By putting up walls, you think you’re protecting yourself, but you get to live less. You’re depriving yourself of so much if you’re trying to be too aware of what you’re putting out there. If you feel someone breaking those walls down, let them. Those are the people that you need to find in life, rather than people that you’re just comfortable with.
I like to believe that I’m living as honestly and authentically as possible. I’m a lot happier and I’m feeling really good. I feel I can be myself more and not allow myself to get sidetracked by other considerations or advice from people. Earlier in my career I had too many people telling me what I should be doing and it was hard for me to deal with all that. That was very confusing for me because I’ve always been the type of person who likes to do her own thing. But when your career reaches a certain level there are so many responsibilities that come with that and sometimes you feel that your life is not your own anymore. That’s why I decided to change a lot of things about how I was working and try to be true to myself.
I didn’t carve out some path. I didn’t fight hard to be taken seriously. As much as the ‘Twilight’ series shaped and defined me for other people in a grand way, for me it wasn’t something I had to get away from. It was just a long experience on a movie that I liked.
There’s acceptance that’s become really rampant and cool. You don’t have to immediately know how to define yourself. I had to have some answer about who I was. I felt this weird responsibility, because I didn’t want to seem fearful. But nothing seemed appropriate. So I was like, ‘Fuck, how do I define that?’ I’m not going to. Plus, I didn’t want to fuck with other people. I didn’t want to be this example: It’s so easy. I don’t want it to seem like it was stupid for them to have a hard time.