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Nicknames of Various Serial Killers

Jeffrey Dahmer - The Milwaukee Cannibal

Ed Kemper - Co-ed Butcher

David Berkowitz - The .44 Calibre Killer/ Son of Sam

Richard Ramirez - The Night Stalker

Andrei Chikatilo - Rostov Ripper/ The Mad Beast

Richard Trenton Chase - The Vampire of Sacramento

Peter Sutcliffe - The Yorkshire Ripper

Dennis Radar - BTK Killer

Gary Ridgway - Green River Killer

Albert DeSalvo - Boston Strangler

Aileen Wuornos - I-25 Killer

Graham Young - Teacup Poisoner

Ted Bundy - Yuppie Killer

Douglas Clark - Sunset Slayer

Tsutomu Miyazaki - Otaku Killer

Albert Fish - The Grey Man/ The Werewolf of Wisteria/ The Moon Maniac


Mommy Don’t; The Karissa Boudreau Case

On January 27, 2008 at 8:35 p.m, Police received a call about a 12 year old girl that had gone missing. The girl’s mother, Penny Boudreau said that her daughter, Karissa Boudreau, was missing from her car that was parked at the parking lot of a local grocery store in  Bridgewater, NS. Penny Boudreau reported that she and her daughter had gone to the grocery store but Karissa waited in the car and  when she came out of the store, her daughter was gone, leaving her cell phone behind.

Karissa’s mother went searching around her daughter’s most frequent hangouts, but found no trace of her. Karissa was last seen wearing pink crocs, jeans, a t-shirt and a black hoodie. Seeing as it was the middle of winter this would indicate that she wasn’t planning to run away and it was most possibly a case of an abduction or some sort of foul play.

Penny Boudreau made a tearful plea to the media begging Karissa to come home, also asking the community for any information that would aid in finding her daughter. Following the media attention, an extensive search began to find the missing 12 year old girl.

While the community was searching for Karrisa, around 3:50 p.m. January 29, 2008, a man driving down the road noticed something pink laying the snow. Remembering what the media had released about the missing girl, and in particular, that she was wearing pink crocs at the time she went missing. The man pulled his car over to take a closer look and it was indeed a pink croc. He contacted the Police reporting what he had found. The shoe was taken and tested for DNA that was later confirmed to belong to Karissa.

On February 9, 2008, at 11:35 a.m, Bridgewater Police got a 911 call from a woman reporting that her nine year old son found a body. The woman had pulled over to the side of the road to let her son to urinate out of sight. He went to the edge overlooking a river when he saw what looked like human toes sticking out of the snow. The boy yelled for his mother and when she ran over she also observed the toes. They waved down a passing vehicle and had him confirm what they had seen. Bridgewater Police Department were the first responding officers on scene and secured the area.

Police observed the body and were able to say that it was the body of a young caucasian girl, and it looked to be the missing girl, Karissa Boudreau, upon facial and physical appearance. Based on the medical examiner’s observations, he believed the body had been placed at the scene before rigor had set in. She was in a spread out position, and appeared to have been supple at the time she came to rest there.  He also believed she was placed there shortly after death. There were ligature marks around her neck and the position of the body and the state in which Karissa was discovered was not released to the public.

Shortly after, it came out that Penny Boudreau did not have a good relationship with her daughter. She claimed her former boyfriend, Vernon MaCumber, gave her an ultimatum; either Karissa goes or he goes. MaCumber denied this claim stating it was taken out of context and that he just wanted a better living situation for all of them. After an extensive interview the Crown Attorney believed he did not mean he wanted Penny to kill Karissa. Shortly after, Penny was arrested and charged with first degree murder.

After Penny’s arrest, the details came out that she drove Karissa to the quiet roadside and tackled her to the ground. She then proceeded to strangle her daughter with twine while kneeling on her chest. In her final moments, Karissa dug her hands into the frozen ground and struggled as her mother tightened the twine wrapped around her neck. The last words Karissa ever spoke were “Mommy, don’t” as she looked her mother in the eye. Penny even went as far as pulling down Karissa’s pants and underwear in an attempt to make it look like a sexual assault had taken place.

Later, Penny Boudreau would plead guilty to the lesser charge of second degree murder and in doing so received a life sentence. She must serve at least 20 years before being eligible for parole. At her sentencing, the Judge’s last words to Penny were “You can never call yourself mother,” as she glared at Boudreau. “The words, `Mommy, don’t’ are there to haunt you for the rest of your life.”

Week of February 19 - 25, 2017

Killer Snails again?

