You never know when you are going to lose someone important to you. Especially when it’s very unexpected. It was just supposed to be a simple hunt. She wasn’t supposed to die in that hospital from that bullet. She deserved to go out better than that, and there was nothing I could do to change that now. No deal I could make, could ever bring my baby sister back.
I looked down at her grave and stared at it traumatized. Never would I ever get this image out of my head. Never would I ever get to tell her how much she really meant to me and Dean. Never would I ever get to see her smiling face again, or hold her in my arms again. My baby sister… my baby sister. I asked God why, but I knew that wouldn’t do anything. I knew in that moment I would never be right again. She was the only person close to me besides Dean, and she’s gone.
I dropped to my knees and let the grief take over me. The heat of the anger, and the sadness of the tears overwhelmed me. I ran my hands over the grass of her grave, hoping to get one last feel of her before I really had to let go. Dean sunk down beside me, and put a reassuring hand on my shoulder. His eyes were as red as mine, and he was hurting as bad as me. The boy who had to be there for everyone carries it over into his adulthood. I shuddered as I let one last cry out, before turning to hug Dean. He gripped me tight and held me for a minute, just like he used to do with me and Y/n when were little.
“I’m not going to tell you that it’s going to be ok, because I know it won’t be. Y/n was- is our baby sister, and she meant everything to us. We will find a way to bring her back, Sammy. I promise you that.”
“We will, Sam. I promise. Now, I think it’s time to go home buddy. Y/n wouldn’t want us to stand in the way of her getting a tan.” I slowly turned to look at him, and I watched him gulp down his sadness and put on a brave face for me.
That’s how Dean handle things, make jokes out of everything and drink to get by. It’s how he survives, it’s how he always survived.
I stole one more glance at Y/n’s grave and kissed the tip of my fingers, gently laying them over the grass right where her head would be .
“I know you want me to believe that there was nothing I could of done, but I can’t help the feeling that there… that there was something I could of done. I’m so sorry, Y/n/n. I’m so so sorry. I’ll figure this out, or Dean and I will. You were too young to go, and you will live out your last days happy. I promise. I’m so sorry, Y/n. I’m so sorry.” The tears streamed down my face, as I stood back up and walked over to the car with Dean. This wasn’t right. She should be here.
As Dean I climbed in, we couldn’t help but to turn around and picture our sister sitting there. That was always her spot. We both looked down, and didn’t say anything for a few minutes. I knew Dean couldn’t take the silence anymore, so I decided to flick on the radio to try to get our minds of this awful day. As soon as I realized what song it was I went to reach to turn the song, Dean stopped my hand before it could reach the dial.
“No, let it play. It was one Y/n/n’s favorites.” I pulled my hand back, and tried to block the song as it played while looking outside at the pouring rain. Knowing in my heart that things are never going to be the same again.
Step one, you say we need to talk He walks, you say sit down, it’s just a talk He smiles politely back at you You stare politely right on through Some sort of window to your right As he goes left, and you stay right Between the lines of fear and blame You begin to wonder why you came Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life Let him know that you know best Cause after all, you do know best Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence Lay down a list of what is wrong The things you’ve told him all along And pray to God he hears you And I pray to God he hears you Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I… Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life As he begins to raise his voice You lower yours and grant him one last choice Drive until you lose the road Or break with the ones you’ve followed He will do one of two things He will admit to everything Or he’ll say he’s just not the same And you’ll begin to wonder why you came Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life How to save a life How to save a life Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life How to save a life How to save a life
Something kept stopping me, though. I knew that in those moments Tig would let her guard down and whatever mask she chose to wear that day would fall away, revealing the sadness underneath.
I first caught sight of it a few days ago, when a wave of homesickness had drawn me out into the cool night air. Those beautiful green eyes had been so full of pain; I’d had to use all my self-control not to reach out and comfort her.
1. Who sings and who beat boxes?
2. Who makes the worst pun jokes and then their kids groan?
3. Who makes the other a poem?
4. Who gets drunk and sings a love song to the other at a bar?
5. Who hoardes things?
6. When was the moment they knew they were perfect for each other?
7. Do their friends support their relationship?
8. Who holds the door open for the other?
9. Who blushes more?
10. Who kisses the other on the cheek for a photo?
A looooot of asks : 7,8,12,16,19,21,27,43,59,63,72,75,80,86,89,93
thank you sooo much for sending these anon🌼
I’m so sorry, my Tumblr app glitching sooo much i don’t get any notification and asks don’t appears in notes hsnaobsxusg
i literally just seen this
7. have someone ever made you cry?
oh, unfortunately yes, and not even one person
8.have you ever been in love? if so, describe the moment you knew it.
i think I’ve been. there is one guy (we’ve been friends in school) that i liked for uuugh like 7 years lol and i still might have a tinyyy bit of feelings left for him, but i actually don’t remember the exact moment i knew it
it was too long ago
12. have you ever been in love with someone you couldn’t love?
no, i don’t think so
16. what are songs you’ve cried to when you first heard them? (if any)
i cry at songs or movies like really rare in general
but there are only 2 songs that i cried to when i heard them for the first time. it’s friend, please by top and 1-800-273-8255 by logic
(i just had some bad experiences in life with what these songs are about and that’s probably why i cried)
and there also one human called Elia who makes covers and who’s voice makes me cry, bc it’s just so beautiful, uuuuuhhh i can’t help myself
19. are you a chocolate fan or not?
man, I’m a chocolate BIGGEST fan
21. what is your favorite album?
oh, i can’t choose one in general, this is too hard man
rn i mostly listen to hfk by halsey though
27. has one of your friends ever backstabbed you?
3 of my friends backstabbed me, cool, yeah i know
43. what is your biggest fear?
death of someone i love
59. have you ever stayed awake for 24 (+) hours?
63. on a scale of 1-10 how stressed are you usually?
past 3 weeks It’s been like 8
but usually it’s 5-6
72. who is yoir biggest OTP?
75. dogs or cats?
i love both, but i only have a cat
80. when was the last time you cried
86. what is your favorite season and why?
i love autumn, bc it’s not too cold and not too hot, and it’s gloomy and rains often and it’s a spooky season (Halloween) so yeah autumn
89. do you like falling asleep to music or not?
not really tbh
93. if you could be bestfriends with any celebrity who would it be and why?
i would say Josh but we all know that Tyler wouldn’t allowed it lol
so maybe Bren? it would be FUN ahaha
What's your favourite deluxe track from each album?
taylor swift: invisible fearless: the other side of the door (but I also LOVE the feel of come in with the rain) speak now: ours (if this was a movie is also a jam but ok) red: the moment I knew 1989: you are in love
when you remember how during the otra tour harry was yelling at everyone and they responded and when harry yelled louis’ name louis responded with “oii oiii!” and niall mouthed it so that means that harry and louis do that all the time in private, and also after louis yelled back they were both flustered and blushing and smiley