keep your ideas to yourself

What the Signs Need to Hear

Aries: That single homework assignment you forgot to turn in? Those tests you just couldn’t seem to pass? You’ll wake up 10 years from now and wonder why you ever even worried in the first place

Taurus: Of course it’s ok to be cheerful, to smile, to pretend that everything’s fine. But it’s also ok to break down, to cry, to feel inadequate because that only reminds us of our humanity

Gemini: It’s ok to compromise, but only do it when you can. If you believe in something, stand by it! Somewhere along the way you’ll discover someone who’s on the same boat

Cancer: Don’t worry so much about finding yourself so quickly, one day you’ll eventually realize who you really are and come to appreciate yourself as much as I do

Leo: Insecurities, no matter how much others try to trivialize them, always affect us in a big way don’t they? But even with all of them, I wouldn’t consider you any less of a person

Virgo: Never settle for what could have been, you’re worth more than second place

Libra: Although it’s ok to listen to others, always know yourself first. What you want to become and what other people want you to become are two completely different realities

Scorpio: If you don’t succeed now, succeed later. Try again. There’s no shame in that, and I believe in you more than you’ll ever care to know

Sagittarius: Don’t feel like there’s too much to do and not enough time to do it. Catch your breath. It may not look it but it’s going to be alright

Capricorn: It’s not always about numbers and deadlines and quantifiable competence. Stripped of these things you still matter, you are valued, and you are loved

Aquarius: Let your ideas flourish, don’t keep it all to yourself. Sure, there will always be people who don’t care, but your voice matters, and anyone who says it doesn’t is dead wrong, make some noise

Pisces: Stop feeling sorry for things that were never your fault, and apologizing for problems that you never caused, the things that you’ve had to go through are not always who you are

Look at your Sun 🌞and Moon 🌑

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Mutation: it is the key to our evolution. It has enabled us to evolve from a single-celled organism into the dominant species on the planet. This process is slow, normally taking thousands and thousands of years. But every few hundred millennia, evolution leaps forward.

PSA:

Just because a married man or woman roleplays and is fine with their characters having romance DOES NOT MEAN they are having an affair or looking to cheat on their spouse.

If you are a married man or woman AND YOUR SPOUSE asks you NOT TO ERP then be respectful of your S/O and don’t.

If they don’t care then make sure your RP partner is understanding that your heart is promised to another and all interactions are IC only.

If you are friends with your RP partner and do PVE with them as well then as long as you don’t neglect your spouse there is no problem.

DO NOT ASSUME THAT BECAUSE PEOPLE RP TOGETHER THEY ARE TOGETHER.

Respect other players and keep your petty ideas and rumors to yourself because unless the people involved tell you something you are more then 99% wrong with what you THINK is going on.

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Request: Could you do a Peter Parker x African American!Reader where the reader thinks Peter doesn’t likes her because she’s black, but Peter likes the reader and he confesses?

You weren’t under any illusions that racism was dead in the USA. It was alive and well and you knew it, but you wished it would affect your love life less. You’d done your share of dating and one way or another you’re blackness proved a “problem”. Your first boyfriend didn’t usually  date black girls.

“It’s the loud talking and the drama, you know,” he’d admitted with a smile and a laugh, “but you’re not like that.” At the time you’d smiled and nodded still too unsure of yourself to rebuke his statements. However, any time you had a problem with the dynamic of your relationship you could feel him write off your feelings as “dramatic” and if you ever yelled you were just another “black girl with an attitude.”

Your second boyfriend thought you were exotic. He was trying something new and he liked “thick asses” and “luscious lips”; in his phone, his nickname for you was Chocolate Princess. He always held your hips too tightly and when you tried to be vulnerable, he’d joke it off with sensual touches. Also, when you were honestly upset he’d say he couldn’t “live without his chocolate.” and try to make it all better with degrading pet names and kisses. He knew absolutely nothing about you and neither did his friends for that matter they were just seeing what they wanted to, projected harmful stereotypes onto you.

You thought perhaps going to your own race would solve your problems and in some ways it did. You didn’t have to suffer through ignorant questions like, “So is weave like sewn into your scalp?” and there were no bland family meals to choke down, but you knew you weren’t the only girl in his life. If you asserted your feelings he’d call you a bitch and run off to his boys or to a girl who was lighter than you. You pretended not to know what was going on with those other girls until your best friend pulled you aside.

“Girl, he fucking anything that moves,” she sighed. She knew to just say it outright. She knew you were better than this.

“These boys ain’t shit out here,” she continued, “It don’t matter what color you go for, they ain’t about shit and they ain’t checking for black girls,” you could hear the pain in her voice as she said it. She had light skin with bright pretty eyes but every boy she got with only wanted to hit. They commodified her looks so she was just an object with breasts, ass, and pretty skin. Her pain was different and she knew it, but it hurt all the same.

