kirk could you be any more in love


I always wondered about this line. 

Because it sounds almost bitter and bitterness is something I was never able to associate with Spock. Sure, he can be angered and he can be pretty stubborn, but he is so gentle and bound to logic that turning bitter just doesn’t seem to be compatible with his nature.

So I was asking myself where did that come from?

Spock is really not broken up about losing T’Pring to another man. He isn’t even mad about her almost getting him killed, because he understand her reasoning. He knows that in order to marry someone she wants and keep her social status she had to divorce him according to the old traditions. So that’s definitely not it. 

Could it be that only a short time before he witnessed how it would be like to get something greatly desired…

…and having to live with all the consequences?

I think “City on the Edge of Forever” is the episode Spock realizes what nature his feelings to Jim Kirk are. Maybe it was the close proximity, (I mean they always lived in each other’s pockets an the Enterprise, but here they were even closer…) or maybe it was the fact that Jim let himself fall in love with Edith Keeler. Because it’s when we see something we can not have that we realize how much we want it, isn’t it?

I never understood Jim falling for Edith, not because I don’t like the woman, far be it! She is amazing, a bright and gentle spirit far ahead of her time, although a bit naive… But for Jim to fall in love on a mission, while being trapped in the past and thus coming very near to breaking the Prime Directive on a massive scale is just plain unprofessional. 

(Shout-out to plaidshirtjimkirk at this point for writing a beautiful piece of work that got this to MAKE SENSE! The thought of Jim Kirk who, away from his ship and command, would let himself fall for someone who couldn’t exploit him or would want him for prestige and influence is by far the best explanation I read for his behavior here. Because he had nothing and Edith still wanted him.)

Furthermore, Spock’s demeanor throughout the episode is worth noting. I mean what were Nimoy’s instructions for this scene? Did Joseph Pevney go ahead and say: “Hey you know what? Just look as heartbroken as you possibly can, that’ll work!”

Because he does. 

Spock is so resigned, almost sad for most of the episode. Just imagine: he had to watch his best friend fall in love knowing how it would end, knowing that although Edith loved Jim back, she would still break his heart. Jim is the one person Spock trusts and he can do absolutely nothing for him. He can’t save him the heartbreak. (An interesting observation here is that later, muuuuch later, into the 5-year-mission when Jim mourns Reyna’s death, Spock DOES intervene. But by that time they have already established a mental rapport so Spock is not afraid of disregarding Jim’s privacy to help him.)

I think after this mission Spock had to acknowledge that Jim Kirk was far more important to him than he previously thought. But he also saw what really letting himself fall for someone did to Jim. Considering all the pain Spock witnessed maybe “After a time, you may find that having is not so pleasing a thing after all as wanting.”, is the lesson he learned from watching what love could do to someone. 

It could be the reason he never acted on any eventual feelings. Why possibly ruin a sufficient working relationship and a dearly cherished friendship for a “What if”? Longing for something from afar is a lot safer than actually risking something in order to get it.  

After all, where is the logic in heartbreak? 

Originally posted by fanfic-natic

Prompt:  “I almost lost you.”

Character: Jim Kirk

Warning: Angst

You couldn’t help it. The crying. Crying next to his goddamn medical bed, face in your hands, body shaking. You know people can see you, know Bones is looking at you, but you’re grateful that no one mentions it. You can’t handle this. You can’t handle seeing him broken, barely here, bruised and beaten and so so fragile.

He’s stupid. Jim is stupid and reckless and no matter how much of a genius he was that didn’t detract from the fact that he was reckless and you hated it. You loved him, but you hated this, hated him getting hurt when he didn’t need to. Hated believing you’d lost him time and time again. 

“Why are you crying?” The voice was cracked and weak, the voice you have after not drinking for hours and getting yourself nearly killed naturally. You look up, wiping tears away to look at Jim. He’s smiling at you, but it’s so obviously pained that you start crying again. 

“I almost lost you. Again." A hand reaches out for yours, grabbing it as tight as he could. He felt bad and not just because he was seriously hurt. He felt this gnawing guilt at seeing you cry, at knowing it was his fault, at knowing he’d put the fear of God into you without ever wanting to. 

