kids in reverse

Person: if you could tell your younger self anything, what would it be?

Me: Absolutely nothing. Unlike BARRY ALLEN I DONT WANT TO FUCK WITH THE TIMELINE

“My name is Barry Allen, and I am the fastest man alive.”

The Flash poster, digital 

I think it’s so funny that people legitimately believe that somehow their liberal arts university or art school represents the core of what it means to be lgbt, to be queer, and that they legitimately give a decent window into the needs psyche & beliefs of ~the community~ as a whole.

Like, you need to acknowledge that you’re predominately surrounded by other white middle class twenty somethings, and that these isolated pockets, so often cut off from most of our reality, reaaalllyyyy is a poor representation of queer existence as a whole.

Well fuck. I finally made Jasper’s AU sheet. For a while now it seemed like an elusive as fuck thing that was never going to get done, but I at last got my butt into motion and did it! And… its ok. I like Lapis and Peridot’s sheets way more, but eh. Whatcha gonna do? Anyway, here we go with this…

1. UF Jasper
2. Guard Jasper (Reverse/Diamond)
3. Momswap Jasper (Gravity Rises/Momswap)
4. Permafusion Jasper (Anti-Gravity/Permafusion)
5. Kid Jasper (Relativity/Gem Kids)
6. Swap Jasper (Swap AU)

So yeah I think I like Momswap Jasper most out of these, though really I’m pretty damn pleased with how the hair on all of them turned out. Fucking Kid Jasper is ill proportioned as hell and I had no idea how to fix that so fuck it. Who cares. Guard Jasper’s pretty boring, though I like Permafusion Jasper’s sort of “lost” look (because in that AU, she’s neutrally aligned and just wanders around or whatever). And short haired Swap Jasper is pretty adorable if you ask me :) 

*slams head into a pillow*

Gosh - OK - first sorry for the random absence! Just suddenly got busy within life o-o

And not just that… but I got a question on my Wall on UT Amino about if there was a Fell!PJ, and if PJ is a jerk - is Fell!PJ more of a jerk?

And while I know there are Fell!PJ’s out there already that answer this as a ‘yes’ - I just… I suddenly thought how he WOULDN’T be a bigger jerk and in fact… would be TERRIFIED constantly. 

Just first - I never really think that Fell versions of out code characters can exist. Just due to how the multiverse is. 

But IF there was a Fell!Error and Fell!Ink - THIS is what Fell!PJ would be like:

Gosh - not much difference at first glance - but:

  • He is on edge all the time - Scared constantly. Always in fear. Hence why his left eye default is a circle - not a diamond like the original.
  • Instead of marching off angerly at 15 like his main counterpart - he runs away in a panic at 10. 
  • His fell parents? Both took him under their watch - altering between one, the other, or both. They saw PJ as an opportunity to craft him into what they needed - and used different tactics to do it. 
    (Again - honestly I doubt Error and Ink could have a Fell version anyway so I was just going on a huge idea burst with that one)
  • Fell!PJ moves from AU to AU - not to judge, but to hide. He feels more comfort in a solid world than the white void. Still - can’t stay for too long - he knows he leaves tracks behind. 
  • When and if he gets to know someone kind and is able to calm down - he will be more like original PJ - except he will catch himself on what he said and will apologize for it over and over. He doesn’t want to be anything like his parents - yet he still got that sarcastic yet straight forward attitude one of them has…
  • His splat mark on his cheek spreads out like a slap mark. It’s due to having been hit on that side too many times that the colored marks is just his way of ‘bandaging it up’

And well - his face colors look like this:

His hoodie is magenta/black, with the long sleeves below being purple/blue like his side pack. He would have orange and blue specks on his shorts and no ‘leggings’ like the original. 

As you can see - I thought WAY TOO MUCH INTO THIS GOODNESS.
(yet still don’t know what the parents would have done to make him that scared all the time… heh… hard for me to think of how a fell Ink and Error would be like I guess…)

Kendrick Lamar and causal misogynoir

Humble by Kendrick Lamar came out and black social media collectively lost they shit. 

