keep-telling-myself

anonymous asked:

i dont think i deserve to be a hijabi anymore. i dont want to *trick* people into thinking im pious, when im really not. *

Girl, I literally think like this all the time. All the damn time. Especially lately, because of the way my life has been. But it’s not about us tricking people, it’s about shaytaan tricking us.
Hijab isn’t something you “deserve.” It’s not some hallmark of piety, or a standard to aspire to. It’s a basic part of being Muslim. I know that’s overcomplicated because of our society, but it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks, it only matters what Allah thinks.
I just keep telling myself that no matter what bad I might take part in, if hijab is the one good thing I have, I can’t let go of it. And if people will judge me, for better or for worse, because of my hijab, then that’s on them, not me, and I don’t need people like that in my life.
But whatever you decide to do, just know that what matters is that you stay true to yourself.

Good luck, love. We’re in this struggle together.

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Holy shit. I was feeling really bad today because I haven’t been consistent with my workouts for the past two weeks but I also just realized that I should still be proud because of how far I’ve come considering I’ve lost 80 pounds in less than a year. I started in size 18 pants in June and am currently in a size 6. I need to keep telling myself that it’s all about progress and not perfection. Even though I’m stuck at the same weight and I have been for about two weeks, I am still worlds away from where I started in 2016 and I’m feeling the best that I’ve ever felt in my life. Time to get serious and get back on it because running my mouth won’t make shit happen.

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when u havent seen ur mom in a while and u wana show her all ur cool stuff ur proud of

When I was eleven years old, my mother told me to never cry over a boy.

She made me promise. I swore on it, linking my tiny pinky finger with her grown-up one.

I managed to keep the promise through a few heartbreaks.

Then you happened.

I’m trying so hard to keep it together, but it’s so difficult. It was never this difficult before.

Maybe this was true love. I still don’t want to cry over you. I keep telling myself that I won’t.

Please don’t make me disappoint my mother.

—  please.

The last time Jasper saw Murphy, it’s when he took him hostage, shot Raven and tried to hang Bellamy, and Monty probably remember him as the guy who tried to kill Jasper and was basically a dick.

So if they meet again in s4 (please, please, please) I need Jonty to cringe or flinch somehow like “what ths little fucker doing here”, and Bell gotta reassure them like “don’t worry Murphy’s one of us now, he saved my life, and Clarke, actually he helped saving everyone.” And Jonty looking at each other like “okay… weird…but okay.”  

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good ol’ hiphop monster fanart

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It’s 2:00 in the morning and I would just like to say thank you so much to @seidurstown for letting me butcher their High school au. Unfortunately it didn’t come out so great but I put my soul into it and tried real hard so I’m happy.

Bonus: Sport..As much as Robbie would love to talk to you, you’re being held up by only three people. They would like to put you down now.

11 Things I Have to Remind Myself Everyday
1. Don’t put on the sweatshirt he gave you that’s sitting in the top of your closet. It doesn’t actually smell like him.
2. Don’t listen to the playlist you named after him when you broke up. He isn’t worth ruining your favorite songs.
3. Don’t check his Instagram to see if he’s untagged himself in the photos you posted while you were together. He probably hasn’t, and he probably doesn’t even realize they’re still there.
4. Also, he probably hasn’t unfollowed you.
5. As much as you want to text him, call him, or drive to his house and tell him what you’re thinking, don’t. Nothing good will come out of it.
6. Stop trying to grab his attention when he’s around. He sees you. He knows you’re there. If he wants to acknowledge your presence, he will.
7. Crying doesn’t solve anything, but it’s still okay to do.
8. It’s okay to still be hung up on him, even after such a long time. You can’t turn feelings on and off.
9. Talk to other boys. You can’t wait around for him, and you can’t close yourself off to someone who could be three hundred times better for you.
10. Don’t let him dictate your life. Don’t stop doing things you want to do and going places you want to go just because he’ll be there. Don’t give him that power.
11. It’s okay that you loved him, it’s not okay to think that you’ll never love or be loved again. One day, you’ll wonder how you ever could’ve been so upset over him, because you’ll have someone so much better.