keep being perfect for many years

stop, my sweet. I whisper to myself. stop. please. I plead at times. I’m growing, and yet I’m in the same place. Like a houseplant in perfect sun. 

I don't love you. I don’t want to. I won’t settle.

I’d rather sleep with all the windows open in 19 degree weather than keep them all closed and suffocate in the lukewarm stagnant air. 

10 years ago, I struggled to understand my place in a catholic high school with too many people who didn’t care about me because they were too busy caring about themselves. 5 years ago, I was fresh out of college with a beautiful sort of depth, that found me in New York on roof tops being admired and admiring, and in the back of cabs that felt like the first roller coaster I ever rode. 

I’ve never truly understood the concept of a partner, but my seemingly never ending craving for one has educated me in a way that seems fitting. 

Hold on. my sweet. We may be too young. I’ve whispered to myself. I’ve loved across distance. The distance disappears when the person on the other end leaves. 

Push, please. 

What if. It’s the most damaging start to an end I’ve ever known. I put too much stock in the initial touch of my hands to someone who I find a feeling towards. 

I have to survive. And I’m nearly sure I have to shed a part of me that houses more fear than strength. I’m sure. 

anonymous asked:

Hey Finch, do you have any tips on drawing??? You are a great inspiration to me AND you always make me want to draw! But my drawings suck...

First tip is to never say your drawings suck, because you’ll convince yourself of that whether it’s true or not! Wherever your work is, have faith in it. It may not be how you want but it’ll get there one day

Try to draw every day, even if it’s just for 5 minutes. Taking the time to draw frequently will train your hand into becoming more loose and quick with your lines n stuff

Draw from observation a lot. And like A LOT. Drawing from reference not only trains you eyes to see things better and to reall look, but references teach you correct proportion/lighting/anatomy/colour/expression/body language and everything else. Learning from the real world is the best way to go, and then once you’ve leadned from it you can stylize and exaggerage it from there. It’s recommended to break things you see down into shapes to make them easier to replicate, and draw from the inside out rather from the outside in, if that makes sense (like people will usually immediately try to draw the direct outline of what they’re looking at without any planning, which leads to things being out of proportion and the linework looking very wobbly and hesitant)

Try to practice drawing faster, looser and lighter. It’s common in beginners to draw a line reeaal slow and hard bc they’re trying to get it perfect on the spot. Drawing things quickly and loosely will benefit in trying to get the most minimal of shapes down first which you can build on with details afterwards. Details are unnecessary until you have the basic build of what you’re drawing down first: you don’t want to spend ages detailing that eye only to realize it’s too high up!
In class we were taught to be quicker and looser by drawing 30 second poses, so the model would pose for 30 seconds and we’d have to get a basic drawing down in that time. It involved a lot of big curving lines and very minimal detail just to get the pose down, but doing this a lot teaches your brain to only pick out the basic shapes in what you’re looking at and draw those quickly. This is used in gestural drawing to get the action of the pose down quickly, you can google gestural drawing to get more an an idea!

Allow yourself to be inspired; if there are artists you really like, find out what it is about their work that really speaks to you. It could be the way they use colour, or the way they stylize certain things. Maybe try to practice it yourself and see how it informs your own work ! But this doesn’t meant copy one artist directly and take their siganture style from them, as this is what makes them unique and taking it for yourself will not make you unique.

Remember that art style isn’t everything. Like sure it’s important for professionals illustators to have their own unique thing going on, the appeal and difference in their work is what will get them jobs, but as a young artist who is starting out, you don’t have to be so fixated on getting the perfect art style. I see so many beginners being really obsessed with this and it’s just a waste of time. Relax, enjoy drawing and making art, see where it leads you in the long run. There’s no need to stress about these things, they’ll develop as you keep drawing and finding new inspiration. It’s like handwriting: you don’t force it upon yourself.

there’s probably lots of other things I could say but yikes this got long omg. This is just stuff I’ve learned myself and from class over the years, I still have a lot more to learn too!

TLDR: just draw an absolute ton you’ll be fine

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I’m very lazy so I’m not gonna translate everything that’s written in these two pages but…

–What about the relationship you two share?
M: Since the beginning, Yukirin has always been acting nicely and kindly to me, always showing me what a big heart she has. I feel like, no matter what I’d do, she will always accept it, and she’d always forgive me anything. She’s great at readily respond to my silly statements, so that feels good, too. 
Y: I feel like that 90% of the conversation we have when we’re together is made of those silly things you say, Mayu (laughs). But that makes me happy. Because that’s not something you do with everyone.
M: Yeah, it’s something I do only with you and Sashii, even in backstange. I feel like I can’t show that side of me to the others. ‘Cause even if I did, they prolly wouldn’t understand at all (laughs). 
Y: To me, Mayu is like a 4 years younger sister. Even though she’s actually only 2 years younger than me (T/N: yes, Mayu is born in 1994 and Yuki in 1991, so technically she should be 3 years younger, but I’m pretty sure it has to do with the coming of age ceremony and the fact that people born in March, for some reason, are still considered “of the previous year” or something like that… Not sure), I feel her a little younger. When it comes to work, Mayuyu is the one who shows off the most professional and mature attitude, and I wanna be the one supporting her from the most closely. I wanna be someone she can be her playful true self with. 

–You two have released a coupling song from the Shoot Sign single called “I Want to Listen to Sad Songs”. This is your first official unit song together after 10 years; how does it feel?
M: It’s a ballad, and it’s not that revealing (laughs). It’s a nice song, though!
Y: We recorded that in different days, so we technically haven’t had the chance to sing it together, yet. That’s why, I’m really looking forward our first live-performance together of the song.
M: I’m the kind of person who gets nervous on stage, and I’m sure I’m gonna be nervous while performing that song too, but since Yukirin’s voice is usually pretty steady and calm, I’m sure I’m gonna be able to do good by your side. 
Y: I mean, you’re the one member I trust the most among everyone. Our voices match well together, when we look at each other we manage to sing in perfect synch, it’s super easy to duet with you. I wanna perform that song many times!

–10 years have passed. What about your plans for the future?
M: Yeah, I still wanna be a stage actress… I guess I gotta start preparing myself for that. 
Y: I wanna keep performing and singing on stage. Actually, I’ve been enjoying a lot everything I’ve been having the chance to achieve within the 48 Group, lately. So I guess I wanna keep being the kind of solo artist who would be able to keep doing all that in the future, too. 

–And what about your relationship in the future?
M: If we start not meeting frequently anymore, we won’t be able to have such fun together anymore either. And it’d make me feel sad, so we’re totally gonna keep meeting on a regular basis, and I’m totally gonna release my stress on you! (laughs) Watcha think?
Y: Sounds good to me (laughs). Even after graduation, the things we wanna keep doing in the future aren’t so far away from one another, we might meet on the same set or stage and work together as “MayuYukirin”… I think there would be nothing that would make me happier. 

On Izetta and the Importance of Perspective

Izetta has always looked at Finé. Not just in the literal sense but in the abstract as well. Izetta was the kind of kid who always looked down, afraid that people were going to yell at her or attack her for being who she is. Finé on the other hand, she was different. Izetta sees Finé in a very specific way and we as the audience get clued into that by the use of clever camera angles and framing. We constantly see Finé from Izetta’s point of view and in animation this can be a powerful tool to let the audience get an idea about character relationships. Izetta looks Finé in the eye, even when she gets embarrassed and looks down, her gaze is always brought right back to Finé’s eyes. Being able to see this from Izetta’s point of view lets the viewer make the same connection that Izetta does. It lets us understand just what Izetta sees in Finé and it lets us know just why Izetta cares so much and why we should care so much. 

