keep touching it

disposable-teen13  asked:

20. “You’re too damn cute.” +Robron <3 :)

20. You’re too damn cute

Robert can’t remember the bloke’s name. He wishes he’d been paying attention when Aaron had brought it up because it’s even more annoying watching some fella with no bloody name touching up his husband.

Whoever he is has got his hand on Aaron’s forearm now, where it’s resting on the bar, tapping at it like he’s just gesturing but Robert saw the way he was leaning in earlier. It’s been half an hour of non stop touching and laughing and fluttering his bloody eyelashes. Robert’d have gone over there if Aaron wasn’t so oblivious to it all.

Doesn’t mean Robert can’t stare holes in the guy across the bar though. No harm in that.

“Look at you,” Vic says in an undertone. “You’re so cute.”

Robert glances over the bar at her. “You what?”

She nods and Aaron and whatshisface. “All jealous. It’s adorable.”

Robert gives her a dark look. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he taps his empty glass on the bar. “But I’ll have another pint if you’ve got nothing better to do.

Vic gives him a sympathetic smile. “I don’t think you’ve got anything to worry about. I’m sure he’s not Aaron’s type.”

That makes Chas laugh on her way past, leaning in to his and Vic’s conversation. “Yeah, tall, blond, full of himself. That doesn’t sound like anything our Aaron’d be interested in.”

Robert feels his face do something complicated, he doesn’t know what but it makes her laugh even harder. This is the worst.

Robert spends the rest of his even studiously ignoring everything and everyone. He’s not jealous. He just doesn’t see why the bloke has to keep touching.

:::

They walk home together after closing time, Aaron’s new best mate long gone. It’s cold out, breath fogging the air, and Robert shoves his hands in his pockets so he doesn’t do something embarrassing like try and hold Aaron’s hand.

Aaron bumps their elbows together. “So what was all that about tonight?”

Robert looks down, they’re passing through a pool of orange under a streetlight and he doesn’t want Aaron to get a good look at his lying face when he says, “What was what about?”

He can hear the eyebrow Aaron just quirked. “Really? So you didn’t spend all night glaring at Josh? My mistake.”

That is so. “Shut up,” Robert says. “He kept pawing at you.”

Aaron laughs, the full belly one with teeth and everything, like Robert’s hilarious. “He’s straight,” he says.

And Robert can’t pass that one up. “So was I.”

Aaron laughs again. It’s an old joke but not one Robert usually get to make.

They’re almost at the door now. Liv’s left a light on in the hall.

Aaron turns to him as he gets out his key. “You’re not actually jealous are you? You do know that I’m married to you?” his smile’s teasing but his eyes are serious.

Robert huffs a little, he feels silly.

He tugs Aaron in, drapes his arms over Aaron’s shoulders so he can warm his cold hands in Aaron’s hood. “I just don’t like watching other blokes touch you, alright?” It lays him a bit too bare sometimes, being honest, but this is Aaron.

Aaron who tips their foreheads together and sighs against Robert’s mouth. “Well it’s a good job you’re the only bloke who’s going to be touching me tonight then isn’t?” Aaron says.

He’s flirting, Robert thinks, giddy. Has to grin. “Is that so?”

It’s ridiculous, standing on their own doorstep, not quite kissing, arms around each other. Robert hopes Liv’s not got her window open, they’ll never live it down.

Aaron pulls away to fist a hand in Robert’s jacket. “Take me upstairs and find out.”

And really. That’s not the sort of offer Robert’s about to turn down.

*sighs sadly*

leaving now for a party I really don’t want to attend; the music will be too loud & I’m not really going to fit in–but I can’t beg off because it’s a housewarming kinda thing for one of my best friends

all I really wanna do right now is get some sinful food…and then write

I Am Inconsistent At Keeping In Touch

An important thing to know about me - which I think I haven’t said publicly before - is that I am bad at keeping in consistent contact with people. Most of my long-term friends, and all of my family members, are aware that this is a problem of mine. I think it’s mostly related to ADHD + anxiety, and its severity varies a lot over time.

