kind of changed the quote a bit but the message is still the same :~)

10 Things I Loved About Mass Effect:Andromeda

Warning: Spoilers! And I wrote this on the spur, so there might be grammatical errors.

1.      I enjoyed the story. Yeah, people will say it recycles from the trilogy, but come on, people. Why are you surprised? Bioware recycles their plotlines all the time. It’s pretty much the same in all of their games. A protagonist gains special abilities and leads a Ragtag Bunch of Misfits team to defeat a big threat. And I’m not bothered by that. Sometimes familiarity in your franchise is good, just as long as you do new things to the formula, and I think they do.

What interested me the most was the theme of starting over. A lot of people in the Andromeda Initiative were former criminals or outcasts. The reason they joined was to start a new life, and it’s explored in the main questlines, the loyalty quests, and numerous side quests. I was worried about the game talking about colonization since humans are looking for a new home, but I was pleasantly surprised that the game made it clear that Andromeda is the angara’s home first, and humans and other Milky Way species will have to work with them. Thank god! No Mightey Whitey trope this time!

2.      Ryder as the player character. I honestly never thought I would love Ryder as much as I did when I played the game. Sure, no one will ever replace Commander Shepard, but Ryder isn’t meant to replace the Commander, rather show a different perspective in a new story. Commander Shepard is the hero we want to be while Ryder is more of a relatable character. Ryder has to learn through the entire game how to be a leader while going through the obstacles of their inexperience and youth so people will take them seriously. And it was compelling, uplifting, and at times amusing to see them become a hero in their own right and step out of their father’s shadow.

Also Sara and Scott felt like their own person. In the original trilogy, the player character is pretty much the same no matter what gender. But sometimes the dialogue can be different depending on if you play a male Ryder or a female Ryder. That’s because they are two different people who have had their own experiences and personalities. That really adds to the replay value!

3.      Female aliens everywhere! One of my major issues with the original trilogy was the lack of female Turians, krogans, and salarians. Sure we had asari an all-female race, and female quarians, but it felt weird that we met so many aliens with very few ladies. Not only do we get a female Turian squadmate, we also get plenty of lady alien NPCs gathered everywhere for random quests. We also have Kesh who works at the Nexus. And we get to see female salarians! And they kind of look the same as male salarians except with different voices. Thank god! It would’ve been horrifying to see salarians with boobs. Uh! And I’m pretty sure there were just as many female angara NPCs as there were males.

4.      The romances. Especially the queer ones. One of the things I love about Bioware games are the romance paths. Bonus points if there is a queer option. And as of patch 1.08, this game has the most number of queer romances in any Bioware game. I think my two favorite romance paths are with Sara and Vetra and Jaal and Scott. While representation for the LGBT community is improving in media, there’s no denying we still have a long way to go. And after again the crap year 2016 where we had a huge number of queer women characters die in tv shows, it was so wonderful to have a healthy and happy relationship between two women when I first played the game. And even if it wasn’t added until the patch, the romance between Jaal and Scott is absolutely sweet since we see two men show a lot of love and affection for each other which is rare to see in media.

5.      The Tempest Family. I adore every single character on the Tempest, and they really did feel like a family once you played further into the game. I am a sucker for found families, and to see these people who are trying to find a home ending up finding a home with each other just gives me so many feels!

Since there’s not really a huge crew in the ship like in the original trilogy when Shepard had an army of humans. In Andromeda, we have six squad mates, four additional crew members, and Ryder. And I think it made the family more intimate. It’s like our own little family lives on the Tempest.

Also I liked how there were more quests spread out throughout the game with the squad which I think was lacking in Inquisition. Plus. Movie Night is the best scene ever!

6.      In my opinion, the side quests were fun. I think this was one thing they improved from Inquisition. Inquisition side quests just felt like a bunch of fetch quests that got kind of boring pretty quick, and didn’t really add to the overall story. Some highlights from Andromeda were: Kadara, the angara reincarnation questline, the Turian jailed for murder, the anti-AI group, meeting Zaeed’s son, and those kids sending out a distress signal for a new light for their weed plant. HAHA!

They were compelling in their own right and included cut scenes instead of the Inquisitor going to some location like in Skyrim to do a thing come back to the quest giver saying, “I did the thing.” “Ok, good.”

7.      Unlike in Inquisition, there’s actual payoff for some of the quests you do. I don’t mean to be mean to Inquisition, I still love the game, but remember when we were promised that you had to build your forces up in order to defend against the main threat. Yeah, you built forces to get influence points to gain perks, and that’s it.

In Andromeda, while, yes. It’s not the same level as Mass Effect 2. When you actually complete quests and help out leaders, you can get different results during the final battle. Like, there’s a chance Captain Dunn may not survive.

Also, when you get 100% viability on all the planets, you get a special surprise on Habitat 7- being told that it will one day be habitable because of our efforts. Sure it was a side quest, but it just felt so rewarding!

8.      The climax was actually fulfilling and exciting. Again, something else Inquisition was lacking in. Seriously, when I first played Andromeda, I legit gasped when the archon was taking control of SAM node. The villain was actually living up to his threatening nature!

Just when we think we got everything under control, and are about to find Meridian, the Archon fucks shit up, and our sibling has to step up to save the day. Then we have to gather people we helped out and prepare for a final battle, and Ryder can finally prove themselves as a true Pathfinder and kick the Archon’s ass once and for all. People are saying the ending was as disappointing as ME3’s? Pfft…What are you even talking about?

9.      The angara. Bioware never fails to make me love an entire fictional species. Yeah, it feels a bit off that they pretty much have the same faces and the same 3 voice actors, but I really do love their culture. And I appreciate that they were clearly coded as POC while Andromeda didn’t go through with the whole Mighty Whitey Trope. The game wants you to respect their culture and to respect their home.

I love the angaran people are open about their feelings, I love how their religion believes in reincarnation, I love how we see angaran scientists, soldiers, merchants, mercenaries, and civilians. Also Aya and Hivraal are absolutely gorgeous!

And when Jaal finds out his people were created by the Kett, I was worried it was going to go the Dalish elves route, but Jaal points out that it doesn’t change anything about the angara. They are still their own people. And that was such an uplifting message.

10.  The overall light-hearted tone. I wrote a small post that got a good number of notes. (Probably the biggest number I’ve ever gotten), so to quote: “There was always this sense of hope and optimism about finding a new home. ‘Yeah, things may have gone totally wrong, but that doesn’t mean we can’t make them better’ was the overall message I got.

And really, with so many bad things happening in the world right now and too much of our entertainment supposedly being our escapism being dark for the sake of dark, this was something I think a lot of us needed.”

Mass Effect 3 had its light-hearted moments, and I love it, but man, that game was emotional draining.

It’s a bit discouraging to love something so much and get recommended videos on youtube pointing out the same flaws of that certain game, and why they thought it was a huge disappointment. Do I agree with some of their criticisms? Sure. Does the history behind the production explain the flaws? Oh absolutely.

           But people seem to forget that the original Mass Effect trilogy wasn’t without its flaws. I mean, sure everyone can agree on the Mass Effect 3 ending, but I could make a list of all the issues I have with the other Bioware games including Dragon Age: Inquisition (which despite winning Game of the Year, kind of suffers the same problems Andromeda had).

           So yeah, after the crap year of 2016, I was so excited to get a newly-released game that made me happy. And still makes me happy, and makes me in the mood to play another Ryder.

An anonymous asker wanted me to comment on a certain analysis of Dipper and Mabel’s relationship, encountered elsewhere on the Internet, which interpreted their bond as a destructive and unhealthy one. Anon shared the original analysis with me in full, but was kind enough to provide me with a point-by-point summation of the poster’s arguments, each of which I will address herein.

A) Mabel may learn lessons, but she easily forgets them later on and doesn’t actually tangibly change as a person and doesn’t actually learn anything as her behaviour is still roughly the same.

Mabel’s a more static character than her brother, I grant you that. Dipper’s the protagonist, and as such the character whose growth is the series focus; he’s an avatar of creator Alex Hirsch himself, so there’s a lot of gentle self-deprecation in the way he’s written. But I tend to think that, in terms of story, it makes sense for Mabel to maintain a certain childishness, because that part of her comes to a head during the Weirdmageddon arc, when she has to choose between eternal childhood and the hard reality of growing older.

Dipper himself doesn’t change much during the series; he learns various smaller lessons to the effect of “just let things happen and don’t try to rush them,” but, until the finale, fails to fully imbibe the larger lesson about growing up. The events of Weirdmageddon give us Dipper at his best; he sheds the pervasive need to be seen as an adult that has characterized him from the beginning and in so doing appears at his most mature. He becomes a realist. He stops getting in his own way. At the same time, Mabel relinquishes her selfishness, the world which revolves around her, and her unwillingness to move forward, even granting Dipper the freedom to stay with Ford if he so chooses. They each grow in a far more definite way than they did over the course of the series proper, in which their character flaws were excellent plot fodder. (It’s also worth noting that in the show, as in real life, maturation is a process; we tend to revert to type, and it’s rare that one definitive “lesson” alters our tendencies. We have to learn again and again.)

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Where Is The Love?

Hi there ^^

So, in light of the recent anon hate waves in the fandom, I wanted to write a quick series of headcanons on how I think the bros would react to receiving anon hate and how they would react to their S/O being the hate receiver.

I referred to the S/O as gender-neutral ^^

Seriously though, don’t send out hate. You’re not doing the poor blogger you’re targeting any favors by doing so, and neither are you doing yourself any favors. We’re all just people who want to enjoy the fandom, and enjoy it the way we know how. Don’t spoil the fun for everyone else, okay?

Hope you enjoy!

Tagging: @themissimmortal @itshaejinju @ohgodsnowwhat@stunninglyignis @blindbae @chocobabyporcelain @insomniacapples @diadyn @angelic-guardienne @sweetchocobae @swabin10 @noxfreyas @nifwrites @stephicness @gudetamazing @rubyphilomela @asoeiki @zacklover24 @misaki-kurenai @misssarahdoll @alicemoonwonderland @bespectacled-girl @ultimoogle @femmescientia

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Prompt: The reader is Lydia’s cousin, because of previous events between the two, the reader doesn’t trust Lydia and even despites her. As the reader is forced to hang out with Lydia’s group of friends, she is surprised to see some familiar faces and even more surprised when an unexpected connection is born with an unexpected pack member.

Warnings: None

Word Count: 1938

A/N: This is the first imagine I’ve been posting after a year of writers’ block. I hope you’ll like it J

Special Gratitude: @joeynihil

Part 1:

“Maybe I should stay over at Emma’s for the Summer?” I suggested, doing my best to prevent my dad from taking my suitcase down the stairs.

My father sighed, tired of having the same conversation with me, “Christmas is a family holiday and Natalie invited us, so we are ALL going. Period!” he decided, earning a frown from me, “now, take your suitcase and let’s go” he said kissing my forehead.

But I gently pushed him away, “leave me alone” I mumbled as I grabbed my suitcase, struggling with it as I step down the stairs.

It’s been an hour of driving so far, the earphones are on full volume as the 15th song was playing, I could see my father’s attempts to get my attention, but I ignored it… until I felt one of the earphones are being pulled out of my right ear.


“I know you are not a big fan of Lydia-“ my mom started.