“We’re young,” she asserted as if shaking off the bit of pain that had touched her countenance, “ and boys are stupid. Worry about your grades.”

You did just that for about a year or so, then Peter Parker came along. He was in your chemistry and english classes and the boy was cute as a button and sweet as pie. You were paired with him for a big project in Chemistry and that’s when you wondered if you even had a chance with him.

“Y/N and Peter, you’ll be together for this lab.” your teacher announced. Butterflies fluttered in your stomach as you moved to join him at the lab table.

“Hi,” you greeted politely.

He barely made eye contact with you as he stuttered out his greeting.

“Seems like Ms. Thompson knows what she’s doing. She put the two smartest kids together,” you joked a little, You knew Peter was a genius at this kind of stuff, and while you were certainly above average you weren’t at his level. However in a public school, you both would have been hot commodities to a kid who had no intentions of doing any work.

“Y-yeah,” he stuttered again. You tried to keep up conversation, but he gave you one word answers and he was oddly flushed the entire time. When class was over he was eager to escape the seat at your side. You watched him go, confusion written on your face and the ghost of pain in your heart.

“What’s his problem?” Michelle, another friend, asked. You shrugged and she hummed to herself, “Weird kid.” she resolved.

You stayed kind to Peter and he returned your kindness with more one word answers and hurried escapes. Maybe he just doesn’t like black girls, you thought to yourself. The thought was hesitant and spoken begrudgingly but it wouldn’t be too out of the way to assume. He was nice enough, you figured, nice enough to treat you as an acquaintance  and leave it at that. You resigned any ideas of keeping up your stream of polite, flirtatious conversation and promised yourself to just stick to the project.

You usually made it to chemistry before Peter. You’d set up the equipment while you waited for him to show up. This time he was there with his friend and they seemed to be whispering intensely to one another. You hung back, unsure of yourself. Did he hate you so much that he’d asked for a new partner? You wanted to cry. Peter made eye contact with you for a split second before you turned around to leave and go cry in the bathroom or something equally pathetic. You didn’t expect to hear him calling your name. Curiosity made you stop and turn around. He was his usual shade of red, a shade that seemed to be reserved for talking to you.

“I… I want to talk to you before class starts,”  he wouldn’t make eye contact with you, and he rubbed the back of his neck nervously. You readied yourself for harsh words. He was changing partners. As you internally cringed for a verbal blow he continued, “I… wanted to know if maybe if-if you’re free and only if you want to, maybe we could go see a movie. I know you were excited for that new alien movie. We could see that or… or not we could do something else,” he continued to ramble while you stood there in shock. You were wrong on so many accounts. Peter had been listening when you were talking and sure he hadn’t given you much in the way of responses but he was probably just nervous because…he liked you.

“Like a date?” you interrupted, needing the clarification.

He paused his eternal flow of word vomit to meet your gaze with his big brown eyes, “Y-yeah… or just as friends if that makes you more comfortable. I just… I like you… a lot,” he smiled bashfully, “and my friend told me it’s now or never because we’re almost done with our project because you’re so smart and pretty soon I won’t have a good reason to talk to you so it’s now or never and you probably think I’m a psychopath because I can barely look at you because you’re too pretty. Not that that’s a bad thing, my mind just gets all foggy and I can’t think straight-”

“I’d like a date,” you cut him off again, smiling at his rambled words, “As long as you say more than one word at a time to me while we’re on it.”

“You’ll go?!” his face was alight like a thousand watt bulb as a comically large smile took residence on his face.

“Yeah,” you nodded.

“Th-that’s awesome! Wow! I didn’t think I’d get this far. I don’t know what to do.”

“I’ll give you my number and you can tell me what showing we’re going to see.”

“Of course-” the bell rang cutting him off. The two of you hurried inside. When you got to your table Peter continued to talk animatedly to you, his face still flushed, his countenance a little flustered but he liked you He was just shy, so you smiled indulgently and listened to his rambling.

~Mod Lillian

Title: Mistakes (Part 1)

Summary: You and Mark didn’t break up. You took a break. There’s a huge difference.

Pairing: Mark x Reader, Yugyeom x Reader

Words: 2075

I know there’s going to be at least one more part (maybe two if I try to stretch it) but I’m having difficulty deciding on a definite ending. I keep flip flopping between two. Let me know what y’all think!

(Part 2)

Originally posted by jypnior

               “I don’t want to break up.”

               You can’t find it in yourself to look Mark in the eyes, so you stare at the ground as you say, “You’re saying that like I do.”

               “It was your suggestion.”

               “Yeah because…” You rub your hands across your face and sigh. “Just… I’ll have my stuff out by the end of the day tomorrow, okay?”

               “And if I say no?” Mark’s voice is no longer pleading. There’s an edge to it that makes your skin crawl and your legs shake. “What if I don’t let you leave me?”

