kaydenkoster

anonymous asked:

I'll pick some randomly for you, lol! 1, 6, 9, 25, 35, 37, 43, 50. cheers, xx from Britain ;)

1. Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?

I’d have to say helloskyline or arkaydd. Both are so sweet and I’d love to just be able to talk to them. Though arkaydd has a girlfriend, I’d just like to hang out with him. Either one of them honestly.

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?

I’d like to be turquoise, I suppose.

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Face; hair, eyes, facial structure.

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?

I recently just started liking chocolate a lot more but I’ll say it’s a tie.

….There isn’t a 35 or 36 so I’ll do 34.

34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?

Buttered.

37. Dogs or cats?

Dogs!

43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?

Yes! Allison (though we actually met in Pre-k), Damien (I suppose you can call us friends).

50. What is your best friends name?

I have several best friends though my best BEST friend is named Matty.

“Are you a guy or girl?” I get asked that OVER and OVER.

To answer your question, WHO CARES!?

I was born as a female. I have the voice, body and parts. To me, I feel as a male. From my heart and brain. I would be considered a transgender or FTM. I wish to become a male. I used to hate my body for being born as I am. I’d cry of never feeling like I was worth it or good enough. I thought because I was a girl, no one would accept me as I am or even love me. I thought every girl I fell in love with would leave me for a boy. Sadly it happened. Though I’m done feeling ashamed of myself. I have dreams and goals in life and I will make them one day. I wish to become a male and y'know what, that’s okay. 

I may not be one physically now, but I will someday and knowing that gives me the strength to keep living on and getting closer to my goals. To me I have no gender. Gender is defined between our legs but it doesn’t have to. Our brain and heart connect and we’re all different and feel different. Who we identify ourselves as, we are that. I’m Kayden and I’m a male. No matter what anyone says, that’s how I feel and how I believe I am. My body is no longer a curse to me. I accept myself and love myself. I’m not a sin, I am just ME and that’s perfectly fine.

So if anyone feels like me or feels like an outcast, don’t. Everyone is beautiful in their own way and everyone shines and has their spotlight. Love yourself and I swear, nothing bad will come to it. All it takes is a little trust, a little smile and hope to continue living and being proud. I wear my skin over my bones with pride and I wear a smile on my face, knowing I’m making a difference in the world for the best and for myself. This is me and I love me. Nothing wrong with that. c:

This was made to vent and to show I’m not longer scared. Not to expose myself or anything. Thank you.