This summer I drew a line and turned off my feelings. I have committed myself to no strings attached, pure, relaxed fun. But as the summer goes on, I feel the line starting to get crossed. I slowly back away and you drag me back across with your lips and your hands and the way my body reacts to you.
Hat-Bot: The manor has been quite busy of late, so apologies on my late reply! All of your flattery has been noted and saved! Thank you all very much! I’m doing well, I’ve been keeping rigorously to my maintenance! Would a digital hug be alright? My disarming charms are all credited to my genius Creator of course!
Happy birthday to our most beloved Jeon Boram. Thank you for showering queen’s with love and ‘aeygo’, your smiles and ajumma laughs. No matter what decisions you make in the future, know we will always be behind you, supporting and watching over you. Thank you for being a part of our lives. Thank you for being a part of T-ARA ♛
Hey so I’m attempting to apply to some apartments today but I don’t have enough $$ and if anyone could spare for my sister and I to apply that would be reallly nice!!!
ALSO if u wanna know anything about my life feel free to message me and I’ll keep u updated on my life because I don’t want my posts to come off like I’m scamming ANYONE I’ve been through a lot in the past couple months and I’ve really been needing help.
Hi everyone and yes, that’s my final decision. I found out that I could do an intermission leave in the middle of the semester and my thought was ‘what’s the point of studying this anymore when you hate it and you almost killed yourself (twice) from it.’ So, taking a break it is. I’m going to talk with my academic adviser tomorrow about writing an application. And I’m going to go back home after finishing all of the stuff I have to do. Maybe I’d rest for a while. Side notes that I use the term ‘taking a break’, rather than ‘dropping out’, just in case I want to continue my study in dentistry, although there is a slim chance for that.
I’ll retake an admission exam to study what I really like, and hopefully pass it. The admission system in my country allows choosing 4 majors/universities of choice and you can enter said major if your score is enough. I’d go with: language/law/psychology/???(undecided, maybe sociology). I don’t know what the future holds for me, but I’m definitely not happy with what I am and who I am now. Taking a step back from dentistry is a big step, both out of and into my comfort zone at the same time. I mean my friends here are really nice, some teachers are great but what I have to do (wax carving, tooth preparation, dentures, etc) just isn’t… me. And it has been killing me inside since last year.
I’m not going to lie but the last year (until now) I have cried more than I did in my whole life combined and I’ve become suicidal. Just from studying and doing lab practices. I loathed myself and thought that I was a useless piece of shit just because I couldn’t do like others in the class. It may sound funny to you but this is what I feel. This is what I face everyday, waking up and thinking ‘why can’t I sleep forever’ just because I don’t want to go to the lab.
I’m worried about my future, yes. What if I still don’t like what I do? Do I look pathetic, retaking exams with those high school students? But right now the best choice I can do is rest, and let my mental health recover.
Again, I’m not going to stop posting studyblr posts just because I’m taking a break from studying. I appreciate everyone’s effort and that’s one of things that keep me moving forward. Knowing that I’m not the only one who is struggling with (academic) life, and I have those of you who have sent me kind messages. I’m very grateful for that. Thanks to all of you who have stick with me. Thank you.
I’ll keep update about my life after this, If you are interested, it’s in my personal tag ‘#piiess ranting’. And if you’re not, make sure to blacklist it.
PPS. Thank you Asa @bekicotwrites for advises over the semester, they really helped me and I appreciate them very much. We might not be in the same major in the future but I hope I can still keep in touch with you. :)
I really wanted to say thank you, to everyone in the SNS fandom you guys are the best bundle of people I have ever got to met so…….. here goes. I hope you can handle the fluff. I am going to attempt to write some of the nicest ish about the people who make up my sns family.
Dear SNS family…
@kuramaknows: you are litteraly the cutest bundle of joy to know, your life is literally my goal and your so preeeettyyy HOW THE FUDGE? I know we only recenlty started talking but you inspire me with your writing and you personality is literally infectious.
@sns4life: you are my beta bae and you are a blessing to my bad grammar. You blog is beautiful and i need to embody your smartness because i will never be as smart as you.. please transfer your knowledge to me.
@philosophy-and-coffee: your fic was amazing and creative and you have such real skills, i miss talking to you :(. Your mind is a fanfic temple, please bless me with your talent.
@tomato-x-ramen: girlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll you are soooo frickin talented, your art work is honeslty so beauitful. Never ever ever stop sharing your work because it is a blessing from the gods. I honeslty respect you so much as an artist, your digitial art is beyond awe inspiring.
@jaimeejaeger: you are a blessing to my life, you are a preety angel who came down to earth and hit me in the face with happiness. You are goals, your hair is goals, your life is goals, your dog is goals. You do such great things for the fandom and your personality is literally the most infectious thing in this world. Trully amazing person <3
@bean-paste-man: you are preety much a semi-god of the sns fandom, you are all our mum and I appreciate the level of commitment you have to this fandom. You bring such creative and innovative sns content to this fandom and for that i bow down at your feet. I respect you sensie, please teach me your ways true sns master.