               “That sounds like a threat, Mark.”

               “I would never threaten you.” The threat in his tone is gone. “I just… I don’t want you to leave me. I love you.”

               “Then act like it!” Your head snaps up and you jab your finger into Mark’s chest. “Do you realize this is the first time you’ve told me you loved me in three months? And it’s been twice that long since we’ve had sex!”

               “That’s not-”

               “Don’t you dare say “that’s not true”! You sticking your dick inside me and using my body to get off is not sex! And if it is I don’t want it anymore.”

               “Baby, I’m sorry.” He hangs is head in shame and you briefly wonder if you’re words actually made it through that thick skull of his. If the tears rolling down his cheeks are any indication you’d say he gets the picture now. “We’ve been together so long that I guess I just take you for granted.”

               “Mark, don’t… don’t cry, okay? I get it. I sometimes take you for granted too, but we can’t keep doing that. We can’t keep going on like this.” You sit beside him, pressing your ear to his back. His breathing is shallow with the effort it’s taking him to quit crying. You feel your own tears start to fall as you realize it was your words that broke him like this.

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Rules of recognition

Sebastian Stan x reader

Notes: tiny bit angsty, fluff, smut, alcohol, swearing.

Summary: an exceptional rough day brings you to the hotel bar you frequent when you really need a drink. A handsome stranger helps you lift your spirits; though you find out he’s not that much a stranger to you at all. 

Originally posted by taylorannshazamm

There will be a part two! (again!) I can’t help myself. I’m too wordy for my own good. 

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Mercury in the houses
  • Mercury in 1st house: You might get bored easily. You love to talk and may be more of a talker than a listener. You use logic over emotions. You have a tremendous amount of curiosity. You tend to think a lot. You may not be able to focus on one thing for a long time so you could jump from idea to idea.
  • Mercury in 2nd house: You take time making decisions and your decisions will be logical. You take time when making decision, also. Your focus is usually on one new idea and have a hard time focusing on more than one. You can be stubborn once you make your mind up about something. You probably think a lot about money, finances, or your own self-worth. You may be good with finances, as well.
  • Mercury in 3rd house: You are very mentally active and love to communicate and talk to people. You love to learn and like to share your information with people, as well. You are interested in all kinds of subjects. You may have a short attention span. You could be a good teacher. This could make you a nervous type of person. Mercury is at home here.
  • Mercury in the 4th house: You may have a very good memory if Mercury is placed here. You really enjoy talking and socializing with your family. You could be very interested in history, especially your family history and may be into ancestry. You may not be that open to new ideas or ways of doing things.
  • Mercury in the 5th house: You probably have a great sense of humor and enjoy laughing. You can be a good writer and you will have a vivid and colorful vocabulary. This could make you a good actor or even make you good at lying when you need to. You could be attracted to more than one person as Mercury is a dual sign and the 5th house is the house of romantic affairs.
  • Mercury in the 6th house: You pay attention to details very well but sometimes you can't see the whole picture. You are good at organizing and order with your thoughts and ideas. You could be prone to anxiety or nervousness. You might think of your health a lot, or too much, which can lead to hypochondria. You probably can write well. Thoughts may be nonstop for you.
  • Mercury in the 7th house: You probably think about relationships quite a bit. You might need a lot of advice or help when making a decision or thinking of new ideas. You can see two sides to every story very easily. You will be interested in a lover who is intellectual and since Mercury is here you may have two marriages.
  • Mercury in the 8th house: You probably think about sex, death, life, rebirth, the dark side of life, or occult things quite often. You can speak rather intensely and passionate which can be too much for others to handle at times. You aren't one for small talk. You could be very secretive with your knowledge. You are good at research.
  • Mercury in the 9th house: You love to learn. You love to expand your mind and talk to be from other cultures and background. You can see the whole picture but may have difficulties with details. You love to share your knowledge and could be a good teacher. You might come off as a little too blunt and harsh at times. You are more of a positive thinking person.
  • Mercury in the 10th house: You may be a bit authoritative or bossy with your speech. You could work in areas that require lots of communication since Mercury is sitting here. You need variety in your job and may change jobs quite a bit since Mercury is here. People usually listen quite well to you since you have such an authoritative way of speaking. You probably think about your work a lot or worry about your position in society.
  • Mercury in 11th house: You probably have a lot of unique and original ideas, though they can be on the strange side at times. You aren't a conventional thinker and you definitely think outside of the box. You have an open mind. You enjoy friends that are intellectual like you though friendships may not be that deep for you, unless another planet is sitting here. You have many ideas and dreams that change a lot.
  • Mercury in the 12th house: You may keep a lot of your ideas and thoughts to yourself. Mercury is hidden away in the 12th house and shrouded in Neptune fog. You may be shy and quiet. You probably have a hard time communicating directly or be assertive. People may drain you mentally and you will need time alone to recharge. You learn best with emotion instead of logic. You probably have a vivid imagination.
Jupiter in Scorpio 2017-2018 Part II

I made this post mostly as a gift for you guys, there’s loads of love here so freaking appreciate it ok! lol I honestly hope it’ll help you understand how it’ll go from now on with this transit.

