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Are you Sick?

August 30, 2013 - Friday

My older brother, Kelvin was the very first person to know about
my pregnancy. What’s kind of funny about the situation is that I
didn’t really have to tell him. It was Friday July 12, 2013 the day
of his birthday festivities. Cody and I just got home from Planned Parenthood with the confirmation that I am officially pregnant. I had
taken 2 at home pregnancy tests before seeing someone and the
results were both positive, so we wanted complete confirmation that
what we were seeing was in fact real.

Cody and I decided we would wait before we told anyone because
we weren’t exactly sure what we were going to do. So we head out
to the backyard because we noticed all our friends throwing Kelvin
a late afternoon BBQ and for the most part, we were able to keep
our little secret.

At some point Cody is inside the apartment and I’m just sitting on a
tree swing hanging out and making conversation. Kelvin comes and
sits next to me on it cracking a few jokes and asks, “do you want
some of my drink?” And all I do is laugh and simply say,
“I don’t think I’m going to drink tonight.”

That was the wrong thing to say.

Kelvin turns to me and looks into my eyes, he looked so worried
and confused as to why I would turn down a drink, after all it was
his birthday and we had plans to go out later that night. “Are you
sick?” I respond saying no. And then out of nowhere he asks me
if I’m pregnant, and of course I say no. He goes back and forth
asking me if I’m sick, if I’m pregnant with a smile as if he thinks this
is all a joke and then all of a sudden he looks so serious, eyebrows
furrowed with worry in his eyes and asks, “What’s wrong? Are you
pregnant?” And honestly, I couldn’t lie to that face. My brother is
and always will be my best friend, he loves to crack jokes and have
a good time, but whenever things start to get real with him, I can’t
help but fall onto his level.

All I say is, “Yes, Kelvin. I’m pregnant.”

My brother expressed so many different emotions that I just sat
there and watched him because I didn’t know how to react. And then
I just begged he not tell anyone because I had no idea what I was
going to do. All I could hear was oh my god after oh my god, smiles
and looks of shock all over his face. You could tell everyone else
around us knew that something was up, but they didn’t dare ask
because we were having a sibling moment. And then! Cody
perfectly comes around the corner right after I tell Kelvin and his
eyes are just starring straight at Cody. Kelvin and Cody have been
friends way before I even knew who Cody was, so you could tell he
wasn’t mad, he just kind of had that look on his face like, “dude what
is happening right now?!”

And obviously Cody’s eyes are bouncing back and forth from mine
and my brothers, so confused because we said we weren’t going to
tell anyone. But slowly throughout the night things started to become
calm and Kelvin grew more supportive.

From day 1, Kelvin has shown so much support. He has been there
through the knowing, deciding, and planning process. I feel
incredibly lucky to have him in my life and I’m so excited for this baby
to be born so he or she can meet his or her uncle. I’m SO excited for
Kelvin to be an uncle, I know he is going to do a great job and the baby is going to love Uncle Kelvin so much. I’m so proud of how Kelvin dealt
with the situation and how willing he is to be very much a part of the
baby’s life. It was a surprise we all didn’t expect, but are all willing to
accept with open arms.

This photograph is from the night of Kelvin’s birthday, the day
he found out I was pregnant. Xo

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0 to 26 weeks

I stumbled across this photograph on the left that I found in old files on my computer. I can’t help myself but share because this was before Cody. I’m sure we knew each other because often times I’d go and hang out with my brother and his friends. But this is a time in my life where things were not that great, I mean look past me and into my room.

Now I’m 26 weeks pregnant and as much as I miss my body before I’m really happy to be a part of this change. Seeing results like this really shock me because I’m in it and I’m really doing it. Soon enough he’ll be in my arms and even though I can’t really picture that right now, it’s my future. I don’t care what anyone says but it’s really a beautiful thing and for 10 months I get to do the very thing that brought me into this world. It really is a miracle because it not only changes you, but everyone single person around you.

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Just A Vacation In My Thoughts

November 19, 2013 - Tuesday

Where were we a few months ago? I feel the days running by so quickly and I feel like jello today. There is so much to do, yet every time I feel like I’ve dragged the tip of a pen over a task, there’s still 6 more underneath it. Does it ever end?

I want so badly to curl up in my bed, phone off, just books, paper, and writing utensils - alone and away from the world. I need one day away, just a vacation by myself in my thoughts. Sounds a lot like running away? Not so much, because I understand my responsibility in this life. I just want the time to be mine not split evenly between work, school, baby, boyfriend, family, friends, holidays, etc. Just mine.

Is that selfish? I think it might just be one of those days where I don’t want to be expected to be on top, 100% all the time. Maybe if we spent some days laying low, we’d have more thumbs-ups-kinda-days.

I need to work on this - I need my day offs to be a day off and the rest of the days full of productivity and success. But oh, how I wish today could be the day I lay in my bed for hours lost in my own world.

Bye Feet

November 18, 2013 - Monday

What a dreary Monday, aye? And it started off poopy because I slept through my alarm. Well, more like shut it off then went back to bed. Guilty.