PISCES (February 19 – March 20)

In relation to an upcoming battle coming up - gurl, you need to calm the fuck down. I think it’s great that you have chosen to pick a side, but you don’t have to get so damn vocal about that shit to the point of shoving it in our throats. Give the rest of us a chance to formulate our own opinions and be respectful of whichever side we choose – even if it’s shitty, okay?

ARIES (March 21 – April 19)

Bitch, you are so intent on plunging into the next thing that you’re not thinking straight. Because if you were, you’d notice that you have a lot of unfinished business to attend to. And not getting that shit straightened out will have a profound impact on that next big thing you’re so fucking amped about. It won’t hurt to take a few steps back and to make sure you’ve crossed all T’s and dotted them I’s.

TAURUS (April 20 – May 20)

Why are you sticking with this bitch who doesn’t believe in you? I know, I know, she’s some big-name ho in your career world and she could really make or break you. But gurl, relying on her is not going to do you any favors in the long run. You mustn’t live in fear, dearie. If your shit can slay, then you don’t need this nasty queen.

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Things we know so far on Twin Peaks: The Return
  • So the Dale Cooper in our world is a doppelgänger possessed by Bob, while the real Cooper was trapped in the Black Lodge
  • Evil Cooper goes on with possessing people and making them murder, torture, mutilate, just like Killer Bob did 25 years ago
  • The Real Cooper can now finally leave the Black Lodge, but to do that he has to replace Evil Cooper, trapping him in the Black Lodge (?)
  • Evil Cooper created another doppelgänger, Dougie, so that when the Real Cooper tried to leave the Black Lodge, he would replace Dougie and not Evil Cooper
  • Now that both Coopers are in the same dimension, Evil Cooper seems to have lost some of his abilities and makes a less-convincing-Cooper (the FBI agents are not sure he’s the real Cooper)
  • It’s also known that both of them can’t live in the same world, so one of them has to die now

Things that still need to be explained:

  • The glass box seems to be some kind of man-made portal to other dimensions (seeing as the Real Cooper had to go through it to come back), but who built it? Why were they watching it, waiting for something to happen? Whoever built it, knew that Cooper was going to come back? If so, did they want to help him or prevent him from coming back?
  • What is that “spirit” that came from the glass box and mutilated the 2 people?
  • Something that still hasn’t been explained: who is Bob? He’s an evil spirit, yes, but was he someone that was possessed too long ago? Or is Bob his human shape?
  • Why was Dougie wearing the ring featured in Fire Walk With Me, the Owl Cave Ring?
Horoscopes by Gil Hizon - Week of February 19 - 25, 2017

Killer Snails again?

PISCES (February 19 – March 20)

In relation to an upcoming battle coming up - gurl, you need to calm the fuck down. I think it’s great that you have chosen to pick a side, but you don’t have to get so damn vocal about that shit to the point of shoving it in our throats. Give the rest of us a chance to formulate our own opinions and be respectful of whichever side we choose – even if it’s shitty, okay?

ARIES (March 21 – April 19)

Bitch, you are so intent on plunging into the next thing that you’re not thinking straight. Because if you were, you’d notice that you have a lot of unfinished business to attend to. And not getting that shit straightened out will have a profound impact on that next big thing you’re so fucking amped about. It won’t hurt to take a few steps back and to make sure you’ve crossed all T’s and dotted them I’s.

TAURUS (April 20 – May 20)

Why are you sticking with this bitch who doesn’t believe in you? I know, I know, she’s some big-name ho in your career world and she could really make or break you. But gurl, relying on her is not going to do you any favors in the long run. You mustn’t live in fear, dearie. If your shit can slay, then you don’t need this nasty queen.

GEMINI (May 21 – June 21)

There is so much going on in your life, that you’re having a difficult time tracking the things you’re saying to people. But then you get all cranky when something appears inconsistent in your eyes, regardless of whether that’s the case or not. Quite frankly, it’s driving the rest of us crazy! If you don’t watch it, we’re gonna start audio recording the shit out of you.

CANCER (June 22 – July 22)

There is a predicament you’re in and you can’t pinpoint why that shit looks familiar to you. My dear, it’s time to go back to the library of your past. As you’ll see, that shit has gotten dusty. Now, once you’re in there (and vacuumed), make sure you only take the books which contain the lessons you need to battle your current situation. Don’t get stuck in the past, gurl.

LEO (July 23 – August 22)

Here’s the thing about debating on social media. No matter how you paint it, no matter what privacy settings you may have, Facebook is sort of a public space. And in front of peers and temporary tricks, no one wants to appear wrong - coz that shit is humiliating. So when you’re exchanging words with another ho on there, keep what I just said in mind. If two people keep insisting on being right, then that’s just wrong, gurr.