Note: I made this post specially for my followers since they’ve been walking down the Traditional Astrology road™ with me for some time - but if you’ve not been around here before I recommend you read my resources page to understand this post better. Above all, understanding Whole Signs and rulers is a must here or else you won’t understand shit.

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ALTL Part 41

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Title: ALTL Part 41

Characters: Gabriel x Reader, Dean, Sam, Lucifer, Castiel, Denise (Minor OC)

Word Count: 1,074

Warnings: Fluff, tiny bit of angst

A/N: We still have much more to go through in this story! I hope you are all enjoying it!! Feedback is welcomed and appreciated! I love you all so much!! <3 <3

The masterlist to this series can be found HERE!

The next morning you woke up, turning onto your side.  You could feel Gabriel’s feathers brush against your soft skin.  Your eyes fluttered open, a warm smile slowly spreading across your lips.  Your fingertips ran along his jawline as you pressed your lips against his.  The kiss was slow, but full of passion and love.  It was like Gabriel had waited for this moment for eons.

You leaned back, noticing how Gabriel’s eyes stayed closed for another few seconds.  You could see the pure joy in Gabriel’s expression.  It was certainly a look you would never forget.

“Good morning [Y/N],” Gabriel spoke in a low voice.  His wings cradled your body, acting as a blanket.  It surprised you at how warm he had kept you.

“Remind me to clean your wings,” you giggled.  You pulled a lollipop from in between a few feathers, ignoring Gabriel’s protest.  You showed the archangel the half eaten piece of candy.  “How many times have I told you -out of all the years I’ve known you- that your wings aren’t a candy dish.”

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Weekly Horoscope

Aries - Mercury moves into a zone known for routine and organization on Tuesday. You’ll feel as if your to do list and tasks will get done with ease. This would also be a good time to restart a diet or commit to healthy living due to a rare conjunction of the Sun and your ruler determined Mars.

Cards of the Week

  • Four of Cups - You may be feeling anxious about an offer or opportunity it would be better to err on the side of caution.
  • Wheel of Fortune - When next to the four of cups this could mean a new direction or new interests are coming about.

Taurus - When Mars unites with the Sun on Wednesday, it could leave you feeling more emotional and hotheaded than usual. Try not to then dwell on the past but rather the start of a new chapter. The moon will be in your zone relationships this weekend, try to make the most of it.

Cards of the week

  • Two of Swords - This card may be indicating that reunions and/or reconciliation will take place in your life at this time.
  • The Lovers (reversed) - When reversed, the lovers are saying that temptations loom and can be very strong. When reuniting be sure think about consequences of hasty decisions.

Gemini - This week is powerful in love for you. Venus has been transiting your sign and opposes serious Saturn in your zone of partnerships. A new person could enter your life or relationship issues could come to light. Either way, this is the ideal time to face these situations. The conjunction of the Sun and Mars on Wednesday is a great time for meeting new people.

Cards of the week

  • Ten of Pentacles - This Card tells of prosperous business transactions, sound financial choices and the attainment of material gains.
  • Ace of Pentacles - It also tells of financial stability or the start of a prosperous career. These are good cards to be placed together; both promote stability.

Cancer - Work matters you’ve been struggling with will become clear at the beginning of the week. Verbal Mercury moves into your zone of groups on Tuesday helps you create lasting connections along with the help of the conjunction of the Sun and confident Mars. Go after what you want.

Cards of the week

  • The Moon - When the moon shows up, it will be necessary for you to face up to the situation and accept it for what it is in order to make any changes.
  • Death (reversed) - With the moon, this may indicate a lack of motivation at this time, nothing will change if you don’t put in the effort

Leo - Life has gotten very busy recently, so with the opposition of creative Venus and realistic Saturn, you’ll ready to narrow your focus and figure out what’s truly worth doing. Financial choices will also become easier this week as Mercury slides into your zone of money on Tuesday.

Cards of the week

  • Three of Wands (reversed) - When reversed three of wands can mean that a new direction is needed, as talents, skills, and efforts are being wasted.
  • Eight of Wands - When eight of wands is added to this; it could indicate that the changes made are positive.