Personally, I thought the song was underwhelming, but that is just me.

There are a couple of bars that people have been pointing out as causal misgynoir or blatant misogynoir.

I saw these tweets here on tumblr highlighting this.

So I guess, it compelled me to speak on Kendrick and by extension, conscious rappers’ misogyny.

I never got why Kendrick Lamar and J. Cole have been heralded as women empowering because they are definitely not. It doesn’t excuse them, but I think in the “woke” community in general, people mistake anti-white supremacy with also being an advocate of feminism. And honestly, black men can speak from their experiences easily, and one would think they should be able to speak about oppression in general. But no, they can’t or it is wrong to assume that it is so easy to.

Kendrick’s first commercial album, Section.80, had two tracks that one could argue were women empowering or highlighting sexism(Tammy’s Song and Keisha’s Song). The issue with the songs that they either use the fear of women changing their sexual orientation in response of being with too many fuck niggas or subtly use a horrific tale of sex work gone wrong that somewhat reinforces rape culture and sex shaming under the guise of highlighting it without actually addressing the main contributors of instances like this. 

In summary, they are always from a male perspective which leads to open ended interpretations. To which, I guess that is okay because it is art and art does allow for some incomprehensible instances.

But the problem with these tracks is that they are so open-ended, they do not really penalize a wrong interpretation. I can go into Keisha’s Song and feel the remorse of how women in society are treated and sexualized by men. At the same time, any nigga can go into Keisha’s Song and get the perspective that Keisha should not have been selling her pussy. In fact, that seems to be the theme Kendrick was going for as the transition to HiiPower by Ab-Soul kind of asks the irrelevant question: “What if Keisha was celibate?”

So again, we have an instance of conflicting themes.

Good Kid, Maad City is a semi-autobiographical tale of a young Kendrick Lamar living in the gang and police infested streets of Compton. Good Kid, Maad City is probably my favorite project of his because 1. I love concept albums and 2. it’s rare when “conscious” rappers talk about their experiences with the police and racism. Rappers like Lupe Fiasco and Common like to talk about the concept of racism and white supremacy, but they usually divorce themselves from it. Tupac(mainly because his life is so fucking interesting) and NWA were some rappers who told their stories through song from personal experiences. In fact, Tupac was one of those artists that did both.

But as much as I love gkmc, it is as a concept is sexist because of one persistent character: Sherane. 

Sherane is the girlfriend of Kendrick Lamar during this tale. Her whole entire existence is to be a persistent antagonist to Kendrick’s “purity.” Sherane is the temptress that keeps getting Kendrick in trouble. Sherane is the corrupter. Sherane is the one who gets Kendrick beat up, ignoring that she also got jumped and beat up on with Kendrick. Sherane is the one who gives Kendrick a STD. Sherane, Sherane, Sherane.

Originally posted by allretrogifs

Kendrick does try to absolve some malice that he has towards her towards his crew who do get him to rob people and shit, but ultimately, he and by extension they are the ones who receive salvation and Sherane never does. Sherane is the characterized hood rat that keeps getting Kendrick in trouble.

Obviously, there are some parallels between Sherane and the mainstream interpretation of Eve, but that there lies the problem. Eve is seen as an accomplice of mankind and woman kind’s fall from paradise, instead of the provider of reason and life. Eve saved us from ignorance. The story of Adam and Eve can be interpreted as women being the first to have reason or the ability to reason. Eve is not a bad person.

Because Kendrick tacked on this character and made this biblical parallel that is sexist, there is also some sanctimonious thing Kendrick got going on. Kendrick is never at fault for anything he does ever. What is also peculiar with Kendrick as an artist is that unlike most conscious rappers, he is extremely personal with racism and black empowerment, but as soon as he speaks on women, he divorces himself from the topic and Lupe Fiascos it.