VIRGO (August 23 – September 22)

You tend to keep an eye on the prize without considering the consequences. You may be in a situation where you’re so consumed with getting your own shit together that you forgot to clue in your loved ones of your plans. I know that multi-tasking is hard for y’alls, but at some point, you’ll have to relinquish some control. Because the big surprise is that, your loved ones can actually help you out with some of that shit - if you let them.

LIBRA (September 23 – October 22)

There is a truth that lies beneath the several colorful options you like to obsess on. And the truth is something you may be refusing to look at. Gurl, I get it. But at some point, the options will run out and you’ll have to take a long hard look at that T. It’s better to tackle that shit now before it gets worse. And just between you, me and my 5,000+ followers, this can get real fucking bad real fast.

SCORPIO (October 23 – November 21)

You’re mentally vain these days. You’re getting so caught up in your own concepts and ideas that you’re beginning to reject other bitches’ opinions. And look, a lot of queens out there are stupid, I get that. But I know you well enough to trust that the kind of hos you associate with are level-headed, smart people. I wouldn’t completely negate what they have to say.

SAGITTARIUS (November 22 – December 21)

Okay, so there is such a thing as having too much perspective. And honestly, some of us bitches can stand to learn something without you having to dictate that shit to us. You are a huge proponent of growth – gurl, I’ve seen you check out guys’ crotches at the gym – so why not let the rest of us evolve through our own clusterfucks?

CAPRICORN (December 22 – January 19)

Shit is getting real in your gayborhood. Normally, you’d choose to tuck yourself away in your Architectural Digest worthy queen cave, but this time, there’s a possibility of this clusterfuck hitting too close to home. I suggest that you use that same determination you employ when you’re clawing your way to the top of the workplace food chain, into making a difference in other poor bitches’ causes.

AQUARIUS (January 20 – February 18)

Vocalizing your wants and desires, no matter how weird they sound in your mind, is the key to surviving this week. Holding back that shit will cause them to accumulate in your head and all of a sudden, you don’t have the capability to think of other things. The big surprise here, is that a lot of bitches can actually relate to some of your quirky ideas. It’s okay to speak out, queen.

(DISCLAIMER for all entries: This is all a shitshow!)

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The Southern Resident Killer Whales, a highly endangered group of orcas that live off the coast of the Pacific Northwest, have taken yet another critical hit to their population with the recent loss of J52 Sonic. J52 was announced to be deceased on September 19th by the Center For Whale Research, which is not long after another one of these whales died, K pod’s matriarch K13 Skagit, who passed away in August.

The three pods of killer whales that make up the Southern Residents are, as previously stated, an endangered species that are close to extinction. There are currently only 76 individuals left in this population, and they are becoming weaker everyday that passes. The main reason for these orcas demise is food. The diet of these cetaceans is almost entirely made up of Chinook salmon, and they need a lot of it. The average Southern Resident Killer Whale needs 18-25 adult Chinook salmon daily just to satisfy the basic energy requirements. However, this species of salmon is endangered as well, making it even harder for these orcas to survive.

One of the main things that people can do to help is to urge the United States government to remove the four lower Snake River dams in Washington State. Historically, the Snake River has been one of the biggest breeding grounds of Chinook salmon, and by restoring the environment to natural conditions these fish will have a chance to repopulate and grow, and in turn will help the killer whales immensely. Please call President Trump and urge him to consider removing these dams, because not only are they harmful to the animals but they also are harmful to the economy. The White House number is 202-456-1111 and is available Monday-Friday, 9am-5pm EDT. For more information on the dams themselves and the orcas, please visit these websites/organizations:
Pacific Salmon Foundation
Southern Resident Killer Whale Chinook Salmon Initiative
Raincoast : Wild Salmon Program
The Center for Whale Research

Please continue to advocate for these animals. Extinction is forever, endangered means we still have time.

PC: Center for Whale Research.


The Killers hit the ground hard in “Run for Cover,” injecting a fresh and restless urgency into the air as they sing a matured life lesson and critique.

Run while you can, baby, don’t look back

A driving force; a forward momentum, pushing you onward with irresistible gravity. The second the guitar strums enter, you can tell this is going to be a big one. The Killers hit the ground hard in “Run for Cover,” injecting a fresh and restless urgency into the air as they sing a matured life lesson and critique of humanity. Are we perfect? No; we’re human – and to be human is to be flawed. Some of us are just more flawed than others – and sometimes, it’s better to duck out than to fight.

