This month’s theme was “Watercolors, Pastels, and Early Spring Blooms”, which sounds a little fancy for kids, but it looked fun!
Coincidentally, my kids aren’t artistic geniuses (yet). Those flowers were all pre-rendered - they just used the chalk to activate the colors that were already in the paper. Doesn’t leave a lot of room for creativity, but guarantees a pretty result! The girls had plenty of fun regardless.
Prompt: “I don’t hate you. I could never hate you. That’s the problem.” & “Tell me to go and I will, but if you ask me to stay I’ll never leave you again.”
Requested by: Anonymous
“You can’t keep doing this.”
You watched as Spencer looked at you with scrutiny as he attempted to read your body language. You sat back in your chair, your body slightly slumped the way it usually was whenever you were either tired or in comfort, your eyes looking out of the small coffee shop with mild interest in the people who passed by. Nothing to show that you were distraught or even mildly upset.
“You can’t keep breaking up with me and then intentionally running into me at places you know I’ll be,” you continued as you gave him a knowing look. He held your gaze as your eyes dared him to say it wasn’t true.
“And you certainly can’t keep asking for me when you know damn well you’ll leave again,” you said with a sincere laugh.
“You hate me,” Spencer concluded. Your lack of resentment in your voice and at his actions only convinced him that you had finally come to terms with his constant leaving. He had grown so accustomed to your emotions portraying themselves so plainly on your face that this newfound calmness unsettled him. The only explanation he could think of was the one that pointed towards you finally getting over him.
“I don’t hate you. I could never hate you. That’s the problem.” You said with a small amused grin, causing his eyebrows to knit together in confusion.
“I still love you. If you don’t think my heart still skips a beat when you walk in here, you’re wrong,” you confessed. “But I’ve learned to hide that. It’s a useful thing to learn when dating a profiler. Gives one a sense of privacy.”
You chuckled as Spencer opened and closed his mouth, not knowing what to say. After two years of a constant on and off relationship due to his fear of you getting hurt, of getting caught in the crossfire just as many of his team’s spouses had, he was faced with a choice.
Except this time was different. You didn’t seem to be eager to run back into his arms as you had always been. No, you had turned the tables on him, and for the first time that morning Spencer realized that it wasn’t his choice at all. It was yours.
“Tell me to go and I will, but if you ask me to stay I’ll never leave you again.”
You raised an eyebrow at his vow, having never heard him promise such a thing. Spencer was always a man of his word and because of that he had never promised you much before. He never raised expectations, never said things he didn’t mean. He was a man of truth, and the thought of him staying was enough to spark a small sense of hope in you.
“It’s not okay to make promises you won’t keep, Spence,” you replied with a small smile as you tested him. “If you would have asked me before, hell, if you would have asked me last week I would have said yes. But I’ve come to accept that your job is your priority babe. Nothing wrong with that.”
You patted his hand softly as he frowned.
“It’s not my priority,” he argued as he recalled the countless nights he went to sleep alone wishing for nothing more than to have you beside him. He always convinced himself that he had made the right choice in leaving you. That he was protecting you that way. But that conviction would melt away by the morning and he would always seek you out. It was a vicious cycle that had lasted for much too long.
“I want things, Spence. I want to get married, buy a house with a white picket fence, have children,” you said with a small smile. Spencer momentarily pictured his life- waking up next to you every morning, chasing after twins that had the exact same dimples he did and kissing you every day before heading off to work. It was an idea he welcomed whole-heartedly.
“I can do that,” Spencer replied eagerly. “I’m ready, Y/N.”
It was your turn to stare at him now. He was seated upright, his shoulders back in a way that let you know he was restraining himself from leaning in closer to you. His eyes were fixed on your face as he attempted to understand what was going through your mind at the moment- how you would respond to his words. A mix of worry and excitement swirled in his hazel eyes that caused your stomach to fill with butterflies at the idea of him finally settling down.
“Stay,” you replied with a firm nod. He let out a breath of relief he hadn’t realized he had been holding as a broad smile took ownership of his features.