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anonymous asked:

I don't usually say shut the fuck up to Bernie Sanders but Bernie Sanders needs to shut the fuck up about Ossoff good lord. I liked some of his damn policy ideals but this purism bullshit pisses me the fuck off it's not remotely constructive we are in a goddamn runoff that he'll probably LOSE anyway because we never fucking win lmao. Fuck this shit.

You could’ve just stopped after “Bernie Sanders needs to shut the fuck up” but yes, I agree. And I’m sure Bernie saying what his saying about Ossoff is only going to hurt him, which I’m CONVINCED is his goal. He seems to want to Democratic Party to continue to fail, so they’ll keep turning to him for help and he can keep riding the “I know all” wave that he’s on right now.

That’s what pisses me off is that he and so many of his followers seem to want us to keep losing so that they can keep being right, but while we’re losing, REAL PEOPLE are SUFFERING, including people out there on the ground putting in work to save themselves and others by winning these races. The Democratic Party is FAR from perfect but they’re the best party we’ve got and when Democratic candidates lose, we all lose. There are Berners telling people “enjoy 8 years of Trump” because we don’t want Bernie running the party and don’t want him running again in 2020.

They’re dead ass saying that. After just over 100 days of seeing what Trump and his administration are getting up to, these people are really THREATENING to tank this country even further if they don’t get their way. And the thing that makes me even angrier is that a lot of these people won’t feel ANY of the pain from a 4-8 year Trump presidency. So they can live just fine through something that won’t even hurt them, but it’ll hurt countless others and they don’t even care. Because we didn’t listen to them. So we deserve it, I guess.

They’re disgusting, and they can all choke.

I literally have no words to describe how much this woman inspires me. The Series 6 finale was fantastic by far, and there are so many people to thank for it. Laura Main portrays Shelagh Turner so well. Shelagh is usually tight laced, somewhat bossy, but always cares. In the finale, we watched Shelagh have her baby, a baby she was told that she could never have. I saw different parts of Shelagh that I never thought I could see in that episode. She was somewhat frustrated, and reflecting on her past life as Sister Julienne told her that singing was a way for her to keep some control of the pain. She and Patrick started singing together, and my whole heart exploded. Shelagh got to hold her son in her arms, and that… Was so truly perfect! 💙

I’m thanking Laura Main, for being the most incredible actress I know, for portraying my favorite character in existence, and for being such and inspiration to me and so many others! Laura, thank you, thank you so so much. You inspire me more than you know. I can’t wait to see what the rest of this year has in store for you! Thank you, and I hope you have a fantastic day! ❤

anonymous asked:

Can I plz have some (long?) angst with RFA + V & Saeran that doesnt end well (Im not meaning like MC dying but some bad angst that makes her leave them or something)

Thank you for your request , i tried to make it long and good (i think i failed)

I HOPE YOU LIKE IT

Please feel free to send me a feedback, if this is NOT what you wanted, I’ll do it again in no time!
Any mistakes, report to me


Yoosung

  • He’s playing all day, he didn’t even eat.
  • You already went there several times, always saying that he needs to take care of himself.
  • He doesn’t seem to worry about it, he’s ignoring you.
  • Sometimes you swear that it seems that he’s angry about you going there.
  • But you love him, you care about him.
  • Then you cook some food to him, he can play all night if he wants to, but he needs to eat properly.
  • You went there smiling “Hey Yoosung…I made food for you!” He looks at you, and then he stood up “YOU’RE MAKING ME LOSE MC!STOP BEING ANNOYING!”.
  • You froze, with tears in your eyes “What?YOU’RE BEING STUPID YOOSUNG, I JUST DID SOMETHING FOR YOU EAT, I DON’T WANT YOU TO GET SICK!”
  • He just sighs, angry, “You were right, you’re not like Rika,” He says looking down, but after some, while he looks at your eyes when he says: “Rika was better.”
  • He sits down, putting his headset again, while tears were falling from your face, you just can’t believe it.
  • You ran from that room with that plate on your hand, you put the plate on the table, you came back to the bedroom picking your things and putting it in a suitcase.
  • He didn’t even notice it, he was too busy playing “Sorry guys, my annoying girlfriend keeps complaining”.
  • When you heard that, you were sure, you need to go away.
  • When Yoosung stopped playing, you were already gone. He was preparing himself to say sorry, to hug you and say how much he loved you.
  • But now you’re gone, he thought you need some time, but after some days you were not back, he asked Seven to find you and nothing.
  • He was alone.
  • Again.
  • Yoosung never recovered from that.
  • He doesn’t eat anymore, not because of the games, this time he simply doesn’t want to.
  • He needs you.
  • But you never came back.

Zen

  • He’s stressed again because of the rehearsals.
  • He kept doing this, training and training, and now he’s like that, you warned him multiple times about that, he simply doesn’t seem to care.
  • When he’s like that, he smokes and drinks a lot, and because of that sometimes he says some rude things if you try to help him.
  • But after that, he always apologizes and sleeps hugging you promising that he would never do this again.
  • But he did.
  • You saw him smoking and you know is because he was working so much, the not even attention he was given to you.
  • But you’re not mad at that, you’re mad that he lied to you, you just want him to be better and doing this is not going to help him, or his career.
  • “Zen!” You run to him while he was smoking, not even care about you see it “You’re training so much!I know you recover fast, but this is too much!Please dear, stop! Think about you first!”
  • He laughs “I think you should put one cigarette in your mouth MC” He blows the smoke in your face, laughing at you “So you can shut up”. 
  • You open your mouth and you run to the bedroom, you can’t take this anymore.
  • You prepare your suitcase and you will go away, as you go he saw you and laugh “You can go anywhere you want!I find one just like you in a minute!”
  • You hold back your tears as you go away, and then, you’re gone.
  • On the next day, Zen was with a headache, he drank too much yesterday, he was so stressed from work, you were right, he must stop with this.
  • But when he remembers your words he remembers that you were gone.
  • What did you do Zen? He kept thinking that.
  • He asked everyone to help.
  • Nobody could find you.
  • Zen went downhill, now he’s smoking, but he’s smoking because he’s sad.
  • Even being so disgraceful, he keeps taking care of his appearance, if you come back he must be pretty for you!
  • He knows it’s been so many years ago since you were gone…
  • But…You will come back…
  • Right?

Jumin

  • You made his life so perfect, so happy, you made him do something that he doesn’t even know he was capable of doing…
  • Loving someone so much.
  • But sometimes he’s so demanding, he wants that dress, he wants that haircut, he wants this and that.
  • He said to you that Driver Kim would take you to a party that he was, and it’s for you to wear the dress that he left on the bed.
  • You’re sick of that, you’ll use what you want.
  • So you choose one dress, your makeup, you’re the way you want. When you go there Jumin looks at you, he looks angry.
  • He walks to you “What are you wearing? This is a fancy party, not that commoner’s thing you use to go!”
  • “You’re treating me like a pet Jumin!” He just sighs, looking at you “I wish you were obedient as one.”
  • You froze “Then…I’ll leave…” You walk away, he thought you were going home to change, so he waited for you.
  • He was so angry when he got home, you didn’t even show up in the party, he was alone the entire thing!
  • “MC!MC!!” He was searching for you until the security guard told him…You were gone, and you had a suitcase with you.
  • He almost hit those guys for letting you go, but he knows he cannot hold you here, you’re not a pet.
  • Oh right, about that, he knows he was an asshole in the party, he cannot control himself sometimes, you were stunning, so beautiful, he doesn’t know why he acted in that way.
  • He waited a little, but you weren’t back, so he made Seven searches for you, he spends so much money trying to find you.
  • And no clue.
  • Tears were one thing that Jumin didn’t quite know that well.
  • But after you left, tears are his best friend.
  • He’s a disgrace, he cannot forget about your last smile, a smile he wants to see again.
  • He’s even colder right now, the one thing that would warm his heart was you.
  • Growing colder and older, the successful man, it’s dead inside.
  • All this money can’t but a time machine.
  • He just wanted one opportunity to say how sorry he was.
  • But that opportunity never came.