What have you gathered to report to your progenitors?
Are your excuses any better than your senator’s?
He held a conference and his wife was standing by his side
He did her dirty but no one died

“Run for Cover” is the second single off The Killers’ upcoming fifth studio album, Wonderful Wonderful (out September 22, 2017). Opening with fast guitar strums, the song grabs listeners through a charismatic layering of overdriven guitar and warm synth pads – a combination The Killers know only too well, but which still somehow manages to feel new. The full band works together to build an enormous storm of energy before Brandon Flowers has sung a single word, setting us up for a major release.

Flowers’ words are biting and critical in the first verse as he demands we consider our behaviors in the context of our values. “What have you gathered to report to your progenitors?” he asks. Our progeny is in essence our bloodline, and in begging us to consider our ancestors’ view of our present actions, The Killers immediately get us to thinking. “Are your excuses any better than your senator’s?” Referring to an extra-marital affair, the basic concept outlined here is that we’ve all got some form of blood on our hands; we’re all hypocrites, guilty of misguided actions and wrongdoing, misled or guided astray.

Flowers’ voice holds the melody while bass and drums hold the beat underneath him:

I saw Sonny Liston on the street last night
Black-fisted and strong
singing Redemption Song
He motioned me to the sky
I heard heaven and thunder cry

Wonderful Wonderful appears to be littered with various boxing references; Here, the pre-chorus references Sonny Liston, American professional boxer and world heavyweight champion who was knocked out in the first round by underdog Cassius Clay (who later became known as Muhammad Ali). The otherwise unbeatable fighter appears in a vision, singing Bob Marley’s “Redemption Song” – and here, Flowers injects that charm we can always expect from him, employing Marley’s chorus melody as he sings those two words.

What do we take from this image of the fallen hero? Don’t give up, baby, no surrender? No; not this time. The Killers’ message is one of evasion in order to survive, rather than perseverance in spite of the odds:

Run for cover
Run while you can, baby,
don’t look back
You gotta run for cover
Don’t be afraid of the fear,
that’s a played out trap, man
You know you’re not the only one
And don’t look back, just run for cover

We feel the release as the chorus hits, The Killers imploring us to “Run for cover, run while you can…” Flowers tells us not to be “afraid of the fear,” essentially saying it’s okay to back down sometimes. This is a very different message than the one they might have delivered 12 years ago, while they were young. Now squarely in their mid-30s, The Killers are indisputable adults, and their music is maturing with them: Understanding when it’s right to fight and when it’s best to back down has adulthood written all over it.

Considering the band describes their forthcoming album as their “most sonically forward-thinking record,” a learned-lesson song like “Run for Cover” feels like a perfect fit. Earlier this year, Flowers told NME that “Run for Cover” originally came out of the band’s Day & Age sessions, making it at least eight years old – but he was never able to get the lyrics right. Nearly a decade later, Flowers was finally able to finish writing the song – thus lending it the unique energy of a transition track, balanced between the twenty-something poet with a glimmer in his eye, and the thirty-something lyricist still fighting to stay alive.

And how does one stay alive in this twisted world? By knowing when to throw in the towel and run for cover. That notion comes into play especially in the second verse and bridge, both of which were written more recently:

What are you waiting for, a kiss or an apology?
You think by now you’d have an A in toxicology
It’s hard to pack the car
when all you do is shame us
It’s even harder when the dirtbag’s famous

I saw my mother on the street last night
All pretty and strong, singing ‘the road is long’
I said ‘Momma I know you’ve tried’
But she fell on her knees and cried

The Killers sing of a mother crying, having been down the road before. It’s a road all must travel, full of pitfalls and cracks and obstacles that promise to confuse and obstruct – but to quote my favorite Dr. Suess poem:

You’ll get mixed up, of course, 
as you already know. 
You’ll get mixed up 
with many strange birds as you go. 
So be sure when you step. 
Step with care and great tact 
and remember that Life’s 
a Great Balancing Act. 
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft. 
And never mix up your right foot with your left.

– “Oh, the Places You’ll Go!,” Dr. Suess

“Run for Cover” doesn’t pretend to give any widespanning life advice; instead, its message is wonderfully simple. In fact, aside from its vibrant strength, the wonderful thing about “Run For Cover” – an aspect that is sure to keep listeners coming back to this song again and again – is the vagueness of its lyrics! This song is not talking to anyone in particular – knowing Flowers, it’s probably a self-critique. But from an outsider’s perspective, the words carry so many different meanings, all of which feel appropriate in this day and age. The Killers could be warning us to stop pointing fingers when they could go right back at us; they could be saying to not trust the hand that feeds.