Virgo - A career, home, or family related matter could take over the events of the week. Luckily your ruler verbal Mercury moves into your sign Tuesday which makes everyone more receptive to what you say, and issues can be worked through. Trust your intuition

Cards of the week

  • Ten of Wands - This card shows a person who is burdened with worries and stress; stop what you are doing and reprioritize.
  • Page of Pentacles - With the ten of wands this may be telling of a meeting with someone who is empathetic to your point of view, who understands your burdens

Libra - Your ruler alluring Venus makes a rare opposition to realistic Saturn on Monday bringing to light people and situations you have you have been having problems with. No need for drama this is the time for you move on.

Cards of the week

  • Nine of Pentacles - An unexpected increase in income could come your way, (a win, inheritance, etc.)
  • Ace of Cups - This connects because the ace of cups tells that an offer or gift may be forthcoming in the near future.

Scorpio - The work excitement that started last week build even more momentum now. Tuesday marks success in group work and projects when Mercury moves into your zone of groups, and Wednesday marks success overall when the conjunction of the Sun and Mars fall in your zone of fame and success.

Cards of the week

  • The Empress - The Empress brings with her the attributes of growth, fertility, and prosperity all round.
  • Four of Wands - This is also a positive indication; relationships are going well and/or that any problems will soon pass.

Sagittarius - The rare opposition of Venus in your zone of partnerships to realistic Saturn in your sign shows an indication of whether a certain person or relationship is built to last. You can’t force something to work if it doesn’t.

Cards of the week

  • The High Priestess - It would be wise to keep your ideas, plans, and intentions to yourself;  rather than taking on the advice and opinions of others.
  • Six of Pentacles - This is a symbol that faith in one’s personal capabilities is regained and renewed.

Capricorn - A rare conjunction between the Sun and Mars on Wednesday helps you deal with some emotionally draining situations. Old friends and family are sources of comfort and fun this weekend.

Cards of the week

  • Page of Swords - This card may be indicating that some news or information may arrive that you view as disappointing.
  • Two of Swords - When with other sword cards, two of swords can mean to remain open and receptive to loved ones, as they have the best intentions at heart.

Aquarius - You are a creative, but also a group oriented person and you may need to compromise some of your personality on Monday. Keep your master plan under wraps after Tuesday when verbal Mercury moves into one of the most private parts of your chart.

Cards of the week

  • The Hierophant - If you are questioning your career options; it may indicate that working for a large organization would best suit you right now.
  • The Empress - She radiates renewal and may be implying material gains.

Pisces - This is another big career week for you. Business relationships or creative projects you have been nurturing might become a reality this week. When the Sun unites with Mars on Wednesday, it will kick you into high gear with organization and efficiency.

Cards of the week

  • Page of Wands (reversed) - This card reversed is a message to be wary of taking short cuts of any kind as it will not be worth your while
  • Knight of Pentacles (reversed) - He tells of someone who needs a lot of encouragement as they tend to be timid and makes many mistakes. Keep an eye out for them

Dear Anonymous,

Eh, I dunno…  He doesn’t look bad, I guess, but you’d think he could at least put on something less work-related while he’s on vacation.  Nothing against his suit, but it’s like he’s been wearing one since I first saw him.  Come to think of it…does he ever wear anything else?

………………..

A-Anyway, keep your dumb ideas about us to yourself!  No, I was not thinking about him in something else!

-Maya Fey

m33tingtheworld  asked:

It must get hard at times to not share your political views (which I highly respect btw), but how do you keep your cool/views and ideas to yourself despite the media so well? Personally, I typically talk with my friends who have similar beliefs or write/type these speech things out...

I do debate, write essays, talk with friends and family who share my beliefs and spar in a friendly way with those who don’t. As long as it’s health, debate is very positive because it exercises the mind and can expose you to new perspectives!

WARNING: LONG RANT AHEAD I’M SORRY.

  • “How could you make the Redfox kid a boy?”

Why COULDN’T I? Why could I not choose to make a male fanchild of the Redfoxes to be a son full with a broken past and personality but is on his way to redeeming himself? How could I now create a flawed Ga-jevy son who is going to also love piercings as well as art and learns from Gajeel’s rebellious criminal days to walk in the path of the light again?
What is so wrong about Gale being a BOY? Because boys can’t do what girls do?

  • “I mean, if Gale was a girl … how could you make her a boy?”

Gale is NOT the MALE version of your Ga-jevy daughter fanchild. He was made a boy and I see ZERO problems with that.

  • “that’s just wrong to me.”

Need I seek your approval for my own characters?

  • “the redfoxes deserve a girl!!”

Yes, they do. I was secretly planning on adding a little daughter to the Redfox family as a surprise but this RUINED my excitement.
You might think that I may be overreacting here but I’ve been dealing with a lot of shit with my new gens people like you send me. They are not your characters. They were made and groomed by myself and many wonderful friends who dropped in their little headcanons of the newgen children which I incorporate as a tribute to my creative followers.