Jaehee

  • You two are managing the cafe, you two.
  • But she always gets all the work and is overworking again.
  • You want her best, but she doesn’t want to listen to you.
  • She looks so bad right now, like really, she’ll get sick if she continues like this.
  • You can’t let her destroy herself like this “Jaehee!Go to sleep!” It was 3:00 AM, you woke up and she’s looking at things to improve the cafe.
  • “MC leave me alone ok?Gosh, stop.” She says annoyed, typing something, you put a hand on her shoulder “Please Jaehee…Go to bed love…” She slaps your hand.
  • “MC are you listening to me? I’m worried about the cafe, so let me be.“ 
  • You start to put your clothes in a suitcase “Ok,  if you’re not feeling well by my presence i’ll go for a few days” When you were about to kiss her cheek, she says “Good, don’t need to come back, was better when we were just friends”
  • She just said that? If it’s this what she wants, then ok.
  • You’ll not come back.
  • After the day you left, Jaehee’s a mess.
  • She doesn’t even care to look decent, she’s looking for you, she asked for help, nobody could find you.
  • She cries every day, she needs you.
  • She regrets every single word she said to you.
  • She cannot lose another person in her life, please.
  • Come back.
  • She prayed and prayed.
  • But god was cruel to her.
  • She’ll pray for the rest of her life to see your face again.
  • Please,MC, come back.

707

  • He’s pushing you away again, he’s trying really hard right now.
  • Why? He thinks he’s too dangerous for you again. He doesn’t want you to get hurt.
  • So he made a plan, he came back home,“drunk”, when you asked what he was doing, he just said “Fucking some girls, what do you think?” He was good at acting, so you believe it.
  • The next day you were going away, he accomplished, what he wanted has there, you’re going away.
  • But he’s not happy about it.
  • When Saeran knew what he has done, Seven’s said that he lied to you go away, because he was dangerous.
  • Saeran punched him, saying how much he loves you and how much you loved him.
  • Seven realized he made a serious mistake in his life.
  • So he uses everything that he can to find you, but nothing, he’s paying the price.
  • He wished you stayed, every day he’s sitting on the couch looking at the door just to hear someone knock and then he opens it and it was you.
  • He would make you stay.
  • But this was only a wish, a wish that never came true.
  • You are gone, he’s writing so many jokes on a paper just to tell you when you get back…Which you never did.
  • He just prayed that in another life, he can repair all those mistakes, he can be with you stay by his side, so he can stop crying.
  • He never stopped crying

V

  • V is just so stubborn sometimes, you want him to do the surgery, he doesn’t want to.
  • Ok, it’s his life, he can do whatever he wants to, but you are worried, he’s getting even worse.
  • Every time you try to help him, he says he doesn’t need it, why is he doing this?
  • In a morning V was pretty bad, he cries about it, but you didn’t know.
  • He wanted to be alone, but never said to you that on that day.
  • When you come to help him, he doesn’t know what came up in this head, but he wanted to make you sad like him “I hope Rika comes back, i would be with her again.”
  • You froze, you didn’t know why he said that, but this was enough too, so you pick up your things ready to leave.
  • V just listen to your footsteps, he froze, but he doesn’t call you back.
  • And he regrets about that until this day.
  • He wanted to apologize for that, his throat wants him to yell your name.
  • But he didn’t.
  • And this was the worst decision of his life.
  • After that day nobody found you.
  • And can sound a little weird, but he did the surgery on his eyes because he kept remembering how much you wanted it.
  • And he really wants to see some photos of you…
  • It’s too late to apologize, but he wishes he yelled your name in that moment.
  • You were his miracle…And he threw you away
  • You were his angel.
  • And now he really wants to go to heaven.
  • He’s not really sure how to feel about it, but he can’t live with it.
  • He’s already dead inside.

Saeran

  • He was having a breakdown again, and in one breakdown; he threw his cell phone that hits you, but he didn’t aim at you, it was an accident.
  • You knew it, but now he thinks he has a problem and this could make you get hurt again.
  • He rather pushes you back instead of solving his problems.
  • And he did that, he was selfish, he kept saying so many things to you, he made a mess, and this haunted him.
  • When he sees you going away, he wanted to run to you and hug you.
  • But you’ll be better and happier with another man, this hurts him, but it’s the best for you.
  • But this hurts so much.
  • It was late, but he always waited for you, he’s a better man now, he finally understands his problems.
  • So please come back, he is waiting for you with open arms.
  • You didn’t come back, and he’s crying to sleep every night.
  • He should have been a better man for you, and he’s hoping you’re happy now.
  • All this haunted him, he’s not stable without you.
  • Nobody can find you either, he had the chance to make things right, he messed up.
  • This was a happy home, he was a happy man.
  • But now he wanted you so much...
  • But all he has is memories.
4

The Good Daughter

In the Pataki family on Hey Arnold!, I believe that Olga never faced ignorance and neglect from her parents, like Helga does, when she was a child. But I do think when she (Olga) was younger, there came a time when she noticed her parents fighting a lot. For instance, she probably often saw Bob, being the blowhard he is, doing and saying hurtful things to Miriam that brought down her self-esteem. In other words, Olga was a frequent witness to her parents’ dysfunctional relationship and realized that they were not happy with each other. From what we see in the show, Bob and Miriam probably feel, and have felt so for a long time, that they have nothing in common anymore and that their marriage is a failure.

For many years, Olga was Bob and Miriam’s only child, so I think she felt that she needed her parents to stay together since they were all each other had as a family. Although she saw that they were not happy, Olga did not want her parents to split up because the idea of that happening upset her, just like it is for many children whose parents get divorced. If Miriam and Bob had split up much sooner, Olga probably would have blamed herself for it, just like how Helga blames herself for her family’s dysfunction. Such a thing is also not uncommon for children from broken families; they often think they did something wrong to make their parents divorce when it happens. So to prevent such an undesirable consequence from happening, Olga took it upon herself to become the glue to keep her family intact.

By the time Olga makes her first appearance as a young woman in the first season of the show, we see how much Bob and Miriam fawn over her and her accomplishments. The reasons are that she always gets straight A’s in school, she has won many trophies and other awards, and she is a very talented, accomplished pianist. From seeing these scenes and those in later episodes, I have the opinion that Olga purposely puts on a show, and has been doing so for many years, of being a perfect daughter for her parents to keep the peace and make them believe there is something successful about their relationship and marriage: her! As long as Bob and Miriam focus on Olga and the great things she has done and still does, they won’t be fighting or arguing. In Olga’s mind, her being this way means that they can be happy and get along all the time.

Whenever Olga is home, the Patakis appear to be a happy, functional family on the outside (of course, Helga is the only Pataki who never looks happy, which is another reason why they ignore her), just like she wants them to be. But what she does also creates a big problem for herself, her parents, and Helga.

When she witnessed her parents’ unhappiness as a child, it no doubt made Olga so upset that she just didn’t want to face it anymore and wanted to change that as much as she could. Even now, as an adult, Olga knows that her parents’ relationship is still dysfunctional and that they are unhappy. She doesn’t seem to get the idea that her parents would/could be a lot happier if they were no longer together. A divorce could make Miriam and Bob happy, but not Olga, just like many children whose parents are divorced. A divorce is bad in Olga’s mind, so she wants her parents to stay together and not make the “bad” decision to break up. In a sense, this means that Olga would rather have her parents be unhappily married (while occasionally pretending to be happy) than happily divorced.