“-I hate her” I corrected impatiently.

“She’s still family” my dad warned me looking at me thru the rearview, and I stuck my tongue out at him as a reply, causing him to laugh.

“I talked with Natalia, and she told me Lydia has changed a lot” my mom said, trying to convince me.

I chuckled humorlessly, “Well, I don’t buy it considering she pretended to be my best friend during freshman year, and then she humiliated me in front of the whole school saying, and I quote: ‘you are a shame to the Martin family, you don’t deserve to be my cousin’, while I was, literally, on the floor with everyone pointing and laughing” I said with venomous attitude in my voice, not even taking a breath between the words and fury I was feeling, “so no, I don’t like her, or buy the whole ‘she matured’ kind of speech” I said, air quoting the matured parts.

My mom looked at me with sad eyes, remembering how much this day affected me – affected so much that we had to move away.

“now if you will excuse me, I’m going back to listening to some music” I said pushing my earphones back into my ears, hoping the care ride will never end and our destination will never be in sight.

“you’ve grown so much Y/N!” aunt Natalia said with such excitement as she cupped my cheeks before embracing me in a tight hug.

“long time no see, auntie” I smiled at her, doing my best to make it seem as real as possible.

“I am so happy you could make it, how are you?” Natalia asked greeting mom and dad.

“we are doing great, happy to spend the Summer back here” my dad smiled at his sister, clearly he missed her.

“alright, enough with the greetings” my aunt dismissed, “I bet you had a long ride and you want to settle down and unpack, so the guestroom will be at your service, Kyle and Maya” she smiled looking at her brother and sister in law, “and for my dear nephew, I organized you a bed in Lydia’s bedroom, I hope you will feel comfortable” she smiled.

My heart dropped, “Awesome!” I faked a smile, “now it would be even awesomer, if you could kill me now and skip the torture part” I said, sarcastically making everyone snicker.

I looked at them with crossed arms and raised eyebrow, “I was not joking”.

My heart was pounding as I stood in front of Lydia’s bedroom’s door. It looked exactly the same.
I took in a deep breath and got the courage to finally knock.

“yes?” I heard Lydia’s voice for the first time in almost three years.

I slowly turned the knob and walked in, my heart dropped the moment Lydia’s eyes met with mine, she looked exactly the same, same style of clothes, same love for hairstyles and the same face.

“Y/N! long time no see” Lydia beamed, getting off her bed making her way to welcome me, but I stopped her immediately.

“cut it, Lydia” I snapped.

“but Y/N-“ she started but I stopped her once again.

“they say you’ve changed, but I don’t believe it” I continued, “unfortunately, I’m forced to share a room with you, so let’s just stay out of each other’s way and pray for this Christmas to be over before it even begun” I attacked immediately.

We were both quiet, staring at each other’s eyes, mine were furious while hers looked as if they filled with mixed emotions.

She pressed her lips, speechless and a bit offended(?), she just replied, “however you want”.

It’s been three days since I came, and Lydia seemed to understand the message. Every now and then, she would try to get on my good side, but all I did was shooting an uninterested expression and she would just drop it.

But today, it seemed she was more than determinate to have some alone time with me.

At the breakfast table, she got me trapped, offering me in front of our parents to go shopping with her. And even when I tried to find a way out, my parents thought it was a “fantastic idea”.

So yeah, here I am in the passenger seat of Lydia’s car, with crossed arms and the most killer vibes ever, the uncomfortable feeling could be felt from and to miles away.

“I like your outfit” she said, trying to break the silence.

“no you don’t” I replied knowingly.

She huffed, “fine, I don’t, but at least I am trying to make a conversation” she shrugged.

I huffed back rolling my eyes again, “Don’t bother”.

“I really have changed” she confirmed confidently, “I am much more persistent these days” she pressed her lips with the all too familiar old Lydia Martin attitude.

I rolled my eyes, you’ve changed Lydia? Well guess what? So have I.


“are you ready cous?” Lydia asked with a smirk.

I stared at her with fury, “Do you think it’s funny?!” I snapped turning to face her, “What don’t you get Lydia?! I don’t want anything to do with you! The only reason I am here is because I was freaking FORCED to!” I raised my voice at her.

Lydia smile, “Well I do want something with you, Y/N” she said, tossing a stand of her hair out of her sight with the back of her fingers “I want my cousin back” she admitted crossing her arms.

“Good luck in finding this gullible, because she ain’t believing anything coming from you” I shot back

“You sure take longer than me to get ready, you better hurry up so we won’t be late” she teased with a mischievous smile.

The car ride was wildly quiet, the fury was shooting out of my body.

Arriving to the host’s place, when we walked in I was surprised shocked to see her group of friends… well, the other’s I didn’t know but the two boys I was shocked to see.

“Y/N? is that you?” Scott asked completely shocked.

“I-I could ask you the same” I said as he pulled me in a warm embrace, he got more muscular and strong, seems that the unpopular wimpy Scott was long gone.

Looking at Stiles direction I was even more shocked when I saw Lydia and him greeting with a kiss on the lips.

“Y/N?” Stiles asked coming to greet me, “you took off the braces and the glasses!” he said surprised.

“yeah, I wear contacts now and the braces had to go at some point” I shot back, mocking excitement.

Stiles smiled proudly, “still a pain in the ass, good to see you” he said sarcastically before putting an arm around me, ushering me inside, “everyone, meet Y/N, Y/N meet everyone” he introduced me to quite a big group.

“Does ‘everyone’ have names?” I air quoted.

Scott stood from my other side, “these are Liam, Hayden, Corey, Mason, Theo and Malia” he introduced.

“I still don’t trust Theo” Stiles commented.

They all said hi, greeting me with smiles and waves of their hands, except of Malia who stood before me, eyes burning into mine, “hello?” I asked confused.

The moment I said that, she looked a bit nervous and just went to the other side of the room right after mumbling out “nice to meet you”.

I looked up at Scott, “is she always like that?” I asked quietly so she won’t hear me.

Scott looked as confused as I was, “not at all” he admitted.

I don’t know what it was about her, but I felt an unfamiliar tingle in my stomach.

What’s going on?


We decided to watch the movie ‘Jennifer’s Body’, we were all watching quietly, but I couldn’t help but every once in a while, to sneak a look at Malia. Something about her was different, and that made me feel good in a weird kind of way.

I really don’t know what it was, but I felt drawn.

How is that even possible, I am not gay nor bisexual. I love boys

“are you interested in someone?” I could hear Lydia whispering from beside me.

I felt my face heating up, “why would I trust telling you anything?” I shot at her, not taking my eyes off the TV.

Lydia sighed standing up, I looked up at her and before I even realized anything, she caught my hand and dragged me to one of the rooms in Scott’s house.

“you liked Jackson when we were freshmen, has something changed?” she raised an eyebrow.

I looked at her a bit confused, “yeah, I stopped liking this asshole” I replied, wrapping my palm around the door knob ready to leave this conversation, but Lydia stopped me, “let me go Lydia” I demanded thru gritted teeth.

“Are you Bisexual, Y/N?” she asked frowning in suspicious.

I sent her a death glare, before stepping outside the random room and back to the living room, leaving Lydia behind me.

Returning to the living room, I sat back down, this time on the couch next to Scott, as far as possible from Lydia.

As the night went on, the movie has finally reached to the scene where Jennifer and Needy started making out on the bed, as the scene was on, I shifted a little bit uncomfortably, the images before my eyes made my mind wonder to my wildest imagination, if it was only Malia and I?

“are you okay?” Scott whispered, snapping me out of my deep thoughts and dirty imagination.

I looked at him, feeling my heart pounding against my chest with such force I didn’t know was possible, “where’s the toilet?” I asked, completely ignoring his question.

“down the hall, turn left” he smiled softly, as if knowing wxactly what’s going thru my head.

I nodded thanking him, before speeding to the toilet, ignoring Lydia’s stares.

As I stepped into the bathroom, I pulled myself to the mirror and looked up at my reflection, the panic across my face was so obvious that I felt embarrassed that Scott probably noticed, if not everyone…

“what’s wrong with you?” I asked my reflection, “You just met her!” I kept talking, “Scratch that, you are not into girls, you are into boys!” I reminded the girl in the mirror.

I sighed, turning away from the girl in the reflection, closing my eyes I took a deep breath before shaking my head, forcing my brain to shut down any other thought and forced a smile on.

Without a second look at the girl in the mirror, I stepped out of the toilet and carried on as the night continued.

The Robron Break-Ups : A Definitive Guide (Part Four/A Large Number)

Part One / Previous Part / All / AO3

And so we return again to what is ostensibly a Break Up Counter but is actually at this point just a general recap of Aaron and Robert’s entire storyline, because I literally have no self-control.

Fair warning to you - with this post we reach The Donny Saga and The Time of Chrobert and the first Proper Break Up, which is personally one of my least favourite eras as far as Aaron and Robert are concerned and I spend most of it wanting to silently and furiously throw sharp objects at my tv screen. I MAY NOT BE AS SUBTLE ABOUT MY DISLIKE AS I COULD BE, TO BE HONEST.

But still, this has been therapeutic, and has reminded me that we’ve lived through many a Dark Age before.

Anyway, everyone loves a good bit of low-key saltiness don’t they? And also, in amongst all the… Lachlan stuff… there’s still some really wonderful moments, because of course there are. It’s Aaron and Robert.

I love you all. Thank you for your kind comments and likes/kudos/general loveliness. Enjoy.

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The Dastardly, The Bastardly, and the Terrifying: A Guide On How To Not Make A Character Antagonist

Okay, so you’ve finally got your slammin bammin protagonist. You’re pumped to show everyone what they’re made of and you want them to go on some grand adventure. They’ll start to develop and slowly become more interesting as they move on in their character saga.


You’ve got no conflict whatsoever! Where’s the tension? Where’s the excitement? Where’s the opportunity for your protagonist to start facing some serious trials and terrifying obstacles? You’ll never be able to push their limits without any sort of conflict! That’s why you need an ANTAGONIST.

You start working on your antagonist. They’re the worst kind of person you can imagine. They kill babies, rob from orphans, sexually assault nuns, the works. Their abilities are to be feared and they’re practically unstoppable because well, you made them unstoppable. There’s not a speck of good in that rotten scoundrel.


You’re suddenly finding yourself bored with your new antagonist. Maybe your character isn’t catching your interest for very long. Sure, they’re evil, but are they as amazing as you thought they would be? Are your plots not holding very long because you just have nothing to work with? What if I told you that your character may be falling prey to the deadly antagonist sins of writing? Fear not, reader! I may have the solution to your problem! As per usual with all guides, results may vary depending on the writer and what they want to make, but this is some very general rule breaking often seen in writing that ends up coming back to haunt an RPer. There are many kinds of antagonists and they’re just as diverse as protagonists. However, this applies to character versus character conflict that’s most common in RPing.

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Thee rak (Part Three)

Wordcount: 4.188

Genre: Fluff / Slice of Life

BamBam x Reader
Description: BamBam changes hair colour as much as he does with girls or clothes. However, there’s one thing that will never change: for him, you’ll always be his “Thee rak”.


Y/N: Last fast update, as I won’t see holidays anymore for another month *deep sigh*.

