“Ruins possess a strange attraction because they are freighted with a particular burden of history. They are enveloped by an inevitable aura of melancholy. And most of all in every stone and crack and buttress is impressed a reminder of the transience of human life. That, perhaps, is why the most evocative of ruins are often those of churches and priories and abbeys and mosques and synagogues and temples. These were built as monuments to the sacred and the eternal. In their ruins we become witness to the very human character of faith.”
“I regret it. I should have pretended that I didn’t know. If I knew that you were considering of running away every time you see the chance… If I had… I wouldn’t have agonized over whether you’re an eunuch or a woman. I would just worry about how to keep you longer by my side. I’m sorry that I didn’t understand you in depth.”
A year ago, I knew what my future held: I’d go to the same college as my boyfriend at the time, study nutrition, and be a stay at home mom while my boyfriend (who would eventually be my husband) worked and was a successful businessman. I lived in a fantasy world where all of this was possible and nothing could go wrong. I was comfortable and content with the mediocre life I thought I had ahead of me.
Oh, how wrong I was.
As a single community college freshman, I’ve realized a lot of things. I’ve realized that I need to do what I want instead of letting a boy determine my future. I’ve realized that God has bigger and better things planned for me that are so much more grand than the future I’d dreamed up for myself. I’ve learned that the world is not as kind and friendly as it was in high school; I actually have to work for what I want in college. Decisions are not always final and your mind will change, even when you thought it was set in stone. You will see the ugly truth that was masked in high school. You will see everyone’s true colors. You will lose friends, and not always gain others. You will cry. You will get hurt. You will want to die. But you’ll keep living because you know things will get better. Things will get better. Things WILL get better.
My life is nowhere near the life I was living a year ago, but I’m still thankful. I’m thankful for change and new experiences and new friendships and a new me. I came to realize that the anchor in my life that I thought secured me was actually a hindrance, so I broke the shackles and had to get used to the freedom. It was hard, but when I look back, I know it was for the best. I am free to live MY life and let God set my course, and I will follow wherever He chooses to lead me.
Faith is Exact Cognition
Exact cognition is faith. Not the kind of cognition that we have; which is diluted by a false sense of self. Exact cognition is the objective reasoning of the Being. It is the cognition of God.
Real faith is how God thinks, not how we as an animal mind think. Real cognition is related with the inner mind, the abstract mind. Not the concrete mind, not this mind that always says “I, me, myself.” That always says, “I have faith.” You notice that “I” have faith; the emphasis there is on “me.” Have you noticed that those who claim to be very religious or are very devoted to spirituality say, “I” have faith in God. What is the emphasis in their sentence? “I, me, myself.” The emphasis is not on God. The energy of that sentence is not moving towards God. That energy in that sentence is building up a sense of “me” as a “religious” person. Or so called “saved” or “born again,” or so called “better than others” because “I” have this great teacher, teaching, movement, or church. That is not faith. The word faith is used, but that is belief.
Faith is Direct Experience
Direct experience is the third part. Direct experience of what? If we are one that claims to have faith, we have to test that faith. Faith in what, what have we experienced? What is it that gives us faith? Upon what is our faith founded? This is what we need to know.
Many believe in God and religion, but how many have experienced God? How many have experienced the heavenly realms? In the Gnostic tradition, you learn how to experience such things so that you do not need to believe. Instead, you come to know. That is how you develop real faith.
Faith = Exact Cognition = Direct Experience of the Truth = Gnosis = Dharma = Yoga = Religion