Tsarnaev’s lawyers have been more focused on saving him from the death penalty, mainly by arguing he was under the influence of his older brother, Tamerlan, who died during the attacks.
  • A jury of 7 women and 5 men decided​ ​his​ ​fate.
  • U.S. vs Dzhokhar Tsarnaev is the most high-profile federal terrorism trial in the United States since Timothy McVeigh was tried for the Oklahoma City bombing in 1997.