“I’m sorry…I-”

“You’re Captain, Jim, but that doesn’t mean you get to throw yourself into danger all the time!” You calm down again, letting go of the sudden anger, “I’m sorry…I’m just- I was scared.”

“I was scared too…I don’t ever want to leave you alone. I’m supposed to bug you until we’re really old.” It’s a shit joke, it really is. But it’s so utterly him that you find yourself chuckling anyway, holding his hand tighter.

The fact was that you’d stay with him despite the fear because you loved him, because when you got into this relationship you were aware of his job and the risks and because you loved him more than any fear could ruin. 

anonymous asked:

I read somewhere that in some photos for Load James wears makeup similar to Lars or Kirk's, but I can't find any. Do you know where I could find them (or maybe can you post them? Because I'd really love to see that! o.o

I don’t think there is any photos of him with make-up on but we do have a few photos of him with black hair;

#PickUpPitch prompt fills - captain’s choice

Surprising no one, @alwayskels is a champ and has sent out even more #PickUpPitch letters (on PST letterhead, too!) Hats off to Kelci!

The prompt: Mike and Ginny are captains of two opposing teams for a charity baseball game. Ginny has LeBron James and Serena Williams on her team. Mike has Steph Curry and Leo DiCaprio on his team. Feel free to add other celebs on their teams too!

(There’s still time to help @pitchstreetteam​ out by getting our message to Hulu and Craig Erwich before the ATX Festival. Write your letters and send your postcards and I’ll write you your very own fic! Just get me a picture of your mail before you send it off.)

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The rules are simple. Build the best celebrity softball team ever and lead that team to victory in a (not-so-)friendly game benefiting the Padres Community Fund. He has six weeks.

It’s the kind of thing that Mike Lawson was made for. 

Doesn’t matter who they find to go up against him, Mike’s been around the block. He’s not losing this game.

That confidence doesn’t wane when he finds out Ginny will captain the other team. Not even a little.

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anonymous asked:

Do you have any Star Trek 2009 fanfic recs?

Where do I start? They’re all kinda old but so good.

My all-time favourite:

Atlas by Angel Baby1/distractedKat

Between what was and what will be stands James Tiberius Kirk, in all his fractured patchwork glory. Because saving the Federation was only the beginning.

And the rest in no particular order, all lovely reads:

West of the Moon by Angel Baby1/distractedKat

They meet Jim in phases, and through him find each other. Once the layers begin to peel back, though, the future bridge crew of the Enterprise finds more than they ever could have dreamed. When the fight to keep him starts in earnest, the cadets and officers of Starfleet begin to learn that not all wars can be won.

Because long before he had friends, Jim had Family, and the Scaretta crime syndicate didn’t survive to the 23rd century by letting go of its own.

Jim Kirk will always be a frustration to Spock–even when that’s not his name.

5 Times James Kirk Almost Died And One He Didn’t by Angel Baby1

You can take the daredevil out of Iowa, but you can’t ever take the driving-off-cliffs out of James T. Kirk, as the unfortunate crew of the Enterprise soon learns.

Illogical (√π233/hy7) by waldorph

If Kirk was a maths genius, and never took Pike up on the dare to do better, but still managed to get to Starfleet? This is what that would look like.

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anonymous asked:

this is the anon that asked for fic recs that deal with bones medically assisting in his fathers death anD I just wanna thank you so much for the list you pick together! I really appreciate it and if you have any more/other recommendations, I would love to read those too! :3

hi anon, so glad you liked it!! :) here are a few more fics for you:

The Hardest Victory (ed/substance abuse tw)

if, by chance, the violence thrills (mirrorverse tw)

Spatial Alignment

Si vis pacem, para bellum

In Search of a Name

Four Ways Jim Kirk and Leonard McCoy Could Have Met…And the One Way They Do (see “Prison Break”)

Not Alone

Sunrises and Sunsets: the Story of Leonard McCoy

to the other anon, i will put your list up tomorrow :)))