If you had phrased your mail in a different way, let’s say, “HEY LOOK AT ALL MY CUTE GAJEVY DAUGHTER HEADCANONS” would it not have been so much better? Please re-read this very mail that you sent me and reflect on yourself.

My newgen ships have been criticized, especially Nash x Reiki just because they’re gay. I’ve seen my newgen arts posted EVERYWHERE and some reposters actually had the audacity to RENAME my characters and roleplay them out of character with NO MENTION OF CREDIT at all. They stole my ideas and garner lots of followers with that theft.

I’ve seriously been trying to be nice and tolerant about this issue but this is the last straw.

DO NOT dictate what an artist should and should not do to her own FCs. If you tried investing so much into your own characters to share with people and end up with shit like this, you’d understand how I feel. Everyone has their own opinions and preferences when it comes to fanchildren of their ships. You can share your ideas, keep them to yourself or create this fanchildren. But you can’t go around beating down other artists’/writers’ ideas of their own fanchildren.

Show some respect. And now, may we have a little word from Gale:

Dear Anonymous,

I’m afraid I have neither a personal assistant, nor any need for one at the moment.  I do appreciate the offer, but I’m afraid you’ll have to search for a position elsewhere.

Though I would suggest you keep your ideas about workplace romance to yourself in whatever career you choose to pursue next.

-Miles Edgeworth

Dom Ni is a really awkward thing bc you tend to get aha! moments on a regular basis you’d like to discuss with someone else? But then in playing out the conversation in your head, you realize it’s just better you keep your idea to yourself bc what is providing proof to back up your aha! moment claim? :’)

My kid made some puppets out of envelopes and put lipstick on the opening to make them look like lips.

4yo: These are a girl and her two brothers going on an adventure to save their envelope friends.

Grampa (my father in law): Really? Are you sure they aren’t girls? I’ve never seen a boy wear lipstick.

4yo: Well they’re going to help their friends…

Grampa: Are you sure they’re not sisters?

4yo: …ok…well they’re on an adventure.

Basically any time he bought up the lipstick/gender of fictional sentient envelope brothers, she just got exasperated that this was all he got out of her story. Also, I was trying SO hard not to shout at him, “Keep your hetero-normative ideas to yourself!” My bff/her “uncle” does drag and she knows he wears make up. I don’t want her to think he’s wrong or bad now when he’s one of her fave Uncles!

You as a Melanie Martinez Song

Aries: Mad Hatter

I’m nuts, baby, I’m mad,
The craziest friend that you’ve ever had

(You are different from the rest, you like to think wild… think big)

Taurus: Soap

Uh-oh, there it goes, I said too much, it overflowed
Why do I always spill?

(You find it hard to keep things to yourself especially your OWN secrets)

Gemini: Sippy Cup

All the makeup in the world, won’t make you
less insecure

(You feel lonely and insecure even if you have many friends.. you feel worthless no matter how hard they try to cheer you up)

Cancer: Cake

I’m not a piece of cake,
for you to just discard while you walk away

(Nobody expects you to stand up and fight for what’s right. So surprise them..)

Leo: Mrs. Potato Head

Don’t be dramatic it’s only some plastic
No one will love you if you’re unattractive

(You try to impress those around to and try to hide your imperfections as hard as you can. Others wouldn’t care about your flaws if only YOU cared LESS)

Virgo: Dollhouse

Everyone thinks that we’re perfect
Please don’t let them look through the curtains

(You have a side that you hide behind your smile. Some people would be fine with seeing it)

Libra: Carousel

And it’s all fun and games,
‘Til somebody falls in love,

(When you fall in love.. you fall hard and find it incredibly difficult to get back up again)

 Scorpio: Milk and Cookies

Do you like my cookies? They’re made just for you
A little bit of sugar, but lots of poison, too

(People try to lie and hide things from you but you KNOW what’s up)

Sagittarius: Play Date

You know I give a fuck about you everyday
Guess it’s time that I tell you the truth
If I share my toys, will you let me stay?
Don’t want to leave this play date with you

(No matter how harsh or distant you seem to those around you.. you secretly love and appreciate all of them.)

Capricorn: Alphabet Boy

You won the spelling bee now,
But are you smarter than me now?
You’re the prince of the playground,
Little alphabet boy

(You get mad when people underestimate your power and intelligence)

Aquarius: Tag, You’re It

Can anybody hear me? I’m hidden under ground
Can anybody hear me? Am I talking to myself?

(You constantly have to carry your thoughts, ideas and worries. Share them.. don’t keep them all to yourself.)

Pisces: Crybaby

Your heart’s to big for your body,
That’s why your feelings hide

(You expect this beautiful world to be filled with equally as beautiful people. Then the harsh reality hits you.)

You're Not Alone

Summary: Barry’s too late and your parents pay the price for it but Barry is determined to fix what he can.