Now, the most important thing: I’ve finally changed title as I’ve received the confirmation that actually “Khon dii” doesn’t mean “My love” (I’ll miss it so much  T.T); on the dictionary I found “Thee rak”, wrote like this, so I’ll go on with this one as it won’t give me any problem in the plot. So, vickyxmelonlove, thanks again with all my heart for your help! You’ve been really kind to pass me that website!

Thanks to all the people who read or liked the last chapter, as much as to that kind anon who wrote me; your support is always a huge motivation for me, even if it’s a like or a message ^^

Hope you enjoy it!

P.S.: As always give a lot of love to BamBam, my sweet little bean

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The time you understood how big was the world beyond his shallowness, BamBam’s hair was reddish.

Shaved on the left side, pulled up on the right, it perfectly matched with the black shirt he was wearing that night of mid-May and a little brunette was toying with his bangs while he tightened her wrist and laughed high, leaning on the elevator’s wall.

You walked in in a mixture of annoyance and anxiousness while tightening to your breast your books, a bit because even if it was 11:00 pm already you had to study for an exam and a bit because, jeez, how come you had to always run into him when he was glued to a girl?!

Ugh, well, he was always with a girl, so…

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How I lost it!

So I know a lot of you have sent me messages asking how I lost the weight… and I’ve been terrible at replying. And I am so sorry! Honestly it’s been really hard for me to be consistent in posting, yet alone answering messages. But I really want make an effort to start blogging on a weekly basis, maybe even more. Anyways so here’s a little bit of my journey… I hope it helps. And please feel free to ask me detailed questions, I really do want to help motivate in any way I can!

I’ll start off with one of my favorite quotes.

“Change happens when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change.”

You have to want it bad enough to bare the pain of change. Because you WILL go through changes, and it will be painful. But worth it? Without a doubt.

Sticking with it… I wish I could give you an easy answer, but for me… I suppose I couldn’t take living in my own body anymore. It wasn’t a question of how do I stick with this… it was a question of… can I really continue to live in this body? Overweight… unhappy… underlining depression constantly seeping into the back of my mind. I have no words for some of the things I went through over the past ten years… struggling with my weight and health… emotionally tore me apart, which led to binge eating… yoyo dieting, abusing diet pills, and hating myself even more when I failed. I blamed everyone around me for years, when really the choice was in my hands the whole time.

So where do you start?

First you have to prepare your mind. Prepare yourself emotionally. Especially if food has been an emotion outlet for you.

I’ve tried every diet under the sun… Atkins, south beach, paleo, low fat, low carb, low calorie, juicing, cleanses, diet pills, etc. All showed results, but not all kept the weight off. My favorite would be the juicing/clean eating.  I honestly feel so much better, and only take a multi vitamin every day. vs taking super harsh diet pills and crash diets. But to be 10000% honest, in the beginning of my weight loss journey, this whole juicing and clean eating thing probably wouldn’t have cut it. I needed something to get me off my ass and diet pills did just that. I had low energy all the time and I needed something fast and strong, or so I thought.

I think it’s all about your mindset, and overall goals. I wanted weight loss quick stat, so I was willing to take things or do things that may not have been so great on my body. Now that I’ve been doing this for a while, my mindset and outlook on dieting is completely different. I’ve been on all sides of the fence. Literally at one point, I was eating fast food every single day. heck I was working at in n out burger, but besides that… I was still driving thru places. Along with that I struggled with binge eating… especially in the evening… 12 at night… sometimes even later. I was definitely a “feelings eater”. At one point I ate super terrible and laxatives to get rid of it- that was painful to say the least… if you know what I mean. I’ve abused diet pill, dieter’s tea, laxatives, cleansing pills, etc. Not for long periods of time, but I can honestly say over the years I’ve tried everything I could get my hands on.


Now for the PLAN!!

      1. CLEANSE your body of all the junk!!!

If you’re at the very beginning of your diet, I HIGHLY recommend a cleanse. Its not absolutely necessary, but I feel like it made a difference for me. It will get all the crap out of your system and kind of reset everything. You can buy a cleanse pack at gnc, walgreens, walmart, pretty much anywhere. I ALWAYS started my diets with a cleanse. I’d say that the 7 day one is ideal. 14 is too long, and anything shorter and your guna find yourself on the toilet alot. lol just your preference though.

     2. Pooping is important!!! (lol)

If you don’t have a bowel movement (poop) daily… this may be slowing down your weight loss efforts. There are a multitude of thing you can use such as fiber supplements, Mira lax, etc. Drinking tons of water is key essential.

There’s also the enema bag… that you can get on amazon… or a health food store. I recommend this but with caution. I first heard about this through a nutritionist actually. Having a healthy bowel movement is essential to for dieting and good health in general. I hear it daily while working in a health clinic.

So anyways the nutritionist recommended the enema bag. It’s a bit odd at first, and if you don’t have issues going to the bathroom regularly… then this is NOT for you. You can simply stick to a 7 day cleanse or purchase an over the counter fiber supplement and your golden!

      3. Diet Pills

I want to touch on the diet pill topic again. Let me clarify… that I’m not “against” diet pills per say… I just think that they should be used only as directed. Which let’s be honest… that is rare. If you are dieting, and doing some form of exercise, drinking tons of water, and not eating crap… then yes, diet pills can give you quicker results. No doubt. But… just beware… your body can build a tolerance to the caffeine intake and then become reliant on it. I speak from experience. Also, they are super harsh on your liver. I know all supplements have risks. But if you’re at the very beginning of your weight loss challenge… and looking for something to get you through the first couple weeks… diet pills might be right for you. Also of note- if you have a low caffeine tolerance… you may want to try the non-stimulant option.

At some point I’ll write a review on each one diet pill I’ve tried. But for now I can say my favorite would be lipo 6 black ultra-concentrated or performix SST. They are strong and definitely cut my appetite/gave me tons of energy. I didn’t take them on the weekends just to have a break in between… but I can tell you I noticed the decrease in energy on those days without them.

       4. FOOOOOOD

Like I mentioned earlier… I’ve abused diet pill, dieter’s tea, laxatives, cleansing pills, etc. Not for long periods of time, but I can honestly say over the years I’ve tried everything I could get my hands on.

By far the best thing I’ve found… is clean eating/working out/getting a good amount of sleep/drinking TONS of water. Can it really be that simple? I honestly never believed it. I would see all the pictures on Pinterest or Instagram… “Just eat healthy & workout”. I thought to myself ‘ya right, I want quick results. I want results NOW. Well here I am… 4 years later, having tried more diets than I can count… and which one am I preaching about? ha

Anyways so about Juice… contrary to popular belief… it’s actually not super expensive. If you’re smart. Honestly I spend less money than I used to on groceries.

        5. Juicing!

Here’s what you do… buy a juicer on amazon or craigslist… 50$. Or whatever you’re willing to spend. Then hit up a couple grocery stores in your area… and find out which ones are the cheapest when it comes to produce. I’ve found grocery outlet, food maxx and winco are the cheapest in my town. Carrots are ridiculously cheap. Like 2$ for a 5 pound bag. Apples can be decently cheap too if you get the big red ones in bulk. Basically just look around, and be smart. My typically grocery list includes the following:

Red apples, green apples, oranges, carrots, lemon, kale, beets, grapefruit, cabbage, cucumber, broccoli, pears, ginger, hummus, eggs, turkey, low fat Greek yogurt, sugar free almond milk, low carb organic bread(trader joes), avocado, tomatoes, peppers, lettuce, almonds, nuts, chicken breast (lean), organic brown rice, bananas, dried fruits, quest bars, Lara bars, organic oats, stevia.

I spend about 140$ on groceries a month. At least since I’ve been juicing. I go twice a month and spend 70$ each time. Not planned, just always come out to 70$ give or take a lil.

So pretty much I juice twice a day. Once with breakfast, and once for dinner.

Breakfast is typically a piece of toast with avocado, (usually my heavy carbs are only with breakfast. I stay away from carbs towards the evening) or eggs with tons of veggies mixed in.

Bread is a HUGE weakness of mine… so I’ve tried to find the best way to sneak it into my diet. Lol which is only in the morning or early afternoons, and I buy the best bread I can possibly find… which is at trader Joes. I get either the gluten free, or the low carb flax seed.

Lunch can be a salad, chicken, veggies, cottage cheese, eggs, etc. Portion size is important. If I’m hungry before or after lunch I’ll have a few almonds (favored ones are good too if you don’t really like almonds) or some banana chips, an apple, celery w/peanut butter. Small but does the trick!


6. The make or break meal:

Dinner… now this one is important for your weight loss goal so make note!

I don’t eat dinner past 5 PM. Especially carbs. I try to have the least amount of carbs in my dinner. Some days if I’ve hit a plateau.. I won’t have cards after 3-4 PM.

So for meal ideals… I keep it simple… salads… fried veggies (a drop of grape seed oil is all you need) with some salt and pepper, chicken or turkey breast, or I’ll replace dinner with a healthy juice all together. A low carb protein shake is good too. If you’re still hungry, some vegetables would do the trick!

I know that doesn’t sound too fun… But I can’t tell you enough… Dinner is the make or break meal.

The first week or so you may find that adjusting your dinner time is too difficult… so try having dinner a few hours earlier… and slowly make your way to 5 PM. I often went to bed hungry towards the beginning, then my stomach got used to the adjustment.

Drink lots and lots and lots of WATER! One full glass with each meal and snack. One as soon as you make up and one after dinner.

Another note,

ORGANIC EVERYTHING! Yes it’s a bit pricier… and it’s not a must… but if you have the $$ to spend… I’d say it’s worth the extra money.

Basically I like to mix it up. Be creative, yet cheap. It’s possible. I support myself, so I get it… I get the bills, I get the whole “not enough money to diet” but if you want something bad enough… you’ll find a way. If you aren’t a fan of the juicing idea… then just stick to eating the whole fruits and veggies. If you’re going to take this route… I would stick to the fruits towards the morning, and more veggies towards the evening. And again, do your breads… if you’re going to have any… in the morning.


7. To dairy or not to dairy…

Cutting out dairy in general… can make a hugggge difference. I cut out cheese, milk and cream cheese for a while and lost weight doing that alone. I love love love cheese in any form.. So this wasn’t easy for me… and I still have it a few times a week… but it will definitely make a difference.

 8. Water Water Water!

            I can’t stress this enough!

It takes a while for your body to adjust… at first you’ll pee more than a pregnant woman… lol but eventually your bladder gets used to it.

9. Calories in<calories out

It’s true… that if your calories in is less than calories out… you’re going to lose weight. But if you’re wanting to feel better and treat your body as the temple that it is… clean eating is the way to go.

And now for everyone’s favorite…

10. Exercise

In the very beginning of my journey… I started with a lil cardio outside… even just a walk a day. Eventually I joined a gym… hit the elliptical for 30 mins… then did all the machines for 30 also. Rotated between arm machines someday and leg machines the rest of the week. Eventually I made my way to the treadmill/bike, and starting lifting more along with doing squats and lunges, and abs at home.

I can elaborate more on my workouts in a later blog… but that’s the jest of it.

Honestly, you can work our as much as you want but if you’re not eating healthy then the weight won’t come off as fast… or at all even.


11. Unrealistic goals

It’s going to take time. It’s going to be a process. You’re going to have temptations, and you’re going to fall sometimes. The biggest thing is that you GET BACK UP.