“I promise I won’t leave. I’m going to marry you. We’ll have your dream house that you’ve always wanted and a bunch of miniature Spencers and Y/N’s running around. It’s what I want.”
Spencer’s excitement as he depicted what your life would be like was enough to bring you out of your cool exterior and he found himself grinning as you leaned in closer, eager to hear what dreams he had. His hands instinctively reached for yours.
“And we’ll spend the nights around a fireplace and I’ll read them Hemingway until they get bored and beg for you to tell them bedtime stories about dragons and princesses instead,” he continued.
You listened intently, clutching his hand tightly as he rambled on about how the kids would be geniuses like himself but if they weren’t that would be okay because he would love them all the same. And how you would get a dog and name it Edgar after Edgar Allan Poe but he would be a sweet one who would watch over the children as they played. And then he spoke of how he would make love to you every night after you had tucked the kids into bed and it was time for the parents to enjoy themselves. Your eyes widened and he laughed at your reaction, admitting that he wouldn’t ever want to keep his hands off of you now that he had you back. That he would never let go again.
Hansol and Yuta:
you would recognize their kid because he/she is the ultimate weeb. the kid grew up watching anime. Yusol prolly made their kid watch anime ever since their he/she was born. their kid knows anime by heart. their kid is also athletic. can dance well, too. also the type to argue about social and economic issues
Johnny and Ten:
their kids would be memes (ofc). they would be the class clown. would sometimes crack dad jokes, but their classmates would find it funny. they're the type to say "swag". talented af. can do almost everything since their parents exposed them to different fields since they were young. would wear "super broccoli" and "super corn" shirts. would befriend everybody in school
Taeyong and Jaehyun:
they would drive their kids to school and fetch them too. other children would envy their kids because their parents look good af. their kids' clothes would smell like downy. their home would be spotless and would smell like febreze. their children would never know the taste of bad food
Kun and Winwin:
their kids are savage af. no, not the typical savage who are annoying and always blabbering, but they're the type of savage who are keeping it low-profile. they look really adorable, yet little people know that they have reciepts on almost everyone they know. they're the type of kids who are psychologically geniuses
Yet more weeks passed in the tower and contrary to what you
might have hoped for, the levels of tension within the tower were ever as high.
Despite this, however, Loki continued to make good on his word. In silent
submission he followed Stark’s instructions and gradually helped to complete
construction on the bottom floors. Windows were fitted, debris cleared, and foundations
replaced. It was finally beginning to look like the tower again (according to
“A little higher…” Stark directed and you pushed the beam to
the edge of your fingertips. “(Y/n), higher.”
“Fuck you Stark. I’m a short-ass in comparison to Captain Steroids over there.”
You said, raising yourself up onto the balls of your feet, though it made
little difference. Steve was on the other end of the beam, holding it at the
right height with ease. It didn’t even budge as he chuckled at your joke. Show off.
imagine 6-something-year-old Jack thinking “what the hell is up with spices anyway what’s the big deal” then proceeding to eat ground spices b/c kid geniuses make horrible mistakes sometimes
turns out he really likes ground cinnamon?? inevitable suffering aside, it has a really nice taste. so he continues to eat cinnamon like others will eat peanut butter like the tiny goddamn loon he is
his parents eventually put their feet down after the third time he gets sick from eating too much cinnamon and force him to stop. then he starts doing shit like chewing on ice and mixing multiple different ice cream flavors into one and they just sort of give up trying to control his dietary habits
anyway. to the main idea this shitshow of a post started with: 5-person Cinnamon Challenge Showdown feat. Chase, Wuya, Raimundo, Jack, and Clay. No Wu wagered, multiple rounds (whoever doesn’t bail has to eat more cinnamon), last person to bail out wins.
Rai’s the one to suggest it b/c he’s a lil shit he doesn’t feel like fighting but still wants to see the bad guys suffer. besides, he’s got Clay on his side. the guy’s got a cast-iron stomach; the cinnamon challenge ought to be a piece of cake for him. Clay just sighs and shakes his head because what in tarnation is wrong with you Rai
Chase knows what the cinnamon challenge is, having lived through its predecessors time and time again. Wuya kind of knows what it is, having inhabited the same living space as Jack for so long and having access to the Internet. Jack is just internally screaming.
