“I hadn’t forgotten about him, even for a single moment. I desperately wanted to see him, just one more time…even if only by coincidence. My first love, who disappeared when I was 29. At the end of my youth”
You madman. You shouldn’t do this to people. You’ll have to pay for your sins.
You talk as though someone exists up there.
It’s not for you to decide. You’re just living because you were born. I’m the one who makes decisions.