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And the call isn’t out there at all
It’s inside me

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Hellooooooo Dr. Fitz

my heart has been set free from the cage it was previously locked in and my god, let me tell you, walking away from what destroyed you, feels so good. see, it took so long. so much valiant effort. so much pain. the cage was stained red with my blood. i tried to shrink myself down, fit through the lock, squeeze my way out. i tried everything possible and it never worked. i would rattle the bars until my hands were numb, id scream and beg for help and gave up when my voice left me along with my happiness. until one day i sang the song my heart had been dying to sing for so long. the truth. and it set me free. i expressed how i felt, i screamed about my heartbreak, i felt the pain, i cried it all out. and the cage is no longer restraining, but merely a fading image of what i once was confined in. i am free to fly now. and i have flown so far away that happiness comes far easier to me now and it feel so good. letting go feels so damn good.

be praised, galaktica, far-reaching, the bottomless.
carrying worlds like a tide
through your radiant blood,
i was allowed mine.

be praised, galaktica, blooming, the shadowless.
and for what my tongue
and my mind have done
merciful be your hand.

be praised, galaktica, as i kneel before thee.
in the span of your mighty sleeves,
i have discovered a home,
and was i permitted peace.

be praised, galaktica, mistress, the merciful.
and when it is time to leave,
take me into your light
and keep the darkness from me.

Hey everyone!

I’ve sorta maybe kinda made a decision (with the help of a friend, you know who you are) that I’m not going to be on my dash (aka looking through my dash) at all during this hiatus. I feel like the comments I’ve seen passed around about this season on many topics have only either upset me or angered me to the point of almost leaving altogether. And it’s the kind of person I am in which I get upset easily by seeing these things. So in light of what happened on the show tonight, and how I anticipate things are going to unfold within the fandom, I’ve decided to stay off my dash and only mainly talk through messages over this hiatus. You’ll see things run as usual, but I’m going to limit how much time I spend on here and how much stuff I reblog from my dash. So it may seem as though things are normal (you’ll probably see gifsets from the episode here, but no opinions). But!!! If you see or make a gifset you’d want me to see, please message it to me so I don’t miss it. If you have anything you wanna say, please feel free to send me a message or an ask. I feel like I’m being rude when I say this but I can assure you I’m not. I just have this way of looking at things too much (aka my dash) and the slightest piece of criticism or anger at the show will set me off. And tbh, the episode was well done tonight and I’m very proud of Jed at how amazing he did. So please take this as a way for me to save my own sanity and emotional well being. As always, love you all and if I miss your work, sorry. Enjoy hiatus! I’m doing a rewatch ;)

“If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders.” - Bernard Byer

A little gift for @barsonaddict , who’s been searching for a pic for her desktop ;)

I am the most lovey drunk you’ll ever meet

2017 was supposed to be a better year but i’m definitely losing all my hopes.

Putting screen protectors on things is the Actual Worst Thing.

I had an argument with a friend yesterday night. It went more or less like this. I’m still confused.

Friend: does [upsetting behaviour] and jokes about it.

Me: you know it’s hard for me to cope with this behaviour? Because you’re joking about it, so I’m confused.

Friend: [goes off on a tangent about why he was joking about it, not dealing with the aforementioned upsetting behaviour at all]

Me: you know this wasn’t what I meant.

[silence]

Me: I’m going to spell it out, then. I find [upsetting behaviour] shockingly rude. Personally, it makes me feel [x] and [y], and I don’t want to deal with it if I can help it.

Friend: since I don’t know how to answer without being rude, I’m going to ask you to leave me alone, I’m better off on my own.

Me: ???

when my great-grandma was learning to drive apparently she pressed the gas pedal instead of the break and crashed into the barn and wouldn’t get back in the car for months afterward. so basically if you had a bad day take comfort in the fact that it probably wasn’t as bad as that one was for her.