Seeing someone lose it like that. You know, it reminded me of how I feel sometimes. Like I’m on the verge of just blowing up. All the stress and pressure and anxiety just bubbling up. But I’m never able to let it out like that. You know, I just keep it inside.
I don’t know how you cant see it.
Everyone around us can fucking see it.
Who knows you better than I do? Who do you vibe with better than me?
We stay up talking for hours, about every damn subject. We know each other inside and out.
I push you to do better, to be better. and still you cant fucking see it.
You look at me and don’t see me, and Its not fucking fair because I see you. I see us, I see everything with you. I can’t look at another person, let alone be with another person. So I don’t know how you can be with her. I don’t know how you can love someone else when I’ve been here for so damn long, when I am whats best for you.
I don’t know how you can’t see how amazing this can be if you just let it.
Have you ever thought that maybe its not working with all these others because you are supposed to be with me? because its only going to work with me?
God did you ever even think about it? about us?
In the left picture I was just as lost as I look. Lost mentally, lost when it came to school, relationships, everything. It has been a long time coming and I cannot stress this enough, stop tearing down people who love everything about them. You never know how long it took for them to love their self. I have been around people who literally smacked my phone out of my hand and said I take too many selfies, out of hate bc I LOVE ME! What is wrong with admiring myself? this new body that I WORKED for. I deserve to take as many god damn selfies I want. If I call myself pretty everyday so what. I have to keep reminding myself that I am beautiful inside and out. So if you know someone who you think is “too cocky” or “too full of their self” don’t be so quick to judge.
Art Tips/Hacks except FOR ONCE THEY ACTUALLY WORK?!
This is some stuff I’ve picked up in the last seven-eight months and it’s actually incredibly useful.
1. Do not be afraid to use guidelines/perspective lines. They’re very helpful when drawing faces or landscapes, and unless you know the basics of portraiture or perspective inside and out your artwork could look a little off. Nobody is going to criticise you for using them to get your proportions right. You’re free to use guidelines until you’re certain you’re comfortable without them (even then, you should probably still use them).
2. You can mix paint on ANYTHING. Seriously. Trust me on this one. You don’t need to go out and buy a fancy expensive palette which you’re just going to get dirty anyway. Use almost anything you have to hold paint - scrap paper, cardboard, plastic containers, paper plates, etc, etc. Egg boxes are the best in my opinion. There is virtually no point in spending money on a palette as most of them are ridiculously overpriced - yes, sometimes it can help, but as long as something is strong enough to hold the paint and it’s easily disposable, you can use anything and everything you can get your hands on (and anyway, scraping acrylic off a palette is an absolute nightmare).
3. I’ve said this time and time again but I need to save everyone from forgetting this like I did: PLEASE, GOD, DO NOT WORK SMALL SCALE. If you’re trying to draw something with small details, WHY, OH WHY would you squish it into the corner of the page?! Do not strain your hands or your eyes by making tiny illustrations. You can use as much space as you need. Use a third of the page, half the page - Hell, use the entire page if you want to! You’ll find that you can get much more detail in if you work on a larger scale.
4. References will need to become your best friend. Please don’t try to wing it and have it come out wrong if you’re unsure of how to draw it when you could turn to your friend the Internet and let her help you? LET THE INTERNET HELP YOU, SHE KNOWS WHAT SHE’S DOING. I’ve found that Pinterest is the best place to find drawing references, and there are a lot of helpful guides for drawing and colouring as well.
Speaking of references, don’t want to print out the photo or have to flip between your entertainment and the picture in different windows? Make the reference picture your wallpaper so you can just minimise the tab. For example, here is mine:
Remember that PPT is very powerfull tool. The moment that you open it and start clicking slides it becomes the center of everybody attention. But good PPT presentation is not the star of the show, the presenter is. Here are some tips I use to prepare myself:
• Never read your slide. No metter how lazy or how uninterested in particular topic I am, I would not let myself to read from slide. You have to know your slides inside out.
•I make flash cards with the text I have to remember, and highlight keywords I used in slides, so that I can easily connect it.
• It is very important to speak freely. You don’t have to stick 100% to your text from flash cards.
• Speak with confidence. Only knowing your material, and by this I don’t mean learning it by heart but with understanding, will give you confidence.
• Be loud and clear. To master this, practice in front of the mirror or in front of your bestfriend.
• It is very important to maintain eye contact with the audience.
• Don’t speak too fast.
• Pause when you want to emphasize key points.
• Be active, don’t be motionless.
• Practice, practice and practice. Did I said you should practice?
• Keep in mind that presentations should be no longer than 10-15 minutes, if they are longer listeners will easily get bored.
• Make it flow throughout the presentation with appropriate repetition.
P.S. Don’t forget that technology is not always our best friend and sometimes it can fail when least expected. Keep in mind to make few copies of PPT, on USB stick, on e-mail, etc. so that if one fails you have back up plan.