The past week has been pretty incredible. You’ve more than likely heard or seen something about it, but I entered into a poly relationship with my best friends. Now, that posed some interesting new dynamics that scared me a bit at first. But it also provided me with some of the best memories of my life. All in the span of, what, half a week?
These boys are really special to me - each one in their own unique way. I’ve known them all for quite a while now, and over the past few months I’ve gotten to know them better than ever. They’ve been on my mind so much. And this trip sealed my fate in more ways than one.
kabutocub, remixcub, and sleepycub34 - you guys have given me an absolutely incredible gift. Perhaps it’s a tad early to say, but I love all three of you so very much. I’m happier than I’ve been in years. And I look forward to many many many amazing adventures with you three in the future.
While pokin around I came across a folder of pics of guys wearin my stuff from the beginnings. So I’ll be doin some Throwback Thursday posts for a while. I’m pretty sure that’s Kabutocub and Cliff in there too.
Is incredible. Is magical. Is wonderful. Is a high that wont quit. Is completely beyond words.
Is hard. Is painful. Is heart-breaking. Is world-shattering.
The relationship that I have with my boys is by no means easy, and it is not always pickles and daisies. Add that to the fact that it is currently long distance and you have a recipe for insecurities to flourish.
I have known all three of my boys for a good while now - even before we all became official. There are many memories there, good and bad. There is also an incredible bond that somehow manages to survive all this time.
Throughout this experience, I have grown attached to these boys in ways I could never have imagined. They are my best friends, and they are my family. I would do anything for them without question.
Throughout this experience, I have come to realize that love… is worth it.
I want nothing more than my new family to be healthy, happy, and long-lasting. I want to do everything I can for them and then some. I want each of them to know they are the center of my universe and that I will always be here for them.
I need @kabutocub@remixcub and @sleepycub34 to realize how incredibly loved they are, and to know of the wonderful life they have given me. Dont ever forget it, and dont ever doubt it. I am here for you always.
I miss you three so fucking much. Hell, I’m tearing up as I type this. I’ll be home soon.