knowyourworth

FORGIVE

I’m not writing this to tell yourself to forgive every person who has hurt you. I’m writing this to forgive yourself for the decisions you’ve made. At a certain point in your life, you truly believed that decision was right. Maybe you knew it was wrong but you wanted to take the risk. and that’s more than okay. We all stay longer in relationships in hopes they’ll get better. We love harder and longer in hopes of reciprocation. We love others more than ourselves because at one point we believed everything we have given to someone would somehow be given back and more. Wrong. After my most recent relationship has failed. I have hit rock bottom. I have come to conclusions that self love is the only answer to survive this life. Without self love, everything in your life can easily be manipulated with clouded judgement. Know yourself and love yourself enough to walk away from people and environments that do NOT serve your growth and purpose.

I will not fight for anyone to stay.
I will not force someone to take the same risk for me as I would for them.
I would not fight for someone to love me. Therefore, I won’t settle with someone who doesn’t know my worth.
I’m worth more than that.

Know your worth.

—  YP
You sometimes forget your value, you sometimes forget how beautiful you are. You sometimes settle for less because you do not want to be alone and you would be okay. You sometimes forget what your smile does to people. You sometimes forget how much you deserve to be confident.
—  I want you to always always remember you are beautiful and you deserve the best. Before you fall in love with yourself, you will keep giving everyone a ticket to hurt you.

Ich kenne meinen Wert,weißt du?
Ich weiß,wer ich bin und was ich kann.Worauf ich stolz sein kann.Was mich zum Zerbrechen brachte und was mich kämpfen ließ.Was mir meine Stärke zurückbrachte.Wie stark ich dann tatsächlich wurde.
Ganz ehrlich,ich mag mich und bin verdammt stolz auf alles,was ich bisher geleistet hab.
Und weißt du was?Ich hab es nicht nötig mir Anerkennung von irgendwelchen Typen zu holen,die mir Gefühle vorgaukeln,nur um mich ins Bett zu kriegen.
Ich verurteile dich nicht dafür.Mach was du willst.Es ist dein Körper und deine Seele.
Wenn du denkst,es tut dir gut,tu es.Wenn du denkst,du verdienst nichts Besseres,tu es.Wenn du seinen Worten glaubst,tu es.Wenn du nur Spaß haben willst,tu es.
Aber frag dich irgendwann mal,warum du das machst.
Verlier dich in jedem,suche das,was du in diesen Nächten nie finden wirst.
Selbstliebe.
Denn die kann dir kein Typ dieser Welt schenken.Die muss von dir allein kommen.
Und dazu musst du deinen eigenen Wert kennen und schätzen lernen…

I used to real life be ashamed of my boobs, my freshman year of high school these things were always covered up you couldn’t find a single picture of me with the slightest hint of cleavage. I wore sweatshirts & larger shirts just so I wouldn’t draw any attention to them. People prayed & payed for boobs and I hated them. I was so self conscious like omg they’re too big why would anyone want this & then… I grew up lol It wasn’t until I really embraced the one thing I was self conscious about that I took control of my low self esteem. I blossomed when I acknowledged that. 😭 Nonetheless fck what you think I’m feelin myself.