@cantgetoversns: You are the cutest pile of fairy dust to this fandom, i actually cant believe how long its been since I talked to it :( Hit me up gurl :P But honeslty your drawings are so cute and amazing and beautiful and your blog is a pile of happiness. Honeslty your like the sweetest person in the fandom, i am pretty sure everyone in this fandom thinks the same of you. So thank you for always being so nice to everyone and welcoming others joining us. Never ever ever change.
@yuurei-cosplay: I think you are one of the best sns cosplayers ever, we used to talk quite alot. Your photos/cosplay are just getting better and better. I love how beautiful and well thought out your cosplay, photos, setting, everythinnngg is. You trully are an inspiration and i wish you nothing but the best and please keep posting because your updates give me life.
@hotmessmuffin: I left you for last for a reason. You are one of the first tumblrs I had ever became friends with and I will never ever regret the day we started talking to each other. You are such an inspiration to me, your ability to write is impeccable, you literally take me places when you write, I have laughed and cried reading your work, please I beg of you never stop and let the world see all your head canons because girl your mind is a literal sns gold field. You have moved past the stage of being my friend on tumblr to my literal wife. I love you. Literally. I wish nothing but happiness for you, please never be afriad to post your work because everyone and i mean EVERYONE needs to see the level of pure awesomeness that is your writing/mind. You are one beautiful person with a very interesting and complex soul, who ever wins your heart is one lucky person. Girl honestly unleash all your ideas and work to the world, please. Plus i cant wait to work on this collab together. you will forever be my sns wife <3
wooooooo… holy crap, that was alot of fluff in one go. But honeslty you guys plus many more have made my sns experience phenomenal. You guys in some way have been part of my sns jounrey and I want to say thanks, from those who welcomed me into the fandom to those who stuck around and stayed in my heart. Thank you! I hope we all continue supporting our boys and keep providing great content to the sns fandom!!
So I just want to tell this to someone (? Well.... it turns out I'm friends with a guy who was born the same day as me. Same day, same year, in pretty close cities. Basically we have very similar birth charts, except for the houses probably Aaaaand I think he's like my lost brother or a soul mate bc I can't decide jshdhdhd But also people tell me he's got a crush on me? And I dunno if that's 100% true but his interactions make me think so. Umm dunno, if he asks me, I would totally date him...
i’m invested in your life now, keep me updated if something big happens
*update waiting on the pathology to come back Tuesday. Staples come out the same day. Moving around without my walker and rehabbing my leg. Laughter is the best medicine I’ll just be glad when I’m cleared to go to the gym.
“You’re not allowed to lift anything over 10lbs.”
At that point just tell me not to lift anything at all lol.
Anyway I’ll be back snapping pics, driving, and starting up a charity car group soon enough. Busy rest of the year on my way to recovery. Who knows I may do some motivational speaking before the year is up. We’ll see…
(Parents moving overseas anon here!) Thank you for the amazingly helpful tips. It's good to know that things will get easier over time. I have another question for you, if you don't mind! My cat, who is really close to my mom, has been sulking and meowing for her in her room and at the windows and front door. What can I do to ease her loneliness? She has a hard time getting along with other cats, so bringing in another one is out of the question. (For now, anyway.)
I’m glad to hear that some of my advice was helpful! 🙌🏻
As far as your cat goes, cats do grieve when they miss humans and other animals that they’re close to.
Here are some suggestions:
- Feeliway. Spray it low to the ground on door archways and chair legs, things she typically rubs up against. Feeliway is a hormonal spray that comforts cats who are worried about their territory, but I’m hoping that if you spray this around your mother’s room the cat will smell it and be calmer.
- Catnip and treats. Cats love to be pampered, nothing wrong with some old fashioned bribing. Cats do have clear preferences in terms of humans, but they can and will change their mind if you are patient. Make your cat associate you with positivity, give her a treat when she sees you. Do this enough that she comes to expect a treat when she sees you, and then slowly phase the treat out and replace it with affection.
- Speaking of bribing, buy some cat furniture for the room and put cat toys on the ground inside of it to make it more “cat friendly”. Moving furniture in the room around and other slight changes may help your cat see this room differently. Make this room a fun room for the cat.
Your cat will eventually move on, much like you will. I think your cat is a good metaphor for your situation right now, haha. Both of you just need a little bit of time to get used to your new way of life. Remember to keep me updated on your adventures! ✨
hi guys – wishing i could be on here more but school keeps me busy! i hope everyone’s enjoying their october :’) life updates - things are going good, grades are up, i watched the new blade runner yesterday, and finally convinced the boyfriend to play mass effect !
hiya, so a bit ago i sent an ask saying i was going to come out to my mum as trans. whilst that hasnt actually happened yet, what has happened is that my therapist is making a plan with me to do so and hopefully i'll be out soon! thank u for the prayers, and thanks for your blog because it's really awesome :) (you don't have to post this if you don't want to!)
Hey, by now you’ve probably done it and I wanna tell you that I’m so proud of you. Even if you didn’t end up telling her or it went poorly, I’m so proud of your growth and how strong you are. I’ll continue to pray for you, and praise God for the help of your therapist! Thank God for putting them in your life :) keep me updated sweetheart, we’re all rooting for you!