“I’m talking about language, the literal lexicon of narcissism that poets often seem to come up against, in this or that assigned guise—be it ‘confessional’ or ‘objectivist’ or ‘language’ poetries—in the attempt to make something fresh and ‘original’ from the tones and conclusions threaded inside an inherited language we admire and take for granted—the drama of self-consciousness, pitting the presumed “self” against history and in company with one’s contemporaries. Seeking or doubting one’s place in the reconfiguration of meaning as it is carried forward in alphabet and syntax—perhaps we allow too powerful a klieg light to be trained on our most private moments of privilege.”

Kathleen Fraser, from “Letters to Poets: Kathleen Fraser and Patrick Pritchett,” jacket (no. 31, October 2006)

Café Life

Somehow I come to live in this French café

in lower Manhattan where I do not sleep

and where I only sleep

sipping café au lait from a bottomless cup

sometimes losing the narrative line

from the novel in hand – reading

the room, the flow and ebb

of conversation splashing against

streaming reggae and the clatter

of plates and glasses, the sounding

cymbals of crashing silverware.

For hours I travel along

the squiggling black lines –

the trails of this yellow tabletop

or plunge for a royal red swim

in a neighboring tabletop

and gaze like a clown fish

from its rectangular glass pool

at passing pedestrians, yellow cabs

blue bicycles and rumbling buses.

Late into the evening klieg-lit

theatrical images seep

almost visibly when conversation

pauses for savoring tiramisu.

After midnight

after espresso cups have been collected

and washed and the room goes black

I expand into the whole dark of it

lurking under purple weather

on the periphery

of my own crazy showing.

For countless mornings I wake

to the smell of baking baguettes

and French Roast brewing.

A few years

or hours later

I walk out into brisk

rippling ocean

of a wider urban world.

© Scott Thompson    

Characters with BPD

Here’s a list of characters I could find with canon (or at the very least very very widely accepted) BPD. Feel free to add more!

Disclaimer: I have not seen all these films. Some of these films may be disturbing, harmful representations or problematic in other ways- please make sure to look into the movies before watching them.

Word of the Day: Sciamachy

sciamachy \ sahy-AM-uh-kee \, noun:

  1. an act or instance of fighting a shadow or an imaginary enemy.

No, our man walks out of choice, and walks because only on foot can he engage in the sciamachy  essential to his trade: fencing with the shadows of hat brims, gun muzzles and arms flung across brickwork by the beams of Kliegs. – Will Self, Walking to Hollywood: Memories of Before the Fall , 2010

It further tends to leave the self in disarray, without an orientation. And it risks remaining wastefully engaged in psychological sciamachy  – a struggle with shadows or imaginary enemies. – Eric Sigg, The American T.S. Eliot: A Study of the Early Writings , 1989

Sciamachy  is derived from the Greek skiamakhia , which translates literally to “fighting in the shade,” giving name to the practice in ancient Greece of instructors teaching in shaded public places, such as porches and groves.

In Keel’s own words: “This is a hypothetical spectrum of energies that are known to exist but that cannot be accurately measured with present-day instruments. It is a shadowy world of energies that produce well-observed effects, particularly on biological organisms (namely people). This superspectrum is the source of all paranormal manifestations from extrasensory perception (ESP) to flying saucers, little green men and tall, hairy monsters. It is hard to pin down scientifically because it is extradimensional, meaning that it exists outside our own space-time continuum yet influences every thing within our reality.”

“…Ultraviolet rays come next, and they are tremendously important to the UFO phenomenon.These are also invisible but can burn the flesh and the eyes. A neglected part of the UFO evidence consists of the hundreds of sightings in which the witnesses suffered all of the symptoms of klieg conjunctivitis afterward. Actors performing on movie sets brightly illumi­nated by arc lights sometimes experience these same symptoms. The eyes redden, itch and feel sore. This is caused by the ultraviolet radiation (also called actinic rays).  ”


After much more experimentation, on other nights in other places, I concluded that the purple spots were part of the UFO phenomenon and were being controlled by, or possessed, some kind of intelligence.

Return now to our two charts of the electromagnetic and color spectrums. You will see that ultraviolet rays immediately precede the visible spectrum. The first visible frequencies are of purple or violet light.

Let us assume that UFOs exist at frequencies beyond visible light but that they can adjust their frequency and descend the electromagnetic spectrum just as you can tum the dial of your radio and move a variable condenser up and down the scale of radio frequencies.

When a UFO’s frequency nears that of visible light, it would first appear as a purplish blob of violet. As it moves farther down the scale, it would seem to change to blue, and then to cyan (bluish green). In our chapter on meteors we note that they most often appear as bluish-green objects.

I have therefore classified that section of the color spectrum as the UFO entry field.

Visible light follows infrared. Dr Meade Layne and other early UFO investigators observed that the objects often appeared magically as a reddish puddle in the sky, then progressively changed to the other colors of the spectrum until they became a sickening purple and melted into the invisible ultraviolet.  

‘Forbidden’ books on black magic, witchcraft, and ancient religious beliefs all describe this basic materialization process, including solemn warnings to avert the eyes when you materialize an angel or demon through some secret rite lest you suffer from conjunctivitis and the other painful maladies produced by the rays of the EM spectrum. All mythology tells how one should not gaze upon the countenance of a materialized god.