I can’t believe we’re on our last 2 weeks of November. I can’t handle this pressure with school and work. But at least baby is growing! Look, my feet are slowly disappearing, but I can still see em. And my linea nigra is pretty dark, you can’t tell here but its dark for sure. I wonder if it’ll fade after pregnancy..

I’m also experiencing body acne, which is weird because I’ve never experienced that ever in my life. Pregnancy is crazy, so many things are changing and I’m definitely having a hard time adjusting to all of it. But I’m dealing! Staying positive truly is key.

I just gotta keep working hard and it will all pay off! Happy Monday everyone!

HOORAY 200 FOLLOWERS!

Thank you guys for taking interest in my pregnancy and for showing so much support! If there is anything you want to know or for me to post regularly feel free to message me in the inbox! This originally started as a place for me to vent but it’s become so much more then that! I’ve met such great people and friends through tumblr!

Thank you thank you!

Love always,
Klarizza, Cody, Charlie, and baby

Definitely Not Feeling it Today

December 23, 2013 - Monday

Happy Monday! And here I am at work and I’m definitely not feeling it today. I’m pretty sure our alarm went off at least 7 times and then afterwards we just got up on our own with 30 minutes left to get ready for work. But that’s okay! Well worth the extra time in bed.

As you can see I dressed solely for comfort today, but funny enough I like my awkward socks and if you haven’t noticed I love plaid. Red plaid to be more specific.

Lately I’ve been doing a lot of reading in my Healthy Mom Healthy Baby book and can I just say I cringe every time I read about the part of a possible episiotomy. I think the idea of not getting any pain medicine versus having yourself cut - makes me get so tense! But luckily I have some time to grow with all possible ideas!

I have a feeling I’ll be going to the full 40 but we’ll see!

Ready Every Single Minute

December 21, 2013 - Saturday

As I promised here is a somewhat better picture of my 30 week belly, although, I think there’s something weird about this mirror, maybe it’s just me.

Ever since I met that 11 week old baby I’ve become more and more excited about being a mommy. Like I continue to say I’m still not ready at all but things are slowly starting to come together.

I’m currently working on a print for baby’s room, a guest list for the baby shower, and starting to shop for some more clothes.

Slowly getting there!

Pregnancy Update

How far along: 28 weeks - Third Trimester!

Maternity clothes: The only thing I wear maternity on a daily basis is some bras.

Stretch marks: I think I can start to see some, but it’s really hard to tell. I’m going to say no because there really isn’t anything it just might be my skin pigment.

Sleep: The usual good and bad. I’m definitely getting use to the baby moving.

Best moment this week: Hmm this week, probably just getting a lot of rest. It’s been pretty crumby because I’ve been sick.

Movement: I’m able to understand his movements. Sometimes they are pokes and jabs and then other times I can tell he’s rolling around.

Food craving: No

Anything making you sick: Nope

Gender: Mister man.

Labor: Nooo

Symptoms: None again this week!

Belly button in or out: It’s like a weird in between. Actually because I just ate it looks like an outtie but it’s not protruding out of my belly or anything. It just on even playing field with my stomach.

Happy or Moody: Happy most days!

Current Weight: As of the last time I weighed 151lbs.

What are you looking forward to: Cody’s family Christmas party this Saturday!

Flashback Friday

December 27, 2013 - Friday

I’m not totally sure this counts as a Flashback Friday, but kinda right?

Some of you have already seen the image to the left, but for those of you that haven’t it was taken shortly before I found out I’ve become pregnant - I like to call it 0 weeks.

And then the image to the right is my current state - 31 weeks. It’s pretty incredible what the body is capable of doing huh? Still shocks me to this day.

Now that most of the holidays are over, I’m happy to say now is a good time to unwind, rest, and focus until baby Clark makes his appearance.

What do I mean?

1. Rest - Although the holidays are filled with a lot of sitting, chatting, eating, and gift sharing - being surrounded by people can be exhausting. Don’t get me wrong I love ANY social event, but if you’re pregnant OR if you’re not, sometimes you need to take sometime to be still. Don’t think about the things you might need to return or the decorations you want to take down. Don’t bother with putting everything away. Just rest. Allow yourself to cuddle up somewhere warm with a good book or just give yourself time to lay on the bed and listen to music. Don’t cave into video games, social media or anything electronic really besides music or an audio book, just be still and let your mind escape reality for awhile.

2. Plan - Once you’ve given yourself some time to relax, start writing a list. What’s next? What are the last minute things you need to do that involve Christmas, New Years, maybe even Thanksgiving? This is my list so far:

-Pack up decorations, except for the Christmas tree. I usually like to keep the tree up until New Years because that’s when it officially feels like the end of December.

-Put all your gifts away. Organize and make room for all the lovely new things you got this year. Putting in the time to do this will make you feel so much better then just having clutter take over!

-Send last minute cards or gifts to friends and loved ones that live far away. Normally I’d do this before Christmas, but this year I was so consumed with the holiday party and Christmas with the family.

-Clear our cabinets and fridge of any holiday desserts and treats. Don’t force yourself to keep these things. If you really want to keep a couple of things go for it, but get rid of the temptation.