Warnings: Death

“You—You should go.” You said to Barry while you rummaged through your drawers for something clean, and preferably less bloodstained, to wear. Your world felt like it had shattered so quickly that you didn’t even know the proper way to react anymore. Everything seemed so grey and bleak.

Barry leaned against the door frame, unwilling to let you out of his sight for any longer than necessary while also trying to give you the space that you needed.

“Didn’t you hear me? Go! Get out of here, Barry!” You snapped, not even caring about how rude you sounded. All you wanted was a warm, comforting hug from your mother—a hug that let you know that everything would work itself out eventually—but that would never come now.

Barry shook his head. He knew this wasn’t the best time for him to speak up yet but he had to show that he was listening and still here for you. Talking back now would only dig him into a deeper hole, one which he couldn’t afford. He had to wait for the perfect time to interrupt and plead his case.

You tugged your dirty clothes off, not even bothering to shield yourself from Barry’s wandering eyes as you changed into your pajamas before turning back to face him. “You’re a hero, Bare. The Fastest Man Alive. But when I needed you tonight, you weren’t there.”

That felt like a stab in the gut. You had always been his top priority and when you needed him, he was with Iris. Granted, it was only him helping her with information for a newspaper piece she was doing on the recent spike in crime in National City, he would’ve left in a heartbeat if he had know that you needed him. But he found out too late. And he could never undo that but he could always try to ease the pain.

“I’m not leaving you.” He said gruffly, standing stiffly in order to hold his ground—he couldn’t cave in this time, not when so much was on the line.

“Like hell if you aren’t. All I want is to be alone." Alone. That word seem to echo through your mind. You were alone now. And you definitely didn’t want to be alone. Being or living away from your parents is one thing, but knowing that they aren’t even around anymore is something completely different and some you never thought your experience until you were much older.

He repeated, shaking his head. "I’m not leaving you alone. Not when you need someone now more than ever.” After he watched his very own mother die, all he wanted was a warm hug from his dad that conveyed that he’d still be there for Barry but he wasn’t even allowed that as Henry was dragged off to the police station for her murder. Barry knew what this felt like (though he assumed that it must have felt twice as worse for you since although Henry was gone, he was still alive and that was more than you could say about your father).

“My parents are dead, Barry! I called you over and over again and you ignored me. That meta, he—he tied me and my father up and made us watch as he killed my mom before he moved onto murdering my dad.I couldn’t do anything but as soon as I realized I could reach my phone without being noticed, you were the one I called." And it felt like the man I loved didn’t even love me enough to come rescue me when I needed him the most, you thought, biting your tongue to keep the hostile idea to yourself. You couldn’t help it. You were angry at the world for taking your parents away while also being heartbroken that you’d never get to see them again.

"I know and—”

“At any moment,” You interrupted him to continue your rant. “I had expected you to burst through the door and save the day like always.” Tears were now escaping your eyes but you did nothing to wipe them away and continued your rant. “You somehow always manage to be late but you usually get there just before someone is fatally wounded or even dead. But it was too late this time and now I just don’t know what to do anymore.”

Your parents were always your rocks. They had taught you everything and had guided and supported you for your entire life (now that was what parents were supposed to do but you had always been particularly close to each of them). And now they were gone and you’d never be able to see them again or tell them about your day or express how much you actually loved them. It left a hole in your heart–a hole that could never be filled by anything or anyone else.

Your mother specifically had loved Barry and was thrilled to finally meet him after how much she had heard from you about him—especially since he had been the first boy since high school that you had told her about.

“He’s just super sweet and funny in a sort of dumb way.” You said to her over the phone. It was nearly eight at night and you had just gotten home from yet another date with Barry (making this your 5th one so far, not that anyone’s counting), and you were just full of so much pent up energy that you had to call someone and released it. Your mother was the first person that came to your mind. (Sure, your friend Alyssa would listen to you but she wouldn’t actually understand just how much all of this meant to you).

“And, he’s not really funny in a conventional funny way but his passion for the science jokes he tells really make the jokes that much more funny.” You smiled recalling the chemistry joke he had told you (“What‘s the show cesium and iodine love watching together?” “I don’t know, what?” “CSI!”).

She continued to listen to you tell her about this man who had so quickly seemed to capture your attention and she beamed in merriment. Your mom had always wanted you to find a love like she had with your father and, right now, you sounded just as she had when she started dating your father: excited and enthusiastic.

Finally, her little baby was with someone who seemed trustworthy and would truly be there for her.

She had loved seeing you with Barry almost as much as you had actually loved being with Barry. And now it just felt wrong to be around him; like now that she was gone the relationship you had with Barry just seemed tarnished.

“You gave me this stupid ring,” You made what could be considered a rash decision to some but your emotions were at an all time high and this seemed like a good choice at the moment. “To promise me that you’d always love and protect me and even marry me one day. But when I needed you most you were no where to be found and I just don’t know if I can get past this.” You said as you roughly ripped the sparkly gold ring off your ring finger and threw it in his general direction, hearing a small clink on the floor to signify it had fallen.