So the Showdown commences, Omi pestering Kimiko for info in the background. Rai bails almost immediately (Omi boos him for poor effort). Wuya, who is actually crying at that point, gives up after the third round. Chase quits after the fourth; as juvenile a game it might be, neither of the immortals can deny its effectiveness. Clay nearly throws up during the fifth round, then again during the sixth round, prompting him to bail. Jack’s just left standing there suffering but hEY GOOD JOB JACK YOU GOT THE WU
and ofc everyone’s suspicious of Jack’s inhuman tolerance of cinnamon, until “Haha yeah I used to eat it by the jar when I was like 5, the hospital visits sucked though” what the actual fuck Jack
Hi!! I’m really sorry this took me such a while to answer, but I really had to think the question through since I, myself, have been drawing since I was a little kid. But, on that note, I know several ones that consider themselves beginners and they, too, felt at loss.
Honestly, things aren’t as complicated as people might think. The first thing I suggest you to do is to save a collection of art that you find inspiring, perhaps even styles that you admire and want to be something like. Don’t immediately think you will draw like this though — even if you’re a natural and draw things perfectly, you, yourself as an artist, will probably not feel completely comfortable with it. Understand and accept that an artist always strives to be better, and yes, that includes those talented artists that you admire! I assure you that they too sit there and groan at least every now and then because their art isn’t going the way they want to. It’s part of being an artist, and all you need to do is to feel comfy in that and see it as a challenge of sorts. So, as soon as you have accepted this, you’ll be ready to take action!
The first step I’d say is to study the art (or photos) that you collected. What is it that you like about them? What is a method the artist seems to be using? What makes it unique? How would you translate all this into your own style, using it as inspiration and not as outright copy? Think of it as ‘I really like this thing about this artist, but if I did it, it’d probably be this way instead.’ Remember, though, that the first years (and it will be many years, but they’re fun and educational, so don’t worry!) will all be a tryout for you. It’s all experimental, so don’t limit yourself too much. Think of how you’d like to try out things, and as you go, realize what you find fun to draw. It doesn’t really matter if you’ve been doing it since you’ve been little, it’s all about your mentality and when you’re ready to develop as you grow up. No one is a master at painting at the age of 5 (okay let’s admit it, all kids are little art geniuses, but you know what I mean).
Second is tracing. Before everyone gasp and say how horrible it is, I’ll tell you that it’s highly educational and it doesn’t mean that you’re some thieving copycat. You’re just trying out the ways of other artist and kind of getting a grasp of how they do things, it lets you become comfortable with your own brushstrokes as you follow theirs. Never post traced art without permission (unless it’s public, non-licenced art, such as classical illustrations, etc) and never trace with the goal to copy them. Think of tracing as a method of getting used to art and understanding drawing. Do this during the first period of your learning state, but you must learn to not keep doing it, and eventually I suggest you stop altogether (unless you’re really in a rut). One tip is to alter the traced pics to your liking, to add your own style and touch to it! Be experimental.
Third step is drawing by reference. You might be wondering, after tracing, how does one just stop? You use can still use said pictures as a guidance, but instead of tracing them, use them as a reference, meaning you simply look at them while you draw on your own. Remember that it’s okay to not have it look exactly like how it originally looks! Remember that it’s your art and it’s all about your path, in the end. Reference is something you never have to quit using, in fact, I highly recommend you use them, but use them with care. Simply learn the difference between copying and using inspiration.
Fourth step is to study and learn tutorials and how to draw books. I’ve already made a list of useful anatomy books here (I highly recommend checking that out!) and my own tutorials can be found here.
A few years ago, I wrote some tips for one person who asked for them, and I’ll quote:
Make a list of things you like; things that interest you, things you’re passionate about, things you like to draw. It could be anything, like “Silver, Mythology, Coffee” etc. Then, go on a follow spree. Search for these things and follow the blogs you find interesting. Then, make an inspiration blog; like I have my blog hoursleep that’s there only there for the purpose of inspiration.