Kendrick’s most commercially and critically successful album, To Pimp A Butterfly. I love this album. Like, it is the embodiment of black power from a cis-heterosexual point of view. This shit is fire. You feel the anger and rage in Blacker The Berry save for those very problematic last two bars. You empathize with Kendrick’s struggle with depression with u. You fucking celebrate black resilience with i and Alright. You take pride in your blackness when you listen to Complexion and Wesley’s Theory. You contemplate materialism and politics with soulful tracks like How Much A Dollar Cost, Mortal Man, and Hood Politics.

This was the quintessential black album before Beyonce took that spot with Lemonade.

Originally posted by queenbeyoncegkc

I love this album. I really do. But again, it does have some shade of misogynoir and continues this trend with Kendrick who can’t seem to mention black women without colluding them with sex or their bodies. You can say complexion was the one song that he didn’t do this, but again, it is subtly a love song so it is still a problem.

And finally we have the Heart Part 4, and Kendrick’s debut single, “Humble” with the above bars about a woman’s ass with stretch marks. The issue here is not that Kendrick is celebrating positive images of a woman’s body. The issue here is that he sexualizes it.

Originally posted by northgang

There is a fine line between sexualizing a woman’s body and celebrating it. And male rapper’s fall for this line every fucking time women are brought up. They always relate to black women while mentioning how beautiful they are. It is always about their attractiveness. The only artists that I feel that succesful averted this in a song directed at black women was Tupac and Keep Ya Head Up and even that was just him bemoaning the accusations of rape that were levied against him(That is complicated). 

In fact, male rappers seem completely incapable of hiding their misogyny unless it comes to their mother and significant other. The only rapper that I know who speaks ill of both are Eminem and Angel Haze and the former is because he has this pseudo Fight Club white male rage thing going on and Haze dealt with a neglectful mother and lover.

This also stems from the fact that womanism and black femininity revolves around beauty and sexuality which contrasts white feminism which usually denounces it or internalizes the feeling, black womanism,because society tends to de-femininize them, are often criticized(unfairly) as being hyper-femme and materialistic, utterly devoid of anti-capitalist sentiment. And black men tend to see aesthetics as the main focus of womanism because it appeals to them and allows black men to continue to sexualize black women without actually addressing black patriarchy.

And don’t think I am forgetting rappers like Jermaine Cole who uses respectability politics in songs like No Role Modelz and homophobia in G.O.M.D. It is as Elexus says, we have to challenge our artists to do better. 

I am going to tag @reverseracism and @fightingmisogynoir because I kind of want to open this up to discussion to black women, and I as a relatively small tumblr blogger, do not have that clout to bring people in this discussion and I also have a dick so it is relatively patronizing of me to speak on shit without having any objections.

JOEY~ #80cbec          JUDE~ #cbec81

There’s a popular assumption in the fandom that, according to their shirts, Joey’s ASSOCIATED COLOR is green and Jude’s is blue, and following the Homestuck pattern, these would also be the colors of their eyes, both of which I’ve seen in the great majority of the fanart.

However, if we follow the Homestuck pattern to the fullest extent and remember that text-colors indicate both of those for all (player) characters (with the exceptions of Karkat, Calliope and Caliborn), it seems the reverse is true.

Also worth remembering is that Joey and Jude, Jake Harley’s biological kids, share this reversal with John and Jade, his ectobiological ones.

Approximate colors because it’s a video-game and not a web-page, so I could be wrong, but the codes seem to fit, in my opinion, and could also indicate their birth-years (Joey is 14 on 11/11/94 and her password is mrstaylorthomas80, and Jude is at least one year younger, three tops), Universe C (which is associated with the number 1111), and Becquerel (who was made with the genetic code of Jake Harley’s dog Halley, which is in two pictures on the staircase wall, from which Jake got his last name through a speech impediment), and a connection to the cherub-key-that-is-probably-a-juju through ouroboros (much like the juju codes the cherubs sent to the Alpha Prospit kids), but this entire paragraph is theory-only.

Would anyone else like to share their thoughts?

@revolutionaryduelist @anotherwitchofbreath @mmmmalo @hypeswap @curlicuecal