katagiri roshi

A living flower is fading away and that is why it is beautiful…The same applies to our life. We are going to the grave. We are fading away. That is why we can really live….We don’t know when we will die. So we have to do our best to live whole-heartedly. This is called purity. It is very beautiful. The other day on the news I saw a famous Russian ballerina….Her series of movements in the ballet were just like frames of film moving. They were fading away—appearing and disappearing, appearing and disappearing. But each form of this ballerina was perfect, her body and hands, everything about her was perfect. She had a very long neck, twice as long as mine. I was surprised. Her body had been completely re-formed by the ballet. Her body was not her body, her body was ballet itself. Each movement was beautiful and completely independent, but simultaneously each movement was connected. It was just rhythmically going on, like frames of a movie or smoothly running water. That is why it was so beautiful. There was no gap between her and the ballet. Within the limitations of her life fading away, she took care of each form with wholeheartedness. That is why her body completely became ballet. When we see her ballet there are two things we can see. One is that her ballet is always fading away, appearing and disappearing. This is the impermanent world, which changes constantly. But in addition to this, we can see the perfect beauty of the ballet. There is no gap between her and the dance. They are just one. We don’t know how such wonderful beauty can be created right in the middle of impermanence. Right in the middle of appearing and disappearing, there is a beauty that is eternal. Faith is exactly to live like this.
—  Dainin Katagiri Roshi
You cannot find any peace by escaping from human pain and suffering; you have to find peace and harmony right in the midst of human pain. That is the purpose of spiritual life.
—  Dainin Katagiri Roshi

anonymous asked:

How can I overcome the overwhelming feeling of loneliness - I don't think I'll find my soulmate and that realization is really making me sad. I've tried online dating but haven't felt the spark once we meet in person. Im not interested in guys that like me but the ONE guy I like wont even text back. Why am I so unlucky in love?

Less desire is the willingness to be lonely without resolution when everything in us yearns for something to cheer us up and change our mood. Practicing this kind of loneliness is a way of sowing seeds so that fundamental restlessness decreases. In meditation, for example, every time we label “thinking” instead of getting endlessly run around by our thoughts, we are training in just being here without dissociation. We can’t do that now to the degree that we weren’t willing to do it yesterday or the day before or last week or last year. After we practice less desire wholeheartedly and consistently, something shifts. We feel less desire in the sense of being less solidly seduced by our Very Important Story Lines. So even if the hot loneliness is there, and for 1.6 seconds we sit with that restlessness when yesterday we couldn’t sit for even one, that’s the journey of the warrior. That’s the path of bravery. The less we spin off and go crazy, the more we taste the satisfaction of cool loneliness. As the Zen master Katagiri Roshi often said, “One can be lonely and not be tossed away by it.”


Forrest Curran