One has to love the topical insertion of fake news in the bridge lyric. That edge makes “Run for Cover” feel all the more relevant, adding extra flavor and depth to an already electric, spirited anthem. Knowing when to stand up and when to back down are critical to survival. They’re skills learned a little later in life – when you’re 25, you’re not thinking about how and when to strike; you just want to strike, and you want to do it now! But the Killers aren’t 25, and they’re not trying to be 25. A matured song for a growing band, “Run for Cover” captures the complexities of a changing world from older eyes that have seen both sides now, and are determined to make it through everything and anything – even if that means sometimes sitting out a few fights. Don’t look at “Run for Cover” as unconditional surrender; look at it as the clever tactic from a knowing mind.

Run For Cover || Review || Atwood Magazine

American Genre Film Archive is collaborating with Sometihng Weird to bring some of their titles to Blu-ray. The first release will be The Zodiac Killer on July 25. It has received a 4K scan from the only surviving 16mm blow-up elements.

Directed by Tom Hanson (Night Train to Mundo Fine), the 1971 horror/thriller was made in an attempt to capture the real-life Zodiac Killer, who was on the loose at the time.

The disc features a bonus movie: 1977′s Another Son of Sam, with a new 2K scan from a 35mm print. Reversible artwork is also included. Special features are listed below.

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anonymous asked:

My friend is quite the athlete and is also very competitive. Today she was talking about her run-time, and I said that it takes way longer to get there for me. At any rate, by the end of the conversation, I felt totally out of shape and ugly. I'm wearing a new pair of shorts today, and totally regret it because my legs are so fat, but I have to wear them again tomorrow because everything else is in the wash. Any advice for being more confident?

I totally get how you feel. I had friends who were super tiny and made me feel 10000 bigger than I was. This made me had less confidence in my self and I started to worry about what other people might think about me.

I’m gonna give you some links that might help you with this. But please, remember that you don’t have to please anyone, you are perfect just the way you are and it makes you beautiful. You can wear anything you want because you’ll look fabulous. I know it’s hard to believe in yourself, but with time you’ll get there.

Real life Australian gothic

So last week I was driving through rural Victoria (Australia for you international folks) to check out some locations for a new film I’m producing
And my petrol light turns on when I’m about to go through some middle of nowhere ‘town’ called Streatham (the term one-horse town applies here except they didn’t even have one horse that I could see)
So I stop and run into the General Store (thats what it was called, like this was the Olden Days and I was coming in to get a pennyworth of taffy or some shit)
and this old terrifying woman like the woman from American Gothic is behind the counter staring at me except instead of a pitchfork and a creepy husband she’s surrounded by day-old sausage rolls and meat pies and outdated packets of iced vovos (this is true Straya Country)
so I say “I’m about to run out of petrol, I’m running on empty, where’s the nearest petrol station?”
And she stares at me for ages and then goes “25 k’s.”
And I’m kind of going to cry because I don’t want to run out of petrol here because it might possibly be the creepy town from House of Wax and this woman is probably a serial killer
“I don’t have 25 k’s.” I say.
And she just stares at me for a while and then says “You coming or going?”
and I say “I’m going to Hamilton.”
And she says “Oh you can fill up at Lake Bolac”
and I’m like “Great where’s Lake Bolac?”
And she stares at me for ages and then goes “25 k’s.”
So it’s obvious now that Ivan Milat’s wife here isn’t going to help me and thinks I’m just another City Girl in my signature Melbourne Black Turtleneck
so I go back to my car and I think 
OK I’ll call the RACV but FIRST I want to see how far I can get to Lake Bolac when my petrol light is on.
So I get in the car and I start driving and I’m a little terrified.
A few minutes down the road and I notice SMOKE coming up from my PASSENGER SEAT and the NEW PHONE CHARGER is BURNING A HOLE IN MY SEAT
So I rip it out and throw it on the floor of the car and then everything is ok but I don’t stop because I don’t know if I have enough petrol to start the car again so I just keep going
So now my phone is fritzed out and dead because the phone charger burned a fucking hole in it, so now I’m on rural roads at least ten kilometres in every director from civilisation and Wolf Creek is practically about to happen or Jeepers Creepers at the very least.

