My life is going up in flames at a very fast rate. I want to kill myself again bc I don’t want to deal with any of this. Fucking A man, why does no one fucking care or want to help me?

The thing that scares me is, I think I’m starting to fall in love with you and the second you find out you’re going to turn away and go “yeah, not feelin this anymore”

Let’s take a moment to note the fact I got caught past curfew tonight…

Next, let’s note how many laws I broke…
1. Ran a stop sign
2. Spun out
3. Hit 70 mph
4. Ran another stop sign bc I was going 70
5. Continued to hit the gas, got to 85 mph
6. Didn’t stop at the “turn on red” light
7. Spun out again
8. Hit 95 going past the fire department
9. Ran a red light
10. Spun out for the third time pulling into my street.

Still haven’t heard from my father since I’ve been home… Fuck me.

“my worst nightmare isn’t you leaving me, it’s us being married with a kid and you killing yourself and me being left to answer the endless questions of why mommy isn’t here. I don’t want to be that parent” -eas

Being 18 and suicidal is a dark place.

Literally the biggest pain in my ass. We bicker constantly. I laugh at your stupid humor. You look at me like I’m an idiot half the time. But in the long run of it, I think I’m falling for you more and more every time I’m with you.

ugh his eyes were so blue today and I was so tempted to just sit there and stare at him all day and night. i thought it was a joke when I would say “i’m so crazy for this kid” but something about today made me realize i really am and im genuinely happy with him.