keeping the world out

Yo one of the most amazing things to me about seeing SHINee live was being able to see just how HARD Taemin goes when he dances. I legit thought the boy was going to break his ankle or something bc of the amount of power and passion he dances with. Truly incredible.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the past few months it’s that no one and I mean no one in the world is going to keep dragging you out of bed on your bad days and no one is going to be patient enough to wait for your anxiety attack to be over so you can say what’s on your mind. You, you have to love yourself enough to do these things. Life, you have to want it so bad. Only you can stop wasting your own time. 
My doctor said don’t waste your youth and my teacher told me to stop staring walls and just do something and my best friend, she said staying in bed is easier yes , but what’s the point? You can’t let your feelings swallow you. 
And you see, you can repeat those words in your head over and over but what’s the point if you stay still at the same exact point where your feet tripped ? 
Take one little step. For you, for me just do something
—  Yara, Notes to You

The surgery goes on for days, weeks. Doctors have to keep switching out so others can eat and rest. The entire world waits with bated breath. Finally, after a long, painstaking ordeal, the surgery is declared a success. 

The patient is dead. Now the true work can begin.

LGBTQ Books:

Straight Jacket by Matthew Todd

Fun Home by Alison Bechdel

Physical by Andrew McMillian

Simon vs The Homo Sapians Agenda by Becky Albertalli

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Sàenz

This Book is Gay by James Dawson

If You Could be Mine by Sara Farizan

I am J by Cris Beam

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell

Symptoms of Being Human by Jeff Garvin

Will Grayson Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan

Boy Meets Boy by David Levithan

I’ll Give You the Sun by Jandy Nelson

Two Boys Kissing by David Levithan

More Than This by Patrick Ness

More Happy Than Not by Adam Silvera

We Awaken by Calista Lynne

how about an anastasia yoi au?

- Dreamworks Anastasia au, obviously. Also who knows what country this is taking place in BUT THAT’S NOT WHAT WE’RE CONCERNED WITH RIGHT NOW OK.
- Yuuri is part of a royal family, Victor is the kitchen boy that befriends him. 
- When Yuuri’s family is attacked, Victor helps Yuuri and Mari escape. Yuuri has some form of accident and forgets his childhood. 
- Dimitri = Victor. Vlaad = Chris. Con men with hearts of gold, of course. 
I mean, Victor and Dimitri already have similar-ish hair and Victor would look great in Dimitri’s clothes. 

- Mostly I just enjoy imagining Victor and Chris watching people audition as “Anastasia” and encountering this:

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

- But lbr, Victor and Chris are kind of like “well this isn’t right for THIS con, but i like your style” bc both of them would totally do something like that. 
- Mari wants to find Yuuri. Hence why the con begins!
- Yuuri finding an adorable poodle puppy on his adventures. 
- Chris sees Yuuri is just LOVES him because Yuuri is adorable and perfect. Victor also is like - ok, how is someone so beautiful - but is pretty tough on Yuuri when “prepping” him to be the brother Mari is trying to find. 
- They spend lots of time together traveling and obviously slowly fall in love. 
- Yuuri and Victor practice waltzing on the boat. It’s just as wonderful as the Anastasia scene is. 
- Again, tell me you don’t picture Yuuri and Victor dancing while Chris looks on exactly like this:

- Also, Victor saves Yuuri when he’s sleep walking on the boat and almost jumps off the ship due Rasputin’s curse. Pulls him close in the pouring rain, holds Yuuri after. Just. Because. 
- When the get to where Mari is, they meet Phichit, who is a close friend of Mari’s. 
- Phichit is wonderful and loves Yuuri. He’s convinced Yuuri is Mari’s lost brother and does everything in his power to help Yuuri. 
- When Mari does realize Yuuri is her lost brother and Yuuri regains some of his memories, Victor simultaneously realizes how much he’s come to love Yuuri.
- Cue Victor realizing that Yuuri actually IS Yuuri and that he helped him escape all those years ago.
- Yuuri remembers how he and Mari escaped, remembers that it was Victor who got them through the secret passage. 
-Cue them rushing to one another, confessing their love, etc. It’s beautiful. 

P.S. if you don’t think “at the beginning’ is the perfect Victuuri theme song, you are wrong and I will fight you. <3

millennials gothic
  • Every night there is a scratching at your doorbut you haven’t had a cat since you lived with your parents. But this is your parent’s house. Where are your parents? The scratching continues.
  • The old ones do not understand technology. Good. Your elderly aunt manages to mute the static hum of her television to ask you what an emoji is. They won’t survive.
  • Your local pizza place has taken to delivering square pizzas. The owner says you get more pizza for your money that way. There are no toppings on your pizza. He says you get even more pizza that way.
  • You don’t own a car. Nobody owns a car. The streets are alive with the movement of thousands of human bodies, walking. Nobody has anywhere to go. A hand grabs your ankle but you keep walking. Everyone keeps walking.
  • Universities around the world have been closing. Nobody goes in or out. Your clothes smell of coffee and burning paper and you don’t know why. It doesn’t wash out. 
  • Your phone buzzes. It’s a group chat. You ignore it. Your phone keeps buzzing until it’s all you can hear a cacophony of hissing and vibrating and growling. You look at the screen and realise you don’t recognise any of the names on it. You try to pick your phone up but it’s so hot it burns your fingers and you drop it. The phone shatters. The fragments keep buzzing.
  • You work day and night. Day and night. They say you’re one of the lucky ones, to be working. You’ve never known anything but work. Managers come and go. You work day and night.
  • There are ATMs everywhere but you don’t know what any of them do. All the banks have closed, but sometimes you think you can hear screaming from your local branch. You take your money to the man on the corner by your apartment who keeps your cash in his mouth. When you need change you go to him and he spits coins at you.
  • You go to the library to do research and find all the shelves empty. You can’t find any librarians but you hear howling from the back of the library. There are no books here.

It takes a long time to figure out who you are and where you fit in in the world. I’m putting myself in all these awkward situations where the dancers are incredible, and I’m having fun with it, but not fitting in. They’re doing the most beautiful things, and I’m being embarrassingly bad at it. It shows you to keep doing you, keep being you, keep trying to figure out where you fit in in the world, and eventually you will.

Sometimes bad things happen, and the world keeps turning.

Look out for each other.  Help your friends when you can.  That’s especially important at times like this.

Your regularly-scheduled fanart and dragons and fluff will resume shortly.   Because if I can do nothing else, I can try to make people smile.  In the face of hatred, living and smiling and being kind is a victory.

There is still hope in the world.