Crisp, painfully smooth sheets of paper sit on your stand for the first time. Notes and patterns now unfamiliar, exotic, exciting, that you’ll soon be able to sing backwards and trace out from memory.
You stutter through the phrases, stopping every now and again to examine the ink. Scratches and incoherent marks appear on the fresh page that mean nothing to anyone else but map out a routine, a journey, in your head.

The arrogant, relentless snap of the metronome pushes you forwards as you trip over the runs. Patterns slowly emerge through the music taking place. As you pack away, aching with the satisfaction of work well done, one phrase lodges itself in your head and circles around, kindling the excitement of coming back and working on something new for tomorrow.

You stumble into awakening and are warming up your fingers, rippling through scales before your mind has stopped sleeping. You’re rubbing your eyes and squinting at your stand long after dark, rolling your shoulders back to push away the fatigue for another half hour. Slowly, slowly, amongst the frustrated yells, triumphant air punching, maniacal tapping of rhythms and phrases every waking moment and relentless repetition, a piece of music is forming. Finally, the enjoyment of flying through the pages and knowing roughly what you’re doing thrills you.

It’s only two weeks away! You clench your fists and clamp back a yell at the page as you play the same mistake for what feels like the millionth time. You know every crevice of the music inside and out, but everything has lost that initial spark with the obsession of perfection. You take a breath and move away, to come back in a clearer mind and work through it slowly until the final puzzle pieces fall into place.

At last, the day has arrived. An odd mixture of serenity at your knowledge of the music and blind panic fearing nerves and mistakes settles over you, and your head buzzes with it in the background of every other like-minded performance. You glance down at the programme every six seconds to count how many pieces there are to go before you’re on. The inevitable call of your name catches your ears and you plaster a calm smile on your face as your mind starts freaking. You wipe your hands on your sides a thousand times as you settle your music and open the page. Chin lifted. Shoulders back. Fingers tingling. Deep breath…

What they need you to know
  • Aries:They don't do dangerous things because they need to take risks. They do it to remind themselves of what they really need and they need to feel the animalistic emotion of raw fear sometimes
  • Taurus:Just because they strive to be famous and well-know, it doesn't mean they are materialistic and shallow
  • Cancer:They can be stable and everything you want, but they are brave enough to show their true emotions when other signs fail to do so
  • Gemini:They only have a few friends. As social as they may be, sometimes they lack people they are close to and comfortable with
  • Leo:Although they are often expected to be straight-forward and direct, sometimes they do get insecure but they put up their walls to play the part of the 'happy one'
  • Virgo:Just because they like to be organised, it does not mean they are clean freaks. Disorder and confusion are things they are scared of as it can expose parts of them they don't want you to see
  • Libra:They don't mean to fall in and out of love in the blink of an eye. Their emotions are often unstable but they don't mean to hurt anyone
  • Scorpio:Something made them close off. Someone hurt them so much that every other person suddenly became untrustworthy and cold in their eyes
  • Sagittarius:Their honesty does not apply to themselves. They don't want to face the demons inside them so they cover it up, for themselves and for others
  • Capricorn:They aren't workaholics. They want to live up to expectations of others and often it becomes a struggle to keep up with the twists and turns of life
  • Aquarius:They will deal with things alone because they are scared of what people will think. As much as this sign likes to portray a 'give's 0 sh*ts' demeanour, words sting and people scare them a little
  • Pisces:They are sick of people telling them their dreams are unrealistic. This sign thrives on ambition and it cuts them to the core when their aspirations are cut down so quickly