After spending years of putting on an act for her parents to keep them together, Olga has developed the idea that ignoring or running away from problems and pretending that they don’t exist is the best solution. I mean, when she puts on a show for them, excluding Helga, they do look and act happy. But the sad truth is, what they do is all just an illusion; it’s not real. They’re doing nothing more than pretending. They are just being a pretend family. And you can’t pretend or ignore what’s real in order to really be happy.

A major reason why Helga can’t stand Olga is because the latter, and even her whole family, really, do not have a firm grasp on reality. Helga is very aware of the dysfunction in her family, and she wants to address the problems in order to make them better. But Olga does just the opposite. What she does is only a temporary solution. She and her parents will never truly be happy if they don’t address the problems and talk about them in order to improve them. If you don’t confront or acknowledge a problem, well, then it is a lost cause. You can’t change what you don’t acknowledge.

Part of the reason I would have loved to see the planned, cancelled spin-off series The Patakis was because I am interested on what things would have been like in Helga’s life now that she was a teen, but also to see what would have happened with her family. I’d like to think that things could improve between her parents and Olga, though it would still take a lot of effort on everyone’s parts. But anything is possible. 😉

Bad Boy

Request: Could you write something with bad boy Damon (season 1) & he sees the reader hitch hiking into mystic falls & picks her up without realizing she’s a vampire too.

Pairings: DamonxReader 

Warnings: Swearing? Badboy!Damon (yes this is a warning for me bc too hot to handle am I right?)

Authors note: I changed it up a bit from the request and decided to make the main character a Petrova doppelgänger whilst also being a vampire. And also I have to write (Your name) as Y / N because of a chrome extension that changes any to my actual name. And I’m sorry if this is bad it’s the first imagine i’ve ever wrote.

Words Count: 876

Originally posted by amazing-otp-moments

You were stood at the side of the seemingly endless road trying to catch a ride into a small town called Mystic Falls.

Mystic Falls was the perfect place for you to hide out, there was no supernatural beings and the town was that small that nobody would think to look for you there.

You had been running for over 300 years for making the exact same mistake as Katerina Petrova had many years before you.

It was back in 1730 that you met a loyal nobalman named Elijah, although he had learned to keep his guard up around a Petrova Doppelganger, he was able to keep this up as after Katerina had vanished out of thin air there was never another Doppelganger to have been found, until you of course.

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i need to get my shit together

I’ve spent my saturday evening just imagining neil and andrew hanging out at their apartment. andrew shirtless, no armbands with his glasses on and reading a huge book, neil laying on the couch with his head on Andrew’s lap and playing with the cats and their favorite toy. andrew’s left hand holding his book while his right cards through Neil’s hair. the tv is playing some nighttime talk show and is barely audible. one of the cat’s runs away with the toy so neil just turns over and stares at andrew from under the book. andrew realizes he’s being watched but isn’t going to dignify Neil’s gawking so he just keeps playing with his auburn curls until neil falls asleep. a few hours later andrew wakes neil up with a thumb lightly grazing his eyebrow and his name being called quietly. they groggily move to the bedroom to sleep and its the end to another perfect happy peaceful day that they earned and deserve after so many years of not having this

If there’s one thing I’ve learned
One thing that seems to be true
If there’s one thing that keeps my heart beating
If there’s one thing that keeps my mind at peace
It’s that love is not about being together forever
It’s about just loving someone when you have the chance
When you’re that lucky to share such a passionate feeling with another human being
If you love someone today
You should let it be known to them
Let it be known in your loudest tone
Because you never know where you will stand a year from now
Life has so many different paths
We cannot predict a perfect future where everything goes our way
So if you love someone today
Let it be known to them in the quietest of nights
‘Cause you never know where life will take them tomorrow
pot brownies, faux outrage and ignoring the real issue...

So, our federal health minister spent the better part of the day flipping out over how people who take medical marijuana take medical marijuana. Some people don’t want to smoke it, and our supreme court recognized that… And you KNOW what that means… baked goods.

Full disclosure: yes, I’m a pain patient but no, I don’t use marijuana. Not that I wouldn’t like to.  It’s not a moral thing - my drug reactions are just next level. Something metabolically with me does not line up. And cannibinoids make me sicker than my pain and don’t provide me any pain relief. No one knows why.

Most narcotics make me sicker than my pain - something a bunch of people think is lucky - but prescription drugs are really all our family doctors have to help us.

If you manage to get believed that you genuinely have chronic pain, which is really difficult because everyone thinks you’re a faker and a drug seeker, the only thing most doctors are able to do is whomp you onto an opioid. That is literally the sum total of their medical training around non-acute chronic pain - to treat it like acute pain.

Yes -hospital based pain clinics are great for providing quality care and support for patients - it takes almost a year and a half to get seen at mine.

Good luck with that.

I fully support rational opioid use - but as a long-term treatment for a chronic disease, they’re riddled with issues. They have bad side effects, including major depression and liver damage. They lose efficacy over a fairly short period of time, and people often take more to no effect, or seek out other self medicating alternatives. They can be very dangerous - my friend died from a fentanyl overdose - and you need to have all sorts of education in using them appropriately.

It would be dumb to have something as ineffective over the long term as a painkiller be the only tool in your kit to manage severe pain, right? And yet this is the only thing most doctors are trained to do. Treat pain with a painkiller.

Further, most of the supports for chronic pain - physio, physical supports and specific physical training, hydrotherapy, massage, accupuncture, prolotherapy - none of these things are covered by the heath care system.

It costs me $1200 a month out of pocket for these supports.

Without them, I can’t work. If I can’t work, I can’t afford the supports.

You see the issue. Ourosbouros. The snake is eating its tail. But I earn a decent wage and have benefits. This is what the government relies on, your insurance company is expected to pick up a bunch of the slack.

Ironically, to have extended benefits, you need to work. And most pain patients cannot work, do not work, because workplaces are fairly inflexible about sitting at a desk or being on your feet from 9 to 5. Or require you to not be zoned out on meds.

And so they can’t afford the very treatments that would allow them to stay working.

No work. No money. That cuts out your social supports first, it marginalizes you, and then it chews away at things like your housing and your food. You go back to the doctor, you get more drugs.

Opioids are dirt cheap. What I spend in one month on all my physical medical interventions will keep you in percocet for two years.

So, for many, the cheap opioid is the only thing they have to survive.

Behold: a perfect storm for drug abuse, for addiction. Also a perfect storm for all sorts of other diseases piling on a person who is not being properly treated (cardiac problems, blood pressure problems, diabetes, liver problems) - diseases that *will* cost the health system in the long run - and cost far more than just funding some physio.

And you wonder why we have no money for health care. 

So forgive me if I’m angry that the federal health minister is having a case of the vapours about some baked goods while doing absolutely nothing to improve the situation for people living in pain. 

Pot brownies aren’t the problem. And be honest, everyone - the rage is because the leader of the third party supports decriminalization and this plays to the base.

The problem is politicians are so afraid of doing anything that will lose them elections that they forget what they were elected to do - and that is *govern*.  In some ways, having a tantrum about edible medical marijuana while ignoring other major issues is unethical and negligent.

You want fewer drugs on the street? Fewer addicts? More people working? Then *act* on the problem of there being no care for pain patients. Solve the problem. Do your job. GOVERN.