“Success is going from failure to failure without losing any enthusiasm”

love this quote. Especially when relating it to dieting… because “failure” will be a part of the journey. It’s a learning process. Don’t you love that word…? “Process”. Lol

 12. Be honest

I struggled with being social at times… because my friends love to eat. Lol so hangs out typically meant going to dinner, going to the bars, making food at someone’s house… baking, cooking, sweets, alcohol. It SUCKED.

Set boundaries!!

Tell your friends that you’re on a diet or just eating healthy. Or whatever you want to say, but be honest with others and yourself especially. If you know that putting yourself in a certain situation or atmosphere is going to set you up for failure… then don’t do it. Easier said than done. But really. And if you absolutely know that you are going to fail, t

hen accept it and just get back up the next day. Keep the enthusiasm.

13. Enjoy the journey

I still wanted to enjoy life in the process of getting healthy & reaching my goals. I mean… Don’t get me wrong… When you have a large amount of weight to lose… It takes freaking dedication. Hard work. It hurts. It freaking sucks some days. The cravings, the anger, the frustrations of how we got to that weight in the first place. I could write a book about it. All the emotions to work through too… that in its self was just as hard, if not harder. For me personally, this journey has brought me a lot of inner healing. Some deep rooted anger and hurt literally had to be dealt with. Things that triggered my weight gain in the first place. I had to face my demons. I had to get to the root of the problem. I honestly believe weight gain and how we treat our bodies is directly related to our emotional state and current situations around us. Some things completely out of our control, but in the end that is no excuse. ‘We cannot change our past, we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way, and we cannot change the inevitable. But we do have control of our attitudes and how we chose to respond to our situation.’ I stopped choosing excuses and started seeing results. I stopped blaming others and started facing myself.  

Follow me on instagram for a closer look into my journey //@sheriboberry :)

F.T.Willz never dies?

Do you remember the theory about FTWillz and his poetry? Around the net, especially in the fandom, this is not news and it seems like this person won’t cease to amaze us.

Since I started to investigate on FTWillz, his poetry has absolutely become my favorite topic.

I spent days around a lot of tumblr blogs and google researches, finding out things I would have never expected to find.

It may be because of the deep meaning behind his poems, or the simple and desperate need of help FTWillz communicates with his dark writing, that the issue concerns me so much.

First of all he had a myspace, then livejournal and finally twitter. What if this is not all?

Recently, a girl informed me about a really important blog she found on tumblr: f-t-willz-must-die.

To be honest, at first sight I thought “this is certainly a blog like another, maybe an appreciation one… I don’t think he would like to be found out so easily with the final ’‘must die” like Frank’s’’ but I had to think about it again as soon as I opened the link.

I made a quick journey in that blog just to see what I could have find and the first thing you can see is that the blog owner hasn’t written anything since September 2013, four months after he made the first post on his blog.

If you search the blog on whasoever search engine, the website does not appear, so it seems like this blog has been hidden by the owner.

This option can be activated once you register on tumblr, in the settings page, where you can allow the search engines to index your blog. So we can say that FTWillz thought that hiding his blog from other ones would have helped him with not being found out by people.

Or maybe he was just desperately trying to be discovered?

We passed hours on this blog, even though it has just 4 pages, and we noticed a lot of interesting stuff about his poetry.

First of all, the way FTWillz writes is stunningly similar to Frank’s, both the lack of capital letters and the frequent use of dashes on their poems.

There are about 34-35 poems written in there and FTWillz “sends” us a message that we can classify as “full of hate” and “desperate”.

Nothing new, right? All things that connect us to Frank’s poetry, whose poems are really similar to the new FTWillz ones.

Other important things can be the notes and the tags: actually, FTWillz didn’t add tags on his posts and he has just two notes, one of which is the girl’s who told me about this blog.

Seems like Frank didn’t want to be found out.

I immediately thought that the blog was a kind of “refugee” where he wanted to write safely without having problems.

The obvious question is: why didn’t he make a private blog?

You can tell this blog is absolutely interesting from every corner of it.

One of the things M noticed was the last poem he wrote, the 20th September’s one that appears on the top of the first page, where FTWillz mentions a certain Sylvia Plath.

I’m pretty sure someone of you recognized the name.

The same poetess was quoted by Frank in an interview years ago during The Black Parade, as a reference to the album, inspired by the figurative death in Plath’s poems.

Can it be just a coincidence?

Talking again about FTWillz, in the poem written the 25th August, I found an extremely important thing that, from the first sight, I’ve noticed.

Do you remember “From My Head to My Middle Finger, I Really Think I Like You”? The poem both Frank and the (not so) mysterious FTWillz have published?

Well, the same sentence was written by FTWillz must die too the 25th August.

Still a coincidence?

By the way, the 23rd May FTWillz published a poem named “houston we have a…” and the “you’re so cool cool cool” line shocked me a bit.

You have surely recognized this line, didn’t you?

The sentence is the same as Kill All Your Friends and this makes me think that this is not just a coincidence. We can notice that FTWillz is pissed off with a person who changed and who believes he is important so he calls him “arrogantly successful”.

Even if you’re not obsessed with this band you can surely tell that Gerard never wanted to be cool (yeah, we all know the NME interview), so we can assume that the fact that Gerard changed pushed FTWillz to write those angry lines.

There’s another thing that I noticed really easily. I am referring to the 15th July poem where FTWillz writes “club 27 has reached capacity”, which is also the title Frank gave to one of his poems in his website.

Still a coincidence? Let’s think a little about this.

If someone still remembers it, back to 2004, a message from Frank appeared to search for Gerard who disappeared after leaving a message telling him he was going to be the new Jim Morrison, who died when he was only 27 (the same age Gerard had in 2004) of overdose.

Now, let’s be honest, in that recording Frank seems to be crying instead of just being sick, so we can tell he cares a lot about his best friend and the fact that Gerard was basically drunk and on drugs all the time seems to confirm my theory. Seriously, Frank was really worried for him.

If you have never heard it, here’s a youtube video where you can find the recording

Do you still think this is just a mere coincidence? This poem is about someone who wanted to commit suicide at the age of 27, come on! It’s obvious now.

Moving on, FTWillz named a poem with a line a letlive’s song, Banshee: “My stomach hates the, hates the bitter taste of the truth” and, in another poem, he uses another line from another letlive’s song, Younger. And I found this thing pretty suspicious.

This could say barely nothing but I made a little research about this group just to see what type of connection they have together and I found something interesting.

Apparently, it seems like the two bands have in common the same label and this explains why FTWillz knows some of their songs.

As I said many times before, you can say this can be just a coincidence and the blog owner could be someone who enjoys making fun of other people and who can perfectly imitate the way Frank writes. And I understand this because I know the fanbase is full of teenagers that do not have anything to do all day, but I’m pretty sure there are a lot of things left and I’m definitely convinced that FTWillz must die is Frank.

Don’t believe me? Take a look here.

Do you think this is something a teenage boy or a teenage girl could write?

I don’t think a fifteen-years-old teenager can write those type of things, especially because I am one. Like the majority of my peers, I’m absolutely disinterested in politics and I’ll never be able to write things like these, not even in a million years. Trust me.

And the main reason I think FTWillz is Frank is the fact that if you open Frank’s page on his university’s website you can tell politics is a topic he is really interested in. I am convinced that he is such an intelligent and cultured man.

Do you think a grown up fan would waste his time making fun of a crowd of teenagers? I strongly doubt it.

In conclusion, I am definitely sure that FTWillz must die is Frank and that he WANTS us to find out these “secrets”. And I am convinced, after I read his poetry, that he was really close to reveal something, something we already know but something they still keep hiding.

Sorry for my not-so-good English and I wanted to thank my “colleague” M for helping me and for tolarating my silliness during this discovery!

We are going to analyze his poems soon so, stay tuned!

I don’t know what I can say anymore, it’s all up to you. There’s definitely more than just “stage gay” between those two.

fics masterpost

updated as of 1 February 2016

i’ve written a lot of fics (i think) (sort of) so i decided to make a masterpost of them. i’ll make new ones in the future as i write even more, of course, but these are the fics i have now - hope you enjoy them! all my fics are tagged ‘fics’ on my blog if you want to find the full list if i haven’t updated this for a while xx

snowbaz fluff

  • hope - baz comforts simon in their kitchen at two in the morning
  • intoxicated - a very aggravated baz has to help a drunk simon back to the dorm
  • snow - disclaimer: i did not note the pun until five seconds ago. written for carryonsecretsanta​‘s advent calendar 2015, simon and baz and christmas and fluff etc
  • kiss for luck - au in which baz is sick (i know he can’t really be sick but protective simon is adorable)
  • honourary big brother - in which i spell ‘honourary’ with an u and autocorrect refuses to accept it. also in which simon stays over at the pitch mansion for christmas and meets mordelia. inspired by askmordeliagrimm​ and asksimonsnow​ because they’re lovely people
  • secrets, stars, and aero bars - the first carry on fic i actually wrote wrote (not the first one i finished and posted). basically in Fangirl Cath writes a snowbaz fic called that and an excerpt is included and i just wanted to see how and if i could expand that excerpt
  • midnight - new year’s fic. in which simon and baz dance around their apartment, because i wanted to write them dancing around their apartment. very very fluffy tbqh
  • come morning light - inspired by the lyrics: just close your eyes, the sun is going down. you’ll be all right; no one can hurt you now. come morning light, you and i’ll be safe and sound - taylor swift, safe and sound
  • movies - simon and baz and their movie-watching habits
  • it must be chemistry - potential future chaptered fic. maybe. in which i make a really good awful pun to myself in the title. normals au - simon and baz hate each other and then they get assigned to be partners for a project in chemistry class. (i never said i didn’t like a little bit of cliché here and there.)
  • distance makes the heart grow fonder -  baz is in america with his family and simon isn’t. phone calls and wishes and missing each other, basically
  • pure gold - a collection of AUs, because no matter the universe, simon and baz fall in love every single time.
  • practicetimes simon kissed baz
  • when the clock strikes twelve - another new year’s fic, because why not
  • natural - tiny fic. more like a paragraph tbh. first time baz tells simon “i love you.”
  • porcelain - tiny fic as well. baz comes home late and simon stays up to wait to see him
  • midterms - again, tiny fic i need to write longer fics i stg. au: simon and baz are normals, and friends. baz is still pining over simon, and simon remains oblivious. basically fifth year, but friends.
  • in pieces - simon’s parents argue. simon escapes to baz’s house when he can’t stand the yelling. it’s not exactly fluff but there’s no direct angst between simon and baz so i guess here it is (i really need to make more categories for this)
  • text - zero narration, only dialogue. simon can’t sleep and texts baz about it.
  • precious  - based off this quote from Fangirl: “Kissed. Cath loved that word. She used it sparingly in her fic, just because it felt so powerful. It felt like kissing to say it. Well done, English language.”
  • silhouette - more normal!au. basically the same au as midterms
  • content - tiny fluffy coffeeshop (ish) au
  • meet - simon and baz meet through playing pokemon go
  • eureka - based on the quote ‘everything is starting to make sense.’
  • mistletoe - written for carryonsecretsanta’s advent calendar 2017; simon and baz find themselves under the mistletoe

