kickin' & screamin


“It started comin’ to a head again, so I went back down, I ran away, back down there and then a month later i’m up livin’ with my grandparents in the mountains and ten months later I murdered them. And it made it worse to be on top of a mountain, I was literally on top of a mountain when it happened and I could sense, I sensed everybody in the world just stopped what they were doing, turning around and saw what I did and are coming to get me. And I knew I was paranoid at that moment. I knew everybody who came up there and would give me a funny look or a fishy eye or quizzical look, I would’ve blown their brains out. Thinking they were coming to get me. And if it’d been in a city, I would’ve been a mass murderer at age 15. I would’ve killed until they gunned me down. I wouldn’t be able to reason my way out of it. I was scared to death and I was violent, I felt my bold back hit that wall. I was the rabbit that always ran, that always backed away, that always burned his bridges suddenly there weren’t any anymore and my back hit that wall and I came out screamin’ and kickin’ and shootin’.

Ed Kemper on how he felt after the murder of his grandparents. Seemingly under high emotional pressure, this killing in perticular might have served as a kind of ‘emotional survival’. Raised in an abusive and unfullfilling home, mixed with early signs of antisocial behaviour, resulting in pressure and relief targeting itself at his new caretakers. (x)

Fiddauthor Week Day 4

Angst: Remember me.

“I love you Fiddleford.”, Stanford reminded him as he nuzzled the side of the engineer’s face.

They shared sweet kisses. Hands intertwined, fingers laced so beautifully, it made Fiddleford feel all so special to have his hands held in those six fingers.

“I’ll always love you..”, Ford promised, curling up close to his body in the cold dark nights. “I’ll never let you go..”

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Author: limitlessmonster
Title: Chances Are
Fandom: Haikyuu!!
Pairing: AsaNoya
Genre: Drama/Comedy
Chapter Word Count: 6600
Total Word Count: 23K
Summary: Mind-boggled” is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to how Nishinoya feels in the aftermath of Asahi’s post-graduation parting gift. But after a few mishaps, he begins to wonder if he’s missed the opportunity to find out the what ifs or if there’s really such a thing as second chances.
Chapter Summary: Asahi surprises Noya with a last minute invitation, but it’s Noya who ends up being full of surprises.
A/N: Yay for updates! I was a little slower with this one because of other projects and RL things I had to deal with, but hopefully the next one won’t leave quite as much time in between. :D Happy reading!  ♡

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Oi, sleeping beauty. Get up.”

“G’way,” Noya mumbles into his pillow, swatting the air above him to get rid of the bad dream in the form of whoever the hell is trying to force him into the waking world. 

“Not gonna happen, bro. I got reamed by Chikara the last time you made us late. Extra dive receives are not on my to-do list before classes, so you better get your ass up or I’ll be forced to drag you kickin’ and screamin’.”

Noya grumbles something unintelligible before managing a barely audible, “’m tremblin’ with fear.”

“Try me.”

Something wet digs into his ear and Noya yelps before flinching away. He groans something that sounds like ‘ugh gross!’, exaggerated and petulant like a child, and makes to get out of bed only to fall off the futon face first on to the tatami mat. “You’re the fuckin’ devil incarnate,” he mutters, still mostly asleep and trying to ignore the way his forehead throbs from where it smacked the floor. 

Tanaka grabs the crook of his arm and yanks him up. He grunts from the exertion and lays on the wheezing, extra thick. “The hell, man. How do you weigh so much when you’re, like, the size of a Keebler elf?”

“That was one Halloween, okay? And I was five. Let it go, Ryuu.” 

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