Mentally ill Sirius is so important to me though like

- Sirius who has bipolar depression
Some days he is the life of the party, always looking for a good time
Others he can’t even get out of bed

- It used to confuse the rest of the marauders because he was fine yesterday and now he won’t get up?? They ended up getting used to his mood swings and though they won’t admit it they did extensive research on bipolar when Sirius was finally diagnosed


- James reminding him to shower and eat on the days he would neglect himself

- Peter bringing him hot tea and continuously lighting incense to help him relax

- Remus sitting near him, letting him know he wasn’t alone and occasionally reading aloud to him when Sirius asked

- Sirius with horrible PTSD from his years at Grimrauld
He would have extremely awful night terrors that would occasionally cause him to wake up screaming and in sweats
He suffered through it alone until second year when he finally told the rest of the marauders about his nightmares
He never slept alone again

- the others never fully understood how bad it was at Sirius’ house mainly because Sirius never liked to tell them but they didn’t need to know details as long as they knew what made him feel better

- Sirius with anxiety stemming from his PTSD
He would have panic attacks far too often
He found the best way to calm himself was to have someone playing with his hair and gently speaking to him about mundane things such as the weather, this person was more often than not Remus

- He had paranoia that, while it wasn’t constant, it was bad when it hit
He would often have horrible visions of his parents coming to take him home and killing his friends as they left
He was never able to sleep those nights but he wasn’t alone

-James was always there and he knew he could wake him if it got real bad and when him and Remus started dating he knew he could do the same with him but he rarely had to, the knowledge that moony was there could sooth him enough some of those nights

- Sirius having ADHD
when he was younger his parents warned him to keep it under wraps as they believed it was shameful
Sirius was taught that it meant he was ‘stupid’ and ‘misbehaving’ which began to wear on him as he honestly couldn’t stop the words coming out of his mouth or the movements his body made at the wrong times. No matter how many times he read something it wouldn’t go through his head causing him to beat down on himself to do better

- his friends reassuring him that he wasn’t stupid and slowly breaking down all the horrible messages the Blacks had beat into Sirius’ head all those years

- Sirius not being perfect and having realistic issues but getting the help and assurance he needs to start feeling better about himself and seeing how great of a person he truly is instead of this idea of his failures that he’s been programmed to believe represents him is incredibly important to me

EXO Reaction To Your First Date After Being Best Friends For Years

Ahh I love your requests, they’re so good! Yea sure dude whatever you want! Keep making requests because you have so many good ideas! Yea i makes perfect sense :)

/I do not own any of the gifs unless stated otherwise/

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Baekhyun

You’re both nervous and you are unable to speak to break the silence so Baekhyun does in the only way he knows how, to make you laugh. It works and the rest of the date goes smoothly. He surprises you how romantic he can be, especially when he unexpectedly takes you hand and intertwines your fingers and gives you a kiss when you least expect it that leaves you breathless. You’re left with a shocked expression to which he just shrugs his shoulders with an eyebrow raised playing it off.

Suho

He tries to act calm, cool and collected. It puts you at ease because you’re worried you had made a mistake to ask him out on a date. He shows a genuine interest in what you have to say and you forget that its a date. You’re having the time of your life because you’re comfortable around him already but you still feel your heart rate ever increasing every time you make eye contact causing to be unable to contain the smirk he tries to hide. You convince yourself that you were silly for being nervous since Suho isn’t showing any sign of nervousness. However, his cover is broken when he tries to get your attention and calls you by the wrong name to which he just stutters and blinks while you laugh.

Kai

You thought you were a nervous mess but once you see Jongin at the cafe where your date is taking place you realize that he’s on a whole other level. He gets up to give you an awkward hug which is super uncomfortable for the both of you. This isn’t the typical Jongin that you’ve known for three years. He’s usually comfortable and relaxed around you. To see him clumsy and a nervous wreck makes you like him even more because you now think he’s not totally out of your league. When he spills his drink and it goes all over the floor he tries to clean it up but as soon as he gets up he slips and falls. You get down to help him and give him a hand up and when you do you lock eyes. There’s a moment where you both are totally just focused on each other then he leans in and he kisses you. He smiles at you and lets out a sigh saying, “I’ve been waiting to do that for the past three years”. 

Kris

He tries to play the cool guy and is aloof. You can’t help but laugh at him which throws him off his game, “Ugh Y/N why’d you do that? Now I feel stupid.” He folds his arm in a huff but you say to him, “Kris I don’t want you to be acting different I like you just the way you are, I always have.” You can’t help but be slightly embarassed and Kris smiles at you admitting your feelings for him. He tries to get you to smile, “So you don’t like it when I pull this face?” He pulls a silly face which causes you to laugh but when you’re laughter dies down he touches your chin and asks, “What about this face?” (GIF) It makes you stutter and he chuckles in response.

Lay

You two decide to spend your date watching a film at your house. You ask him for the third time if this is what he really wants to do because you know that he gets bored during movies and 90% of the time he never lasts the whole movie. He reassures you and he puts on the movie and comes back to you. You sit awkwardly but he immediately puts his arm around you and pulls you close. He shows no sign of nervousness which puts you at ease. He slings his arm over your shoulder and you rest your head on his chest and hesitantly put your arm around his waist but you aren’t sure if he would mind so you’re about to pull it away but he places his hand on your forearm making sure you keep it there. He plants a soft kiss on your head and you watch the movie in a comfortable silence. You need to go to the toilet so you try to get up from Lay’s embrace but when you do it tightens around you. You look up at his angelic face and see that he has fallen asleep

Xiumin

He has always been relatively quiet but this is just ridiculous he may as well be mute, you think as you sit in silence in the park bench. He hesitates to start a conversation afraid of messing up but he doesn’t see that by not speaking at all he’s already making the date fail. You sit feeling seriously awkwardly when you feel a warm presence on your hand. It gains your attention and you see the he has rested his hand on yours. You smile and take his hand and intertwine your fingers. His smile becomes radiant and you reflect it. With a sudden spurt of confidence he yanks you quickly to him and plants a passionate kiss on your lips. It leaves you speechless gaining you a smirk and a raised eyebrow from Minseok.

Luhan

He takes you for a walk on the beach because he knows how much you love the sea. You intertwine your hands and walk while making small talk. His hand is slightly clammy and it’s probably the only time you will ever think that it’s cute. He can’t hold eye contact with you for longer than a few seconds which makes you smile. While he was in the middle of speaking, you can’t hold back anymore his plump lips are teasing you too much,  you stop him speaking with your lips which at first startles him but after a second he eases into it. When you part he makes a funny face (gif) and asks, “Are we boyfriend and girlfriend now?”

 Sehun

He takes you to a concert that he got tickets to last minute. You were worried because he would get recognized in an instant but he convinced you it would be okay. You arrive at the venue and see him with a disguise on that is unbelievably terrible. “A snapback and sunglasses? Really that was all you could come up with?” You say in between fits of laughter. He becomes embarrassed and grabs your hand taking you into the stadium. Dragging you to the front of the crowd, you apologize to the numerous people Sehun pushed and shoved aside. You get near the front and as soon as the concert begins he snakes his arms around your waist, kissing the top of your head. 

Chen

He cooks a romantic meal for the two of you and he has entertainment planned for the two of you in the form of Just dance. You just stare at him, “You can’t be serious Jongdae, if I dance I will most definitely throw up” He pleads and you cave but you give half hearted attempts. One, because you are in half of a food coma. Two, you can’t help but get distracted by how Chen is dancing. He catches you staring and gives you a cheeky wink and returns to his butt wiggling.

Chanyeol

He plans a picnic in your favourite park. You can’t help but be surprised at how romantic he is being as you approach the blanket settled under the cherry blossom tree. He casually sits down and starts eating not even waiting till you settle. You give him a look to say, “really?” He looks at you dumbfounded with his mouth open with food, saying, “What?” You close his mouth for him laughing and say, “This is supposed to be a date at least act like it is!” He rubs the back of his neck and apologises. He waits for you to be ready then he digs in. Its sweet when he lets you try his food from his fork and you do the same for him but when you try to feed him another bite he looks at it and screams running away. You look at it and see a lady bug on it and roll your eyes getting up to go after him. 

D.O.