snowbaz angst

  • end in burning flames or paradise - my first ever fic (i nearly didn’t post it) (in which case i wouldn’t have this fic list right now) simon and baz fight and it gets really really bad
  • chapter 61 - my second ever fic. basically chapter 61 in simon’s pov
  • burn bright - alternately titled ‘i love parallels as well as natasha and baz together so i wrote this thing’
  • i wish - also written on a very bad night. it’s very short so the only thing i can say is angstaNGST ANGST kind of
  • all this driving is driving me crazy - i was feeling the feels on chapter 61 day 2015, so i wrote a thing. alternately titled ‘what baz said while they were driving that night’ - sort of AU because i didn’t follow the book word for word
  • beloved - a fic i wrote for sagemeryllisbanks as part of the carry on secret santa 2015. in which baz does the ‘i’m not good for you’ thing and everything collapses.
  • ages - accidents happen fast. one second, and that’s all they take.
  • the world is spinning - simon cries when he thinks baz is asleep and baz can’t comfort him until the night everything falls apart
  • have faith - a fic i wrote for the carry on secret valentine for queerkat-meerkat. in which simon doesn’t deal very well with the war (because i have convinced myself that there is no way he could have just bounced back that quickly from everything)
  • white noise - normal!au where baz, simon, agatha and penelope are on pretty good terms, but whereas baz still likes simon, simon likes agatha, and baz has to deal with his pining (this sounds really unappealing oops)
  • bitterness - bitter simon and bitter baz and hatred
  • glass - ‘what if simon didn’t deal that well with the mage’s murder’
  • half past five - very short, very mild angst. basically baz pining for simon
  • echo - tiny fic. simon and baz argue, possibly beyond repair
  • routine - tiny fic. the usual interaction between baz and simon in their dorm every day. baz sneers, simon growls, et cetera et cetera
  • fragments - “things you said when you were crying”, baz pov about simon
  • perspective - Once Cath had written what she thought was a love scene, and Wren had turned it into a sword fight. - Fangirl // a rewrite of text, with narration filling in the gaps between the dialogue to utterly change the interpretation of the situation
  • unsaid - baz texts simon and deletes drafts of messages he’ll never send
  • empty - simon can’t sleep
  • alone - baz lashes out with magic because he’s alone and angry and has nothing else to cling to
  • match - simon and agatha are perfect for each other and all baz can do is watch
  • weary - simon is too tired and broken to deal with anything
  • loss - simon deals with the loss of his magic


  • aurora - i wrote this on a really bad night and apparently people like it?? i wanted to explore agatha’s character a little bit, so this is kind of like her take on her life
  • scattered constellations - lucy’s watford era. i originally meant for it to be a chaptered fic but procrastination + school = almost no time so D: maybe at some point in the future though
  • aeroplanes - written for ask-emily-scott and ask-agatha-wellbelove based on a little au they did (basically they got into a fight and emily nearly migrated away from agatha and everyone who was there watching were freaking out)
  • amortentia - it’s not full angst, it’s just kind of sad and wistful. definitely not fluff though. hogwarts au which may (may) become a chaptered fic in the future?
  • hello - most of the time, my ships are canon, and i feel like if i ever read GTL’s Simon Snow series, i would probably be writing simon/agatha. this is my attempt at it. (also because i heard “i’m in california dreaming about who we used to be” and i went AGATHA)
  • quiet - penny and micah being the couple that is practically an old married couple already
  • ink splatters - davy is too absorbed in his work for much else
  • tyger, tyger, burning bright - the night natasha pitch died
  • worst wedding ever - based on a fic we-were-stars wrote, which was in turn based on the malec wedding in shadowhunters 1x12. this is agatha’s pov - hers focuses on simon and baz.
  • focus - agatha and her magic
  • prove - agatha, a year after she ran away
  • funerals - lucy’s, natasha’s, ebb’s and the mage’s
  • goodbye - penny and micah, the day micah has to return to america
  • pressure - simon’s feelings when the mage comes to his orphanage and tells him he’s a mage
  • courage - my take on the canon final battle in GTL’s simon snow series
  • guilt - agatha breaks up with simon, based on an excerpt from Fangirl (alternately titled falling out of love is a very painful thing)
  • fate - a fic about ebb because there will never be enough appreciation for ebb
  • beacon - ebb is one of the most powerful mages in the world, and the mage knows

fangirl (not including any stories based on carry on/simon snow excerpts)

  • blood, sweat, tears - cath expects too much from her writing
  • block - also counts as snowbaz fluff, although i didn’t originally intend for it to turn out that way. parallels wren being there for cath and baz being there for simon.

chaptered fics (i am so slow at updating though)

  • night lights: chapter one // chapter two - baz just moved into a new apartment and his kitchen window faces the kitchen window of the guy next door, and they both keep drinking coffee at ungodly hours of the morning.
  • burnt-out stars: one // two // three // four - hamilton inspired. the mage’s plans eventually lead to simon’s downfall, and lucy finds out
  • two roads: one // two - pre-snowbaz baz thinking about what would happened if simon and baz take hate over love and vice versa

mini fics (aka me getting all excited and adding unnecessary small fics to the ends of tumblr posts)

  • (x) penelope uses simon says every once in a while on simon and she and baz watch him do one silly spell before it’s all gone
  • (x‘which one of your otp is the one to die and which is the one to sit in the middle of the street, holding their dead body, rocking back and forth, screaming “come back, come back, come back”?’ ‘it could go both ways’ and then me and thepessimisticasshole got a little too obsessed
  • (x) asksimonsnow and askbasiltonpitch have had to name too many children on tumblr
  • (x) thepessimisticasshole accidentally got lotion in her hair and thought of “she’s got her hair pulled back in a giant frizzy ponytail that would probably be nice and wavy if she’d put any product in it at all. anything. hand lotion. shaving cream.” and i added on to that
  • (x) daphne making puns about baz’s name to get simon to eat basil when he stays over
  • (x) “hc that simon can’t go to bonfires or really be around fire in general anymore because the smell of smoke basically makes him relive christmas 2k15″ “wait what if baz smoked and tried to quit it for simon but simon found out on a bad day”
  • (x) inspired by that excerpt in Fangirl: “Shhh.” “I just-” “Hush.” “I worry-” “Don’t.” “But-” “Simon.” “Baz?” “Here.”

Noam Dar x Reader / 1,286 words / SFW 

You’re Noam’s best friend. Things get weird when Alicia lets you in on a rumor about the two of you. Can you mend the relationship between you and Noam?

A/N: This is really sloppy and could be so much better. It was rushed because it’s actually 8 am right now and i haven’t slept. Just thought the Noam tag could use a little love. Everyone please write some fics and imagines for the love of god.

Keep reading


Here ya go! Hope you guys like it! Sorry it took so long!


You woke the next morning with the feeling of being in a warm cocoon. The soft puffs of breath that hit your neck reminded you that you were not alone in your bed. Taekwoon’s rythmic breathing was almost enough to lull you back to sleep. Suddenly, you heard a buzzing noise coming from your night stand; your phone. You really didn’t want to move but you feared that the noise would wake Taekwoon. Not that you could have moved even if you wanted to. The heavy arm draped across your waist made it difficult to move anywhere. Still, you reached forward, wanting to silence it before it woke up Taekwoon. Stretching your fingers out you came up about 3 inches too short.

You tried to ease up a bit to extend your arm but the steel band around your waist tightened and your back was once again securely against his chest. Damn, he was strong. You waited a moment to see if the buzzing would stop. It didn’t.

His arm relaxed a little and you took your chance. Reaching foward as quickly as you could, you grabbed your phone just before he pulled you back to his side. You wondered if he was doing that out of instinct. His breathing indicated that he was still sleeping. You assumed it was a guardian thing. Not that you were complaining. Wrapped up close to Taekwoon was just about as good as it could get.

Unlocking your phone and switching it to silent instead of vibrate, you noted a lot of text messages from the other members. The majority asking if you were awake yet. You giggled a bit at Ravi’s message asking if you both were decent enough for them to come over. Ravi’s silly texts continued until you noticed that he turned the conversation into a group text.

Ravi - Noona, are you ever going to wake up? Its already 8:30. How much time to you need to spend with Hyung? ㅜㅠ

Ken - How long did you guys stay up last night to need this much sleep??? ;)

Hyukkie - Is Hyung holding you hostage? Do I need to come over there?

Hongbin - Hyuk, you probably shouldn’t go over there. Your eyes might burn out of your face.

Hakyeon - Was it hot?

Their texts were causing you to laugh even more. You had to cover your mouth to be quiet. Apparently, it didn’t work.

“You’re lying in bed with one man and talking on the phone with several others?”

Taekwoon’s soft voice right next to your ear caused you to jump about a foot. Although you were embarrassed you would not be defeated.

“Well, what else do you expect me to do while you’re asleep? I have to keep myself entertained somehow.”

In one second, the phone was pushed out of your hands and landed on the floor. In the next second, you were on your back, underneath a red-eyed Taekwoon.

“I can entertain you, if thats what you want.” His voice was low and his eyes were only half open-giving off a dangerous, seductive look. His eyes faded to a rich green. You involuntarily glanced at his lips and it caused him to grin. “You know, you’re very easy to read.”

Seconds before his lips reached yours, you turned your face. His lips landed on your cheek and he growled at you.

“I haven’t brushed my teeth yet.” You mumbled through your hand. He sighed and lowered his head in defeat.

“Fine. Go. I’ll go fix you some breakfast.” He nipped at your ear and you squeaked.

You walked into the bathroom and noticed how red your cheeks were in the mirror. You also noticed that you looked like a complete wreck. Your hair was all over the place and you had no makeup on. Although, no makeup was fine with you, you had to do something with your hair. You quickly ran a brush through it and put it up in a loose pony tail. Taking care of your hair, teeth, and everything else, it only took you 10 minutes to clean up.

You walked into the kitchen to see Taekwoon scrambling some eggs and putting some bread into the toaster. You suddenly had a silly idea. You walked up behind him and put your arms around his waist. You had seen this in so many korean dramas, you really wanted to try it once. You felt him place his hand over yours and squeeze.

“Done already? Were you in that much of a hurry to continue from earlier?” He placed the eggs on a plate and added the toast.

“Of course not. I’m just hungry.” You smiled up at him as you took the plate out of his hands and went to stand by the table. You faintly heard a growl as you passed him.

“I’ve been meaning to ask you. I’ve heard you growl quite a bit but can you purr?” You couldn’t resist the constant urge to tease him.

He walked up to you and slinked him arm around your waist, pulling you flush against him.

“We would have to do a lot more than what we did last night if you want to hear me purr.” He leaned down and placed his lips on your neck, nipping it slightly. Several different emotions coursed through your body as your heartbeat picked up. He kissed your neck once more and released you. “Go ahead and start eating. I’ll be back in a second.” He didn’t look back as he walked towards the bathroom to clean up.

You had to hold onto the table as you struggled to sit down. Taekwoon’s flirting was going to kill you one day, you were certain about that. All the VIXX videos that you had watched had not prepared you for that. And how much further was he talking about? You knew for a fact that it was farther than you wanted to go right now. You would just have to wait.