Specific things to note are:

  • I sometimes fail to respond to something in a conversation due to distraction. In that case, messaging me with something else a little later often helps.
  • I sometimes put off replying to a conversation for a long time, because it looks like there’s a lot I’ll need to read, and that makes me anxious.
  • How much this affects me seems to be uncorrelated with how much I like someone and is not a signal of dislike.
  • It is extremely hard for me to control and fighting it is exhausting and bad for my anxiety in a way that makes the problem worse over time.
  • I sometimes have periods when I can’t speak to anyone online, or can’t even write anything on Tumblr. This doesn’t mean I’m dead, but usually does mean I’m stressed out.
  • I can be stressed out even if there’s nothing immediately dangerous in my life, so you shouldn’t panic on my behalf. I usually recover in 1-4 weeks.

How difficult it is to speak to people can be affected by a number of things. The main one is medium. Ranked from easiest to hardest, the methods by which I can talk to people are:

Face-to-faceVia TumblrOn FacebookSMS (ie: texting)EmailGoogle HangoutsPhone (voice)

If I’m unreachable by one method, trying the next thing up the list might help.

At all possible levels of communication-avoidance, I still require some amount of interpersonal interaction to survive, because I’m an obligate-extrovert. Thus, as things lower on the list become inaccessible, I may use things higher on the list more. This is why I sometimes start meeting people in person a lot while I’m silent online. This doesn’t mean I have anything against the online people, so much as I can’t interact online and need something instead.

In the past, I have sometimes felt guilty (or been guilt-tripped) about neglecting online relationships for in-person ones at times when I can’t into online communication. This has caused me to let the perfect become the enemy of the good and give up all communication, which invariably leads to depression. Since this helps no one, I’m instead committing to doing self-care, even if I feel like an asshole about it.

If I’m avoidant due to stress, some things that might make me less avoidant are:

Saying I don’t need to read the whole backlog before responding.Committing to limiting the length of the conversation in advance (eg: only 15 minutes).Leading with an easy-to-think-about topic (eg: linguistics)Offering to meet me in person to talk

If you need to reach me urgently and otherwise can’t, messaging my wife @endecision​ and asking her to poke me may help.


As many of you have personal experience with me being like this, if anyone has anything extra to add, I’d appreciate it and would edit this post to include it. The point of this post is to provide common knowledge that this is true of me, so that people can make better decisions on how and whether to interact with me.

And, if reading this has made you hesitant to start talking to me because I might occasionally drop off, that’s fine! I understand that this is a major personal flaw and a perfectly good reason to avoid me. I am working on it, but I have quite a ways to go, and I won’t ask that anyone go through it with me. On the other hand, if you still want to interact with me, the details on doing so are right here.

anonymous asked:

Did you see the post going around of Karlie that shows she calculates and pre-writes her instagram captions, what order to do them and what type of picture to post next? What kind of mess. That white board has everything that she pre-thinks on her social media and other stuff. I would say I'm surprised but scooter really has made her into a robot

i didnt… but it doesnt surprise me, businesses do that for their social media all the time and i think this is a good example of how celebrities use their social media primarily as a business (brand) marketing tool … not a way to keep in touch w friends like you or i would do. Some more refined than others. that doesnt mean they dont share personal things, because that could be part of their brand image.  And it doesnt mean they are disingenuous, it just means that the work/personal things that they share are part of how they choose to present themselves on it.

aqua-pikachu  asked:

To be honest, I think Facebook isn't the greatest place in the internet world. It seems like a melting pot hole for rude and disrespectful people.

(tru tho)

others are telling me to disallow fb reposting altogether (since most pages ‘forget’ to credit anyway) but ehh we’ll see

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ahhhh do you ever get into those weird introvert/anxious mood states where you just want to be distant and not really engage in conversation with anyone other than a few select people and just disappear for a while??? 

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain should crumble to the sea
I won’t cry, I won’t cry
No, I won’t shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me


This wasn’t supposed to be a red and blue thing but like… that’s just how the sky is man.
can’t believe the night and day themselves confirmed klance ://

Please don’t go
I’ll eat you whole 
I love you so.
- Alt-J - Breezeblocks


Literal murder husbands! Probably got married during a killing spree while on the run, likely under the pretense of acting the part in some elaborate scheme to mess with the FBI. Details very much inspired by this gorgeous piece of artwork that gave me the idea for the moon and the Hokusai waves.