He would take you ice skating because he knows you love it. You glide along hand in hand and you both thought it would be slightly awkward at the start but you feel complete with each other. Yours hands meld together perfectly. It amuses you that you have to support him because quite frankly he’s awful at this but you appreciate the fact that he sacrificed his dignity for you. You are both to busy talking to notice the oncoming traffic that is skating the wrong direction. Next thing you know Kyungsoo is on his butt and he’s dragged you down with him. You laugh but he turns bright red saying, “Awh god let me die now!”

Tao

Tao being tao wanted to just go shop for some new gucci clothing items but your firmly crush that idea. You suggest a swim to which he surprises you and easily agrees. He emerges in his trunks, exposing his top half making you physically drool. With laughter he closes in on you and takes in your bikini making you squirm under his stare. You go into the pool and he tries to show off doing hand stands and other tricks. He then challenges you to a diving contest which you chicken out of but tell him to go ahead. He struts towards the diving board and graces the platform with his presence. He takes his place and is about to jump but then hesitates (gif). You are streaming with tears while you swim to him, “Not a word about this to anyone Y/N” you nod and go back to splashing him.

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I am so sorry if this sucked! Anon I apologise if this wasn’t what you envisioned also I apologise for it being so late! 

Also could you all let me know if you want a long or short reaction because i keep tending to do them long and you all mightn’t want that, thank you!

-S

Happy New Year! 2017!!!

Everyonnnnnnneeeee! Happy New Year!!!! \(≧▽≦)/

Originally posted by yamaming

There were lots of wonderful things that happened!!!! Really so many….but since it’s life and nothing’s perfect, of course there were some not so great things…and some of those things might continue from 2016 into 2017…but we got through 2016 and now 2017 is here before us!!! We made it!!! Like Mamo-chan would say, we’re all human, so we’re all walking together and getting past our hardships through life together!

To everyone I’m friends/mutuals with, I’M SORRY FOR BEING SO BAD AT KEEPING UP WITH COMMUNICATING. I love all of you and wish the best for all of you ^^ I’ll try to do a better job of keeping in contact and not taking forever to reply this new year!!! To those I have yet to talk with/haven’t talked very much with, I’m looking forward to getting to know you or getting to know you better this year! Ah…! I’m looking forward to getting to know all of my friends better this year as well, of course! ^^


Messages to a few specific people!!! 

@aishiteruitsumo6 Keelllyyy-chan~! I’m so blessed to have been able to get to know you this year…AND THEN MEET YOU “IRL” AS WELL!! ☆*:.。.o(≧▽≦)o.。.:*☆ Though I haven’t responded to that part of our message-conversation yet, I am thankful to have grown up in the states and have learned English fluently ^^;;; because really, if I had stayed in Japan……well…it would have it’s perks!!!!! but, then, you’re right, I wouldn’t have gotten to know you…and honestly…it makes me really sad to think of that…I’m really, really happy that we found each other and that we are friends…(and maybe we knew each other and were friends in a different lifetime? :3333? I do sorta believe in that, like we’d talked about before~ X3) Thank you~ for everything! I’m so happy to know you, and I hope we get to hang out again soon~ My New Year’s resolution…(not quite sure if it counts) IS TO LIVE IN JAPAN BEFORE THE END OF THIS YEAR!!! OFFICIALLY!! AND NEVER LEAVE!!!! RAWRR!!! I’ve said it before…probably countless times now but…本当に本当にありがとうー!私を待ってくださいね〜!もうすぐ戻るから。。。絶対、今年、この2017年終わる前に戻るから。。。また、一緒に遊ぼう!そして、マモちゃんとしょーたんの場所に行こうねー!☆ヾ(*´・∀・)ノヾ(・∀・`*)ノ☆

@tsukinokakera Kirakira-chaan! I’m really happy that you’re in my life~ Thank you for being there to listen to me when I was, LOL, breaking down… And really just being there for me in general~ Life has gotten busy for us lately, so we’re not talking as much as we used to before, but that doesn’t mean that our friendship has suffered from that at all!!! I hope that this year, we’ll find more time to talk with each other and I really hope this year is better for you…I hope that you’re doing okay and that your family is doing okay…remember to keep breathing and to take breaks away from everything if you can when you need it! If you ever need anything, know that I’m here for you. ^^ One of these days, I hope that we’ll be able to meet each other “irl”~ I’m wishing that you have a wonderful new year, Kirakira-chan! ^^ 大丈夫だよー!絶対大丈夫になるよー!信じてるー!(´。• ᵕ •。`) ♡

@jennshaiel Nana-chan! I’m praying that your 2017 will be better than all other years, especially 2016. I feel like you’ve been really struggling this past year, and I’m so sorry…I really wish there was more I could help you with…but I really believe, I’m really hoping that this year is better than all other years for you. Thank you for always been such an encouragement for me…Thank you for pointing out things to me…LIKEMAMO’SARMSFOREXAMPLE, Nana-chan is the reason why I always think YUMMY WHEN I SEE MAMO-CHAN’S ARMS SOMETIMES. LIKE IN SUGER, SUGER WHEN MAMO WAS SHOWING HIS SHOULDER ATTRACTIVELY TO THE AUDIENCE I HAD A STUPID URGE TO NIBBLE ON IT???!!! AND I THINK IT MIGHT BE BECAUSE OF NANA-CHAN’S INFLUENCE????!!! ANYWAYS. I FEEL LIKE I’VE LEARNED SEVERAL ODD THINGS FROM YOU….xDDDD;;;;;;;; but really though, Nana-chan is such an amazing person, (and Nana-chan’s boyfriend is as well x,D), thank you for everything you’ve said to me, your encouragements and your findings, and your gifs and photoshops, they’re all a gift~ Thank you so much~ I’m looking forward to our conversation and what Mamo has in store for us this coming year~ (≧◡≦) 


There are really so many more people I’d like to write messages for…maybe I should make more posts with messages~ ^^; 
@ace-of-derp, @carpedenarium, @cncordia, @thefaunusfox, @aruarudayo

@shuuchans-jollly-pajimmyjams, @tokiyasstar, @atutsie, @anitafishikela, @doaaradwan, @lavandeperles, @natsustarrevolution, @gloriouscrowncreator, @ms-c0ld, @fallinlovewithmiyanomamoru, @koto-wari, @yuurinikiforov, @mee-sosoup, @arellethram, @aquilalyra, @these-dorks-stole-my-heart, @winterchocolate, @kirisako, @kyzaness, @getthreecoffinsready, @amazing-rin, @nekomas-heart, @takomoshimochi, @chiisaii-otaku@shirobatheprincess, @sakurawatching and @tinklefish also anyone else that sees this~! 
Whether we talk a lot, or we’ve only talked once or twice…or we talked for a bit and then I was a terrible person and never got back to your messages because OTL……T_T……OTL……o(〒﹏〒)o

I hope that we get to talk more this year and that this year is really better than all previous years. I pray that each and every one of you are able to get a little closer, if not reach your goals and dreams as well as go beyond that in this year, 2017~ I’m looking forward to getting to know everyone a little better and walk step by step into the future with everyone! I hope this first day (or…second day…depending on where you are…!!) into the New Year was a wonderful one, and that each day you all live your fullest with no regrets~ And though it’s impossible not to have challenges and hardships, I hope that you go through each day with a smile and have lots of wonderful things happen~


Here’s to 2017!!!! (≧◡≦) ♡

今年も、よろしくお願いします!(*^ω^*)
良いお年を!!!!!!!!!!!(*^o^*)☆☆☆

Originally posted by yamaming

anonymous asked:

No offense but could you post some finished art? I've been following you for a couple of years and I've yet to see this Over The Surface graphic novel emerge. Lots of sketches, lots of life drawings from France or whatever. It's all well and good that you're improving your skills but I think most people follow you because they want to see something that's actually *finished*. I'm a little drunk so I'm being blunt but I'm sure you have self-doubts. Get over them and start posting your real work!