But anyway I keep on driving because I have an amazing mix CD and ‘Take On Me’ is playing and I think if I can just keep this up for another 15 kilometres I will get to Lake Bolac and I’ll be OK and Everything Will Be Fine

Suddenly the petrol light starts FLASHING at me and the needle has dropped below zero (which logically makes no sense, I can’t have negative petrol in my tank, liquids don’t work that way)
And I think This Is It and This Is The End and also I’m Going To Be Stuck On A Rural Highway and also I’m Probably Going To Die Out Here and also I Don’t Even Have Any Fucking Cigarettes On Me So This Is Going To Suck
So I’m powering down the highway at 120 ks and this petrol light is flashing at me very angrily but the car Keeps Going and there are SIGNS for Lake Bolac!
So I drive into the town and I spot the green BP sign and I’m so relieved and THEN
and i’m thinking oh god oh god no baby just a little further just a little further
And the car is slowing down and making a funny sound and I’m slowly approaching the BP
And getting slower and slower
And then AFRICA by TOTO comes on my mix CD

So I do what anyone would do in this situation and I turn the volume up full blast and I put down my windows and I ROLL into the Lake Bolac BP at absolute snail’s pace with Africa by Toto blasting out for the whole fucking town to hear

and that was why you should always fill up before you leave for road trips. and also buy proper phone chargers and not cheapo ones from the checkout at Officeworks.

anonymous asked:

I don't have any friends. literally none, and its mostly my fault and i hate myself so much. i don't know what to do, i feel so lonely

Hi darling (:

Honey, I’m sure you have at least one friend because I’m your friend and I care about you. You’re not alone. I understand your pain when you feel like nobody is out there. But I’m going to assure & promise you that someone out there in this giant world… Loves & cares about you. <3

I have some tips on how you can make friends plus some links and some advice/links on self esteem and how you can end self loathing.

  • offer help. always offer help to your friend and be there whenever they need you.
  • Don’t stick to one person. Mingle with lots of groups so if a friend turns on you, you can fall back on your other friends.
  • Make sure your friend is comfortable around you. You don’t want to annoy her if she isn’t, so try to look out for signs that she is definitely happy around you.
  • Learn to entertain. Create a reason why people would want to come over to your place. Offer something to people that they don’t already have. While you don’t want a pool or a video game console to be the only reason people come over, it will give you an opportunity to socialize with people and for them to get to know you better.
  • Be reliable and trustworthy. Friends should be able to trust each other, even with personal secrets.
  • You don’t have to be a superstar to be fun. You don’t even have to do cartwheels. You do need to be positive and friendly, however, so that people feel good and appreciated when they’re around you.
  • Let the friendship unfold naturally. Don’t force the friendship, because they won’t be your true friend if you cannot be yourself around them.
  • Encourage your friends to know your family as well so that there will be more chances to stay in touch with one another.
  • Friendship is not about what you can get, rather it is about what you can give.
  • Get to know that person’s other friends. That way you’ll not only be friends to them, but friends with his/her friends too!
  • It’s very important to remind and counsel your friends about the things they should avoid or refrain from. (Try not to be pushy, though.) This will help you convey how special that friend is to you, and will help you be a positive influence in their life.
  • Be honest. Being honest helps them to make them trust you.
  • Don’t talk about yourself all the time. Ask them questions about them and show interest in your friends and their likes.
  • Make yourself approachable.
  • Get around fun, and confident, people.
  • When having difficulty with a friend, never say anything bad about them to anyone else, because that makes the issue worse.
  • Just be yourself. If someone doesn’t like who you really are then they don’t deserve you on their friend list. If someone does sit with you then please don’t move away from them. This is not considered to be polite to the person trying to get to know you.
  • Make sure you keep yourself open to new possibilities. You never know what might be in store for you, if you are open to many possibilities.
  • Ask them about family. Ask them if they have any pets and then tell them how many you have. They’re most likely to ask what kind of pets and what are their names. Pets is a great and easy topic to keep the conversation going without awkward silence.
  • Along with learning to entertain, try to be unique. When you have something interesting that people can learn from you, they tend to stick around and ask you questions. This is usually the case when you know a lot about something popularly known yet complex, something controversial, or something that could just spark a big debate. Some of the most interesting people you meet may have a large knowledge base when it comes to things like politics, certain religions, or unusual topics like astrology and divination.
  • Friendships require a lot of tolerance and it boils down to how much you are willing to give and take.
  • Know that this is not an exact science. There’s no perfect method to getting a friend. It’s a natural process, and if it happens, it happens.
  • Don’t just go up to someone and say ” Lets be friends” it puts the person in an awkward position.
  • Be kind to each other and hang out with other people who make you feel comfortable being yourself.
  • If you have a friend who knows some good people that you aren’t acquainted with, ask them to invite those people to hang out with the two of you. It is a great way to make some friends who have common interests.
  • Being friendly and polite to each other don’t do the nasty thing Make sure don’t being mean to each other.
  • Try to make friends with someone sitting near you or someone who look really lonely. They might really be able to use some help.
  • If there’s someone who you really want to be friends with, try to sit next to them, but not all the time, or they’ll think your weird. Try to find other people to be friends with instead, while sitting with this person other times.
  • Be yourself.
  • Sometimes you should consider the facts that maybe there won’t be people at your school that will understand you the best! Don’t beat yourself up if you can’t find someone at the time, because the perfect person will come along soon. Just remember to give it time.
  • Give your friend space. You don’t have to see your friend 24/7. If you don’t leave your friend, he or she will feel uncomfortable.
  • Don’t be shy and be real. Many people will like you just the way you are.