You snapped out of it thankfully before he came back into the kitchen. You started in on the eggs and smiled at him when he sat down. He placed your phone on the table in front of you. You mumbled a thanks and looked to see if there were anymore messages. You almost choked on your toast when you saw that there were 32 messages. Scrolling through them, you couldn’t help but laugh. Since you had not replied to them they had started to argue amongst themselves, even though they were all in the same room. The last message was from Hakyeon asking for you to tell Taekwoon to call and that it was important. You showed the message to Taekwoon and he nodded, finishing his breakfast first. He went back to the living room to retrieve his phone from the couch. You continued eating until the food was gone. You stood up to wash the dishes since Taekwoon had cooked.

He heard him talking on the phone, his voice raising in irritation occasionally. You assumed it was about the snake hybrid and that Hakyeon had spoken with HaeJeong. You turned your attention back to the dishes. Finally, he said goodbye to Hakyeon on the phone and walked back into the kitchen. The roles being reversed now, he slid his arms around your waist. He placed his chin on your shoulder as you went about your task.

“Everything okay?”

“Hakyeon said that they had sent the snake to the authorities but he had somehow escaped. They are still out looking for him. We’ll find him. But I can’t promise I won’t try to kill him.” His arms tightened on your waist and you sighed. Finished with the dishes you turned in his arms.

“Don’t stoop to that level, Taekwoon. I don’t want you to become that kind of person. I know they’ll find him but there is no reason for you to have to live with taking someone’s life like that-no matter what he’s done.” You placed you hands on his shoulders and squeezed. He lowered his head and nodded.

“Can I at least beat the living shit out of him?”

You couldn’t answer. You could only laugh at his question, knowing that if he ever got his hands on the hybrid that he would do just that.

“There is good news at least. Hakyeon said that we kind of get a little vacation.”

“Oh really? Wait, what does ‘kind of’ mean?”

“Its kind of like a company-sponsored vacation. Meaning we all have to go together. Its a bit outside of Seoul, for a week, but it should be nice. We’ll have a bit of filming to do but its mostly a break.”

Your heart sank. Of course, you were happy that they were getting a break. But at the same time you didn’t want to be without Taekwoon for a week. But you also didn’t want to say that out loud. Nonetheless, you would be happy for them.

“That’s great! When do you have to leave?”

“In about 4 hours?”

Panic took over. Not only would he be gone for a week-they would be gone while the snake hybrid was on the loose. And they would leave today. Tears threatened your eyes.

“Hey, hey, no don’t cry, honey. You’re going with us.” He lifted your chin to meet his eyes. Your vision was blurry due to the tears forming. “Did you think I would leave you alone here while all of this was happening. Even if it wasn’t, I would still take you with me. You go where we go.”

“I am?” Your heart jumped for joy. The thought of being with Taekwoon on a vacation thrilled you. “I just assumed that since it was a company thing you guys would go alone. You know, have "guy time”.“ You held your hands in the air imitating quote signs with your hands.

"I love them, but do you realize how much time I spend with those guys all the time? Especially before you came? What I need is the exact opposite of guy time.” He placed his forehead against yours and smiled. “I want you with me. And not just so I can protect you. You’re mine.”

He didn’t wait for your response. Instead, he leaned forward a bit and captured your lips with his. His hold tightened on your waist and lifted you. He tasted like coffee and it was blissful. Your hands came up to tangle themselves in his hair at the nape of his neck. He changed the angle and deepened the kiss. One of his hands reached up and pulled the hair tie from your hair . He buried his hand in the long strands as they fell from the ponytail.

Your blissful morning was abruptly ended when you heard clapping and whistling, causing you to jump in Taekwoon’s arms. Startled, you grabbed on to his arms. Looking towards the door, the rest of VIXX stood there with devilish smiles on their faces. You blushed and hid your head in Taekwoon’s chest. He sighed, set your feet back down on the floor, and stepped away from you. You looked up at him just in time to see his green eyes turn blood red.

“Shit, they’re red. Abort! Abort!” Ken yelled in fear as he hid behind Ravi. The look of pure fear crossed over the rapper’s face.

“Don’t hide behind me! Get behind Hyukkie!” Ravi scampered behind the youngest with Ken and Hakyeon in tow.

“What do you think I can do?” The usual fearless maknae was wide-eyed.

Fearing for the safety of the members, you cut in front of Taekwoon and stood between him and the boys.

“Freeze!” Closing your eyes, you waited for what Taekwoon was going to do. Suddenly, you heard him laugh. Opening your eyes, you looked at Taekwoon questioningly. He pointed to the boys behind you.

Turning, you quickly backed up into Taekwoon.

“Oh my gosh! What did I do?!” Each one was literally frozen in place.

“Uh, Noona, this isn’t helping.” You screamed as Ravi spoke up. Apparently they could only move their heads. Everything else was frozen where they stood.

“Taekwoon? What do I do?!”

“Nothing, leave them.” He knocked each one on the top of their heads. He grabbed your hand and tried to pull you into the living room. You pulled back to stop him.

“I can’t do that! They were just joking around. This is serious! Uh…UNFREEZE” You panicked when that didn’t work at first. You looked to Taekwoon for help. You looked back and noticed that they were moving again. Relief flooded your body. “I am so sorry! I had no idea that would happen! I was just trying to help. Please don’t be mad!”

“Noona, its fine. See? We’re all still alive.” Ken smiled at you and the others nodded in agreement. They all shuffled into your living room and sat down.

“Are you excited for the vacation?” Hyuk bounced around for a bit before landing on Hakyeon who was lying on the couch. Given the size difference, the leader couldn’t do much.

“Sure! Anywhere with you guys is bound to be fun! Though I should probably pack some things.” You walked into your bedroom and started filling a small suitcase with various clothes and personal items. You contemplated taking you swimsuit for a few seconds. Holding it up, it was simple. You were not the bikini type so you opted for a tankini with a wrap around skirt. It was still warm out so you might get to wear it.

“Don’t bring that.” Taekwoon commented directly behind you. You made a startled sound and whirled around.

“Why not? Its still warm out. Ravi said there was a small pool.” You turned and put the suit in your bag.

“There is, but that doesn’t mean you need to wear that around the house with 6 grown men roaming about.” He reached around you, took out the bathing suit and tossed it on your bed.

You understood now. He didn’t want the others to see you like this. Well, you were never one to do what you were told to do. You sighed in “defeat” and slumped your shoulders.

“Fine, whatever you say. Now, I’m going to change clothes so get out.” You pushed him towards the door and sent him out, closing the door behind him.

Smiling, you walked back over to your bed and placed the bathing suit back in your luggage. Thinking of what Taekwoon’s face would look like later when you put it on, you smiled even more.

The World's Gonna Know Your Name

hello this is scheduled it’s 4:35pm where i am right now (majorca) how fun but i know we’re going out for dinner tonight and last time we were out for two and a half hours (!!!!! what the fuck !!!!!) so i took the precaution of writing this early so it would definitely be up for you guys because i love u all so if you’ve sent me an ask and i haven’t answered i’m not ignoring you i’m probably dying of boredom at some restaurant sigh i hope everyone’s having a good summer and if you’re still at school i’m sorry i hope u are having a good school time <3

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Anonymous said: “hiiiii I loved the borderline taeyong smut I was wondering if you would consider writing a part two? Only if you are comfortable if not that’s totally cool! I love your writing💕💕💕”

Ahh thank you so much!! And thank you for requesting a part 2, I hope you liked it :) ♡♡

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Title: Practice Makes Perfect (Study Break Part 2)

Pairing: Taeyong (NCT U) x Reader

Genre: Borderline Smut/Fluff

Word Count: 1,743

Summary: Taeyong is coming back after being on a trip since your last encounter. He wants to see you…and taste your lips again.

Originally posted by t-yong

Okay. At first, studying with Taeyong had been something that you weren’t looking forward to, not because of him but because of the studying part, cause, c’mon, who enjoys studying? Actually come to think of it, he probably didn’t mind it too much.

But then, the studying had gotten so much better. Well, it wasn’t really studying per say…although if you really wanted to, you could say that you two had been studying each other’s lips. And wow, were you very well educated in that department. 

As you trailed your fingertips over your lips, you could practically still feel the ghost of Taeyong’s lips on yours. The way they pressed softly against your mouth, then progressively got firmer. He went from sweet to passionate, to pure fire, and it was extremely pleasant once he reached that last phase. It was as if something came over him and some other person came out; someone that was much more commanding and sexy. Taeyong was handsome and very hot, but when he got to that ‘fire phase’, he turned downright sexy. 

Laying on your bed, cuddling your heart-eyed emoji pillow, which felt too appropriate for the thoughts you were having, you sighed heavily. It had been a couple of weeks since that study session had occurred and you were now on summer vacation. Taeyong and you texted everyday, but hadn’t hung out since then, which was because he had gone out of town right when school ended. But, he was coming home today and you feel a surge of excitement and butterflies flow through you at the thought of seeing him. 

He had said that he wanted to see you the second he got back into town; that he had missed you so much and to quote, ‘Needed a taste of those delicious lips of yours again’. Just thinking about it caused you to throw your arms over your eyes as a huge smile came across your face and you kicked your feet on the bed from giddiness. Sometimes you wondered if you were a five year old on the inside…it was a very likely option. 

Almost as if the universe could sense your anxiety to see him, your phone suddenly chimed. You shot up on your bed, scrambling over to it and almost sending it onto the floor from your excitement. Attempting to calm yourself, you take a deep breath and calmly unlock your phone. When you see the message is from Taeyong, that calmness goes out the window. 

You bounce up and down on your bed as you read the message, which proves to be slightly difficult considering your eyes were going all over the place from your moving. You still just enough to read his message. 

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platypusprime  asked:

I sent you a message earlier cuz I couldn't find the 'ask' when I was on my pc, but on mobile here it is... weird. Short version of that message- you're amazing, and I'm curious to know your thoughts on Vivienne?

I got your message earlier. Thank you! I really just ramble a lot, though. :)

I don’t know what’s going on with the Asks. I’m trying a different theme, in case that’s causing problems. I’ve never been very good at aesthetics, so all I’ve ever aimed for in a theme is ‘does not have a flashing background’ and ‘will not play music at me’.

As for Vivienne – well, my opinion of her is similar to my opinion of Mother Giselle: it’s not that she exists so much as that the game will not allow you to have any kind of decent argument with her.

My problems with Commander Cullen are multiple: the vast whitewashing of his character; the fact that he is obviously unqualified for the position he holds in the Inquisition; the fact that you can never seriously challenge him on his bullshit. Put all of that together and he doesn’t feel at all like a real person.

Vivienne sidesteps a lot of this simply by being new. She’s got no backstory to retcon, and if she’s introduced as a master of the Game, I pretty well have to take the writers’ word that she’s going to know what she’s doing. I think there are some missteps in her writing (my Inquisitor still has no idea why she was supposed to be upset that Vivienne had all the brand new furniture moved into her room, and I have no idea why the writers thought that was anything other than a petty and pointless thing for her to do, since all it does is show her hand), but I think conceptually she’s an interesting character.

This is particularly true when you consider her Fereldan counterpart, Wilhelm: they demonstrate that noble patronage can get you anything. Wilhelm had a life outside the Circle. He had a home, a family, and the freedom to do whatever he saw fit – he was even wandering around with a personal golem. Meanwhile, dialogue between Alistair and Wynne will tell you that, while there may not actually be a law forbidding mages from marrying, practically speaking, no mage who doesn’t have the protection of a king is ever actually going to be allowed to marry.