Places that you can see my finished art:

  1. My portfolio – http://natalienourigat.com/portfolio/
  2. A Boy & A Girlhttp://www.amazon.com/Boy-Girl-Jamie-S-Rich/dp/1620100894
  3. Between Gearshttp://www.amazon.com/Between-Gears-TP-Natalie-Nourigat/dp/1607065045/ref=zg_bsnr_4399_17 (the webcomic is also still live: http://betweengears.blogspot.com/)
  4. The Thrilling Adventure Hourhttp://www.amazon.com/Thrilling-Adventure-Hour-Ben-Acker/dp/1936393964/ref=sr_1_4?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1421865645&sr=1-4
  5. Husbandshttps://www.darkhorse.com/Books/22-099/Husbands-HC
  6. It Girl & The Atomics #10http://imagecomics.com/comics/releases/it-girl-the-atomics-10
  7. It Girl & The Atomics #11http://imagecomics.com/comics/releases/it-girl-the-atomics-11
  8. It Girl & The Atomics #12http://imagecomics.com/comics/releases/it-girl-the-atomics-12
  9. Home Is Where The Internet Ishttp://homeiswheretheinternetis.blogspot.com/2014/04/dont-let-fear-stop-you-from-traveling.html
  10. Meet Your Mind: The Science of Consciousnesshttp://www.ttbook.org/book/meet-your-mind-series
  11. My Boyfriend Is A Monster: Wrapped Up In Youhttp://www.amazon.com/Wrapped-Up-You-Boyfriend-Monster/dp/0822594250/ref=sr_1_8?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1335806828&sr=1-8
  12. The Marvels of Money (series of 5 books): http://www.amazon.com/Spending-Success-book-Marvels-Money/dp/1936872226/ref=sr_1_9?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1421865242&sr=1-9
  13. Assorted illustrations and animations: http://tallychyck.deviantart.com/
  14. Old comics (including the first two chapters of my first attempt at Over The Surface): http://www.smackjeeves.com/profile.php?id=40743
  15. Occasionally, here on Tumblr.

Reasons to follow me on Tumblr:

  1. Because you like what I post to Tumblr.
    Ultimately, I’m going to post what I want, which includes reblogs, links, and lots of unfinished art and exercises.  Often, my finished artwork is owned by a publisher or agency, and I don’t have the right to post it to Tumblr.  There is no one forcing you to stick around if you don’t like what I post on Tumblr.  I’d be sad to see you go, but you are free to leave.

If you don’t like what I post on Tumblr, but you want to stay in the loop regarding upcoming finished work:

  1. Bookmark my “projects” page and visit once or twice a year.  http://natalienourigat.com/projects/
  2. Follow me on Twitter or Facebook (I post plenty of non-art news on both, but they might be more in-tune with how you want your feed to look) – https://twitter.com/Tallychyck , https://www.facebook.com/natalie.nourigat?ref=mf

I have crippling self-doubt in relation to this project.  I wrote the first draft of the story while I was still in college, and I’m currently drawing the first chapter for the THIRD time.  It’s my first story for a publisher that I am both illustrating and writing.  Showing people my writing, in particular, feels like standing naked in front of an audience.  Over The Surface is my baby, my chance to show the world what I can do, and, I am hoping with every fiber of my being, the beginning of a career where I can work full-time on my own stories, and not spend 30-40 hours/month drawing commercial artwork, as well as juggling multiple work-for-hire projects, to pay my bills.  I want Over The Surface to be perfect, and I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that it’s never going to be.  I have two fantastic editors helping me to get this thing solid and out in the world next year.  They’re helping me squash my inner critic enough to keep moving forward.  I keep reminding myself that “done is beautiful” and that I would rather have a finished comic than a few perfect pages.  I want to have finished artwork to show you, as good as possible but  also as soon as possible.

I’m a brutally honest drunk, and I’ve gotten in trouble for many times.  We have to remember that unfiltered honesty tends to come across as plain rude, and think twice before “being blunt”.  Just sayin’.

Fic: Happy Accidents

anon prompted:  Blaine is a paramedic who is called out for a gay bashing. He finds and saves Kurt (16-19years old) who is in very bad condition. After Kurt is in the hospital, Blaine makes sure that his family gets in to see him and feels very protective of Kurt, since he’s also been bashed. Blaine gets attached and they meet once Kurt wakes up or after he’s healed.

Sweet holy hell, this got long. PG-13, 2500+ words, more fluff than anything else. Also, Blaine’s 25 and Kurt’s 19, just fyi.

Blaine was having a hard time controlling his emotions that night.

First they’d gotten the call that a young man was unconscious and bleeding in a Brooklyn alley, probably the victim of a hate crime, and Blaine’s blood had run cold. Memories of his own attack in Ohio nine years earlier had rushed back to him - the cold hard asphalt against his face, the searing pain of his broken arm - but he couldn’t allow them any space in his brain. He had to be focused and ready to treat this man’s injuries, as that was kind of the whole point of his job as a paramedic.

Then he’d almost had to scrape his jaw off the ambulance floor when they arrived at the scene, because under the blood and bruises, this man was stunningly attractive - just Blaine’s type, if he was being honest. He was a sucker for long legs, smooth skin, and great hair, especially when the guy possessing those traits looked relatively near Blaine’s age, maybe a few years younger.

Not the time, Anderson! he chastised himself as he strapped the man’s shoulders to the backboard and affixed a neck brace, his partner Sarah taking care of the man’s lower half.

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Relationship headcanons

Oikawa Tooru

  • He is clingy. But not always the annoying type. You just have to expect him to come at you with open arms hugging you from behind or lift you up praising how cute you are. He’ll hold your hand and carry your bags if you go shopping. He’s the best you can get except Kise to give advise on what to and what not to wear.
  • He’ll actually be the type that will buy you an on trend t-shirt this year and after ten years he’ll tease you for that ancient piece of clothing, but he’ll be teary about about you keeping it for so long in particular. But he’ll know to say all the right things at all the right times. Maybe because he learned to do so after being surrounded by so many girls for so long. It’s confusing this double-faced perfect boy, so you have to keep up with his mood swings.
  • He’ll mostly be like a fangirl of whatever you’ll ever do, yeah, even breathing. He’ll encourage you to do whatever pleases you, as long it doesn’t imply harmful things. Also, you’ll have to accompany him to Comiket and sometimes, Comic Con, because that boy will do whatever it takes to visit every place that is bound to aliens.

  • You’ll be that “couple goals”. Just perfection wherever you look. And your fights won’t last long because he can’t stand you being mad at him nor vice-versa. If you say you want something for your birthday, he’ll write it down and with a month before the event he’ll compare the notes and get the best/most mentioned thing on the list. He’ll bear in mind even the amount of passion you had when you spoke about it. He’ll have a multiple bar chart with these and decide later on.
  • He’ll take you on cheesy dates and that monstrous side of him will be tamed if you stay with him and pester him to be careful about his health. Also, expect a lot of energy coming from this guy because he gets over-excited when it comes spending time with you. Also, he’ll display you in front of his fans, declaring how lucky he is to get someone like you, so most likely you’ll become a little star yourself.