Helpful links on friends:

How to Make Friends:

I now have some advice for you on how you can raise your self esteem and become more positive and end self loathing. :)

Self Confidence / Self-Esteem:

Steps to improve self esteem:

  1. Focus on your strengths – figure out what you are good at! There are plenty of things that you are wonderful at and use those to build your confidence! No one is good at everything so do not fret if you are bad at something! Instead focus on what you are good at and enjoy them!
  2. Learn from your mistakes - you don’t have to be good at everything like mentioned above but use your mistakes to your advantage! Don’t worry about them- live and learn!
  3. Do what you love – make time everyday to do something you enjoy! Do something that makes you happy to improve your mood!
  4. Tell yourself you are beautiful - stand in front of a mirror and tell yourself how beautiful you are ! Keep telling yourself and fake it until you make it! Really mean what you are saying a realize all of the beautiful things about you - including any flaws ( they make you unique!)
  5. Turn your negative thoughts into positive ones – instead of thinking your legs are big or whatever your problem is, be thankful you have working legs that you can run marathons with if you wanted! Try to stay optimistic and see the positive side of everything! It will greatly improve your mood and outlook on life!
  6. Realize that beauty has no measure on your life. Okay even if someone is not beautiful that has no relevance to one’s life ! Everyone has worth and is amazing! I am sure you are the prettiest person ever but even if you are not then who really cares? What does it really matter? All that matters is that you are happy and love your life- and that should not be dependent upon whether or not you are pretty.
  7. Weight has no relevance to beauty! Whether you are 100 or 300 pounds you can be beautiful! Please do not relate the two to one another! See this post (:
  8. Spend time with people you love and who love you! It is important to spend time with loved ones! They will boost your mood and confidence! If people have a negative impact on your life then you don’t have to spend time with them! Don’t feel like you must stick around for everyone! You have to put yourself first and make sure you are happy! Don’t let others drag you down!
  9. Remember that life is simple - the sun rises and the sun sets, we just tend to complicate the process. Remember the simplicity in life and let it help you to stay calm and stay focused on the important things! Love yourself and love your life! Enjoy it while you can and don’t let everything stress you out so much!
  10. Be generous! Help others, be kind to others, and give when you can. It will spread love and make you feel better as a person.

Now, lets work on changing your thought process. Changing the way you think about things for example, when you have negative thoughts. Try these thoughts instead:

  • I am ugly - I am beautiful
  • I am worthless - I have worth
  • I am sick - I will heal
  • I hate myself - I will learn to love myself
  • I am weak - I am strong, or I wouldn’t be here today
  • I am moody - I have profound emotional depth
  • I am lost - I will find myself
  • I am scared - I have courage
  • I am crazy - It is normal to struggle
  • I am in pain - It’s okay to hurt
  • I am tired - I will not give up
  • I’m not good enough - I am better than “good enough”
  • I can’t change - I can change

Tips to help end self loathing:

  • Talk to yourself the way you talk to someone you care about: “What would you say to good friend who was going through the same thing you are going through?” These are important questions. If you hate yourself, you likely say things to yourself that you would not dare say to another person. What would you say to somebody else who has the exact same traits as you? What could you say to yourself?
  • Recognize that beliefs do not equal truths: Often, people believe what they tell themselves. If you think you are a loser, you may believe it is absolute truth. Try this cognitive behavioral technique called “the three C’s”: catch, check, change. Catch yourself thinking something negative about yourself. Check whether your distressing thought is true. Change it, if not. You can talk back to your negative thoughts. Challenge them. Serve as a defense attorney to the prosecutor in your head.
  • Embrace the concept of “good enough”: Many people feel they should be perfect—never angry, always generous, never critical, always right, and so on. These expectations deny that imperfection is the human condition. If you are one of these people with too-high expectations for yourself, ask yourself what is good enough?
  • Consider turning to spirituality or religion: Many spiritual or religious traditions center on the belief that people are flawed but inherently good, not only lovable but also inherently loved. These beliefs can serve as a huge balm for the hurting soul. The practices of meditation and mindfulness, too, can foster feelings of self-compassion as well as loving kindness toward others.
  • If you hate yourself for mistakes you made, make amends: You may be reading this and thinking, “This does not apply to me. I did something so awful that I can never be forgiven.” First, as much as you condemn yourself, ask if you would equally condemn—to their face—someone else who did the same thing. If not, then you are being unfair to yourself. Perhaps you really did do something awful. If you cannot make amends to the person or people you harmed, do something good for somebody else. Beating up on yourself serves nobody. Doing good for others or taking part in a larger movement not only helps others, it helps you—and it can lead to self-forgiveness.