As a character, Vivienne makes sense. She is clever, magically talented, beautiful and has the kind of mind that enjoys the Game. She’s also really fucking lucky. I think it’s noteworthy that half her bio in World of Thedas II is actually about her lover, Duke Bastien, establishing him as the kind of man who was roguish enough to love a mage, but also respectable enough (by the mores of Orlesian society) to weather the storm that surrounded his affair with a her.

The usual embargoes were sanctioned, assassins sent, and bards put into play, but Bastien had been a master at thwarting the schemes of the nobility in his youth, and he put his talents to work reminding his peers of this fact. Several of his enemies found themselves the targets of relentless saboteurs, thieves and vandals. After a few such reprimands, the duke’s enemies turned to less difficult quarry.

World of Thedas II

That sounds like the equivalent of the Ben-Hassrath sending a couple of assassins after Iron Bull: they’re going through the motions, but Bastien is effectively secure in his position. Vivienne is of course more than capable of seeing off her own assassins, but it’s not physical protection that Bastien (and later Celene) is offering her: it’s protection from all the things the Chantry, and thus society, knows (without ever putting down on paper) that mages simply are not allowed to do.

The luck of it is incredible. Malcolm Hawke caught the eye of a noblewoman, but Leandra was not Bastien, and so the two of them spent the rest of their married lives in hiding. Having had this kind of luck, it’s not hugely surprising that she doesn’t really appreciate how extraordinary her position is. I’m afraid I can’t quote her properly, because when I try to screenshot Inquisition I only seem to catch about one in three tries, but she talks disdainfully about mages wanting their ‘freedom’ at the expense of the safety of other people. Which is a bit rich coming from a woman who will use ice magic on her enemies when they’re just being rude, because she knows damn well no one will call her on it.

She talks about freedom for mages the way a lot of the Chantry hierarchy do: as though they are whiny children begging for sweets. That’s not surprising. She’s been taught the same things as any Circle mage: the self-loathing, the fear, the sinfulness of her nature, but at the same time she has escaped a lot of the worst manifestations of those teachings. She didn’t starve to death in a cell, like Cole; she wasn’t made Tranquil, like Avexis. She wasn’t forced to spend her life effectively under house arrest, like just about everybody. Her views aren’t surprising.

And that’s … fine? I mean, it really is. That’s a good starting point for the character. But Inquisition spends a lot of its time smugly opposing change. It’s disdainful of the mage and elven rebellions; Orlesians who are disgusted with the civil war become an enemy group, ‘the Freemen’. It’s a … painfully conservative experience, really.

And that’s where I run into problems with Vivienne. Madame de Fer icily disapproves if you recruit the mages, and ultimately sets about rebuilding the Circles no matter what you do. She’s never asked to seriously rethink anything. The game never gets Fiona to stand up and talk about why the mages rebelled. Vivienne is never forced to meet survivors from Kirkwall and hear their stories, or find out why the Tranquil were made what they are, or look at the living conditions of the average mage – even in liberal Fereldan, the lack of privacy is appalling. She never has to deal with the fact that Circle life was only okay for her because of her remarkable luck.

A pro-rebellion Inquisitor ought to be able to have thunderous arguments with her. She shouldn’t just be allowed to say things that the player knows to be untrue or unfair, and have that be where the conversation ends.

But I get the impression that Inquisition is only sporadically interested in character development. Mostly, its characters exist to represent an idea that they want to push. They want to turn the player’s sympathy away from the mage rebellion, and so a lot of characters run around disapproving of it. People who do approve of it are largely silenced, and are few and far between anyway. And Vivienne is just the most vocal of the ‘anti-rebellion’ mage crowd, which makes up the biggest portion of the mages you actually meet in the game.

I’ve read the epilogue slides, so I know that Vivienne, if appointed as Divine, does seem to do something (although it’s vague on what) to improve the life of Circle mages:

Mages rise quickly in the new Circle, having more freedom and responsibility than ever before - even if all true power lies with her.

But you can see even there how grossly she has missed the point: ‘all true power lies with her’. Great. She has made the role of the Divine even more powerful than before. And she happens to be a Divine who wants mages to be happy. The wellbeing of mages has always depended on the strength and attitude of the people who have power over them. Life was pretty good for mages in Rivain, and pretty shit for mages in Kirkwall. Get yourself a powerful patron, like Vivienne or Wilhelm, and life might even be really good.

But even there, Vivienne hasn’t worked out that most people, most of the time, don’t have powerful and benevolent protectors. So, now that she’s put them back on the Chantry leash, with Templars guarding them again – what does she think life will be like for these people, if her successor turns out to not like mages?

Because the thing is? If Vivienne had been sent to the Gallows instead of the White Spire at the age of nineteen (as Karl was, after all) she would probably be Tranquil. Or dead. She would be these things because she is clever and strong willed and beautiful and good at magic. In Kirkwall, any one of those things would bring one of Meredith’s thugs down on your head, let alone all of them.

And if she wasn’t dead or Tranquil, it would be because the Underground got her out before they could do those things to her, and she’d probably be a fervent supporter of the rebellion.

Because most people are not as lucky as Vivienne has been, and if a mage is unlucky, their fate is generally unspeakable.

I’m mostly … disappointed in Vivienne, like I am with a lot of Inquisition characters. I can see a good starting point that never goes anywhere.

A little bit of Jealousy (Zico)

Summary: When you are fangirling a little bit too much over Rap Monster.
Genre: Fluff!
Words: 1419

Someone asked for another Zico scenario? here you go sweetie. ^^ I hope you guys will like it! <3

Jiho opened the door and closed it with his foot. He got away from the studio early today to spend some time with you.

“Hello?” he called out in the apartment but was only greeted by silence as no one replied.“hello!” he shouted a bit louder as he struggled to get his shoes off, cursing under his breath at the damn things. He tried to look around the corner into the kitchen but there was no sight of you. He didn’t bother with putting his shoes on the shoe rack and pushed them to the side with his foot slightly.

He walked through the living room into the kitchen but you were not there. He opened the fridge and got a bottle of water. “Y/N!” he called again as he uncapped the bottle and took a sip. The cold water ran down into his dry throat. There was still no reply from you. He left the bottle and went to check the bedroom.

He didn’t remember that you said that you were going somewhere today when he left in morning. Though you could have changed you mind.

He scanned the bedroom. The bed was nicely made and the clothing that had been spread out across  the floor was gone. But you were also gone.

He fished up his phone from his pocket to see if he had any missed messages from you but there was not a single notification. He pressed his eyebrows together and went to find you in his contacts as he made his way back to the living room.

You layed out sprawled on the couch, eyes closed and music blasting into your ears from your big headphones so loud it almost hurt your ears. This was the millionth time today you’d listened to Rap Monsters mixtape.

Suddenly you felt someone poking your cheek and it scared the crap out of you. You opened your eyes and was met by Jiho’s smiling face as he leaned over the backrest of the couch. Your mouth formed an ‘o’ shape and you took off your headphones.

“You’re home already?” you asked confused. “I thought you were working late today” you continued as you put your headphones on your stomach.

“I changed my mind” he said and shrugged. He rounded the couch and you sat you to make some space for him to sit beside you. “what are you listening to?” he asked and grabbed your headphones and put them on for a moment.

“Rap Monster?” he said and gave your headphones back to you.

“Yeah, I really like his mixtape” you said and nodded. “I’ve been listening to it all day, it’s so great!” you continued as you went to pause the song playing on your phone. “I really hope he releases some new songs soon!“ you said in a fangirling manner. “I mean he is not called Rap Monster for nothing right? He is just really amazing!” you continued letting out the fangirl inside of you.

“He is good at what he does” Jiho said with a slightly sour look on his face but you didn’t notice it.

“He is really handsome as well and funny, ah, he is such a dork” at this point you had reached you final form of fangirl.

“How was work anyway?” you then asked when you snapped out of your fangirl state. You turned to him and noticed a slight pout on his face.

“It was okay” he said shortly almost as a mumble. “I’m a bit tired so I’m gonna go and rest for a bit” he continued in the same mumbling voice and got up from the couch.

“Oh, okay…” you said confused watching him as he left and disappeared in to the bedroom. He seemed so happy just a moment ago, why did he get tired so suddenly? Maybe he had a bad day you thought and decided to give him some space for now.

Eventually you started to feel hungry and it was about time to make some food anyway. You got up from the couch and stretched out your stiff limbs.

You looked towards your bedroom and the door was wide open. You made your way over to the door and peaked in.

you saw Jiho lying curled up on the bed with his back towards you. You made your way over to him and sat down on the edge of the bed behind him.

“Jiho” you cooed quietly and caressed his side. “are you sleeping?” you asked. He turned towards you slightly.

“No…” he sighed and then returned to his previous position.

“are you in a mood with me?” you asked teasingly but didn’t get any reply. You made him lie on his back and then straddled him “are you?” you interrogated cutely.

He avoided your gaze and had slight sour look on his face. “what’s with that face?” you asked cutely.

“I don’t have a face” he defended with a pout as he finally looked at you.

“yes you do!” you said and a smile pulled at the corner of you lips. You cupped your hands around his cheeks and studied his face closely.

“What are you doing?” he asked with a chuckle and tried to supress a smile but failed.

“Woo Jiho… are you jealous?” You asked.

“No.” he said way to quickly to be believable and removed your hands from his face and avoided your gaze again. Jiho let out a huff as if he was letting you know it was a stupid assumption. You raised your eyebrows at him still not believing him.

“Really?” you asked and tilted your head slightly.

“Ahh… it was just the way you talked about him!” he then said. “You never talk about me like that…” he continued and ran his hands over his face in embarrassment. “he is even younger than me”

you remembered your fangirling moment you had earlier and everything kind of made sense. You felt stupid for not figuring it out on the spot.

You removed his hands from his face. Just as you were about to tell him to not be jealous you remembered something.

“I’ll be right back!” you said and pressed a quick kiss on his lips before you ran off to the livingroom leaving Jiho behind in a confused state. When you returned you had your phone in your hands looking for something.

You returned into you position ontop of Jiho and showed him you phone. “Read that” you said and he took the phone from you so he could read it properly.

At first he looked confused but then a smile began to break out on his lips. When he finished reading the conversation between you and your mom had earlier today, were you had praised him, he locked your phone and put it down on the bed.

“Jiho…” you start “Rap Monster is handsome I can give him that… but you know, I like ugly guys” you teased him.

“Yah! I’m not ugly” he whined cutely and chuckled.

“That’s what you said though!” you chuckle “7 ugly guys trying to make it” you quoted him teasingly.

“That’s because of my big nose!” he argues back at you as he is laughing.

“I you would ask me i’d say that your nose is really cute… but then again… I only like ugly guys” you say laughing as you continue to tease him. Jiho pouted at you again. “come on, lets go make some food” you continue as you climb off him and then drags him with you to the kitchen.

You started cooking together, making delicious curry chicken with rice. As you waited for the rice to finish cooking you were sat on the counter with Jiho standing infront of you inbetween your legs. He had his hands on your thighs caressing them gently.

“Jiho…” you said and he hummed in reply. “You know youre really handsome… right?” you said shyly feeling like you had teased him a bit too much. A smirk pulled on his lips and he leaned in and you put your arms around his neck.