You weren’t sure whether you were looking for a fight or a comforting hug but the malicious voice in the back of your head hissed that your father would’ve known how to calm you instantly and help fox the situation.

“I like him, sugar.” Your father had said to you after you had shown hithe sparkly engagement ring Barry had splurged on for you. “I’m glad that he’s the man you picked for marriage… Though I can’t believe my little girl is gonna get married.” He leaned forward and hugged you in congratulations though he soon became reluctant to let go of you.

“Well, I mean I am a twenty three year old with a masters degree in law and two antisocial cats. I think it’s about time I actually focus on a life outside of college and work. Preferably a life with someone other than my cats.” Between work, college as well as spending free time in your apartment with the cats, you had beguto lack a social life. But Barry seemed to make you want to be more social and outgoing and you were suddenly willing to spend an night or two away from your cats Pickles and Eugene for a night at the West household with him.

“I think that he’s the first boy of yours that I actually like.” He joked but you knew that there was some truth behind his words. He had always from something wrong with the other few boys you hard brought home (“He looked at you like a piece of meat.” “Doesn’t he seem a bit too old for you?” “He’s got too many tattoos.” “What if he’s in a secret gang?”).

Barry was the only one of your boyfriends that your father would actually insist you bring him with you to visit. And while Barry had always been awkward, he’s still a joy to have around. “He better keep it up though, because I can refuse to walk you down the isle if I change my mind about this whole 'my little girl getting married’ thing.”

And now, whether or not he wanted to walk you down the isle was out of the question–not that you were even sure a wedding would happen at this point. Everything seemed to be falling apart at it’s seams now and there was no way to sew it back together into its previous state. Maybe things could be patched up, but it could never be as good as new.

“Please remember that I know what you’re going through, y/n.” Barry spoke up, finally stepping forward from his spot against the door. It was now or never for the both of you. “I lost my mom and while I still had my dad, it was like I still didn’t because he was in prison and I could rarely ever see him.”

He paused for a moment to assess if you were open to his attempts at comforting you or if you actually wanted him to leave. When he saw that you were willing to listen, he continued.

“And after she was gone–” it still hurt too much to say that she was dead so he was careful to skirt around the wording. “–All I wanted was for someone to comfort me and tell me that she was in a better place but instead my father was being charged with her murder and I was being questioned at the police station for any details.”

“You had Joe and Iris. I’m alone, Bare.” You protested, feeling the tears you had been holding in finally brimming to the surface once again.

“You’re not alone, y/n.” He reiterated as he made the decision to tug you forward so he could hug you, which you willingly accepted at that point. “You have me.” He muttered into your ear. “You have Cisco, Caitlin, Joe and Iris. We are all here for you and we always will be. Please don’t forget that.”

His heart broke at your anguish. Someone as innocent and flawless as you should never have to feel this way and Barry felt like he was at fault for this because he wasn’t fast enough. But he didn’t have time to dwell in his own regret, no, now he had to focus on gluing you back together again.

When you finally accepted his presence, you snuggled into his embrace. He was so warm and it seemed to thaw you out in a way–making you momentarily numb to the pain you felt.

With you face buried in his neck, he gently rubbed your back as you cried.

“We can get through this.” He whispered quietly.

While his words were meant to comfort you, they seemed to have the opposite affect as they only made the tears quicken. “A part of me doesn’t wanna get through this.” You cried into him. “That means that I’m basically forgetting them and everything they’ve done for me. And I don’t ever want that.”

“You can move on without forgetting them.” Barry dismissed, gently leaning back so that he was able to look at your face. And despite how blotchy and red you were, he still knew that you were the most beautiful girl he’s set eyes on–crying or not. “I live everyday with the knowledge that my mother is gone. But I distract myself day to day from the pain of it with things and people that I love.”

You thought about his words. He had witnessed his mother die at such a young age but he didn’t let that change who he really was. Sure, after that incident he lived his life the way that he knew would make her proud but he was still Barry. Your Barry. No event could ever change him to a point where he’s wasn’t the Barry you knew and loved.

Sensing your hesitation, he leaned forward and pressed his forehead to yours, his eyes searching yours for any sign of unease due to this gesture. Sensing none, he continued with his speech.

“That meta-human is gone and you will never have to see him again. I can promise you that. I know how tough it is to get through something like this but you need to know that I will always be here for you, y/n. I don’t care if you never want to see me again after today but if by chance you happen to call me up two years from now at two a.m. looking for company, I will be there without a doubt.” He reached up to wipe the tears off your stained cheeks, his eyes never leaving yours as he continued. “I will be there for whatever you need, whenever you need it.”