Hope this advice helps :)

–Shelby (:

Mary Bell

“Murder isn’t that bad, we all die sometime anyway.”

Mary Bell was only 11-years-old when she committed her first murder in May of 1968. She had managed to corner a 4-year-old by the name of Martin Brown in an old derelict house and strangle him to death. She was believed to have committed this crime alone. Investigators believed that Martin’s death was accidental as there was an empty pill bottle near his body. Between that time and her second killing, Mary Bell and her friend, Norma Joyce Bell (no relation), aged 13, broke into and vandalised a nursery in Scotswood, leaving notes that claimed responsibility for the killing. The police dismissed this incident as a prank. A short time after Martin’s body was found, Mary took a walk to his house. When his mother answered the door, Mary asked to see Martin. Martin’s mother reminded Mary that Martin was dead, to which Mary responded, ”Oh, I know he’s dead. I wanted to see him in his coffin. 

A couple of months after her first murder, Mary began to crave another and this time, she didn’t act alone. Mary and her friend, Norma, trapped 3-year-old Brian Howe on wasteland in the same Scotswood area. The two girls had strangled him to death, just as Martin was. But Mary’s sadistic cravings didn’t end there. Mary later returned to the body with a razor and carved an ”N” into his stomach, then changed it to an ”M” with a different hand but the same razor, possibly to signify the first letter of each girl’s name. She then used a pair of scissors to cut off some of Brian’s hair, slash into his legs, and mutilate his penis. After the murder, Mary and Norma went to Brian’s house and told his older sister, Pat, that they were looking for Brian. Pat was worried about the missing toddler since he should have been home by then and Mary and Norma eagerly offered to help search for him. Mary tried to lead Pat to the location near the railroad tracks where Brian lay dead just to see her have a shock. But Norma insisted that Brian never played there and Pat decided to leave. Brian’s body was later found that night covered with grass and purple weeds. ”Brian had no mother, so he won’t be missed,” later said Mary.

Before Brian’s funeral, Detective Dobson questioned Norma, who now claimed that Mary confessed to murdering Brian and that she’d enjoyed it. Police did not hesitate to pick up Mary Bell at midnight to question her. Mary Bell maintained her sharp wits and admitted to nothing, saying that she would make no statements and that Norma was a liar who always tries to get her into trouble. Detective Dobson gave her the benefit of the doubt and permitted her to go home. 

On August 7th, the day Brian Howe was buried, Mary stood in front of the house as the coffin was being carried out. Detective Dobson recalls Mary laughing and rubbing her hands. That’s when he claimed to know and could not risk Mary killing another innocent child. He brought Mary back to the station where she made a signed statement. Though her confession held partial truths in it, it was mostly a transparent attempt to pin all the blame on Norma. When Dobson finally charged Mary with the murder of Brian Howe, Mary said, ”That’s all right with me.” 

Criminal Charges

The trial took nine days. Norma Bell was acquitted, however, Mary was convicted of manslaughter on the grounds of diminished responsibility on December 17, 1968. The judge, Mr. Justice Cusack, described her as dangerous and said she posed a “very grave risk to other children”. She was sentenced to be detained at Her Majesty’s pleasure, effectively an indefinite sentence of imprisonment. She was initially sent to a boy’s facility called Red Bank secure unit in St. Helens, Lancashire—the same facility that would house Jon Venables, one of James Bulger’s child killers, 25 years later.

Life after prison

After serving only twelve years, Mary Bell was released from Askham Grande prison in 1980, making her 23. Mary was granted anonymity (including a new name) and started a new life with her daughter who was born on May 25, 1984. Mary’s daughter did not know of her mother’s past until reporters tracked down their location and she and Mary had to evacuate their house covering their heads with bed sheets. 

Mary Bell’s daughter was originally protected until she turned 18. However, on May of 2003, Mary Bell won a High Court battle to have her own anonymity and that of her daughter extended for life. Any court order permanently protecting the identity of someone is consequently known as a “Mary Bell order”.

In 2009, it was reported that Mary had become a grandmother.