-Figure out what you’re doing for New Years Eve and New Years then find a dress! (if you need to)

And last but not least, set some 3. SMALL goals for yourself. I know it’s tempting to set the ULTIMATE resolution on New Years but let’s face it - doing that is less realistic. If you set shorter goals you’ll feel more fulfilled checking off multiple things on your list then waiting to cross off that one loaded goal.

Here are a few of my goals for 2014:

-Make it to the gym at least 2 or 3 times during the week until I deliver. If unable to make it to the gym, find ways to stay active.

-Finish the nursery.

-Stock up on supplies such as diapers, hand soap, cleaning supplies, detergent, dish soap, air fresheners, etc. You know those random household things you always need to get after a month or two.

-Finish signing up for classes as well as completing some classes.

-Visit the chiropractor

-Continue to read and mentally/physically prepare for baby’s arrival.

Now, these are just a few things I want to accomplish until my little mister comes, but as you can see it’s a lot of things that I can complete after the first 2 or 3 weeks.

Stay focused mamas, I know there is a lot to do and it’s easy to get overwhelmed, but you and your baby deserve success in all formats.

Gender Predictions

Are you carrying high or low?
Currently right now I can’t tell, but it feels low. BOY

Baby’s heart rate is fewer or over 140?
It’s averaging 170. GIRL

Did you have morning sickness?
I did in the first trimester pretty badly. GIRL

Do you sleep on your left or right side?
I sleep usually on my right side. GIRL

Are your hands dry or soft?
Soft. GIRL

Clear face or breakouts?
This one is tough because I still break out. It’s definitely
not as girl as it was before. GIRL

Are you clumsy or all together?
I’m clumsy here and there. BOY

Did your face get fuller?
Yes. GIRL

Sweet or Salty?
Salty to the max. BOY

Is your baby active or still?
The baby is pretty active. BOY

KEY TEST: What did you pick up first?
I picked up the round part. BOY

Did dad gain weight?
Nope I don’t think so, but we still have time hahah BOY

Do you crave meat and cheese?
Actually yes. BOY

What baby names have you been coming up with?
Practically girl names only, boy names are tough.GIRL

How are your legs?
They definitely got bigger. BOY

Baby weight spaced out or just in the front?
Definitely in my butt and face, everywhere. GIRL

Age and year of conception both even or odd GIRL
if one is even and one is odd BOY
23, 2013. GIRL

These are all myths but they keep the intensity high! What do you think?!

Pregnancy Update

How far along: 31 weeks! And I had my last monthly appointment today!

Maternity clothes: I got a new maternity bra for Christmas!

Stretch marks: Nope.

Sleep: I still continue to wake up in the middle of the night and around 6 or 7pm I’m ready for bed.

Best moment this week: Christmas with the family. It’s the last one and then next Christmas baby will be around and maybe even walking.

Movement: Today at the appointment he kept squirming around. The midwife was struggling to get a accurate heart rate but eventually he chilled out. Mister active!

Food craving: Nope!

Anything making you sick: Nothing at all.

Gender: Baby boy Clark

Labor: None although I’ve been dreaming about what they’d be like.

Symptoms: Nothing at all.

Belly button in or out: outtie!

Happy or Moody: I’d say both still, but a lot happier now that things are getting done!

Current Weight: Oh boy Christmas did me in good. I’m currently weighing in at 159lbs. Now that the holidays are finally over I’m hoping to have a more consistent diet and time at the gym.

What are you looking forward to: Although I’ve been on vacation due to the holidays I still can’t wait for the weekend!
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Any other news: I am measuring at exactly 31cm, I’m borderline anemic but it’s not too bad. I do have to pump up my iron intake. I’m some how immune to chicken pox and I don’t really understand, and my glucose test came in negative at 117, so I hit pretty low! 9 weeks left guys, do you think I’ll go the full 40? Also! This is a tiny sneak peak of the nursery! As you can tell it’s not close to being done at all! But it’s getting there!

Why Do I Blog

November 23, 2013 - Saturday

I’ve always had a tumblr account. I use to be one of those users who would simply post things that I like and slowly I’d include small tid bits of dialog. I realized that I wanted something of my own, something that would collect my thoughts. I write in a lot of journals, I post images on instagram, and sometimes I post things on my Facebook but I wanted that one thing that incapsulated all my thoughts.

I wasn’t sure if I wanted this source to be public, so for awhile I used an app called flava or just wrote notes in my iPhone. But when I found out I had become pregnant I felt the urge to reach out to people like me. People that are young, that don’t have their lives figured out and that don’t really know what they’ve gotten themselves into. I wrote this blog so I could find people who I could relate to and learn from them. I also wanted to be a source, someone anyone could go to when they are curious about pregnancy or just life at age 23.

Personally I’m so glad I started this blog because I’ve made some great friends from different parts of the country with different opinions and ideas. There comes a point where I get really fed up with social media because we post things publicly that should be left personal. I’m still learning about where the line can start and where it should end with my Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, etc. etc. But like I said of all platforms, I’m happy with this blog and I’m really glad I started it and have committed to it. I appreciate those who have read my words because honestly hearing or seeing that you’ve taken the time means a lot to me. You all have been great resources throughout my pregnancy.