“I know baby” he whisperd against your lips before he captured them in a passionate kiss.

“Good” you said happliy. “I love you” you continued and pulled him down for another kiss and felt him smiling into it.

Thank you for reading!~ <3

Note: If you liked this story, there is more on my scenario Masterlist, check it out! ^^

anonymous asked:

please please do a long ramble about the baking video, I want to hear all your opinions!!

Sorry this took so long! I’m crap at writing these things up on time. But yes of course, I definitely needed to do one for baking. Because damn…what a video. To quote my earlier post, it was beautiful strange domestic-y sexual goodness. Truly the epitome of Dan and Phil. And I enjoyed every last second of it.

As I discussed in that post I was quite shocked to see it on DINOF. You can read my immediate reaction (here) and my questioning of what that could possibly mean for their channels. I’ll probably still be over-analyzing that for a while.  

I had a few people message to say that they liked how he was showing a different side to himself on DINOF. And I have to agree, I am really enjoying this change. The persona has been slowly fading in the last year. A little less danisnotonfire and a lot more Dan Howell. As I’ve talked about in the past, I do believe DINOF and Dan are one and the same except just way hyper-focused on specific traits of his personality (the sarcasm, self-deprecation, existentialism, etc). That is very clearly the defining aspect of his channel. However, like many others, I’ve also been hoping for him to branch out and show a bit more of himself. Those who do not closely follow his live shows, social media, DAPG, or see his presence on Phil’s channel know such a narrow view of him. It's actually almost strange to imagine the somewhat skewed impression the causal audience must have. They don’t get to experience some of the very best parts of who he is in my opinion. But now perhaps that is slowly changing. Especially considering the last 3 main channel videos. If I didn’t know otherwise I would automatically assume they were on AmazingPhil. It’s kind of weird to look at (this) post of mine from last March and see that Dan does seem to have relaxed a little bit from then. The difference in content on each channel is starting to seem far less clear-cut and defined. But the change is still such a new thing and may also be due to the current focus on the book/tour, so I am very very interested to see if the trend will continue.

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Blue days, black nights. Do-wah, do-lang

For: XF Writing Challenge. Prompt: Hello
Author: @scullyphile
Rating: G
Timeline: Revival
Song: “Telephone Line” by ELO

This was going to be angsty when I started, but it turned out flirty and kind of silly. I blame Billy Madison for not allowing me to take this song seriously enough.


Mulder was drinking. Just a little bit, he told himself as he poured a glass of scotch. He was channel surfing and stumbled on a show about cryptids. It hadn’t hurt his chances of stopping there that the host had been a nice looking blond in a short skirt. These are a few of my favorite things, he thought.

He wondered with a wry grin why he hadn’t been asked to be interviewed as an expert on this show. Had his reputation fallen so much that people no longer thought of him when they talked about Bigfoot? When Darla–that was her name, marked clearly on the bottom of the screen, and he noted the absence of any credentials underneath it–started talking about el chupacabra, however, he got wistful.

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Day 2 (January 14th)-this one is going to be long so I’m splitting it into two parts:

When I tell you guys this day was JAM PACKED, I am not joking around. There was so much to do, especially if you had one of the higher ticket levels (Grounder or Delinquent), there was literally no way you’d be able to get it all done. 

We started off our day by going to Cora’s for breakfast, where I had an amazingly delicious waffle and then we hurried off to London Drugs (like a Walgreens) so I could purchase a Voice Recorder with which to record the panels. 

I missed the Welcome Panel, where they introduced the entire cast (save Lindsey, who was filming reshoots for 411), but made it back in time for the Arkadia Boys Panel which featured Bob Morley, Richard Harmon, Jarod Joseph and Sachin Sahel. This panel was one of my favorites for so many reasons. 

Bob and Jarod both came out and ran around the Ballroom, greeting everyone. Bob seemed to make it his personal mission to touch as many people as possible, he shook hands (his grip was super strong and he made sure to look you in the eyes when he shook!) When I told him my name, he repeated it, smiled and then said it was a great name, which made my day. 

After they’d done their greetings, the cast gathered on the stage:

Sorry Richard’s blurry, but look at Bob’s smile!

When Sachin came out he did this thing where he grabbed Bob’s nose, because Bob wouldn’t say hello, lol. 

Here they are all settled down. Pictures weren’t allowed after the first 5 minutes of each panel, but I like the ones I did manage to get. 

The Boys Panel was super fun, you can really see how much they all love each other. I said it a lot during the Con, but it’s almost like they just can’t help touching and teasing one another, they really are a family and you can tell when you have the opportunity to talk to them or see them one another.

They joked a lot about Ian’s hair and how he’ll sit and just run his hands through it after hair and makeup gets done with it (which frustrates the crew), they called him “GQ Jesus”, which I got a kick out of for sure and Bob joked that there is a scene where Bellamy and Kane just play with each other’s hair. 

We discussed character growth through the Seasons and Sachin said he likes that Jackson has become a braver man, Jarod (who is super snarky) said that he enjoys having any direction (everyone laughed) and then he said he enjoys that Miller is becoming more of a leader. 

Bob said that he actually enjoys (in a sadistic way) acting out Bellamy doing bad things, because he likes the challenge of then making those actions forgivable. He says if people hate you afterwards, it means you’ve done your job, you’ve made people feel something. 

When asked about the relationship between Brian and Miller, Jarod said that there were definitely still things they need to work out and that it’s not necessarily a happily ever after story. 

Sachin remarked that he’s glad it’s not just one person who went into the City of Light, that they’ll need to see and discuss the effects it had on everyone. He joked about needing a CoL support group. 

When asked about the relationship between Raven and Murphy, Richard said it would be difficult for Raven to trust him at all considering Murphy caused her physical issue. He later said that everyone will need to put their differences aside because it’s a do or die type situation. 

There is a apparently a lot of BTS Bob/Richard fun times (aka Murphamy). Richard says the show is better with Murphamy because he and Bob have great chemistry together.

Richard’s favorite episode is Episode 8 (this is the same episode Luisa coined in her Meet and Greet-so I expect great Memori in this episode.) Sachin said the entire Season was just so great to film. Jarod said he enjoyed Episode 1. Bob did not answer this question.

Sam asked what it’s like to play male characters who don’t fit traditionally male stereotypes, and we didn’t quite get the answer we expected, but Sachin did say that “ Across the board it’s not about masculinity or femininity. Its about people being people. Whoever is the best at that thing will handle it.” 

Richard says he always calls Murphy “John” when it’s in reference to Emori/Memori (again-Luisa says the exact same thing-she smiled and laughed a bit when she said it). He said that he’s glad for Emori that she got to meet someone like John, feels like he’s helped Emori really accept who she is.

Jarod said that hope on this show looks like having a future at all (the cast heavily implied that this Season things get really dire.) and said that the message of hope is heavily enforced this Season. 

They talked about who’s the smartest and Bob said that Bellamy and Clarke were the best at classes (it’s a back story built into the scene in 3x02-where Bellamy and Pike “meet”, it’s why Bellamy looks so happy to see Pike). He said that unfortunately a lot of Bellamy’s learning was stopped when Octavia was discovered and that the Ark kind of forget he was human. 

He and Pike relate to one another because they came down for the same reasons. 

When asked how they felt about the impact the show has had on people, 

Jarod said: “ You see people that love the show and each other working with each other. It feels unbelievable (to make a difference).”

Richard said: “ To know that on this show we’ve had that bit of magic, to tap into people, its amazing”

Bob said he lives by this quote when acting: “ “The more personal you are, the more universal you become.”

When asked which superhero they’d like to be, Jarod said John Stewart/Green Lantern, Sachin said Superman/Clark Kent, Bob said the Hulk (something I find interesting, as he picked another character who has a lot of pent up anger.)


After the Boys Panel, the Unity Days Fam (literally almost all of us) had a Meet and Greet with Jarod-in fact there was only one woman who was not in the Fam at our Meet and Greet. 

Jarod is super cool, very personable, very friendly. He was kind to all of us and most of our meet and greet was really just a regular conversation. We got a few tidbits for Miller’s journey in Season 4 (he’s going to be working really hard to make his dad proud and we learned that Dad Miller is back and better than ever!!!

Jarod was asked why he thinks Miller always seems to be “OK” and he said it’s because he keeps his feelings below the surface, he’s strong because he has to be. He thinks Bellamy is the same way. 

He also said they’ve been asking for more Millamy scenes because they’re best friends! Don’t know if we get them in Season 4 though. 

He joked that in Vancouver he was known as the “Serial Guest Star” before he was cast as Miller (a role that was also only supposed to be one episode.” 

He actually doesn’t like Vancouver, he says it’s not exciting and there isn’t a lot to do there, he does enjoy that his friends are there and his job is there, but when he’s not filming he lives in San Fran. 

I asked him how he feels playing a black LGBTQA character and if he knows how important that is, and he said it’s not his first time actually, he previously played an Out Gay lawyer in the hip hop world, who was dating a rapper who was still closeted and he feels like overall the ability to portray those characters is so important because being black and gay and in an interracial relationship are all really taboo things and he likes being able to show that being gay doesn’t change who you are or make you effeminate (a HUGE stereotype in the black community), it’s all about just being able to be who you are. 


After we left the M&G we hurried back to the Panel Ballroom for what was supposed to be the Princess Mechanic Panel, but became the Clarke Griffin panel because Lindsey was still at work. 

Eliza is a sweetheart, she’s really pretty, but she’s actually much skinnier than I thought she was (which is NOT a bad thing-lol), I just thought she was bigger, because he boobs are GREAT!

Eliza’s panel was pretty much just a wlw love fest, lots of women (including myself) thanking Eliza for playing a bisexual woman and discussing how important that is for us. She plans to release more of her music on Youtube, loves Nadia very much and said that this Season Clarke’s grieving process will be more constructive than destructive. There will be more Clarke and Kane scenes in the Season 4, she said that Clarke feels a lot of grief and guilt for all of the people that she’s lost and that we should expect to see some breakdowns this Season. 

When asked a question about whether or not we should be worried about the safety of any of Clarke’s future romantic interests (here the asker coughed and said Bellamy), Eliza smiled and laughed a little and said that she couldn’t answer that question “yet” (sound familiar?!)-this is a huge change (in my opinion) from her answer at SDCC. 

Eliza’s favorite Clarke outfit is the Season 1 outfit, she says it seems the most like Clarke, and then confirmed that the City of Light outfit is Clarke’s Season 1 outfit. Her favorite Clarke line is “Life should be about more than just survival.” which excited part of the audience. 

She said that when you play a character the end result is 80% you and 20% what’s on the page. 


We had a brief lunch at the hotel.

And then had several photo ops!


Jonathan Strange and mr. Norrell, episode four: All the mirrors of the world

So. I haven’t written a review of this episode yet, mostly because I needed to take a step back after watching this to think - why do I write these? What do I want to say? I knew that I was going to say so much of the same things in this review that I also did in my others. So I’ve been thinking a little about what it is I really want to say, what is it that I talk about again and again in these reviews, and can I just… get it out of my system?

So here you go. I’m getting stuff out of my system. Mostly about Stephen Black. Not much about the episode at all, really. Beware of book and show spoilers below the cut. Like, hella spoilers. We’re talking the ending here.

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