knows my fangirl life

Me: I should probably stop reading or I’ll never get up.

Also me: clicks next chapter because what if I die before I can finish this fanfic

Also me: I’m so useless what even is my life

Every time I go out in public I wonder how many people read gay smut in their spare time

What she says: I’m fine

What she means: Why doesn’t Dallon get appreciated? He’s a precious tall flower and his bass lines are the raddest shit I’ve ever heard. Yet, Zack and Brendon treat him like he’s a touring member only. Wikipedia and Facebook still say he’s official. What does that mean? Does it mean that Zack doesn’t know shit and Brendon wants to be the center of attention? Or that Dallon got demoted and we don’t know about it? Why wasn’t he on the red carpet at the APMAs? Is this a sign that he’s not official anymore? Apparently he’s not writing songs for the upcoming P!ATD album either. Dallon’s twitter bio was changed from “member of @ panicatthedisco” to “bass for @ panicatthedisco” and he called P!ATD “Brendon’s band”. Does this mean anything?? Does Dallon really think he’s unimportant? Because that’s so not true and it breaks my heart that a wonderful person like Dallon would think that low of himself. Who is he shading on Twitter lately? Who hurt Dallon and made him that salty? Have Brendon or Zack something to do with this? B & Z always make fun of Dallon and I don’t like it at all. Leave D alone. “haha fans don’t want to have Kenny or Dallon in their picture with Brendon :D” you’re so funny Zack!!! Why don’t more people aknowledge that Dallon is an important part of P!ATD?? Would a demotion mean he’d get paid less? We already know he had to have several side jobs in the past although he already was an official member of Panic! at the Disco. I’m worried. “What if he doesn’t want be be in the spotlight?” He stated that he prefers to be in front of the camera and not behind on Twitter and he also could’ve helped writing songs for the upcoming P!ATD album if he really prefers to be “behind the camera”. It looks like Brendon wants to do everything on his own for the new album instead of doing a solo project. He confirmed the upcoming album is kind of a Brendon solo thing. Was he serious about that?? Update: 8/22/15 periscope: Someone asked about a possible Panic! split and Brendon laughed and replied that he can’t split himself in half. So…..P!ATD is a Brendon solo thing now?? What happened to the *band* P!ATD?? Why the fuck is P!ATD still labeled as a “band”???? I’m happy if Dallon’s happy but….. Dallon aka the tall sunflower deserves better.

“It took us a while
With every breath a new day
With love on the line
We’ve had our share of mistakes
But all your flaws and scars are mine
Still falling for you.

I’ve been working on this for a while for myself so I thought what better day to put it up than Valentine’s Day! 

I get nervous about posting more personal artwork but those of you who know me know I’m a huge fangirl and these two have been my life for 5 years now, so I hope you can allow me some indulgence!

Besides they really do belong together right? ;)


눈 감았다 뜨니 어느새 27 years old
- Happy Yonghwa Day


Block 211 Row N Seat 21/22

I’m reposting this because a) my top got ruined and had to remake it b) I like these photos better c) the concert is closer now (2 DAYS).

So I’m going to see Taylor in Manchester and I’m really excited because I’ve been a Swiftie since 2009 and missed out on Speak Now Tour and Red so I was screaming when I got 1989 tickets. It was unbelievable. I met so many amazing people through Taylor and gained so many new friends and I love her for helping me with that. I grown a family through sites like Tumblr and Twitter. I will be attending the tour with my dad because my sister booked a holiday and is gutted she is missing it and all my friends couldn’t get tickets or don’t like her. I love my dad though and know he supported me with this fangirl life and am thankful for that. I just give some credit to my Nan, she helped with the sign, tutu, top and bought me the awesome clutch. Of course I done a lot of the work but helped with sewing, getting things neat and was so amazing (she loves you as much as I do) she gave me £50 towards merchandise and I’m putting my own money on top of that. She is also the biggest Tayvin shipper I know, she loves you guys. I am so excited and blabbed to so many friends how I feel and just can’t wait to be in the same place as you for the first time. I really hope I meet you obviously but even if I don’t I want to try and meet your mum (mom) cause I heard she is awesome or even if I can’t do that you will find me at Taylor Nation or the girl buying one of everything at the merch stand. I love you more than words can describe, see you in Manchester!

It’s so strange to think that something I’ve been counting down to for months is so close but will be gone so soon. I can’t believe it but I’m so excited and nervous, I’m nervous just showing up I can’t imagine how you must feel.


So i finished carry on by rainbow rowell and i don’t even know what to do with my life anymore???

I mean i bought fangirl the second it came out, and i followed rainbow on twitter after i finished it, so i completely freaked the fuck out when she announced she was actually writing a simon and baz book, and i followed all the developments obsessively

So i’ve essentially been waiting for this book for like 2+ years and i finished it in 3 days and like??? Now what????????