Then, follow art blogs! How-to-draw blogs, art inspiration and whatnot. This is really nice since it helps you refreshen your artsy parts of your brain every now and then.
When you are bored, make sure to have a paper and pen with you; preferring in a small, travel-size. Doodle whatever - and if possible, draw the things or people around you, even if it’s all messy. You won’t regret doing these doodles. They’re good for you.
My final tip is NEVER THROW ANY DRAWINGS AWAY, NO MATTER HOW “UGLY”. Save every drawing you do!! Why? One day you’ll need to look back and see your improvement - or perhaps things you even liked about it! I like to look at my bad, ugly art and redraw them to something better. This is a great way to practice your skills, and nothing boosts your self-esteem more than seeing how you’ve become better with time. ♥
And that’s about it, honestly. Many feel too intimidated to be starting out with art, especially in later age, so all you need to do is to sit down and feel comfortable by letting other things teach you first. Starting out drawing without any clue how to start is much like trying to learn advanced maths without knowing the basics first. It’s okay to to depend on other sources first, it’s okay to feel frustrated over your art, it’s all okay, because you do have room to grow, always. Never feel like your lack of experience means that you have no hope. You always have, you just need to be determined!
Oh, and I realize now that these weren’t specific for digital art. So have some extras that are more specific for that subject!
I highly recommend getting a tablet. I know that not everyone can afford a Cintiq, but if you can, don’t hesitate to get one! (I really recommend getting Cintiq 13hd for first time users, such as myself). However, getting a normal tablet is perfectly fine as well. Wacom Bamboo is my absolute favorite, and do not buy from Trust. Once you get your tablet, don’t feel frustrated because it doesn’t look perfect, or even good. It’s completely normal, and you’ll need a few weeks at least to adjust. I remember getting my Cintiq and I worried that I had spent so much money on a thing that I couldn’t even draw on, but given time I grew used to it, and now I draw on it just fine, and I have no regrets. In fact, I’m so happy I got it, I truly am!
If you want a free program, I suggest getting GIMP. It got a lot of tools and yet isn’t too advanced for those just starting out. However, what I truly recommend is SAI for beginners. Sai is very simple but it has just about everything you need, and I myself used that for years, and I still do when I sketch sometimes. When you feel ready to advance, I fully recommend Manga Studio 5. It’s my favorite program for painting and it got amazing preset brushes that are simply perfect, in my opinion. Photoshop CS5 and higher is extremely good too, but while I don’t think it’s that good for painting (many may disagree, since I’ve seen many artist paint in this program), it’s completely wonderful for touch-ups, effects, and filters. Keep in mind that Photoshop is a rather advanced tool, especially if you’re used to SAI. Going over to Manga Studio 5 is easier because it is like a mix between SAI and Photoshop.
Keep in mind that there are many digital art tutorials out there that tell you how you “must” draw/colour. However, drawing digitally is like art in real-life too, it’s all about your own taste and what tools and methods you like to use. Use tutorials as a guide, not a rulebook. No, not even mine. For example, tutorials might teach you how to lineart and cellshade, but you might prefer lineless, smooth works over that style, and that’s fine! Or you want to mix the two! Or maybe, you want to do lineart but you want to colour outside the lines. be experimental, try out things you haven’t tried before. Try odd brushes, try colours you find fascinating, try messing with layers, just mess things up. If you’re afraid to mess things up, you can save your document before doing anything extreme, just so you can feel safe going outside your comfort zone. You learn a lot by daring!
I hope that was of any help! Let me know if you have more questions.
Tokyo ghoul fandom:
*overanalyzes everything from the positioning of the sun to the placement of geographical landscaping
Tokyo ghoul fandom:
*loses their mind over the psychological suffering of their favorite characters
Tokyo ghoul fandom:
*freaks out every time something awful happens to a poor innocent characters doesn't deserve it
calls Kaneki his weapon, effectively threatens to kill and dispose of him when he fails to be useful anymore, and basically disregards Kaneki as a person and chooses instead to see him as more of an "it"