Kuroo Tetsurou

  • Being known for his skill of reading people, you won’t always have to tell Kuroo exactly how you feel, especially when it comes to embarrassing situations. Actually, because of this, it will come down to a setting where he misreads you and it will be like: “It’s okay, everybody fat at some point in their life. I’ll love you anyways.”, “Tetsu, I’m actually pregnant.” or something like that. Actually, you’re best friends, because he’ll listen your crazy talks about everything, and offers you so good advise. And he won’t judge you for your beliefs and values. He’ll encourage you nonetheless.
  • He makes bad jokes. Get used to idea and try not to take everything to heart. Instead, trick him: fake your sadness and wait for him to panic to the fullest. With this, you two will start an official war of which is the best actor or random tickle battles.
  • You’ll make dinner together because he’s such a good sweets cooker, but a totally disaster when it comes to more salty food. So you’ll pair up and make food together. Sometimes, a try to do fancy dishes will end with you two crushed on couch, watching TV shows sharing a pizza and some wine.
  • He’s intelligent so he’ll yearn to ask his help because he feels so proud when you admit the need of his help. Also, even if you won’t ask, he’ll always be with an eye on you, so he helps you even when you don’t know.
  • You’ll be that couple that some days is so lazy that it doesn’t even bother to get up from bed but some days you’re seen together at gym, practicing together. You’ll actually start living together since you’ve been dating for 2-3 months. So you’re kinda married with him since then.

Tendou Satori

  • A relationship with him will be with ups and downs went to extreme. You two will be so passionate with whatever life throws at you. Like a couple made of two artists.
  • His hunches will scare you to death but this is what draws you in. He’ll use his skill as his hidden ace when you two fight making you speechless and at a loss of words. But he’ll make the best presents and make-ups due to his talent.
  • If you enter in an argument, you lost from the start. And if you’re wrong, just apologize, because his pride is higher than the sky itself, so after getting beneath his superficial layers, you learn he is such more than a blabbering and a joking figure. He’s no clown, except killer clown.
  • He’s not jealous. It’s just a guess of his that you’re deeply in love with him and you won’t turn your head in another direction than his.
  • But he has a sweet side, a soft spot that starts to flourish because of you so you have to have patience and try to make him see his denied scars. At late night talks you’ll found his serious side which make him open up. He’ll make you laugh a lot and he knows how to make you feel loved and appreciated. And with more he opens up, his beast captured inside will be more and more docile. He’ll also look for comfort when times get rough in your arms. Fun fact: he’s afraid of storms so he’ll hyperventilate himself so you have to be there to calm him down.

Akaashi Keiji

  • This guy is old-fashioned. It’s an old man with horns trapped in a middle-aged teenager. He’s a gentleman, and will open doors for you, he’ll always have a handkerchief because you may start cry anytime so he has to be prepared. He’ll pay every time you’ll go out.
  • Sometimes, he’s just a little devil so get used to subtle pranks, like sugar instead of salt, mint in your shampoo, alarm set on 3 morning etc. Nothing big, but Kuroo’s and Bokuto’s influences are starting to be pointed up. Dork.
  • Summer days with him on a lawn, sitting on grass and just reading or braiding flowers’ coronet while humming songs or tell jokes. Essentially, just you two peacefully spending time together. He’s a sucker for antiquities and for long travels. So most likely you’ll visit mysterious and creepy abandoned buildings around the world.
  • He won’t complain about shopping for hours with you just if you let him hold your hand and carry your bags. You’ll go on cheesy romantic dates and most of nights will be consumed with just you two watching old black and white comedies.
  • He’s the perfect listener and knows how to calm you down and which thing is the best to say or to do. An old man experience. Also, like Kuroo, a best friend. If you call him at 2 am, he won’t be grumpy nor he’ll hang up, he’ll just yawn and if it’s just a casual topic like “Why dogs can’t fly?”, he’ll be sound asleep in a minute. If it something important, he is already on his way to you.


Ushijima Wakatoshi

  • He’s silent. So you’ll have to learn every expression of his and its meaning. Also, when he opens his mouth, he speaks his mind, so you have to put up with his bluntness. It may seem he doesn’t have a chunk of humorousness, but…- no, seriously, it’s a miracle if you get a good joke -not a pun- out of him.
  • He’s also a gentleman and will always worry about you, so you’ll get plenty of text that goes something like “Are you sure you can cross the street? It’s a large one”, “Don’t you need my help? I’m taller than you”. You’ll make him go to wherever you want to go if you start climbing on him or cuddling into his arms or whispering compliments just for him to hear. He’ll be a red mess and agree with everything you demand.
  • He’s dead serious about everything he says, but he loosens up a bit with you. You’ll eat cookies made by you two, drinking hot/ice tea (depends on season) while debating deep topics, it doesn’t matter the hour you’re speaking at. He’s so supporting and he just stay silent whenever you speak about something and the best part is that he remembers what you said with a month before, so your Christmas gift will be something that you mentioned a long while ago. He’s husband material.
  • He’ll need you even at practice matches, because he’ll feel empty without a familiar dear presence in public, so if you miss one, he’ll pout all day and will ignore everyone for the rest of the day.
  • He loves his little garden, so except volleyball and you, he’s in love with gardening, and will go on and on about this topic for hours. You’ll go to different vegetables and fruits festivals. He observes them from color to peel’s thickness. He’ll make you eat healthy. Healthier. Healthiest.


Bokuto Koutarou

  • He’s a loud boyfriend. He’ll go and introduce you to each of his friends, starting to compliment you from head to toe. He can’t help himself. He’s like that from day one.
  • He’s the type that will wake you at 4 am with a phone call, announcing you to be ready in half an hour and than take you out of the town to catch the sunrise while driving and listen to old rock songs. That, or just to ask you if ducks will ever speak with humans. He’ll let you bleach his hair and color it however you please as long as it’s not permanent. Also, he lets you straightening his hair or curling it. He loves you playing with his hair
  • A perfect date will be if you get him to watch animated TV shows about owls. Because he’s a big baby. Also, he needs your attention 24/7. Or else he’ll get into dejected mode, so you’ll have to learn from Akaashi what to do to get him out. A kiss or an apologetic hug will be enough though. Or a sincere compliment.
  • He gives you great tips about hair-styling and life. If you’re struggling with a problem, he’ll get dead serious and come with a great solution. This will make you realize how reliable this huge beautiful lively dork can be and fall deeper in love with him.
  • His sense of humor won’t have boundaries, he loves to see you smile and laugh so he’ll do whatever he can to see these images of you over and over again. He won’t over-work himself though. It’s in his genes to be a funny guy.  
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お誕生日おめでとう相葉ちゃん!🎉😘💚
2015 has been a great year for Aiba-chan, 3rd member to act in a Getsu9 which I was super worried for. Ratings and all, it was perfect and a great character for his acting career! Also Aiba Manabu going from strength and strength and the concept makes it enjoyable to watch still after over 2.5 years and now with its 1st SP. Being able to celebrate his 32nd together with so many fans and Arashi themselves. I continue to wish that Aiba-chan will strive for the best, take care of his health and always keep smiling. May he have all the luck in the whole world and I, yet again, will still support him though thick and thin through 2016 like I have been since 2008. May 2016 be his best year yet! Enjoy this 1 month of being the same age as Sho-kun ^^  #ずっと応援してます 

(Edit: I don’t do much edits but please don’t steal! I want this post to celebrate this wonderful occasion!)

#happyKYUHYUNday (bc happykyuday is a taken url, not a tag pls not again)

Cho Kyuhyun,

Your birthday comes around every year—and yet again, like every other year, I am at a loss of words to express the joy in my heart. I am constantly amazed by you, dazed by you, beguiled by you. It’s just that, in everything you do, you are perfect and beautiful and stupid and lovely and hilarious and inspirational—and I cannot keep away.

This day—like every other in the year—I celebrate your existence. But this day is not like every other in the year. This day is the one that everybody recognizes just how much your existence—your mere being—brings into this world.

27 years down. Many more to come.

Happy birthday to my one, true love—Cho Kyuhyun. I can’t stand you, but I need you. I love you.