“Who is EXO?” someone asks you, the you who already has a stable job and already has a family of her own. You’ll take a moment to answer, because you haven’t heard that word in so long that hearing it again makes you remember your teenage years, when you once spent hours watching videos, reading fan fictions and spazzing about them. When you once cried over them, when you once screamed your lungs out because of them, when you once fangirled over them like crazy, when you once fought with their haters because they were being stupid. When you once saved your money just to buy their merchandises and albums and to attend their concerts, when you once participated in mass votings when they were nominated for an award, and when you once streamed their music videos nonstop to achieve a certain view goal.
You’ll remember them again, and you’ll be surprised that you still know all of their names.
Suho, Lay, D.O, Kai, Chen, Xiumin, Baekhyun, Chanyeol, Sehun, Luhan, Tao and Kris.
You also still remember their songs. You still remember chogiwa. You still remember Sehun’s one liners. Your mind will be filled with thoughts about them again, thoughts about the group you loved and admired greatly. And then, you’ll be surprised to know that you never really stopped being a fangirl. Because once you’re an EXO-L, you’re always an EXO-L. Because you can never get rid of the mark that EXO left in you. Once you Jongin, you can’t Jongout. We, even after all these years, are still and will always be one.
And then, you answer: “That one group I’ll never be able to unstan.”